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Friday, March 04, 2011

I really should have been paying more attention. I backed into a car this morning. Luckily I was going very slowly and when I heard the crunch, I stopped and moved forward. I really thought I ran over something. It would have been nice to do a rewind, but I couldn't. So, I left a note of apology and my phone number. I took pictures. I felt like crying. I texted my hubby. He was so nice about it and told me to relax - we have insurance.


Oh well. Just got to keep on going. Hopefully, the owner won't be too rattled about it. It's scratched and scraped, not seriously damaged. I feel like a dope, but this too shall pass. It is not a crisis.

Hope everyone has a great day! I am determined to turn this day around!

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MICKEYMAX 3/8/2011 10:25PM

    Update to the mishap. The guy called me back -= I left my phone number on the note. He told me he didn't see anything bad, and not to worry about it. HAPPY DANCE!

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GROOVYCHICK9 3/8/2011 10:57AM

    I have done that too. That is what insurance is for. Don't beat yourself up too much about it.


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DIFROMWYOMING 3/6/2011 12:10AM

    Let's hope this was your one car accident and no matter what it comes out to be...you were just fine! That's the important part. I always hate when things happen to me, too, but you took responsibility and like your husband says, that is what insurance is for! Hope it all goes smoothly and the other people are understanding.

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GEORGIA_KAY 3/5/2011 10:17AM

    Nobody was hurt, and you've got the right attitude about the whole thing. Good for you! :) emoticon

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TINARENA2 3/4/2011 2:19PM

    It's so easy to do this, don't fret about it too much. I'm sure the other person was very thankful that you left the note. It will work out. emoticon emoticon

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DOMINICKSMOM05 3/4/2011 12:19PM

  It happens- we all have these experiences so shake it off and just make the best of it :)

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    That is always so frustrating. I turned once a bit to sharply when going out of a parking lot and left a foot long scratch on a car (a $500 scratch), so frustrating because you really do wish you can just hit the undo button and try again.

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    It sucks but good for you for taking responsibility and leaving your number!

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Forgiveness is a Funny Thing

Monday, February 28, 2011

Sometimes, it's nowhere to be found. I waited 29 years to drop the weight...the burden of the shame I carried for so long, and I would not forgive my tormentors who were just plain mean to me. I know it's 29 years because I did the math.

For those of you familiar with facebook, you might recognize the little pop-ups on the side of your page that say, "people you might know" and much to my horror a couple of weeks ago, a person popped up who I loathed in high school. l.o.a.t.h.e.d. It was one of those kids who was so good at pointing out every one of my obvious flaws. I had many. I was a weird kid for sure, but hey we all grow out of things.

Or so I told him. Yesterday.

I was in church (fittingly) at the time when it came to me and I though well, why can't I forgive him, and just be done with it? So I did. (no, I was not on fb in church)

And next time his name popped up on my fb page, I clicked it. and sent a message that said pretty much the same thing. and I wished him well. I left out the part where I loathed him, but I did tell him he was pretty harsh to me then, and while I grew out of my weirdness, I hoped he'd grown out of his behavior as well.

I have not heard if he did or not. There has been no response, but even if there is never a response, I know in my heart I forgave him, and what is done is done.

Life is too short to carry all that baggage around. It was just one more thing weighing me down. and Now, I am done with it.

What are some of the things you have dropped, sparkies - and how has it helped?

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CHANGE4THEBEST 3/13/2011 7:48PM

    Thought provoking blog! It is draining to think of unhappy situations in the past.... Good on you for forgiving him - it makes you the better person for doing so emoticon

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MICKEYMAX 3/12/2011 9:56AM

    An update for those of you who wondered - nope he never responded. I am not mad though - I feel a little sad for him - in that he has not become the person I had hoped - but that is on him, and I am beyond those things now. I felt like I needed to speak up for myself and I did! NEXT!

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BAYBELIEVER 3/2/2011 10:16AM

    Congratulations! I work on forgiving people and struggle with it. It is so awesome that you found it in your heart to forgive and now it is no longer a burden to you!

