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Behind the Wheel

Thursday, November 10, 2011

I've told you before, and I am saying it again.

I am driving the bus.

I am responsible for every action, inaction, choice, consequence and responsibility that affects me. Sure things happen outside of my control, but how it affects me is all up to me. In fact, it is really the only thing I can control for sure.

Wow. That's a lot to take in, but it's not so bad when I realize this is nothing new. It has been the same all along. Whether I acknowledge it or not, I have been responsible for every choice and every significant event in my life. My reaction - or lack of it - has not meant that I am uninvolved. I am absolutely involved. It's all about me.

What does it mean for me? I can choose differently. I do not have push my life button and play repeat over and over again. Going on autopilot does seem like what I have done so frequently. It has not worked. I am at my known heaviest.

I have to do something different. I am in desperate need of changes. It is time for me to get behind the wheel and change direction!

Here I go!

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LINTPICKER 11/11/2011 6:59AM


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DOODIE59 11/10/2011 7:48PM

    Every day is a new day, and an opportunity to look at the world afresh:)

You can do this!

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 11/10/2011 7:12PM


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CIVIAV 11/10/2011 12:34PM

    That kind of attention is going to make you a better driver from here on in. WTG!

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KKINNEA 11/10/2011 11:34AM

    The good thing is YOU are driving the bus and no one else. Go full speed ahead, my friend!

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MUGGLE_MOM 11/10/2011 10:52AM

    I can't remember where I 'borrowed' this from, but it seems to fit in with your blog.
If you want to succeed in your life, remember this phrase: That past does not equal the future. Because you failed yesterday; or all day today; or a moment ago; or for the last six months; the last sixteen years; or the last fifty years of life, doesn't mean anything... All that matters is: What are you going to do, right now? - Anthony Robbins

You Go Girl! You take those reigns and drive that sleigh!!!!

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LALASLAND 11/10/2011 10:40AM

    I just love your blogs! My bus is just getting started today, but already I'm having to put out caution signs! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Thank goodness I have brakes! emoticon emoticon

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BESTCK 11/10/2011 10:14AM

    I love your analogy and I love your Mystery Bus and I love you!

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I Remember You

Wednesday, November 09, 2011

I walked intervals.

I walked in the dark. (I'd see bats flying overhead.)

I walked in the early morning light. (so early in fact, that I once almost kicked a skunk). (looking down at the last second was a pretty lucky break).

I walked in unknown territory.

I walked in circles.

I walked with a stopwatch.

I walked a half marathon.

I walked by myself.

I remember my former self who walked quite a lot, and quite often.

I am getting reacquainted with my former self again and revitalizing her good habits, and making them second nature again. I went off track and it has taken me far too long to get back on course, but here I am - ready to roll!!!!

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_KATHY_ 11/10/2011 3:43AM

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FORBANDE 11/9/2011 9:30PM

    Well said. What a great memory that will soon be your reality again.

You GOT this!

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 11/9/2011 9:14PM

    I remember her too

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DIFROMWYOMING 11/9/2011 8:58PM

    I remember her, too....she has always been here but he needs to come out and play more. Let's see what we can do in the next 8 weeks of 2011!!!

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MICHELLESMILES_ 11/9/2011 7:05PM

    Woohoo! emoticon

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DOODIE59 11/9/2011 4:45PM

    I love walking -- it is also a time to think about things and work out stresses. Here's to many happy miles.

Have you seen the walk across America site? You can click on it on my page under "teams", then click on the map and it will welcome you and take your info. The walk starts in Virginia and ends in Oregon, and every time you log in a distance, ie, 1.5 miles, it sends you a picture of where you are on your walk. Very exciting!! (at least I think so, and it may well be the only way I'm going to get across the US:)) It could be a motivator for you.

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LALASLAND 11/9/2011 4:23PM

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BESTCK 11/9/2011 3:23PM

    I'm right there with you, Mickey! We can do this.


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KKINNEA 11/9/2011 3:08PM

    Come back, walking Mickey! :)

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MUGGLE_MOM 11/9/2011 2:58PM

    I remember you too!
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I am so excited to see you finding your Spark! You'll be that fit, lively, self assured girl in no time at all! You have always been wonderful. emoticon She's just a bit more active. emoticon If she is who you are looking to emulate, I have no doubt you'll get there! You are one AWESOME lady!


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WINTERSMAGIC29 11/9/2011 2:49PM

    Glad you're getting reacquainted with the healthier you! I'm doing the same right now too. We can do this!

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Life Goes On

Tuesday, November 08, 2011

The fact of the matter is whether you do it, or you don't, life goes on. Time marches on without a thought as to whether you are living your life to the fullest and to your greatest potential. Time does not sit and wait for you to put your shoes on, lace up and go. Time just goes on and on.

Time is not waiting for you to be healthy and happy and fit before it disappears out the door. Time is going by, ready or not.

