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Miles between

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

I don't have much to say today except for a thought I have been noodling over the last few days:

There are miles between can't and don't.

There are some many things I could be doing and yet I don't - it's not because I am unable to do them, I just get lazy, or overwhelmed, or both, and unless I am mindful of it, I have slipped back into a routine which is not on the path to wellness.

I am now fighting back a bit of sickness. I think I am overcoming it. I am channeling my infection fighting cells to stand up and fight back.

I have work stress which is compounded by a person who makes me feel as if she is stalking me. I did one nice thing for her, which seemed like a good idea at the time, but has come back to haunt me. I was glad I could reach out and be compassionate to her at the time, but beware of the rent-a-friend syndrome. Yikes.

What good things do I have on tap for myself today?

1> Drink morning tea (check)
2> Spark (check)
3> Clip coupons
4> Take a stroll in the sunshine (it's dark when I come to work and leave work)
5> Leave work by 6:15pm
6> Make 1 pair of earrings tonight
7> Read a few blogs. :)

What are you going to do for yourselves, sparkies


  
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LINDABENEDICT 10/24/2011 7:13PM

    Feel better soon !!!! emoticon

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CONTENTCHRIS 10/24/2011 9:55AM

    I am about to post a blog on some of the changes I made that have helped me with sickness , may be something you can use in it. Get well soon! emoticon

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SHELLYKOCH1 10/19/2011 4:20PM

    You do not need anyone's permission to be your true self.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

Great plans for the day. Hope you're able to fight off illness.

Shelly

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CANNIE50 10/19/2011 3:47PM

    I hope you are winning the battle against illness (and mis-guided stalkers!) I am SParkling, and not feeding the constant urge to eat (because I already ate what I actually needed). I went on a long hike with my dog this morning because I had consumed too much sugar and caffiene on a road trip, and was sore from sitting and driving for too many hours. I figured a hike would help me sort myself out, and it did. Feel better.

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 10/18/2011 11:11PM

    I hope you have a good week and feel better soon, Mickey! emoticon

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MAMADWARF 10/18/2011 8:38PM

    I got fired up today that's what I did for me....do you need me to handle your friend? Cuz I am feeling pretty feisty!

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DIFROMWYOMING 10/18/2011 8:29PM

    I packed healthy foods for lunch and managed to go to the gym even though I was overwhelmed at work! Big hugs, Di

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WINTERSMAGIC29 10/18/2011 3:07PM

    Sounds like you have a great day planned! So far I've gotten 31 minutes on the Wii today, been starting my day with that so I don't distract myself out of it!

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PARKERB2 10/18/2011 2:58PM

    Sorry you have not been feeling well. The earrings sould great and I'm sure you make beautiful ones. You will have to post some of them for us to see. Have a great day.

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 10/18/2011 1:15PM

    Sorry your good deed is coming back to haunt you.

Today i am not doing much for ME as i have to work this afternoon but I have the next 3 days off and will focus on me on those days.

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SUZWARNR 10/18/2011 1:15PM

    Have a great day! Hope you feel better soon.

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 10/18/2011 11:20AM

    Ain't it the truth. There is a difference and some people never choose to learn it. Sorry about the stalkery person, seems to be going around lately!

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_KATHY 10/18/2011 10:50AM

    You always make me think Mickey. And usually a chuckle or two... Rent a friend! :)
What am I going to do for myself today?
1. exercise.. I'm beginning to enjoy it
2. shop for a new outfit to wear to Las Vegas
3. finish the new pillow I'm quilting (cute cats for Mom)

Hope you are feeling better !
Hugs
Kate

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DOODIE59 10/18/2011 8:57AM

    Hi Mickey
You are doing so many things right ... give yourself a break at those times when you are feeling less than "on", and especially if you're feeling under the weather! The transition to a healthy lifestyle is long term ... there will be good days and bad days (the same as regular-sized people have;)). The key is to not give up on those low days ... do at least one of the things on your check list so you remember what your goal is, why you have chosen this path. It's all good, and all for you:)

Speaking as one who is stumbling, fumbling off path, I can only remind you that better health lies waiting for you, and the effort on your end will enrich your future in many ways. Fast or slow ... keep your health in mind:)

Wishing you blessings and good health,
Deirdre

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SARAWALKS 10/18/2011 8:47AM

    Hang in there, Mickey. I know that Rent-a-Friend stress, been there, done that, never again. I am so careful with my good deeds any more, since if you are in a leadership position people are so apt to fixate...

I like your idea of making a list of things to do for yourself every day. I always have a huge list of things that must be done but I don't dignify the things I want and need to do FOR ME with a list.

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REDROSEMARIE 10/18/2011 8:46AM

    Hi, stress is one my strongest issues. I am stressed about certain things that are not even worth stressing over. It is great that you have goals that are not all work, Making earrings seems like a rewarding project.