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DJS-DEBBIE 3/1/2011 10:38PM

    I am working on dropping some things right now...I'll get back to you on this.

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TJCADDO 2/28/2011 5:53PM

    You know, what is strange about people like the one your described they usually forget their bad behavior and who they tormented because that is just the way they live their life.

They really made an impact on your life, but you were probably just a mere blip in their's.

They never really hold themselves accountable and find people who not hold them accountable for their actions, think Charlie Sheen and Sandra Bullocks ex-husband.

When someone does hold them accountable, it get really ugly.

Glad that you have learned to stand up for yourself with humor, wit and yes, the right form of kindness.

By them not dropping you a line means that they are probably not hiding out from shame, but that you are no longer a target.

I'm proud of you, that's hard to do. emoticon emoticon

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GAYLE-G-63 2/28/2011 2:04PM

    I too struggle with forgiving people who have hurt me. I'm proud of you for being able to do it and tell the person. You're doing great.


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DEBBIE_J 2/28/2011 1:21PM

    Being a military brat was hard for me since we moved 2-3 times a year from the time I started school up until the 10th grade. Kids can be really mean...being the new kid always meant being bullied and teased, sometimes even beat up or severely humiliated in front of groups of people. Most of the time it was someone being mean to show off in front of their friends. If I did make friends, it was short-lived because we'd move again and it hurt to lose the friendship.

At a very young age, I learned to become disconnected from my peers and only close to immediate family members. I did have a lot of friends, but no close friends. I resented the mean kids for years. It kept me awake at night thinking about what I could or should have said or done.

After high school, I became DETERMINED to make something of myself and worked hard to get my degree and be successful. I made a point to go to my 20-year reunion and was surprised when almost everyone was there. The cheerleaders were definitely not the beauties they were in school and the football players were far from the handsome hunks I remembered. I was slim and fit (at that time) and had come far in my career. There were a few others like me that had succeeded but the "popular" crowd that had been so mean seemed to have had their shining moment in high school and life had gone downhill for them from there.

I guess is was true that "what goes around, comes around" and I felt sorry for them. At that point, I let go of my anger and focussed on the future. I don't lose a minute of sleep anymore thinking about them.

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    Congratulations. Isn't forgiveness such a powerful thing? It gives you control that you might not have felt around the person before and just gives you such a sense of freedom as you no longer have to carry around those emotions. We all need to forgive more, if not for others, then for ourselves.

I work everyday on forgiving my students for the mistakes they have made in the class, although it shouldn't rudeness and laziness get to me sometimes, I always have to remind myself that they are just kids and that I need to just let the things that bother me go.

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 2/28/2011 11:07AM

    That's awesome. I'm glad you feel it helped you. I just block all of the people on there I can't stand from high school so I never had to see them or have them pop up on the side thingy. I don't know that I'd expect a response from him but it's not needed anyway.

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SLIGHTLYBRAINY 2/28/2011 10:58AM

    Good for you. It is very hard to let go of the hurt that we carry around, and we all let go in different ways. But once you do a whole new world can and does open up.

And the best part of that, the new world has nothing to do with food anymore!

Terri =)

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PROMISE2DESIGN 2/28/2011 10:23AM

    It's amazing what pops up and reminds you of pain you've never let go. You did the right thing forgiving someone that didn't ask for it. You did it for yourself and not them. Forgiveness has given me freedom to keep a positive attitude. The freedom to not be reminded of bad feeling that turned into eating binges. emoticon

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JOURNEY2DESTINY 2/28/2011 9:54AM

    That was beautiful. To forgive is the most divine act of God's grace we can show to one another. It is what we ask God to do for us when we have done sinful things, but often times have to be dragged--kicking and screaming into forgiving someone who may have wronged us.

I carried lots of baggage from my past as well. I became bitter and angry about some of those things, but I found in God's love that I had to let go and allow His will to be done. Sounds like you have too. The greatest thing was that, when I finally let go, God brought those things back to me, full circle with apologies and all. I was then truly able to say, "It is ok. Let's let the past go."