I don't want to look back and wonder why with regret that I did not attempt something. I want to live with gusto and remember that each of my days was spent in a pursuit of something great and worthwhile.

Would-be employers love to ask where do you see yourself in 5 years? I never have a good enough answer for that. I don't know. I am working on this finally.

I want to be fit, healthy and strong. I want my health to be robust. I want to climb trees. I want to be able to jump up off the floor at a moment's notice. I want to be able to go sledding, and stand up on skis without the fear of falling down and not being able to get back up. I have been there, and down on the floor, and it ain't pretty.

Keep your eye on the prize. It is not just that I want to look good, be lean and well muscled. I also want to feel good, peppy, and happy inside and out. I want to be comfortable in my own skin, and when someone looks at me with a gleam in their eye, I want to be able to produce my own knowing smile that the gleam is for good reason. I want to be the amazing woman I am inside on the outside too, and on many levels.

I am through living a one-dimensional life. I am done challenging others to get to know the real me, because if they discover the "real me" under all of these layers of fat, then they have passed the test and challenge to know me. It is time to discard all of these outer useless layers I have been hiding under all of these years. It is time to uncover the real me.

Be there or don't. Try or not. Life goes on. Are you going to move with it?

Are you with me, Sparkies?

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MUGGLE_MOM 11/8/2011 10:26PM

    Fabulous blog!
I love it.
emoticonHere is to living a full and multi dimensional life!

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AKCHELLE 11/8/2011 8:51PM

    I'm with you!

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TEECEA 11/8/2011 2:52PM

    Thanks so much for your blog today...In the last year I have thought these very things especially after the death of my niece...time waits for no man is a very true statement..it marches on whether we like it or not...want to move with it or not...Thanks for the motivation to get up & make this day count!!

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BESTCK 11/8/2011 12:50PM

    I am with you. As long as I'm trying, I'm not giving up.

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KIKI0531 11/8/2011 10:07AM

    Eye on the Prize ... right? I can totally relate to you feeling that the people who you value the most are the people who love you for simply being "you." I think the biggest obstacle for me has been learning to love myself for just being "me." I never valued myself high enough to care what I was eating or what I was doing to my body. Self-worth is a hard concept for me but through this journey - I am learning that I am worth it and SO ARE YOU !! great blog.

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_KATHY_ 11/8/2011 9:54AM

    I've thought about this a lot through the years. All the time that passes whether it's a good day or not, it's a day gone. Might as well make it a good day.

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ROCHELLE62 11/8/2011 9:32AM

    I can see where I want to be in 5 yrs, I have just done a poor job of moving in that direction.

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JEN_BACK2BASICS 11/8/2011 9:18AM

    "I am done challenging others to get to know the real me, because if they discover the "real me" under all of these layers of fat, then they have passed the test and challenge to know me."

How many of us do this? It's time to be done!
Great blog!!

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LALASLAND 11/8/2011 9:07AM

    Great blog! Yes, I'm with you! Nothing's holding US back! NOTHING! emoticon emoticon

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DOODIE59 11/8/2011 8:43AM

    What a great blog -- a call to arms:)

"I want to be the amazing woman I am on the inside on the outside too". This is the best place to start. You already know your worth ... you just have to back it up! Knowing your worth is invaluable, and a blessing.

Best wishes to you:)

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    EXCELLENT blog!

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KIYOSHI04 11/8/2011 8:23AM

    it sure will. time goes by fast...too fast. life is too short to regret.

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DIFROMWYOMING 11/8/2011 8:20AM

    I can certainly relate to this, Mary, having sat on the sidelines of life for far too long myself. I also think it's a good idea to have a vision for where you are headed...it can be a very big part of your motivation. Great blog! Thanks for sharing.

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Driving the Bus

Saturday, November 05, 2011

Another day tucked under my belt of good eating, no candy and more activity. I am envisioning myself in a better, bright light. I saw someone in the supermarket today who was a fit woman and she was nimbly zipping here and there. I was zipping in my own way, and thinking ahead and realizing (and accepting) that I can also some day be there too.

That was an exciting thought to not just think about, but accept for truth. One person who has given me that feeling that this is mine to grab is my friend, MOMMA LITTLE. It has been great to see her transformation and her positive attitude.

That is my difference maker lately. I have given up my negativity (it was weighing me down) and starting looking deep down in myself for strength. There are SO MANY people who inspire me - both sparkies and not. If you are reading this blog, please do count yourself among those who do.

I looked at myself in the mirror today and told myself (yes, I do have a lot of talks with myself) that while MANY inspire me and help me along, ultimately I am responsible for my success. I am responsible for everything, for doing or not doing. Some may be along for the ride to help me - or sadly those who are around to push my buttons and get under my skin, but no one can make me do anything (good or bad) without my consent. I am the one who is driving the bus. I am driving my own destiny.
The more I recognize this, and embrace it, the better I do.

