Thursday, July 14, 2011
I've been exercising with intent for exactly one day now.
I had to go to an all day business retreat yesterday. I started the day off by getting up early, going to the gym, working out on the stationary bike for 20 mins.
I felt calm all day. In the past, I would be overly irritated by having to deal with the few people that royally get on my nerves. They didn't or should I say, I didn't let them. I felt relaxed and confident.
I neglected to take my blood sugar before I started exercising, but I still took it before I ate breakfast. 89 !!! That is my lowest score to date. My levels are a game of inches, everything effects the number, but minutely slow. My best reading until then was a 95. It took me months for it to be lower than 96. and then Bam, on the bike and it's 89. Whoa!
It blew me away that the bike could make that much difference. That is a GIANT incentive for me to keep it up. My blood sugar is telling me, Exercise, dammit! And I am going to do it.
I am doing other things lately which have also helped in cutting the number back - stopped eating late at night, and I am making progress on the eating more cleanly front as well. It's all coming together for the greater good. Mine!
What was your lightbulb moment, sparkies?
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
This has been a weird month for me, but I have come out on top. Unfortunately, that is where my weight is sitting also. Weighed myself this morning as a starting point, and I see now that I am at my highest weight. If I didn't face it, I would just be doing more hiding, and that only leads to more damage and more of the same.
I have not been exercising. Quitting the gym did save on finances, but it did not save on my health. I am not a disciplined person. If I am not forced, I will not do, even if I know it is the absolute best thing for me. It spills over into workouts, eating, and even homework. I do tend to go through phases where I become a virtual machine and nothing can stop me. Those moments seem to be few and far between lately. I need a little bionic man intervention!
In this past month, I have dealt with my uncle's death (and subsequent visit to a crematorium (now, that's a weird place!) my dad being hospitalized, followed by my mother being hospitalized within a couple of days of him getting out. She is still in there.
I am trying to pull myself together, and I will. I am working from home today and have jumped off with my to do list. Being active helps, and I am going to get myself in order. It has been too long where I have accepted that it is OK to be like this. It's not. I see myself on a crash course for death if I don't make some drastic changes pronto.
It's time for me to bury my past, and step out into the future.
Thursday, June 09, 2011
I am taking back my control one step and one meal at a time.
Too often, I have been grabbing whatever is available and grabbing more without any thought to the consequence or the way it would make me look and feel.
Last night, I pulled a previously baked chicken breast out of the fridge. (hubby had vacuum sealed it for freshness), shredded it, mixed it with a little Saucy Susan (throwback!!!) and cooked some veggies in the microwave. It was small. it was simple. When I was done eating that (and made it all on one plate), I stopped eating for the night. I did have some more water, which was good also. During my best successes, I drank water almost exclusively. So it means I will steer away from the Crystal Light and Diet Cokes for a while. It does not mean I can't drink anything else, but water will be my first choice.
This morning, I got up a smidge earlier and made oatmeal. Later I had some string cheese and a pbj on whole wheat. More water.
It's the simple act of making an effort on my own behalf which reinforces to myself that I am worth it and I begin to act accordingly. I am worth taking my time over. I am worth not rushing so much to work that I feel like breaking out into road rage. I am worth having a nice tidy place to live and work. I am worth making choices that feel good to me, and I am worth taking things at my pace.
Right now , I feel good about the way things are falling into place. I have a long way to go until my body is in the place of health and fitness that I want it to be, but for now, I am stepping out in faith, and making one good effort at a time.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
If you're wondering if you missed Part 1, no you haven't. It was in my head yesterday, and i just never got it out of my head and on to the page.
I like to make deals.
Frequently with myself - although - sometimes, I will drag God into it --- or yard sale sellers.
I did get a good deal on a nice office chair (which I am sitting in right now). She wanted $15. I offered $10. She took it. Hubby wheeled the chair down to the car.
I got up on my third consecutive morning before 6am and went for a walk. YUP! I did. I am not going far, just 1,000-ish steps (today I went a smidge further) but I am thrilled at myself for literally taking that first step towards a healthier me.
I've had success before. Lots of it. And this is how it was built. One step at a time.
I've been reluctantly dragging my feet for the last year or so, that somehow I could miraculously change things if I was.....doesn't matter what...I was just doing things in a half-hearted (I was going to use another word there, but this works) manner and it would still come together. No, it didn't. So now, I am walking again, starting with one block, and today walking to the slightly further away second block and circling that.
I am still making bedside deals. If I get up and walk now, I can come back and .... go back to bed if I want. Now, though, I am energized and there are so many better possibilities to do with my time.
I'm going to go get rid of the newspapers piling up, get gas, see if a fruit place is open. Make a strategy for the week, pile up the laundry. clean the bathroom...It's going to be a great day ahead. We'll go do something fun when hubby gets home from work.
Have a fabulous day, everyone!
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