Keep Sparkin'

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STARRPARENT 2/28/2011 9:43AM

    Not forgiving someone hurts you more than it hurts them. It's hard to forgive. Especially when someone has hurt you so much. I'm so very happy that you were able to! When I've forgiven someone it's like a release of sorts!

emoticon You should be so proud of yourself!!

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MAMADWARF 2/28/2011 9:38AM

    Good for you! Bet that felt great! I have forgiven some people for some hateful stuff. I visualize putting it all behind this massive heavy wood (kinda like in a castle?) door. I push it shut with all my might and when it starts to open up (to go over it all again), I lean against it and push it shut again. I NEVER let it open. As long as it is behind the door(cause it is never really gone), I can move on and keep it behind me.

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IMIN2GENES 2/28/2011 9:37AM

    Thanks for sharing your story. I think I'm going to take stock of things and see what excess baggage I've been holding on to that can go. What a great thought!

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STLSUE01 2/28/2011 9:33AM

    Thank you for sharing this. This is an issue I struggle with. In my head, in theory, it's easy, but then I wonder, if it's gone, if the anger and the hurt go, what takes its place?

I know that sounds strange.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 2/28/2011 9:27AM

    I agree life is too short and the only person it hurts is us, not the people who hurt us. I forgave my father for all the years of abuse and while it was hard it was very necessary and it helped me to not be such an angry person anymore.

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Why Can't I Be A Track Star?

Thursday, February 24, 2011

The Ivy League Heptagonal Championships are in NY this weekend, and it got me to thinking. Why can't "I" be a track star? Well, truth of the matter is, I can't can't be. Dig those double negatives?

I can be a track star. I just have to get my butt out there and start tracking. Walking, running, skipping, whatever. If I want to do it, I just have to do it. And stop yapping about it.

The time for moving it is now. I have just received some very good health news and it is up to me to parlay that into even better news. So, enough yapping.

I'm going outside to work on my medals.

Much love, sparkies!

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(The closest thing they had to a medal)

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    Woo hoo! You can do it!

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RIGBY31 2/24/2011 5:32PM

    On to victory! emoticon

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PROMISE2DESIGN 2/24/2011 5:15PM

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SLFRISBEY 2/24/2011 5:14PM

    And after that's done, you aren't ONLY a track star, but a ROCK STAR too! :)

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    Good for you. All the choices we make can help our dreams come true. Be a track star. Be a super star. Be everything you want to be!

Terri =)

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MUGGLE_MOM 2/24/2011 4:16PM

    Yes You Can!!!!!
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LARIJOY 2/24/2011 3:22PM

    Yes you can!
I loved it when I started jogging. Can't wait for the snow to go, so I can get back in it.

Glad you got some good health news!!!

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BRAVENEWGRL 2/24/2011 1:41PM

    love it! We can all be track stars!!!!

I just decided to run a marathon. Thought I'd rather die than do it. I"m scared out of my wits - but I'm doing it! Even if I have to walk!!!

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SHELLEY147 2/24/2011 1:29PM

    emoticonyou are so right...YOU CAN DO IT!! Love this blog!! ~hugs~

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TREASURINGLIFE 2/24/2011 12:54PM

    LOL - you make me smile! :)

Have a great day and enjoy your time out there moving and working towards those medals of yours! ;)

- Michelle

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I Amaze Myself

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I've turned the corner in my diabetes care. While I ma still on my medication for high sugar and high blood pressure, my blood tests came back stellar. So not only does it mean that my blood sugar has dropped dramatically, but it shows that the lipids in my blood profile are looking pretty decent too.

Today, I cleared snow from the driveway, and cleaned the snow off my car for 40 mins. It felt good to be active. I see myself making good changes again.

I am working on meal plans and eating according to plan. I am expecting to be off the diabetes meds in a few months. I'm stoked about this.

I've been gearing up for a summer trip to Gettysburg and this time I want to do a little hiking. I am working on getting a little less winded and more walking under my belt again. I am moving my focus away from weight loss, which tends to trip me up and instead focus on what healthy steps I can make - physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually - and see where that leads. Inevitably, positive steps in all of these directions lead to weight loss anyway. Go Figure.