This morning's diner breakfast was unlike any other. Why? I put my fork down.
I had a spinach omelette with home fries, but I did not eat all of it. I am a long standing member of the clean plate club, and I ate what I wanted, s-l-o-w-l-y (also a miraculous feat) and enjoyed it, without leaving the restaurant feeling as if I would burst. Whoa, what do you know? I can do this. I am doing this. Life is good. I am feeling in balance.

How do you visualize yourselves, sparkies?

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SHALLID 11/6/2011 6:01PM

    " Whoa, what do you know? I can do this. I am doing this."
I had this overwhelming feeling of pride come over me after reading this. It's like at that moment it hit.... WE ALL are doing it. emoticon
Have a wonderful week!

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PATRISNA 11/6/2011 11:36AM

    I loved reading this. You inspire me. I really like Kate's visions of you driving the bus. We need a bus emoticon. LOL

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LINTPICKER 11/6/2011 10:21AM

    awesome! You rock and are an inspiration to all!

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DIFROMWYOMING 11/6/2011 9:21AM

    I agree with you that having a positive outlook is half the battle here most of the time. I have had moments when I stopped eating, but I do not celebrate them enough! I'll try to keep that in mind. I like your driving the bus analogy...I'll have to think about that one, too! :)
Have a great week.

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LALASLAND 11/5/2011 4:59PM

    Oh, my GOODNESS! I am so glad that you thought of me as an inspiration! Today, playing with my grandkids, I have been "playing hookie" with my Sparking, but since Clayton is playing with his train and Kinley is out with her Mommy, I hopped on Spark for a minute.

Anyway, this just made my DAY! Thank you! And you know what? You and your blogs have been inspiring me for all two years of my Sparking! So look in the mirror if you want to see some more inspiration! emoticon

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DOODIE59 11/5/2011 11:29AM

    You CAN do this, and thanks for the pep talk. We all need to learn the lessons you're learning, if we haven't learned them already. (And a refresher never hurts, either:))

Have a great weekend!

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_KATHY_ 11/5/2011 11:11AM

    It's absolutely OK to not clean your plate or empty a container. I had a sandwich and a small bag of chips at lunch with Mom Wednesday. I had a few chips and just didn't care to finish the rest. That was a progress day for me. You are always inspiring and I'm happy to admire how good you look as you drive that bus. My imagination has you in a 70's hippy bus with flower power all over it.. But then, that's just me LOL Perhaps it's a rock star bus that could be a home away from home. Either way, you are enjoying your journey and that's awesome !

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MAMADWARF 11/5/2011 10:50AM

    Love it. You are in a good place. I'm on your bus, baby! Next stop, I will drive OK?

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OAKSHAVEN 11/5/2011 10:46AM

    I love the attitude, and the analogy. I am inspired by the image of mySelf as the bus driver, and am going to adopt it for myself forthwith.

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Tales from the Bright Side

Friday, November 04, 2011

It's happening. My little avalanche is working its way down hill building momentum. I crossed my second day of not dipping into the candy jar. Now that I have a little distance between me and those wrappers, I just want to keep it going.

I slept like a log last night. I am attributing that to my Wii efforts yesterday morning. Another by product of the the Wii is that today I have kangaroo arms. Seriously, swinging my arms around has caused the strange feelings in my arms when I lift them. It's a good hurt. I know the drill. I am happy about feeling it, but still amused (and surprised.)


My outlook always improves on Friday. It's supposed to be sunny and nice! Double woo hoo! I am looking forward to an active weekend of getting a lot of things done and still have some fun times with the hubby. We're working on different schedules these days, so it will be nice to see his smiling face this weekend.

I hope everyone has a fabulous FRIDAY!

Thanks for joining in my cheering section. See you soon!

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LINTPICKER 11/5/2011 6:29AM

    great job!!

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SARAWALKS 11/4/2011 11:19AM

    Yes, FABULOUS Friday! emoticon
emoticon on your candy-free day!

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KIKI0531 11/4/2011 11:18AM

    Good for you - keep up all that hard work and the pay-off will be SO rewarding.

emoticon on staying out of the candy jar too !! All those good little choices are going to lead to a great outcome.

Have a great weekend !!

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KKINNEA 11/4/2011 10:59AM

    Sounds like you're finishing up the week well - nice!

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    emoticonROCK IT GIRL! emoticon

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GAYLE-G-63 11/4/2011 9:12AM

    One day at a day, one piece of candy at a time...


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MUSTANG_SALLY2 11/4/2011 9:07AM

    Congrats on resisting the candy. I had a tough time on the 31st but have resisted since. It's quite an accomplishment for us!

I hope you have a lovely weekend.


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LALASLAND 11/4/2011 9:07AM

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CIVIAV 11/4/2011 8:53AM

    Yes indeedy, gotta love our Friday's sore or not!

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