Friday, March 04, 2011
I really should have been paying more attention. I backed into a car this morning. Luckily I was going very slowly and when I heard the crunch, I stopped and moved forward. I really thought I ran over something. It would have been nice to do a rewind, but I couldn't. So, I left a note of apology and my phone number. I took pictures. I felt like crying. I texted my hubby. He was so nice about it and told me to relax - we have insurance.
Oh well. Just got to keep on going. Hopefully, the owner won't be too rattled about it. It's scratched and scraped, not seriously damaged. I feel like a dope, but this too shall pass. It is not a crisis.
Hope everyone has a great day! I am determined to turn this day around!
Monday, February 28, 2011
Sometimes, it's nowhere to be found. I waited 29 years to drop the weight...the burden of the shame I carried for so long, and I would not forgive my tormentors who were just plain mean to me. I know it's 29 years because I did the math.
For those of you familiar with facebook, you might recognize the little pop-ups on the side of your page that say, "people you might know" and much to my horror a couple of weeks ago, a person popped up who I loathed in high school. l.o.a.t.h.e.d. It was one of those kids who was so good at pointing out every one of my obvious flaws. I had many. I was a weird kid for sure, but hey we all grow out of things.
Or so I told him. Yesterday.
I was in church (fittingly) at the time when it came to me and I though well, why can't I forgive him, and just be done with it? So I did. (no, I was not on fb in church)
And next time his name popped up on my fb page, I clicked it. and sent a message that said pretty much the same thing. and I wished him well. I left out the part where I loathed him, but I did tell him he was pretty harsh to me then, and while I grew out of my weirdness, I hoped he'd grown out of his behavior as well.
I have not heard if he did or not. There has been no response, but even if there is never a response, I know in my heart I forgave him, and what is done is done.
Life is too short to carry all that baggage around. It was just one more thing weighing me down. and Now, I am done with it.
What are some of the things you have dropped, sparkies - and how has it helped?
Thursday, February 24, 2011
The Ivy League Heptagonal Championships are in NY this weekend, and it got me to thinking. Why can't "I" be a track star? Well, truth of the matter is, I can't can't be. Dig those double negatives?
I can be a track star. I just have to get my butt out there and start tracking. Walking, running, skipping, whatever. If I want to do it, I just have to do it. And stop yapping about it.
The time for moving it is now. I have just received some very good health news and it is up to me to parlay that into even better news. So, enough yapping.
I'm going outside to work on my medals.
Much love, sparkies!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
I've turned the corner in my diabetes care. While I ma still on my medication for high sugar and high blood pressure, my blood tests came back stellar. So not only does it mean that my blood sugar has dropped dramatically, but it shows that the lipids in my blood profile are looking pretty decent too.
Today, I cleared snow from the driveway, and cleaned the snow off my car for 40 mins. It felt good to be active. I see myself making good changes again.
I am working on meal plans and eating according to plan. I am expecting to be off the diabetes meds in a few months. I'm stoked about this.
I've been gearing up for a summer trip to Gettysburg and this time I want to do a little hiking. I am working on getting a little less winded and more walking under my belt again. I am moving my focus away from weight loss, which tends to trip me up and instead focus on what healthy steps I can make - physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually - and see where that leads. Inevitably, positive steps in all of these directions lead to weight loss anyway. Go Figure.
Hope everyone in sparky land is doing well!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
I know it's funny how I act that you are the last to know, but obviously you are the first to get the news. I'm coming clean that I have not been as committed to you as I desire, and I've let others get in the way of me taking care of you as I've promised in the past.
Here's what I did for you today. I drank a bucket of water, or something that felt close to it. I had a ginormous salad when I came home. I ate blueberries and a banana today. I ignored the pastries that were calling my name. I'm going to bed 2 hours earlier than I have been.
I stopped hating you for things that were out of your control. I decided to let you ask for some help and the biggie - I accepted it when it came along.
Here's what I am doing for you tomorrow: I'm going to get up early enough to make a breakfast smoothie. I'm going to have some time to feel organized in the a.m. and not rush around like a chicken. I am going to fit in more salad and opt for fruit instead of junk. I am going to make time for walking, even if I am so busy with the system crash clean-up, I will march in place....and under no circumstances will I ever, ever give up on you.
We're bonded for life. Thanks for always being by my side.
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