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Getting back into the Swing

Monday, July 18, 2011

I'm making adjustments and getting myself back into a routine that includes regular exercise, stress relief and sparking. All in all, a good thing. It is taking some practice to get into the habit of making real time for myself, not just squeezing out little bits here and there. It takes an effort. It takes a thought process and a commitment to make it actually happen, and not just be something I mean to do, but just never get around to it.

My office was renovated for me last week. It was a thought bubble in my boss' head but it materialized and he made it happen for me. Wow. It's a big deal to me. I didn't ask for the changes, but already I feel really good about it. It is nice when someone treats you like you really matter. It shows in their attitude. We should absolutely have the same good feelings aimed towards ourselves. We need that same good will.

Here's to arming ourselves with self worth, and the belief that we do matter and need to do things for ourselves that further our own cause. I am doing really good on the front to improve my blood sugar. It's been under 100 all week for my fasting pre-breakfast number. Good stuff! Now, if I could only get a better handle on my weight. I know if will start to drop when I pay more attention to portions and more attention to consistently exercising. I am working on it. For the meantime, the high number is not in the mood to budge. I'll fix that, among other things.

Happy day sparkies. Try to stay cool!

  
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MOJAVEMAMA 7/18/2011 4:12PM

    It is hard to make time for yourself, but it is important not only for you but for the ones you care about too. emoticon

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GAYLE-G-63 7/18/2011 2:51PM

    One day at time...You can do it!!!

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SARAWALKS 7/18/2011 1:25PM

    emoticon Mickey! emoticon and you are worth it! How great that your boss recognizes that! emoticon

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WINTERSMAGIC29 7/18/2011 1:17PM

    Glad you're working on making time for yourself! Good for you! Hurray on your fasting numbers! Mine are usually around 125 and I'm not happy with my A1C , need to work on that too! emoticon

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and then a lightbulb went off

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I've been exercising with intent for exactly one day now.

I had to go to an all day business retreat yesterday. I started the day off by getting up early, going to the gym, working out on the stationary bike for 20 mins.

I felt calm all day. In the past, I would be overly irritated by having to deal with the few people that royally get on my nerves. They didn't or should I say, I didn't let them. I felt relaxed and confident.

I neglected to take my blood sugar before I started exercising, but I still took it before I ate breakfast. 89 !!! That is my lowest score to date. My levels are a game of inches, everything effects the number, but minutely slow. My best reading until then was a 95. It took me months for it to be lower than 96. and then Bam, on the bike and it's 89. Whoa!

It blew me away that the bike could make that much difference. That is a GIANT incentive for me to keep it up. My blood sugar is telling me, Exercise, dammit! And I am going to do it.

I am doing other things lately which have also helped in cutting the number back - stopped eating late at night, and I am making progress on the eating more cleanly front as well. It's all coming together for the greater good. Mine!

Woo hoo!

What was your lightbulb moment, sparkies?

  
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GODDESS181 7/22/2011 6:19PM

    Our bodies are pretty amazing. They put up with whatever we do to them and show their approval when we get it right. Congrats on your light bulb moment!
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PINKAMBER18 7/20/2011 8:44AM

    When the light bulb goes off it's always such a great feeling isn't it?! Amazing what a difference even just a little exercise can make! Keep up the hard work!

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 7/18/2011 5:02PM

    Congrats on the great numbers! Our light bulb moment was when the Mr had a health scare that was enough for us to be scared crapless for a weekend and then told it was a condition reversable with weight loss. We haven't looked back!

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RIGBY31 7/18/2011 4:38PM

    My light bulb moment: "I " have to do it. Not someone else. Not someday maybe. I know this is basic stuff, but I'm a little dreamer and live in fantasy land sometimes. You're doing terrific! I can hear the energy in your blogs. Keep up the good work!

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GEORGIA_KAY 7/15/2011 9:19AM

    Marsha--I've missed reading your wonderful posts. So glad to see you back here again!

