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Slowly Doing It

Monday, December 12, 2011

It took a lot of huffing and puffing to get up that hill. Truth be told, it was more like an incline, and not a very steep one at that. I looked at my bulky shadow cresting the hill, and thought, "well one day, you will be smaller." It truly takes a lot of effort to make changes, and do good things on behalf of your body - at least - by my count it does.

However, there is the knowledge that each day I do it, it may be just a smidge easier. each step builds my heart muscle and adds to my lung capacity. With consistency, I will be a smaller person this time next year. How about that? Pretty cool. No use getting flustered that it is taking so long, and it is, but I just have to trust my body that it will release what it needs to over time. My job is to keep up the steps and keep eating healthfully so that the changes eventually come! It works! I have seen my friends do it!

I am eating a little more structured these days, and it actually helps. It's not atkins, but it is in the low carb family, and it is better for me, my waistline, and my blood sugar levels. I can have some tracked carbs, and do, but for the most part, the emphasis is on fresh. It's been a few days since I have steered clear of junky junk, and I am happy about it. OF COURSE, I AM HOPING FOR A PAYOFF ON THE SCALE, but I think I will feel it first in my clothes, and then in my car. You know how I am about getting in and out of the car. ha ha!

So far, today has been a success. I got some walking in, drank water, ate a varied salad of lettuce, onions, olives, tomatoes, hot peppers and chicken for lunch. Had cereal and soymilk at breakfast. Dinner will be fish and veggies. I am PROUD of myself for making a change for the better. I am astonished that I am making strides during the holiday season, and hoping to lose 15lbs, instead of gaining them.

I have it in me to lose as I have done it before. I am not quite so ready to give up so quickly this time around. It's going to take me a while, but I am going to get there.

What's on your agenda this holiday season, sparkies?

  
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CIVIAV 12/15/2011 8:12AM

    My agenda? Strength trg extraordinaire and managing to eat fresh like you. It feels so darn good!

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MRNOTABOUTFACE 12/14/2011 9:59PM

    Great attitude and plan. Whenever I see a bodybuilder now I think about just how much work that person had to do in order to reach that level. They all had to start with small, imperceptible gains at first and had to just keep the faith that they would reach their goals in time. Now some of them may go a bit too far but I still respect the sheer amount of work put in. Keep trudging that hill!

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 12/13/2011 1:24AM

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Since i work both Christmas eve and Christmas day there will be no tempting big dinner to deal with!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 12/12/2011 10:24PM

    Your blogs always make me smile! I really love the way you keep at it, and with a great attitude! It's going to pay off, you know. It is! emoticon

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MAMADWARF 12/12/2011 10:20PM

    You are so smart! I love your positive attitude!!!!!!!

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SARAWALKS 12/12/2011 10:16PM

    Good for you, Mickey, you are doing so well, keep up the great work!
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MAVERICK59 12/12/2011 10:12PM

    I am impressed with the changes you made today. You actually did a lot! It may not 'show' yet, but your body is already a bit healthier for these changes.
I am so happy this challenge is taking place over the holidays, it will really help us to stay focused!
I am happy for you Mickey.
Hugs,
Belinda emoticon

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DIFROMWYOMING 12/12/2011 8:58PM

    I love your plan, Mar! I am still fighting giving up the carbs a bit but right now I'm working on any progress at all as my goal...and I am not giving up on that!
2012 HAS to be my year! I plan on making it so!

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DOODIE59 12/12/2011 7:27PM

    Your attitude is really positive. It's always nice to read about your thoughts. It's the process that will get you where you want to be, so you are right to focus on your exercise challenges and your nutritional targets.

Enjoy you week:)
Deirdre

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High Maintenance (and proud of it!)

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Getting it the way you want to can sometimes be labelled high maintenance.

Ok, so I am high maintenance.

For today that meant, eating only what I wanted at the diner and not overeating at breakfast.

Then after arriving at Wendy's and standing in line (after I dash ed over to check the nutritional listing), leaving and letting hubby go to another place,,,where I ordered a salad at a pizza joint. Momentary setback when we planned on eating there, and then found out I could not squeeze into the booth, without perhaps rupturing an organ. So we switched it to go, and watched the server make a face. I got over the face, and tipped him $2 to put into a bag instead. It definitely didn't kill him,

Spent 4 hours at the my mother-in-law's working on putting up her Christmas tree (she is 90). Hubby and I tag teamed and considering we were both tired out and achy, we did a good job! Happiness all around!