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GITITDUNN 10/18/2011 8:19AM

  Best wishes on your wellness journey!

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From a Thousand Pieces

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I've been thinking a lot this week, from deep in my funk, and then at moments, not so deep.

However, I have been contemplating myself. Thinking of myself having my heart broken and feeling like it was shattered into a thousand pieces about ten years ago, and then putting myself back together. Feeling scarred, never perfect, but pieced together, nonetheless.

Feeling smacked down again a couple of years ago, and yet not quite as broken that time. It's a start, feeling like it's a bit easier to pick up the pieces, and easier to find yourself again.

Again, not perfect, maybe never perfect, and maybe just now there are like 30 pieces missing, not the whole freaking' puzzle. Hmmm. What do we do now, Rebuild it all over again?

No, not necessary. Just reinvent it. So that is what I am doing...reinventing myself from some of the pieces I found, and sticking the rest in a paper bag and dropping it on the bottom shelf in the kitchen. Who am I now?

I am a person who accepts myself as a perfectly flawed human being and loves myself as is.

I am a person who recognizes that I can be who I want to be, and change the parts of myself that I am ready to change.

I love myself enough to shape myself into a respected, loved/lovable person.

I appreciate myself as a courageous, faithful warrior, who is not afraid to love, just because the outcome is unknowing.

Today when I was leaving work, I spotted several people I knew - some only by face, but not by name. Each one of them made a point to say hi, and/or by my name. It was a great illustration to me that I am loved and appreciated by those around me, even when I am less than caring for myself. Interesting. (Insert thought to ponder.)

Each step I move forward is a step in the right direction. I need not be perfect on any given day. I can step forward in faith and make efforts on my own behalf so that enough consistent steps placed one after the other will equal the journey and destination where I am headed.

I have friends who have managed incredible weight loss. This is how they did it. Setting up a road map, acting on it, adjusting along the way as needed, and perseverance and consistency.

I have just separated my actions from my deep soul person. I may act a certain way because of the person I am, but doing these things or not does not affect the beautiful deserving person I am.

I'm with my friend, Di, no more punishing myself just because I did not live up to my own expectation of myself. If something is not working, change. That is all it takes.




  
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GOSPELCLOWN 10/15/2011 11:48PM

    Perfect? I hardly ever use that word.

Love yourself and it will shine out to others! Keep moving forward-- you are going in the right direction!

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PATRISNA 10/15/2011 11:17PM

    Mickey,
This was a beautiful, thoughtful soul searching blog. You are amazing. Thank you for writing this. I always learn something that touches my heart from reading my Sapphire sister's blogs. We are going to do this. If not this challenge then the next and the next...we are going to get there.

Love you
Pat

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CHANGE_4_ME 10/14/2011 1:04PM

    Beautifully written. emoticon You can do it.

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CANNIE50 10/13/2011 11:19PM

    Beautifully stated - my favorite line (of many beautifully phrased thoughts) is: "step forward in faith". Thank you and bless you.

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 10/13/2011 9:40AM

    Word up!

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BESTCK 10/13/2011 9:37AM

    I love your puzzle analogy! That is exactly what it's like. Pick a piece up; see if it fits; if it doesn't, put it down and try another. We don't get up and leave the puzzle if one piece doesn't fit. It would never get finished that way.

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_KATHY 10/13/2011 8:54AM

    Exactly! emoticon

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KKINNEA 10/12/2011 11:36PM

    Yes!

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LOOZINITNOW 10/12/2011 10:13PM

    Beautiful blog and you can achieve anything you set your heart and mind to. emoticon

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DOODIE59 10/12/2011 9:54PM

    I like what I'm reading ... sounds like you are coming to peace with yourself. From that beautiful place change for the good is bound to happen. Drop all judgement, and move forward.

Have a wonderful week:)
Deirdre

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TEDDYBEARGIRL 10/12/2011 9:40PM

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DIFROMWYOMING 10/12/2011 9:36PM

    I love this, and I am a visual person so I can relate to feeling like you're putting a puzzle together without all the pices. I used to say I felt like I was trying to move a mountain with a teaspoon...I couldn't even see it all yet! But we are moving there, aren't we? We are making progress without perfection, and if we can learn to love who we are now, imperfections and all, and stop punishing ourselves for not living up to some arbitrary measure...we are going to be able to celebrate every day for what it is. What a great gift to ourselves, and those around us. I just love you! You're awesome!
hugs, Di

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Setting the Tone

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

Sometimes, no matter what you do, you can't fix everything.

It's not stopping me from being optimistic. I am a person who thrives on looking at things from the sunny side of the street. Oh sure, I have my down days, but honestly, when I focus on what's eating me, more often than not, I can spin into a downward spiral that does nothing to lift me out of a funk or make me do anything but feel sorry for myself.