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DIFROMWYOMING 7/15/2011 8:48AM

    So wonderful to hear from you Mar, I'm happy you are having some great moments. Miss you!

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WINTERSMAGIC29 7/14/2011 2:16PM

    I love those ah ha moments! Wish I'd have one soon, I'm in a slump. I think the summer heat and humidity is getting to me. But I did start my day off right yesterday with some exercise and it kept me going all day.

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REDSHOES2011 7/14/2011 12:25PM

    My light bulb moment was listening to my hubby making excuses for me being fat to our kids and the day we three had to put the lid on his tiny trim coffin was the final nail so to speak.. 6 years later my kids are not over their dads death- they kinda expected me to die first..
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RUNNER12COM 7/14/2011 12:01PM

    Slow and steady, definitely. It all helps!

My moment was realizing that I don't have to be all or nothing on this journey. Setbacks and missteps are all part of the process.

Good luck!

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CIVIAV 7/14/2011 11:31AM

    Yeah, I know I have had them, my Spark Page shows one of thinking of myself as a warrior.

Your blog makes me think of some scenes from the movie Doubt where they showed light bulbs going out in certain situations. Funny that we don't notice in life when the light bulbs don't seem to be on!

WTG MICKEYMAX!

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CHERKYLE 7/14/2011 10:40AM

    That is so great!! I have probably had several lightbulb moments but they havent been drastic enough to push me forward. That being said, I dont want something drastic to happen (ie heart attack, diabetes etc) so maybe in fact your blog will be my lightbulb!

Thanks!

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CHANGE_4_ME 7/14/2011 10:32AM

    not sure I've had an aha moment this time around yet. Keep up the good work!

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SOXFAN76 7/14/2011 9:43AM

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SHAVALLAMA 7/14/2011 9:33AM

    That's amazing.

Mine, I don't know what exactly caused it, but it happened. One day I decided hey... I'm going to do this... and I have!

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Burial Grounds

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

This has been a weird month for me, but I have come out on top. Unfortunately, that is where my weight is sitting also. Weighed myself this morning as a starting point, and I see now that I am at my highest weight. If I didn't face it, I would just be doing more hiding, and that only leads to more damage and more of the same.

I have not been exercising. Quitting the gym did save on finances, but it did not save on my health. I am not a disciplined person. If I am not forced, I will not do, even if I know it is the absolute best thing for me. It spills over into workouts, eating, and even homework. I do tend to go through phases where I become a virtual machine and nothing can stop me. Those moments seem to be few and far between lately. I need a little bionic man intervention!

In this past month, I have dealt with my uncle's death (and subsequent visit to a crematorium (now, that's a weird place!) my dad being hospitalized, followed by my mother being hospitalized within a couple of days of him getting out. She is still in there.

I am trying to pull myself together, and I will. I am working from home today and have jumped off with my to do list. Being active helps, and I am going to get myself in order. It has been too long where I have accepted that it is OK to be like this. It's not. I see myself on a crash course for death if I don't make some drastic changes pronto.

It's time for me to bury my past, and step out into the future.

  
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CAROLFAITHWALKR 8/20/2011 2:52AM

    I'm a confirmed omnivore, who's been studying a plant-based diet. I will never be a vegetarian, however the benefits of juicing (also something I said I'd never do) and and eating plant-based, is coming in from so many sources I can no longer argue. I'm convinced now. It's a good way to reboot and jumpstart your program, while also being the absolute healthiest thing you can do. So I have alot of staples on hand already (pasta, rice, beans, barley, bulgur, quinoa, couscous, etc) and decided from this point forward I'm spending 99% of every grocery dollar on fresh produce only. See my blog on Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead, if you're interested.

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NEHITA 7/13/2011 12:23PM

    Oh, I'm so sorry everything is just hitting you at once. But, I'm glad you back and starting to take a lot of steps in the right direction as far as a trainer. Or just try something simple as walking - that don't cost nothing.