Stopped in a local seafood place at my urging, to get some seafood (cooked to order to take out). I had mahi mahi (1/2 of the fish is i the fridge for tomorrow) with veggies. Go me! I got what I wanted and it was very fresh and cooked to order. WOO HOO!

I was successful; today. I incorporated lunges into grabbing tree branches, and kept moving around while setting up the tree. We did some early food shopping before tree duty, and I walked around walmart grocery area, while taking time to read labels! I am PROUD of myself today. I made huge strides. I kept my word, felt good, did not starve myself and drank water. I kept my carbs to within my range.

This is the start of something wonderful! ME!

HOw was your day, sparkies?


  
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FUSIONGRAFX 12/14/2011 4:20PM

    Bravo! Congrats! I have been under the weather for a week + and haven't SPARKED in what feels like ages! However, my portions are good, I keep up with my water, and I don't eat poorly. Thankfully the weight hasn't gone up any and it's still creeping down one .1 lb at a time! LOL Keep up your hard work!

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TERRIJ_1 12/13/2011 12:29PM

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ANNECEK 12/12/2011 7:24PM

    I hear great happiness and pride in your blog! emoticon I'm doing the happy dance for you emoticon! Great getting in the lunges while picking up the tree limbs! emoticon

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 12/12/2011 10:11AM

    WOW! You had me almost DANCING by the time I finished your blog! No, Mickey, I couldn't dance here in the library! Well, I guess I COULD have! emoticon

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SKY2012 12/11/2011 8:05PM

    that is so sweet to put up a tree for her, wow, you are sweet.

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DOODIE59 12/11/2011 1:06PM

    Way to go -- you deserve good care:)
Deirdre

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DDESERTDDAWN 12/11/2011 11:47AM

    Great to see you maintaining your well-being!
cheers,
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TEDDYBEARGIRL 12/11/2011 1:03AM

    emoticon I had an awesome day!

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TEACHEROF4TH 12/11/2011 12:55AM

    Way to go girl! You are taking care of you... yay! Keep those priorities straight!

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MAVERICK59 12/11/2011 12:50AM

    Good for you, making yourself a priority!
Doesn't it feel good and you know you deserve it!
Can you imagine feeling this important and valuable everyday?
Why shouldn't you?

Hugs,
Belinda

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THE-MORE-GIRL 12/10/2011 9:05PM

    That's not high maintenance -- that's assertively looking out for yourself. Good going!

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KELLYDRESCHER 12/10/2011 8:57PM

    That's awesome!

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SARAWALKS 12/10/2011 8:53PM

    EXCELLENT, Mickey! I had a good day too. High maintenance, picky, whatever - it can lead to good things! Rock on! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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If Not Now, When?

Friday, December 09, 2011

I am in THE most supportive place I have ever been in my life. I work in a very nurturing, soul-satisfying environment, that while almost always busy, is still yet a great bubble of learning, and compassion. I just realized how much love and caring I have around me, and it fills me with great hope and joy.

I've never really felt this same level of buoyancy from my own family, but I do feel this spirit here on Spark and at work. In both places, I bring a lot of energy and warmth to the equation myself and it is more than reciprocated. It is overflowing. Leading me to the question, if not now, When?

When will be able to make changes in myself without feeling that I am going it alone?
N O W

When will I be able to follow my own path, and yet to be strengthened by those on a similar path?

N O W

When will I be able to hold my head proud and high and know that I am keeping promises and pledges to take care of myself?

N O W

If not now, when?


What do you ask yourselves, sparkies?

  
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BESTCK 12/14/2011 4:27PM

    How awesome to work in an environment where you feel supported! This is always a struggle for me and makes far too much difference in how I feel every day.

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HONEY-SPARKS 12/10/2011 12:26PM

    Now is the most important and most powerful time of our lives. great blog.

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STARRPARENT 12/10/2011 3:17AM

    emoticon Yes, now!

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BRAVENEWGRL 12/9/2011 10:28PM

    Sigh. Now works for me...

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CAROLFAITHWALKR 12/9/2011 8:53PM

    I would like to be in your place of abundant support. I am unemployed and desperate, and betrayed by a "friend" who took me in.

What I ask myself is how to stick to my goals and put myself first, and how to keep on keeping on, and how to keep my committment to NOT stress out about ANYTHING in order to protect my own health. One day at a time.

