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Visual Cues (Day 7 of the Challenge)

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

I noticed something last night, in the tiniest little way, my stomach is starting to deflate.

Call out the National Guard! WOOT! I was pumped when I saw that tiny little change starting to take place. It was subtle but just enough for me to notice a bit of definition forming. Woot!
Sure, the scale has its place to provide feedback on the numbers, and I can't ignore those either, but this is what jumped out at me. It feels great to see something changing.

I am having a super busy week at work, busy for someone who doesn't flinch at 12 hour days. So last night, I stopped at the supermarket on the way home and brought myself a bag of salad, some fruit and a small container of ice cream. The first two came to work and are now in my fridge. The latter is at home in the freezer, where I will eat, when I have room on my plate....straight from the carton.

I am realizing about myself it is so much more for me about the process. I don't need a lot of ice cream to be satisfied. (Satisfied is my new favorite word). In fact, a couple of teaspoonfuls is just the right portion. It is the enjoyment of having exactly what I want without settling on something else. Even my salad takes that form. I don't mind salad. If I can have it with the dressing I like, I am happy. That has come to work now also. YAY! This fridge idea has been a fantastic addition.

Well sparkies, wishing you all a fabulous day! Today is the last hurrah before the first challenge weigh-in. I am going to take a hint from my pal, NOTABOUTTHEFACE (aka, The Mrs) and go do a few mins of activity at the top of every hour. What a darn good idea! Woo hoo!

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PINKAMBER18 9/16/2011 10:15AM

    emoticon Such an amazing feeling isn't it?!

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MSHOPPER63 9/14/2011 8:04AM

    emoticon on noticing your tummy shrinking. Since your weigh in wasn't what you expected try to keep a journal with your measurements. That's a true test of how well your doing. Noticing those inches disappearing is a great pick me upper.
Keep up the hard work, with every passing day your becoming a leaner/healthier YOU !


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CANNIE50 9/13/2011 9:08PM

    Wow, you are getting healthier by the day! I am so glad you are a Sparkler emoticon

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 9/13/2011 4:27PM

    WootWoot!! Awesome! So glad you are seeing the changes :)! And I agree a little ice cream is a great treat and a little is all it takes! Yes, I love the Mrs' idea of activity on the hour. Way to go!

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MUGGLE_MOM 9/13/2011 2:20PM

    I LOVE that you are seeing the changes!

Whooo Hoooo on your new world of the day! Satisfied is a great word to focus on!

It sounds like the fridge is an awesome addition!

Keep up being the fabulous You that you are!!!!

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 9/13/2011 11:48AM

    Oh I like that plan. I have such a hard time getting myself to break away from my desk and move. Ugh! I'll have to try this.

Best wishes on the weigh-in!


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SARAWALKS 9/13/2011 10:20AM

    Yes, being Satisfied really matters. And I like that idea about a few minutes at the top of every hour!
emoticon for visible definition! ain't it fun??????????? emoticon

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BESTCK 9/13/2011 8:29AM

    I like your attitude about the ice cream and the salad dressing. I agree that there is no point in doing this if we can't be satisfied. But it's not working out as well for me. I'm getting kind of frustrated with the lack of weight loss, regardless of the changes.

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    Congrats on seeing the changes! Isn't it awesome when that happens?! There's never anything as satisfying as the first two bites of anything especially if it's flavorful. Ugh, by the end of the day I was asking myself "WHY did you say you were going to do this treadmill thing?!" LOL By the time we went down to workout for real I was hissing at the basement. It just seemed like the top o' the hour was coming a lot faster than usual! HA! But good for you! It's not a bad thing to get the metabolism moving regularly especially if you're sedentary most of the day like most of us are.

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World's Best Cheat Meal (Day 6 of the Challenge)

Monday, September 12, 2011

What could be better than the world's best cheat meal? ...... A meal that isn't cheating...

Tonight, I stopped at the supermarket (GIANT) on the way home and checked every bag of tortilla chips til I found the best bang for my carb bucks. The store brand won for delivering 14 chips per serving. That coupled with a little cheddar (cut up into tiny bite sized pieces makes it look like more and melts better) and a couple of spoons of salsa and hello! I am in heaven.


Not cheating. Fits perfectly into my plan. Snoopy dance. Because it FEELS like I am indulging and it looks like I am indulging, I feel way more satisfied. It is freaking delightful. It was a blessed ah-ha moment. Making things fit. It's awesome to be taking care of myself on every level.

Hoping you found a way to do some self care for yourselves today as well, sparkies! What say you?

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GEORGIA_KAY 9/15/2011 10:17AM

    To quote Captain John Hannibal Smith of the A-Team..."I love it when a plan comes together!"

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RONIREDD 9/13/2011 10:42AM

    Sounds so good! Going to try this one! Thanks.

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CHANGE_4_ME 9/13/2011 10:24AM

    Great blog! I love it when I find ways of indulging that fit into my plan.