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 7/12/2011 11:09PM

    I'm so sorry for everything going on right now. I know it can be difficult to feel like focusing on your health when so much is going on but in times where you have no control over so many circumstances around you, focus on the things you can control like eating and exercise. It can make life feel a little less chaotic.

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RIGBY31 7/12/2011 9:52PM

    Oh my, lots going on with your world. HUGS!
Making and working from a list is excellent, especially if things are piling on and can't be sorted easily. Just try a little bitty bit of fitness, just to get a clean breath of air... all for you.

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CHERKYLE 7/12/2011 3:00PM

    I can relate so much to not pushing yourself. I am the same way. I will keep you in my thoughts! Hoping that you and I will get there eventually! I am restarting with 15 min/day fitness and water. Want to start with me? emoticon

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 7/12/2011 11:29AM

    I'm Hoping you are feeling lots of encouragement from your friends! This is sent from my phone or I would say more! *hugs*

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DOODIE59 7/12/2011 9:18AM

    It sounds like you have a lot on your plate.

Do you have a friend that you would feel comfortable taking an exercise class with, or could commit to every second day walks? A buddy really does help:)

I know you know you need to take control of your health so find something that you genuinely enjoy so that it will become a permanent part of your future. Do you like being outdoors? Would you like to take hiking holidays? Find out what gets you excited and latch on to that:)

Fast or slow, this is a journey we need to take so the most important thing is to just keep going. Just. Keep. Going. (Fall down seven times. Get up eight):)

You can do this, Mickey. And remember, any improvements you make to your life are victories. You don't have to hit a certain weight to be feeling a whole lot better. Eating better and moving more ... you'll feel better right away.

I am "holding" at between 20 and 25 pounds lost, and even when I feel bad about this, I KNOW I feel way better than I did when I started.

Blessings --
Deirdre

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KEKEIKO 7/12/2011 8:44AM

    Beautifully said. You're dealing with a lot so remember one step at a time will bring success. emoticon emoticon

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ALLEENAME 7/12/2011 7:39AM

    Great idea to have the to do list. This will get you motivated. I have a sick other half at home so my routine is mucked up too. When it all gets on top of me I go for a walk around the yard and listen to the ipod. At least it is some exercise and a break from other people.
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One Meal at a Time

Thursday, June 09, 2011

I am taking back my control one step and one meal at a time.

Too often, I have been grabbing whatever is available and grabbing more without any thought to the consequence or the way it would make me look and feel.

Last night, I pulled a previously baked chicken breast out of the fridge. (hubby had vacuum sealed it for freshness), shredded it, mixed it with a little Saucy Susan (throwback!!!) and cooked some veggies in the microwave. It was small. it was simple. When I was done eating that (and made it all on one plate), I stopped eating for the night. I did have some more water, which was good also. During my best successes, I drank water almost exclusively. So it means I will steer away from the Crystal Light and Diet Cokes for a while. It does not mean I can't drink anything else, but water will be my first choice.

This morning, I got up a smidge earlier and made oatmeal. Later I had some string cheese and a pbj on whole wheat. More water.

It's the simple act of making an effort on my own behalf which reinforces to myself that I am worth it and I begin to act accordingly. I am worth taking my time over. I am worth not rushing so much to work that I feel like breaking out into road rage. I am worth having a nice tidy place to live and work. I am worth making choices that feel good to me, and I am worth taking things at my pace.

Right now , I feel good about the way things are falling into place. I have a long way to go until my body is in the place of health and fitness that I want it to be, but for now, I am stepping out in faith, and making one good effort at a time.

  
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LBEEKMA 7/7/2011 8:02PM

    Yes, we are worth it! Thanks for the reminder.

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SLIGHTLYBRAINY 6/23/2011 10:57PM

    It really is all about one choice at a time. One good choice almost always leads to another. Stay mindful not of what you eat, but the choice that you make. That seems to make it so much easier.

