Friday, August 05, 2011
I read someone's blog recently about a cheating hubby and it put me in a dark frame of mind. While I did not get cheated on per say, I did have that sense of loss and betrayal. It's behind me now, and it happened over a year ago, and I was very vocal about the situation and how I would not tolerate that kind of thing in our marriage. I sometimes can't help but think about how it impacted me, and still does, despite time healing wounds to some extent.
I can't control how someone else acts. I can only control myself and my reaction to what happens. I look to the serenity prayer and there is wisdom in those words. God, grant me the serenity. That is not easy to come by: serenity. But, I found it. And you know where I found it? On a bike, in the middle of an interval. In a place where I was absolutely busting my rump and giving it all I had and thensome to push through. Sure, I wanted to stop but I dug in deep and pedaled on. In that moment, (yesterday), I knew I absolutely have all of the strength in me I need to do anything I want.
Operation Go Me is born.
I am celebrating myself for all of my achievements: big and small. In fact, there is no small achievement. They are all good.
I put up a new set of numbers identifying our address. They look good! The old numbers were falling down and as any fireman will tell you, if they can't find your address, they can't find you. This has been on the hubby's to do list, and while he did make an effort, they still fell down. I did my own thing today and voila! GO ME!
I mailed a letter to a sick friend. Go Me! (keeping the post office in biz one letter at a t time!)
Watched my DVR'ed Shark week specials: Go Me!
Did some Wii Country Dance: Go Me!
Sparked: Go Me
Well I think you get the picture. Do not let another person, place or thing set your self worth. That is up to you.
It's up to you to say: Go Me!
Saturday, July 30, 2011
All I have to do is lose 25 pounds.
Eight times in a row.
Then, I will be golden.
Not saying it is easy, but it does seem less daunting then saying I want to lose 200 lbs. :)
Have a great day, Sparkies!
Friday, July 29, 2011
Turning around things is easier than you think. It is easy to get so overwhelmed at times, that you get ready to throw in the towel, and think you are never going to be able to do it.
All you need to do is an about face, and take one step in the right direction. That's it. Just put one foot in front of the other (like Kris Kringle) and just go.
That's how it happens for all of us. We all struggle from time to time. The victory is not in the being perfect, it is from getting up from when you have fallen down again. There is no bed of roses waiting. It is all in the journey. The journey can be full of thorns and missteps, and do-overs, but it is all okay. Just start over and go from there.
I challenged myself this week to do something different. Something I never ever thought I could do. And I did. I waved the white flag. I surrendered and did the once unthinkable thing for me.
I asked for help.
And you know what happened? I got it.
Just what I needed. A fresh perspective.
A perspective that made me stop and say, Yeah, I can do this and I am perfectly capable of having the victory myself.
Yes, I am capable.
Yes, I have fallen, (but I have gotten back up.)
Yes, I am exercising.
Yes, I am keeping my sugar under control.
Yes, I am losing.
And I am doing it one step at a time.
If I can do it, so can you. There is room for all of us in the winners' circle.
Hope to see you there.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
OK, I am struggling here, mostly because the scale keeps going up. I know why: I AM EATING TOO MUCH, and frequently TOO MUCH of the wrong thing. In some ways, my head is in a good place, but I am easily derailed, and distracted and wonder WTF is going to happen next. I am losing my grounding. My blood sugar is good, in fact, better than ever, but not only is my weight a problem, I am now the highest I have ever been in recorded history. (That, of course means, I had many days of never setting foot near a scale, so who really knows.)
I ABSOLUTELY NEED TO KICK IT IN GEAR - AND BY IT - I MEAN ME!!!!
Please share your 3 best tips with me for getting IT done!
This is not the time to hold back, ... if you want to give me your version of shaken Mickey syndrome, then do it. Sometimes, we all need a kick in the pants. This is my time.
T H A N K Y O U !!!
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Whoa. I just did a little clean up on my sparkpage, and inventoried (for lack of a better word) my friends. Some people have been MIA for months and I did not know it. I wonder if they got sidetracked, or overwhelmed, or didn't think it was working, or just gave up? I wonder. I would like to think that they stretched their wings and are soaring high overhead, completely cured of overeating, and now just exercise without putting another thought to it. Alas, if it were true, it would be lovely.
For me, I sustain myself with the support and encouragement of my Spark friends. I get as good as I give. I enjoy the camaraderie as well as the nudges to work a little harder or to pat myself on the back a little stronger.
I've had patches of roughness and bumps in the road, too, sparkfriends, but I am stronger for having you here with me. Thank you for all of the advice, kinship, and cheering you have done on my behalf as I inch closer to my goals.
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