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PARKERB2 12/9/2011 2:24PM

    One of my goals have to to stay in the present. As you say NOW is the time to do things you need to do for yourself. Thanks for sharing your blog. Have a great day.

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MAVERICK59 12/9/2011 2:19PM

    You sound like you are in a good space to work on your goals.
That is wonderful.

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SUZWARNR 12/9/2011 1:15PM

    You are not alone. Never feel like that. You have tons of friends here to support you and I'm sure many who are going through the same stuff as you. Glad you're doing this now. :)

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MUGGLE_MOM 12/9/2011 1:12PM

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DDESERTDDAWN 12/9/2011 12:55PM

    Sounds like the Nows have it!

Great that you are in a nurturing place and part of it too. Go for it! Be in IT!

cheers,
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DOODIE59 12/9/2011 9:22AM

    This is a very empowering blog, Mickey -- hold onto those thoughts; they are very life affirming.

I am by tiny steps trying to respect the notion of NOW. There is no time like the present.
Deirdre

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See You at the Finish Line

Thursday, December 08, 2011

I woke up with a weird pain, and it took me only a moment to realize what it was - I was laying awkwardly on one of my fat rolls on my stomach. Hmmm. How's that for a reality check?

If for nothing else, I am going to go down a new road just for a change of scenery. I know what it is like to be fat, lethargic, exhausted and unhappy - all from just lugging this extra weight around that has been literally weighing me down.

I have felt confident, in control, relaxed, and assured before --- just not lately. For any number of reasons I could rattle off, I have taken the route of "I don't care, I can't, why bother?" too many times. The consequences of that are I am in pain, squeezing my fat flesh while laying on top of it. There's got to be a better way.

If you read my last blog, you'd know that I am craving the return of my unshakable confidence. The most healthy by product of that feeling will be the other craziness that dissipates then, too. The unnerving feeling that every person is talking about you, feels sorry for you. thinks less than of you. It's good to know that this bit of angst is born out of my own head and will go away once I am feeling fit and friskier, When I am feeling off my game, it is easier to think the worst of everyone, because it is so easy to think the worst of myself then as well. That is so yesterday.

Today's me drinks water instead of soda.

Today's me takes time for a walk, instead of sitting at my desk all day.

Today's me wants to see how far I can go, just because I can.

Today's me is an athlete waiting to happen.

Whatever it is, sparkies, that you have a little glimmer of - of who you want to become, - just believe that is possible, and take one step forward...today.

Tomorrow, we will take two steps.

See you at the finish line.







  
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HONEY-SPARKS 12/10/2011 12:37PM

    Great attitude I bet today's me will be the happiest you ever. i have fell in love with today's me but I was in my 30's before I did it. Great blog!

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MAVERICK59 12/9/2011 1:40AM

    I love your spirit!

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STAR_71 12/8/2011 10:40PM

    You can do it!! emoticon

We are all here for you!! emoticon

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STAR_71 12/8/2011 10:40PM

    You can do it!! emoticon

We are all here for you!! emoticon

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SUZWARNR 12/8/2011 1:28PM

    I believe in you. I hear what you mean about that unshakable confidence. Mine wavers a lot lately. But I know you can do this. You're off to a great start today. Keep it going!

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_KATHY 12/8/2011 12:16PM

    One really does need to believe it is possible. It IS possible. I to am going down this road because I know it's possible and because I just want to see a different person. To experience things most people enjoy without a second thought

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KKINNEA 12/8/2011 11:54AM

    Sounds more like an athlete in progress - great job!

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VAMPIREKITCHEN 12/8/2011 11:31AM

    It also always seems like one "slip-up" leads into another. But, in return, one small step forward swings to momentum back to the right direction and leads to more victories. You've got the right attitude! Awesome

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VAMPIREKITCHEN 12/8/2011 11:31AM

    It also always seems like one "slip-up" leads into another. But, in return, one small step forward swings to momentum back to the right direction and leads to more victories. You've got the right attitude! Awesome

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VAMPIREKITCHEN 12/8/2011 11:31AM

    It also always seems like one "slip-up" leads into another. But, in return, one small step forward swings to momentum back to the right direction and leads to more victories. You've got the right attitude! Awesome

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VAMPIREKITCHEN 12/8/2011 11:31AM

    It also always seems like one "slip-up" leads into another. But, in return, one small step forward swings to momentum back to the right direction and leads to more victories. You've got the right attitude! Awesome

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DOODIE59 12/8/2011 10:11AM

    Nice positive, supportive, sunny, RALLYING words -- thank you:)
Deirdre

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 12/8/2011 9:07AM

    Great blog! I could so relate to it with the attitude! Today, I plan to make it a good one, one where I don't stop to doubt that I can do this! emoticon

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What's Important

Wednesday, December 07, 2011

I had this thought noodling around in my head as I went to bed last night - "What is really important?" When I woke up, this answer popped out.

