Wednesday, January 04, 2012
I've been having an up and down week. Got a case of the sickies just as it was time to step into up into high gear with my BLC challenge, and also got back to work after a 2 week hiatus. Wasn't that inconvenient? Follow up my coughing spells with being overtired, an inability to hold my pee if I go into a super hack, and I am pretty much moved into crankytown.
Residents of crankytown are frequently prone to ignore their basic needs. Instead of planning for meals, they eat the first thing they see even if it is wholly unsatisfying and contains a lot of artificial -ites and -oses. Residents of crankytown forget their well laid plans. Additionally, these same residents have a tendency to go on attack, especially at themselves.
Not today, buckaroo. I have stopped the infighting and have retreated to the grocery store after work. Not that it did not feel bitter cold, getting out of the toasty car, but it was worth the trip. I scored a rotisserie turkey breast, two heads of fresh broccoli and fresh cauliflower, strawberries (buy1 get 1 free) and a couple of non threatening things for DH. (Can you say happy camper? I thought you could).
Way to go for me! I had some of the fresh turkey and spinach tonight for dinner. I packed up the remaining turkey to take for lunch (and still have some left over.) I washed and prepped some red grapes to take for a snack. Strawberries will go for a swim in my morning oatmeal which I skipped this morning. That started the spiral off in a bad way. Now I am prepped in a good way. My bags are packed and I am on the next flight out of crankytown.
See you at baggage check!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Sometimes we sit with what's comfortable, just because it is familiar, even if it has outlasted its purpose and no longer fits our needs. At times, I've been guilty of this with relationships, jobs, and habits.
I am working on embracing challenges, and embracing changes. I wanted a visual reminder of being capable of doing something different, so I went to a hair salon and had my hair colored, and highlighted. While I have not done it in a while at all, it was a bigger change this time around, because I went to a d-a-r-k-e-r shade. My hair is not jet black or anything, just a couple of shades into brown when it had been dirty blond for all of my life.
It's a visual cue that I am absolutely capable of making about faces and handling changes even though it might not be the most comfortable course of action.
Whatever little change you can make on your own behalf, I encourage you to do it. Now we have an easy time of turning the calendar over and beginning anew. Use this time as a fresh do-over, and make a change for yourself that puts you in the right direction.
Let's all embrace a little change and do something different.
Happy New Year, sparkies, Wishing us all of year of good health, happiness, laughter, fitness, love, peace and prosperity!
Thursday, December 29, 2011
I've been setting new year's resolutions and goals ever since I can remember. There is one this year, though, that rises above the rest, and it is what I am committed to achieving.
Just be me. and proudly be me. So much of what I have accepted in the past has been over a resignation of this is just the way things are. That is so not true. It is a cop-out to think that things are as is, and nothing can be done to change them.
I've made some progress in the last few days of recognizing that I have to be the driving force in my own life. I have stopped sitting around and waiting for things to happen. I can't always drive my destiny but I sure as heck can drive my reaction to it and be responsible for how things unfold.
To do this, I have to value myself enough to realize (and BELIEVE) that my choices are valid, and I am worth standing up for. It occurred to me that some of the people I cherish most are people who have "stood up for me" and while that is a good thing, I have to take that same tack myself. I have to stand up for me and be accountable for myself and to myself. I am building an authentic life, and it starts with the utter confidence and faith that I have it in me.
What tone are you setting for yourself?
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Somewhere around the end of February, I'll be coming back to read this blog as a milestone to myself. I am working with a group of lovely ladies, dubbed Sapphires for a BL challenge. It is just a series of mini-competitions and challenges to help keep focusing on spark work and such, This is my third one I think, and I finally have my head in the game with it.
So this is what I have planned for myself in the next 10 weeks.
I am going to stay accountable to myself. Certainly, having these little check points does not hurt and mostly encourages me to do more, be better and stick with it, but when it comes down to it, it is just me - and if I can't be accountable to myself, I've given up.
I am going to move more. Two nights in a row, I had wicked - wake up screaming cramps in my foot/leg. I could not scream out for fear of waking hubby (tough work hours) and I remedied with a cold leg shower (hokey pokey in and out of tub). (double note to self - this works better if you remove pajamas first,...but sometimes that can't be helped!) I experimented last night by doing 50 mins of the wii which including a lot of jumping around during a tennis match and voila, no cramps. I am going to repeat this time and see if this continues to help. Makes sense to me.
I am going to be an advocate on my own behalf. I am dreading (yes, you read that right) going home for Christmas. There is always considerable tension, drama, disappointment when I go home for Christmas. My mother and I are not muy simpatico, and while I love her, I know I just don't live up to her expectations and desires of me. I am leading an authentic life. I am loved by many, just as I am, even fat, people love me. I have had a conversation before with her about this, and she continues to miss the point, so now, I just swallow and go. (an example - she told me I was lucky to find a husband, and she still can't believe that my beautiful (thin) sister is solo and I have someone. Makes me want to say :P
I am going to believe in myself. I am an expert in the work I do. I am a great manager and team leader. I know my stuff. I have no reason to think less than of myself. I am a rockstar just as I am.
I am going to find reasons to laugh, even if I have to manufacture them. Remember "Wooly willy" and other such children's games where the little magnetic pieces could be drawn around the face with a little magnetic pencil and shavings of some sort encased in plastic. I have recently purchased a couple of these throwbacks and other kids' toys to remind me to share a bit of whimsy and silliness. One great things about working with kids, is that it forces to think like them sometimes. These ones are college aged, but just like me they have a need for downtime and laughs. We're kindred spirits.
I am going to stretch and strength train, even if it is only for 5 mins a day,
I am going to de-clutter our house and make it guest worthy. I am not going to freak out if someone comes over (after I clean). I am going to be more organized and happy.
I am going to be grateful. I have so many blessings, including myself. Of course, I am grateful for so many dear and wonderful Sparkies!
Monday, December 12, 2011
It took a lot of huffing and puffing to get up that hill. Truth be told, it was more like an incline, and not a very steep one at that. I looked at my bulky shadow cresting the hill, and thought, "well one day, you will be smaller." It truly takes a lot of effort to make changes, and do good things on behalf of your body - at least - by my count it does.
However, there is the knowledge that each day I do it, it may be just a smidge easier. each step builds my heart muscle and adds to my lung capacity. With consistency, I will be a smaller person this time next year. How about that? Pretty cool. No use getting flustered that it is taking so long, and it is, but I just have to trust my body that it will release what it needs to over time. My job is to keep up the steps and keep eating healthfully so that the changes eventually come! It works! I have seen my friends do it!
I am eating a little more structured these days, and it actually helps. It's not atkins, but it is in the low carb family, and it is better for me, my waistline, and my blood sugar levels. I can have some tracked carbs, and do, but for the most part, the emphasis is on fresh. It's been a few days since I have steered clear of junky junk, and I am happy about it. OF COURSE, I AM HOPING FOR A PAYOFF ON THE SCALE, but I think I will feel it first in my clothes, and then in my car. You know how I am about getting in and out of the car. ha ha!
So far, today has been a success. I got some walking in, drank water, ate a varied salad of lettuce, onions, olives, tomatoes, hot peppers and chicken for lunch. Had cereal and soymilk at breakfast. Dinner will be fish and veggies. I am PROUD of myself for making a change for the better. I am astonished that I am making strides during the holiday season, and hoping to lose 15lbs, instead of gaining them.
I have it in me to lose as I have done it before. I am not quite so ready to give up so quickly this time around. It's going to take me a while, but I am going to get there.
What's on your agenda this holiday season, sparkies?
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