Hope everyone in sparky land is doing well!

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BAYBELIEVER 2/28/2011 12:33AM

    Congratulations on the great news on the health front! That is awesome, and I knew you WOULD do it! You are amazing!

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    Congratulations, that is great news. You are doing such a stellar job!

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TJCADDO 2/23/2011 11:41AM

    That's wonderful!!!! Getting healthy and being able to do 40 minutes of manual snow removal is amazing!!! Keep going, keep going. emoticon emoticon

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DIFROMWYOMING 2/23/2011 9:10AM

    emoticon Good job, Mary!

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RIGBY31 2/23/2011 12:47AM

    Absolutely... positive steps in the right direction will get you there! Glad your numbers are good.

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PROMISE2DESIGN 2/23/2011 12:19AM

    You are doing it!!!!

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COUNTRYNINJA 2/22/2011 10:50PM

    Doesn't it feel good to feel good about yourself?!?!

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SARAWALKS 2/22/2011 10:00PM

    What wonderful progress you're making!
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Hiking those battlefields will be great exercise and I know you'll be ready to enjoy it!
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DEBBIE_J 2/22/2011 9:20PM

    Wow, that is certainly something to be amazed and proud of! It's almost unbelievable how diet & exercise can impact our health. Keep up the good work!

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MUGGLE_MOM 2/22/2011 8:29PM

    You totally ROCK!!!!!
Congrats on taking such good care of yourself!

I fully agree, when you take care of the rest of the 'stuff' the weight comes off. You Go Girl!!!!!

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Dear Self

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Dear Self,

I know it's funny how I act that you are the last to know, but obviously you are the first to get the news. I'm coming clean that I have not been as committed to you as I desire, and I've let others get in the way of me taking care of you as I've promised in the past.

Here's what I did for you today. I drank a bucket of water, or something that felt close to it. I had a ginormous salad when I came home. I ate blueberries and a banana today. I ignored the pastries that were calling my name. I'm going to bed 2 hours earlier than I have been.

I stopped hating you for things that were out of your control. I decided to let you ask for some help and the biggie - I accepted it when it came along.

Here's what I am doing for you tomorrow: I'm going to get up early enough to make a breakfast smoothie. I'm going to have some time to feel organized in the a.m. and not rush around like a chicken. I am going to fit in more salad and opt for fruit instead of junk. I am going to make time for walking, even if I am so busy with the system crash clean-up, I will march in place....and under no circumstances will I ever, ever give up on you.

We're bonded for life. Thanks for always being by my side.

Cheers, sparkies!

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TJCADDO 2/17/2011 6:18PM

    I love it!!! Considering how we crash burn our bodies they are usually pretty forgiving. What you are going to do for your body is wonderful and imagine it will be thanking you for your improved ways soon. emoticon

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RIGBY31 2/17/2011 12:06PM

    Reassuring SELF is loving, comforting.

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CHANGE_4_ME 2/17/2011 11:18AM

    great blog. I often try to get up earlier but I'm just not a morning person. *Sighs* I've even tried telling myself I am a morning person, but my body told my brain to stop lying. LOL

((HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY))) Vibes your way!

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LOOKN_UP 2/17/2011 8:34AM

    Awesome! emoticon

You have great writing skills by the way. emoticon

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    Hurray! That is a great outlook!!! emoticon

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MUGGLE_MOM 2/17/2011 7:22AM

    Beautiful. Just beautiful!!!!

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PROMISE2DESIGN 2/17/2011 3:25AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I love this blog!!! Good planning!

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DEBBIE_J 2/17/2011 12:14AM

    Very well said. I love your positive attitude!

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AFTERMYKIDS 2/16/2011 10:27PM

    emoticon and just kindof funny as well. I was looking back through some old blogs & found a letter I wrote to myself. Now how cool is that. YOU will really enjoy going back & rereading this later. Good for you for taking care of YOU!! emoticon

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 2/16/2011 10:00PM

    Your body thanks you. emoticon

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BRIDEJEN 2/16/2011 9:46PM

    WOW I think I should write my self a letter.

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