Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Do you remember when you pulled your hamstring and you had to crawl up the stairs to your bedroom because it was on the same level as the bathroom? Do you remember being in the hospital with the doctor telling you to your face that there was nothing he could do for you and he wasn't even going to bother writing a script for crutches because he didn't think you could handle them? Do you remember when you had pneumonia and you swore that you would never be this sick again where you could not stand up and breathe?
Well, I do darn it!
It is not pretty. That is the same freaking road you are headed on AGAIN if you do not get off your rump roast and do SOMETHING. Seriously, you are fat enough. You wasted enough time. The time to do is now. There is no try. There is no more time for excuses, loneliness, or sadness. Just get up and freaking to do something, I am done with excuses. Please do not tell me to be nice to myself. Compassion does not work. I need to save myself and the only way I can do it is to use a cattle prod if necessary.
I DESERVE the absolute best life. However, I have to MAKE IT. The best life does not come delivered by a van to couch potatoes. It is something you have to chase HARD.
I am ready.
I am chasing.
If you get in my way (couch potato), look out, I just may run you down.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
I was a bit stressed going to a meeting today. I was pleasantly surprised on my walk over there (about 10-15 mins from my building) that the walk seemed less strenuous today. I am pretty sure it also took me less time to walk over even though I had shoes on today. (Yesterday: sneakers).
I had to represent my group and give advice on how to handle their event, and I was so pleased with the way I came across and provided the info. I left feeling like I hit a "homerun." Quickly patting self on back. The work won't be easy, and it is ongoing, but first step out of the gate, I prepared to the point of being able to provide illustrations, seating charts and sales figures. I knew what I was talking about and I communicated it well. I left doing the Snoopy Dance. Woot! It is doubly nice when it works out, you don't look like a dope, and you are dealing with high level "connected" folk. (not connected like Tony Soprano...just people who know people.)
I had one more piece of business to accomplish near that physical location. I decided not to do it today, but to wait until tomorrow so I would have a reason to specifically go for another walk over there. I am starting to think that the key to my success is just to keep building on what I am doing. Just keep going. Just keep doing. It is working. Ever so slowly, but I am putting my head in the right frame of mind. I am putting my feet in the right direction to walk and I am putting my attitude in a positive direction.
With all of these things working together, how can I go wrong?
Friday, August 19, 2011
I am driven by anxiety. I have tons of it and more, especially when I am not exercising. I am finally getting over some pulled back muscles and hoping to boot the DH out of the living room tonight so I can do my new Zumba Wii disc that just arrived. Zumba Virgin.
I've been recognizing the root of my issues as I work through some emotional turmoil I have been having as of late. I am learning the difference between accepting vs. settling.
Settling is second best. Settling is I couldn't have what I really wanted, so I am having this instead. Settling is not satisfying, nor soulful. Settling does not leave you with a peace of mind that you have done all that you can do. Settling is shrugging your shoulders and saying, "It's good enough" without the belief that it is truly "good enough."
Accepting is believing you gave it your all, and it still did not work out the way you planned. Acceptance is having a Plan B and still being ok if you have to turn to it. Acceptance is not the same as giving up. Acceptance eases you off the hook, when you want to do more, or want things to work out differently, there are just sometimes you have absolutely no control over the outcome. Acceptance lets you say, hey it's not me. It is just the way it worked out. But, ...
acceptance does not mean you have no responsibility in the results.
For today, I accept that I am less than perfect and I also accept that I can do a lot more than I have been doing. I accept that today is another day to try better. I accept that happiness is not found in chocolate.
Most of all, I accept that it is my right (and responsibility) to take charge of my own life.
Like Julia Roberts (in Pretty Woman), (throwback alert) - I get to say 'Who, I get to say When and How Much"
Today, I am going to do more, just because I can. :)
Happy Friday, sparkies!
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
The more I do to benefit myself and live mindfully, the easier it is to see that there is no magic elixir.
It is simply living as if everything I do matters. There are consequences. The trick is to make the most of your choices, so that the good outweighs the bad, and it helps me to live a happier, more complete existence.
I am working on getting more organized. The trickle down effect is that I am not as rushed in the morning. When I am not as rushed, I leave the house in a calmer state of mind. When I am at ease when I leave the house, I am less likely to freak out in traffic. (i.e. honking or swearing).
When I drive peacefully to work (30 miles one way), I feel more energized to handle my workload in a positive manner.
When I handle my workload in a positive manner, I can get done what I need to, and know that I need not complete everything on my list at this very minute.
When I approach my work in a sensible way, I can employ my work life balance and get out of there at a reasonable hour.
When I am not frazzled with my schedule, I can leave work relieved and resume the commute with a carefree attitude.
When I am not leaning on the horn or screaming (I am after all, a Jersey Girl at heart), I arrive home in a controlled manner, and I am able to tackle my evening duties, and be nicer to my DH.
When I realize that all of these things work together, and I consciously fit them together to work for the greater good, I have a system in place that helps me accomplish my goals, and helps me move closer to my long term success. It's a win-win-win-win situation.
So far today, I am right on track.
How do you stay organized, sparkies?
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