Some author (Jack Canfield?) wrote, "I can't afford the luxury of a negative thought."

So I am focusing on the positive.

What can I do to Reinvent myself today?

Well, for one I am VISUALIZING myself doing active things.

I am reminding myself of the first thing a former trainer once said to, "You can walk 20 minutes can't you?" (issued more or less as a challenge when I was in one of those self loathing funks.)

I am embracing myself as a warrior spirit and a go-to/get the job done person, because actually that is how many others see me.

I set the tone for my day. Today is going to be a fabulous day. I have no shortage of things wrong in my life, but I refuse to let it get to me so that I stop my quest of making myself numero uno. I deserve the best life I can have, and part of that includes taking care of myself so that I can help others.

My goals are set:
WALK 7,000 steps
GET A FLU SHOT
WISH MY DAD A HAPPY BDAY
ENJOY MY LIFE!!!

Wishing you an action-packed, happy, fun filled day. May there be many more roses than thorns.

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_KATHY 10/8/2011 7:23PM

    You are absolutely right and I believe in positive thinking 100%. Not that my actions show it all the time, but it's there. Waiting for me if necessary :)

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PATRISNA 10/8/2011 10:19AM

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I need to get a flu shot too. emoticon for the reminder!


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DIFROMWYOMING 10/5/2011 6:48PM

    Love your positive spirit! You just go make things what you want them to be!

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CANNIE50 10/5/2011 6:43PM

    I have no doubt you will do what you set out to do.

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SUZWARNR 10/5/2011 1:35PM

    You have an awesome outlook. Have a great day! :)

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CHANGE_4_ME 10/5/2011 11:36AM

    I consider myself a mostly positive person too.We all have our good and bad days like you said but no sense in letting 1 situation or several get in my way of improving me! I like what you said and how you said it. Just what I needed today, hopefully it will pull me out of my funk. Have a great day!

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KKINNEA 10/5/2011 10:07AM

    The small things - I love 'em!

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 10/5/2011 9:30AM

    Great goals.

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PS Happy Birthday to your dad!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 10/5/2011 9:29AM

    I like your list! You can do this! emoticonGlad you are able to focus on the positive! emoticon

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BESTCK 10/5/2011 9:20AM

    Love the positive attitude, Mickey! You Rock.

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CIVIAV 10/5/2011 8:47AM

    Awesome! Warrior is a powerful way to go... warrior woman even more so...

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Nothing to Do With Me

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

I think I am shell shocked by a revelation I've had in the last couple of days.

Growing up, I was mostly friends with boys my age. I did have an occasional girl as a BFF, but mostly I was a tomboy who either hung out with my brothers, and a few guy friends.
Inevitably, I would develop crushes on those guy friends through the years.

The fact that nothing transpired with them other than deep meaningful friendship was always something I viewed as a flaw in myself. As it turns out, this was completely unfounded. I am shocked by this new vision in my life. I am seeing myself in new eyes, because I just found out that one in particular that I had pinned my hopes and dreams on once upon a time is gay. I just reconnected with him after many years. He elaborated that he has been with "Frank" for 17 yrs. WTF? I was completely oblivious to this.

Two others also fall into this category. It is very freeing to realize this, and I am marveling that these episodes had nothing to do with me. (Inner yippee!) It's also a bit of a surprise to see that there were several boys (now men) that I was close to that I never knew. I guess in my day and age, folks were less open about it. I embrace them fully as my friends, and would not want to change a thing about them. It's just that I wonder if I knew back then, would I have treated myself a little nicer? Hearing about the third one among my small circle made me see this as all connected.

Can't go back - only move forward. I move forward with fresh eyes, to look at a situation from another angle and force myself when needed to shift the focus away from me. I need to remind myself that whatever the situation, it could likely have nothing to do with me. That is a happy revelation. It's time I stop blaming myself for what is wrong in the world.

What can you do for yourselves, sparkies?

  
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GODDESS181 10/5/2011 12:15AM

    Happy for you. Enjoy your new found insight.
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DIFROMWYOMING 10/4/2011 10:52PM

    I'm glad this was freeing to you...I have to give this some thought tonight.
Hugs, Di

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CANNIE50 10/4/2011 8:13PM

    Yes, there are many times I have had to remind myself "this is not about me". I have also learned, as I have grown older and wiser and braver, to check in with someone about a perception I have of our relationship, or their mood, or whatever is going on. I pride myself on being perceptive but I am often shown that I am not nearly the mind-reader I think I am. I am glad you had these revelations - it sounds like it may be a touchstone for you as you move forward with a healthier lifestyle and a kinder self-image.

