Thursday, November 03, 2011
Good morning, sparkies!
I'm continuing my happy dance and celebrations today. Woo hoo! Won't you whoop it up with me?
I got up at 4:30am (not intentionally, but I was awake, so I figured what the heck) and convinced myself I should work out with my wii!
I feel more awake right now than I have felt in weeks. I'm smiling. I am feeling good.
I encouraged myself with words of "amazing, phenomenal, you are doing it" during my work out. I had fun. I topped some previous records. More importantly, I kept going.
When I was done, I had my best blood sugar reading of the week. That's a good reason alone to get back on the wii bandwagon --- even though there are several dozen others....
A couple of weeks ago, a person paid me an unexpected and heartfelt compliment. It has helped me turn around my thinking in that I am celebrating myself at every turn instead of the usual naysaying. It has taken work, but it is becoming easier and second nature with practice.
So far, I like the results. I am celebrating every little step in the right direction and encouraging myself more than ever before. It definitely beats the alternative. That was not working for me a bit. I am unlocking the code to my human nature. I respond best to TLC.
Try a little love, sparkies. See what it brings.
Wednesday, November 02, 2011
I promised myself I would celebrate my progress, so I am!
I did not eat any candy today. I wish I could pretend that I've only been eating it on "the" holiday. I've made it a month or two faux celebration, and that type of party is over.
The pity party has also run its course.
There's a new sheriff in town, and this one is only interested in what can I do to save me.
Today, I am not focusing on the bad and the ugly, I am only here to celebrate: and so I shall.
I ate fruit/veggies today at all meals. I kept my blood sugar in check. I had an active day. I did not give into the temptation of eating sugar. WOO HOO!
I am wicked proud of myself.
Here's hoping for another big win tomorrow!
I am on the comeback trail. Hope to see you there!
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
I don't have much to say today except for a thought I have been noodling over the last few days:
There are miles between can't and don't.
There are some many things I could be doing and yet I don't - it's not because I am unable to do them, I just get lazy, or overwhelmed, or both, and unless I am mindful of it, I have slipped back into a routine which is not on the path to wellness.
I am now fighting back a bit of sickness. I think I am overcoming it. I am channeling my infection fighting cells to stand up and fight back.
I have work stress which is compounded by a person who makes me feel as if she is stalking me. I did one nice thing for her, which seemed like a good idea at the time, but has come back to haunt me. I was glad I could reach out and be compassionate to her at the time, but beware of the rent-a-friend syndrome. Yikes.
What good things do I have on tap for myself today?
1> Drink morning tea (check)
2> Spark (check)
3> Clip coupons
4> Take a stroll in the sunshine (it's dark when I come to work and leave work)
5> Leave work by 6:15pm
6> Make 1 pair of earrings tonight
7> Read a few blogs. :)
What are you going to do for yourselves, sparkies
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
I've been thinking a lot this week, from deep in my funk, and then at moments, not so deep.
However, I have been contemplating myself. Thinking of myself having my heart broken and feeling like it was shattered into a thousand pieces about ten years ago, and then putting myself back together. Feeling scarred, never perfect, but pieced together, nonetheless.
Feeling smacked down again a couple of years ago, and yet not quite as broken that time. It's a start, feeling like it's a bit easier to pick up the pieces, and easier to find yourself again.
Again, not perfect, maybe never perfect, and maybe just now there are like 30 pieces missing, not the whole freaking' puzzle. Hmmm. What do we do now, Rebuild it all over again?
No, not necessary. Just reinvent it. So that is what I am doing...reinventing myself from some of the pieces I found, and sticking the rest in a paper bag and dropping it on the bottom shelf in the kitchen. Who am I now?
I am a person who accepts myself as a perfectly flawed human being and loves myself as is.
I am a person who recognizes that I can be who I want to be, and change the parts of myself that I am ready to change.
I love myself enough to shape myself into a respected, loved/lovable person.
I appreciate myself as a courageous, faithful warrior, who is not afraid to love, just because the outcome is unknowing.
Today when I was leaving work, I spotted several people I knew - some only by face, but not by name. Each one of them made a point to say hi, and/or by my name. It was a great illustration to me that I am loved and appreciated by those around me, even when I am less than caring for myself. Interesting. (Insert thought to ponder.)
Each step I move forward is a step in the right direction. I need not be perfect on any given day. I can step forward in faith and make efforts on my own behalf so that enough consistent steps placed one after the other will equal the journey and destination where I am headed.
I have friends who have managed incredible weight loss. This is how they did it. Setting up a road map, acting on it, adjusting along the way as needed, and perseverance and consistency.
I have just separated my actions from my deep soul person. I may act a certain way because of the person I am, but doing these things or not does not affect the beautiful deserving person I am.
I'm with my friend, Di, no more punishing myself just because I did not live up to my own expectation of myself. If something is not working, change. That is all it takes.
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