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DOODIE59 9/13/2011 8:57AM

    "It's awesome to be taking care of myself on every level". Hats off to you, Mickey -- that's the way to live:) And the rest of your world will thank you, too:)

Have a great day!

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1CRAZYDOG 9/13/2011 8:05AM

    I am sooooo doing this!!! Thank you.

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MUGGLE_MOM 9/13/2011 7:07AM

Whoooo Hooooo!!!!!!

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1HAPPYWOMAN 9/13/2011 1:44AM

    That sounds great! Very inspiring too! I love when I can have treats that I love and still stay on track!!!

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 9/13/2011 12:14AM

    Mmmm....nachos :)! Great way to fit fun into eating well :)!

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CANNIE50 9/12/2011 10:52PM

    Good for you for doing your homework and finding what works for you.

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LRNG2SWET 9/12/2011 10:49PM

    ha ha I like it! lol emoticon

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D Day (Day 5 of the Challenge)

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Today is the day I remained true to my word.

I said I'd avoid the newscasts like the plague. I did.

I planned on eating an omelet with spinach/mushrooms for bfast. I did.

I thought about skipping church because of the 9-11 commemorations. I did.

I said I'd go walking. I did. (twice)

I said I'd do laundry. (I will) (ha ha)

Today is becoming the day I planned for myself. I am keeping to my word, and following through - not just letting my plans go to the wayside with the best of intentions.

Life is good. I am terribly sorry for all those families who lost loved ones on this 10th anniversary, and I consider myself one of them. Not related by blood, but a deep, meaningful friendship that I will carry memories with me for the rest of my life. In the meantime, though, I'll be living.

How do you keep your word to yourself, sparkies?

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 9/11/2011 7:57PM

    I have to make a list so that I remember my promises to myself-lol! Glad you had a day for you to do and feel what you wanted. When you have a deep connection to days like today it is easy to get caught up and feel what others expect you to feel. Glad you did your own thing and chose to recognize the day in your own way.

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    I'm so sorry you have to go through life missing your dear friend. emoticon

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CANNIE50 9/11/2011 6:34PM

    I keep my word to myself every time I get out of bed to exercise "dark and early". I keep my word to myself every night that I go to bed without bingeing. I keep my word to myself WAY more often than I did in my "fat and getting fatter" days.

I have been reading a lot about 9/11 and weeping. Several thousand died, and the hearts broken that day are exponentially higher. Your friend would be proud of you, I bet, to see you remembering him so fondly, and taking good care of HIS friend....you. emoticon

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BESTCK 9/11/2011 6:31PM

    I kept my word to myself this day by going to get the supplies I needed for my gym bag. (So I will be easily able to go straight to work from the gym.)

I'm also following your lead and avoiding the media blitz. I kind of resent the "never forget" slogans that are being shoved in my face. I have not, will not, forget a single minute of that day, but I choose not to relive it constantly.

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BECKY3774 9/11/2011 5:16PM

    Doesn't it feel good when you follow through on something that you had planned for?

I keep my word to myself by being truthful about each day and what it brings....I limit my 'triggers' and just do the best that I can!

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Facing the Past (Day 4 of the Challenge)

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Facing the Past, and accepting the past, makes it easier to move forward to your future. I was determined that even though I did not want to go face my deceased friend's family alone, I would go as it is the 10th anniversary of his death. He died in the line of duty in the World Trade Center.

It has been years, since we have been together. maybe 5 or 7? I'm not sure. I just know that I was disappointed in my husband for not be willing to come, and still I managed it alone. The drive went through some really crazy NYC highways (OMG!) but patting myself on the back, I made it. I did it. Alone.

I didn't know my way around the destination either, but I followed my spidey senses, and managed. When I got to face to face with his wife, I burst out crying for a moment. I noticed something that surprised me. "I" was the only one crying. I miss my friend terribly, even still. But out of all of the people that were there, I was the only one shedding tears. I bucked up and pulled myself together. I did slip again when I met one of this brothers, but it didn't last long.

The end result is good. I did something that was very difficult for me, but made me feel as if I should be there to mark the occasion. I spent the afternoon getting to know his 12 yr old son a bit, and also with his partner on the job, whom I have also known for many years. It was a cathartic day. I also proved to myself that I still have my driving chops as I skilfully handled the roads of Brooklyn and Queens. Those people are nuts!

I walked all over. WOOT! I ate fine. I hugged. I laughed. I cried. I took a few pics. I got through it. I faced my past. Now it is time for me to face my future.

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GEORGIA_KAY 9/15/2011 10:11AM

    What a loving heart you have. You are an amazing woman, and I'm so glad I know you!