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 10/4/2011 2:05PM

    Isn't it funny what we internalize because it seems a certain way from our perspective?! I'm so glad that your attitude and what you see about yourself has become so healthy along with your body! emoticon

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_KATHY 10/4/2011 10:19AM

    That is an awesome revelation. That statement...Has nothing to do with me....fits me in a slightly different way. I was told and have come to the conclusion that I might possibly be selfish and self centered and think the world revolves around me. ;) Therefore, whatever happens in a negative light, is also all about me. Many times, I was told. "It Aint About YOU" When I finally started seeing that with "fresh eyes" as you said, life and all it holds, became a little bit easier to navigate. Not that I don't have days where I still think it's all about me, but less so..

That feeling of lightness after such a revelation often equates to physical lightness! One less thing or thought that may be getting in the way of being good to ourselves.


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KKINNEA 10/4/2011 9:59AM

    A revelation indeed and one you can carry forward and feel confident about yourself!

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Pogo Stick

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Yesterday, I ate 8 servings of fruits/veggies.

The last time I did that was 2 weeks ago. Back then, it took me the week to do it.

I am making many positive changes and enjoying how I am making those changes. For the last few months, I've been loosely eating according to my nutritionist's plan for me (for the most part) and I have been keeping my blood sugar very well controlled, however, I have been packing on the pounds.

Now, very slowly, I have been easing off the carbs, particularly the refined variety, and shifting my focus more to fruits and veggies. Nope, the pounds have not been sliding off...yet. I feel many good things happening. I am feeling better. I am walking more. I am not sluggish from the minute I get up to the minute I crash.

The poundage is going to take a while. That's ok. I am not in a race, despite how many challenges I join, or how much I desire to be a size 10, it's not going to happen in the imminent future. That's a math problem that even Einstein couldn't resolve. (I say that with some authority, - my office space sits in the footprint of his old laboratory,)

I'm ramping up by tiny percentages what I do each week, but by doing so, I know I am building lifelong habits, not making sweeping changes on a whim that will fizzle out when I have another disappointing reading on the scale.

My weight fluctuations have been like a pogo stick lately - erratically jumping up and then down. I know many experts say lay off the reading of the scale so frequently, and perhaps I will soon. For right now, it is helping me to see that my body is making adjustments and getting accustomed to the changes I am dealing it. It will settle down when I will.

For today, I am going to reach 8,000 steps. I have been rounding down in my step count and I am closing in on 8,000. A little more effort will get me there. Today is the day. I wanted to go to the gym this morning, but I felt punky upon awakening, and know that I will eventually get there. I am creating a wellness path for my body and for me, taking good care includes knowing when to push, and knowing when to wait.

How do you honor yourselves, sparkies?

  
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PATRISNA 9/24/2011 11:31AM

    I really liked your blog. The part about creating a wellness path and knowing when to push and when to wait is a really important part of this journey. Way to go on the steps! It is amazing how they add up and motivate you to do more.


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NOTABOUTHEFACE 9/22/2011 8:55AM

    Habits are much more important than results in the beginning because it's those habits that will GET results in the future! Keep up the awesome work!

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DIFROMWYOMING 9/21/2011 10:49PM

    My goodness.... I need to get where you are! Wonderful job with everything. So proud of you.

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CANNIE50 9/21/2011 1:46PM

    I love your phrase about "creating a wellness path" because the more you take that path, the easier the path becomes. Good work.

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BECKY3774 9/21/2011 1:29PM

    Your blog beautiful states everything that I'm feeling lately. I need to put more focus on the not so apparent changes and forget about the scale for awhile....Great job!

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BESTCK 9/21/2011 12:29PM

    I honor myself by not giving up and moving on from a bad day.

Your post is uplifting as always. Congrats on your progress.

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_KATHY 9/21/2011 11:35AM

    I'm all for progress! However slowly, progress is still moving in the right direction. How do I honor myself? Good question. I honor myself in forgiveness and encouraging self talk. By making better decisions for my well being.

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CHANGE_4_ME 9/21/2011 10:46AM

    Great post and great attitude! I honor me by taking "me" time. Sometimes that's my activity time and sometimes it's sitting on my back porch enjoying some peace and quiet.

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DOODIE59 9/21/2011 8:26AM

    Lovely, positive blog, Mickey -- just keep doing what you're doing:)
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SHAWFAN 9/21/2011 8:00AM

    emoticonon the small changes! They can add up to big changes for you! As for how I honor myself, I remind myself daily that this is the only body I have and I have to treat it with respect if I want to continue on this thing called life. emoticon emoticon

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TRULYVISIBLE 9/21/2011 7:45AM

  Yes for building lifelong healthy habits. You ask how we honor ourselves. I think of my body as a temple and I worship it by putting nutritious food in it. Putting junk in it would be disrespectful.

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