Wednesday, March 23, 2011
There's freedom in health. You can do what you want. You don't have to stop and think about it - Can I do this? The hesitation and the worrying are gone. You can stop fretting and move with ease and know that step after step, your body will be there to support you.
I had a good week. Last Friday, I had the day off. My boss gave it to me as a nice little bonus. I was ready for it. I enjoyed it. I tackled overdue errands and soaked up as much of the sunshine as I could. It was a perfect 70 degree day. As I was moving trash containers around outside, I was thinking what a gift it was to be able to move freely. Even though my knee has been bothering me as of late, I have been able to walk, and get around without issue.
There's a lot of freedom in being able to do things and go where you want to without stopping to worry about - will I fit on the ride, squeeze into the booth? have a place to sit? You know these questions if you have asked them yourself.
The answer is not only can you do it ---- but you should. My quality of life has improved dramatically when I make the small steps to improve my cardio, eat better, move around more. Success begets success. It's easy. Once you start moving a little and prove to yourself that you can do it, you want to do more.
So that is where I am. I have proved to myself that I can do it, and I want to move a little more.
What are you going to ask yourself today, sparkies?
Friday, March 11, 2011
I was truly tired going to bed last night. It wasn't even 10pm, and I was already in there. I remember wanting to eat, but deciding to go lay down instead and this thought popped into my head.
What if, I had absolutely no angst about anything. What if, I could just accept things as they are (including myself) and just know, deep down that everything works out, and no amount of me pushing and pulling against things is going to make a bit of a difference - except making myself nuts in the process.
What if I am completely capable at my job, and can do things well, and at times, not do things so well, and it is all still perfectly fine. Would I stop worrying about things then?
What if I accepted myself, flaws, good points, and all, and just knew, and deep down believed that I am fine just as I am. I was having a Stuart Smalley plus Sally Field moment. I am good enough, I am smart enough and doggone it, people like me. They really like me.
There's where I went last night. I put the thoughts of food aside; I pushed the concerns of the day and meetings out of my head; I stop fretting. I went to sleep and woke up feeling relaxed and realizing that is just where I am now.
I am accepting of who I am and where I am going. I know I can handle things, and I know I am facing some nonsense at work, but all of those things will work out - and I don't have to get all wacky about them,
Things are working out exactly as they should, and I choose to believe that my part in them will all work out fine.
Happy Sparking and HAPPY FRIDAY!
Wednesday, March 09, 2011
My boss dropped by my office for a late lunch break. He invited me for pizza. I went but just had a diet snapple. We talked about how that guy IS getting the job and how I should "let it go" ha ha. Yeah, I will be all right - not happy about it - but proud of myself that I ate well today - and stuck to my plan, drank water, skipped pizza, and when I did snack - I chose an orange.
I did exercise as I promised myself. I had a good day despite issues of which I had no control. This too shall pass. Woo hoo!
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
All it takes is a little belief. If you can't find it in yourself. Find it in Spark. If you can't find it in Spark, come to me. I will believe in you.
I've been off and on the wagon more times than I can possibly count. What has always made me succeed when I was on the wagon? The realization that someone (has been various people) has believed in me. Dare I say it, now? Yes, at times, like now - it has been me, myself and I that have been the driving force behind the belief.
There are so many others. Those of you who will comment on this page are certainly at the top of this order, and I appreciate it, more than you know. It's this little group that has pulled me along, even when I fought it kicking and screaming.
I exercised tonight, just like I said I would. That little act of sweating (and breaking personal records on wii batting practice) has an outstanding effect on my belief system. Yes, I can do it. Yes, I am doing it.
Right now, it is not about the 200lbs I am going to lose. It is about the 30 mins of exercise I promised myself I would do. It is about the blood sugar measurement that I said I would test and I am doing it. It is about making a promise to myself and keeping it. It is remembering who I want to become and who I am. I am that ballsy chick who does not back down, no matter how tough the challenge is or how long it is going to take.
It is about making a difference in my own life and then daring myself to prove it and follow through. Yup, those are the things I am doing. I believe in us.
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