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SARAWALKS 9/11/2011 12:17PM

    emoticon I tip my hat to you, for going ahead and crying, a good and brave thing to do (I'm sure it meant a lot to people to see that you were feeling for them) AND for managing those expressways and all the other good stuff.
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CANNIE50 9/11/2011 1:30AM

    You did the honorable thing and you went way out of your way to do it, which makes it even more special. Your friend deserved nothing less, and you, as a true friend, delivered. I admire this. emoticon

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ITSHOWYOULIVE 9/10/2011 10:55PM

    You rock! You did several things that would send weaker souls seeking shelter. Way to go facing several fears and conquering them!! Glad you got to have your reunion and find comfort in that.

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BECKY3774 9/10/2011 9:43PM

    emoticon for facing your fears and your past. You told me the first time you messaged me that you liked my attitude, but honey, you've got it too! I love it!!! You are definitely headed in the right direction, and I am honored to be sharing this trip together emoticon

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BESTCK 9/10/2011 9:18PM

    That is something to be proud of, Mickey! Being there to honor someone who passed, especially on that day, is always appreciated and I know it always makes me feel better whether I am the one on the giving or receiving end of the respects.

I'm sorry that you lost your friend but I'm glad you could spend this day with his family and other people who loved him.

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I Make Choices (Day 3 of the Challenge)

Friday, September 09, 2011

How do I define myself? I've been pondering. There are moments in my life where I have shown courage and strength and I have been reaching back through my memories to pull those out. These are reminders to myself that I am a strong woman who can overcome.

This is a vulnerable time of year for me. There is just no getting around it. I have tried to bury it, eat my way through it, cry through it, vent through it, isolate myself through it. You name it - I have tried that route. Except one. I have not just felt it. I have not just accepted the fact that it was going to tear at me, and remind me of losses no matter what I did.

So that is what I am doing. If I cry, I cry. If I laugh, I laugh.

I loved big. Loving big was a choice. That choice still defines me. I go big or I go home. And I ain't ready to go home. My mother frequently says, (half in jest, half not so much) "If I knew then, what I know now...." as if her choices would have been different. Not me. I still would do what I am doing. I make choices. I am my decisions.

I made some less than stellar decisions last night in the food dept. I am right back on track today. I am wearing my favorite new outfit (and I look great, I think). It helps me to feel confident and see myself in a light that I deserve all of the goodness.

That's just it. Life comes at you fast. You make choices. You can choose to do something and make a difference whether it is for you or for someone else, but either way, life is just going to keep coming. Go big, or get out of the way. :)

What's your choice for yourself today, sparkies?

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PATRISNA 9/10/2011 10:24AM

    emoticon blog! We all have days when our food choices are not the best.

I write quotes from SP blogs or other sources in my journals that help me. I found this one on 7/13/10 on Puggys004 blog:

"Every morning is a completely new day to start over and get back on track. No matter what happened yesterday, today is the day you will once again work on being healthy and fit. Say that every morning when you wake up."


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    Awesome post. My choice for today is to be apparently less than stellar every which way (eating, mothering, pta, personally, household, all of it less than stella), but tomorrow I can do better. Thanks for a great post.

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    Good blog.......I chose to walk today despite back pain and glad i did!

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SARAWALKS 9/9/2011 11:00AM

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CIVIAV 9/9/2011 8:55AM

    I remember a line,
Lead, follow or get out of the way.
Today, I may choose anyone of these but the choice for myself now that I am on this journey is to clearly choose. Choose big. It's loads more fun!

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BECKY3774 9/9/2011 8:37AM

    I think that you and I are a lot alike. This blog sounded a lot like me. If you read through the last month of my blogs(not that I'm expecting you to!) You'll see that I had like a three week period of time that I made "less than stellar" choices. The difference is, now we know how to pull ourselves out of it. "Feeling" is a scary thing when we're used to numbing ourselves with food. It takes a long time to undo what we've done, but I think we're all capable of getting there.

I am so glad that you added me as a friend, I feel that we both have a lot to offer one another!

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    Oh, yes. Time does NOT slow down! What we decided to do yesterday is already DONE, so today we'd better make COUNT! Great blog, Mickey, and thanks for blessing MY day! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MUGGLE_MOM 9/9/2011 8:05AM

    You are definitely a girl who Lives and Loves Big! You heart has enough love it in to support a pretty large third world country if they needed you and you felt so inclined. and yes, I'm being modest in my estimation!!!!!!!!!!

I am so happy that you are turning some of that amazing love and support on yourself. No one and I mean no one deserves it more than you do.

I know this is a tough time for you. Its nice to see you thinking about how to handle it. Good luck giving your emotions the space they need.

I'm here if you need anything!

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PARKERB2 9/9/2011 7:52AM

    Thanks for reminding me to try and do my best and I can go big, the sky's the limit. Right now I'm trying to take a series of test,work related, and I am going big on it. I WILL PASS THEM All with hard study habits and determation. Thanks for a good blog and have a a great day Mickey Max.

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BESTCK 9/9/2011 7:49AM

    That's a great blog. I never regret loving big, even if I get hurt in the end. It's lessons learned to make the next experience even better.

Congrats on your stellar food choices. I know you're going to Sparkle today!

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