Terri =)

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 6/9/2011 3:46PM

    Mickey, I believe you have the secret to success here. Great blog, and thanks for reminding me I can't do it all at once! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NEHITA 6/9/2011 3:16PM

    You are doing a great job. All it takes is small steps. I remember when I first started out I struggled with my glasses of water and now I crave it especially with a splash of lemon juice. I have looking into getting a water cooler at home because I drink so much water. Now if I drink like a diet coke it is like strange to me because I've gotten so use to water.

So, all it takes is small steps. You go for it!!! You doing great!!! emoticon

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STARRPARENT 6/9/2011 3:06PM

    Doesn't it feel so good to make great choices??!! You feel like you're in control.

Keep it up!

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CIVIAV 6/9/2011 1:57PM

    Consciousness is a blessing...

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DOODIE59 6/9/2011 1:36PM

    Hi Mickey
Good for you! Conscious eating includes thinking about each meal before you take a bite. I have been known to eat the equivalent of a meal while preparing one -- one nibble at a time.

I find that gathering each of the items I plan to eat together AND RECORDING THEM before I sit down to eat really helps ensure that I am not eating outside acceptable choices or unreasonable amounts. The recording helps because sometimes I'm able to say: "Hmm, I see I have more than enough food here and I'm going to be "over" regarding calories ... so maybe I'll cut the sandwich in half and wrap the second half for tomorrow's lunch".

Also, just a thought, since you were musing about making an effort on your own behalf -- if you had a friend in who was trying to lose weight ... what would you make HER for lunch? I bet you'd go out of your way to create a delicious salad, prepare a pretty and crunchy fruit salad, etc. Treat yourself the way you'd treat your best friend:)

Best wishes:)
Deirdre

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MUMMYUK2 6/9/2011 1:17PM

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Celebrating Small Victories

Friday, June 03, 2011

I am going to jump right into it today --- here are some good things I am celebrating this week.

1) Made chicken with lemon juice, lemon zest and fresh ginger. It's the first time I zested!
The chicken came out great, and I will be making that again soon. (no recipe, just winged it....get it? winged it...just a little chicken humor).

2) I called the library about the overdue books. (confession --- the library was in Boston -- where I lived 6 years ago. The books were overdue longer than that. ) Made amends.

3) Called the Health care office to find out what was holding up my hubby's claims. Fixed that.

4) Got rid of 3 bags of old clothes, and 2 bags of books to Purple Heart. Can you say curbside pick-up? It was beautiful. I even got a receipt for taxes. Yippee!

5) Worked out with Wii today before work. Woo hoo.

6) Sparked. Now. Missed it. Love it.

I am making good progress in all areas of my life with baby steps and accountability to myself. I have many things to work on, and it is nice to see decent and healthy progress. Woo hoo!

What good things are you doing for yourselves, sparkies?

  
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DOODIE59 6/4/2011 11:34PM

    Sounds like a very satisfying week. That's all good stuff. You get all that stuff done and it doesn't just fix problems, it clears out your mind -- gets rid of the mental clutter. Awesome work!

Hope your next week is just as good:)
Deirdre

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THEONEBLUEGECKO 6/3/2011 11:04PM

    Yay! Those are some great accomplishments and that chicken sounds wonderful.

My accomplishment today is getting back to sparking after being a bit MIA.

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JOYMEDSALE 6/3/2011 10:36PM

    Way to go! Chicken sounds good!!
Have a great day and keep up the positives! We miss you when we don't hear from you!

Joy

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MUGGLE_MOM 6/3/2011 8:29PM

    Wow. That is just wonderful! I am so excited for you!!! Whoooo Hooooo on all those great things! Loved your chicken humor! You totally ROCK! Glad to have you back at Spark!!!!

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WINTERSMAGIC29 6/3/2011 7:37PM

    Keep up the great work!! You rock!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 6/3/2011 6:36PM

    Hurray! I think you have done emoticon

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IMIN2GENES 6/3/2011 6:26PM

    Way to go! It sure sounds like you're making great strides everywhere. Keep up the great work!
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