What's important for me is having the courage to believe in myself against all odds.

There that's it. It is not that I will look great in a certain dress, or be able to pull that jacket out of my closet I have not worn in 3 years, it is not being able to be a perfect size.

What is important to me is having the unshakable confidence that I can do anything. When I feel that way, I know everything falls into place.

My 4am gym plan is not very feasible for me. I am a roll out of bed at the last second kind of girl. I am a lifetime card-carrying member of the 5 more minutes club. I have been reluctant to follow the route of going to the gym after work because in my mind, it takes away some time with DH. It is true to a little extent, but there is a part of me that believes that if I don't take the time to work out now, then I am shortening my lifetime with DH. It's kind of like a health version of my 401k. If I don't sock the savings away now, what will I have for my future?

DH leaves for work an hour before me, and he does not subscribe to get up as late as possible. Au contraire, he is mr. morning and wakes up to drink a full pot of kona (solo) and watch the news before he leaves for work (at 4am). That seems kind of silly. :)

So now that I know what's important to me - attaining my level of unshakable confidence, how do I get there? Baby steps. Making promises to myself and keeping them. Following my plan. Doing what is best for me (without harming those around me).

I did not eat bfast before I left home. I stopped at the cafeteria and bought a half pint of milk and a box of cheerios. I actually stood there and read the labels of the cereals to find the lowest carbs. Almost all of the cereals (when combined with milk) fall outside of the guidelines for my plan. I have type 2 diabetes. I won't pretend I have been the poster child for compliance, but I am trying to turn over a new leaf.

Here's to baby steps and the courage to take them. What gives you unshakable confidence sparkies?

  
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CIVIAV 12/8/2011 7:35AM

    Ah yes and the things that shake our confidence need to be put away for another day! Or perhaps never.

Unshakeable confidence? Oh you are so spot on with this one. I know it and will keep taking steps to return to it when shaken or stirred!

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KKINNEA 12/7/2011 12:15PM

    Yes, this seems like a great plan. I'm not sure what gives me confidence - I'll have to think about that!

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DOODIE59 12/7/2011 9:25AM

    Hmmm. What gives me confidence? My children and husband believe in me, and love me. But that's not what you're asking. What do I do for myself that gives me power? That lets me believe in my future? I have been getting better and better at walking the dog earlier in the day, making it a priority by including it in my list of chores, instead of leaving it till last. I have started writing in that little diary at the end of the daily nutrition tracker and have found it EXTREMELY helpful to make a note of where I had downfalls and where it was easier. It helps to pay attention to my food choices -- the whats and the whys. I find that when I acknowledge the bad choice and write down WHY I made it , I am far less likely to make that mistake again. At the very least, I can see it coming when the opportunity arises once more -- and forewarned is forearmed!

I guess TAKING CHARGE is the most important thing we can do for ourselves. Let's drive this bus! Let's take control! When you "own" your life, it's all good:)

Take care
Deirdre

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 12/7/2011 9:16AM

    Right now being ticked off that since I overslept and had to rely on the Mr to fulfil my request of grabbing ONE piece of 2 items I made for the recipe thing on the other blog and he grabbed FOUR...from EACH recipe has sent me into a tizzy. I've told him that they're going straight into the trash after the shoot so if he was planning on a 400 calorie binge on that crap tonight when we had a piece of each last night, he's sorely mistaken. It gives me confidence to know that WILL happen because right now my defenses are weak and I'm PO'd big time he would put that temptation in front of me.

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 12/7/2011 8:22AM

    Meeting my goals gives me loads of confidence. Setting up a plan and sticking to it is such a boost for me. Too bad I forget that. Ugh.

I'm not a morning person either, although I'm trying to do better. The getting up at the last min. was adding to an already too stressful life. Leaving for work 10 min. earlier is getting me to work nearly 20 min. faster. How does THAT math work??? LOL

I hope you have a fabulous day and keep us posted on how things are going.

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