Wednesday, March 09, 2011
My boss dropped by my office for a late lunch break. He invited me for pizza. I went but just had a diet snapple. We talked about how that guy IS getting the job and how I should "let it go" ha ha. Yeah, I will be all right - not happy about it - but proud of myself that I ate well today - and stuck to my plan, drank water, skipped pizza, and when I did snack - I chose an orange.
I did exercise as I promised myself. I had a good day despite issues of which I had no control. This too shall pass. Woo hoo!
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
All it takes is a little belief. If you can't find it in yourself. Find it in Spark. If you can't find it in Spark, come to me. I will believe in you.
I've been off and on the wagon more times than I can possibly count. What has always made me succeed when I was on the wagon? The realization that someone (has been various people) has believed in me. Dare I say it, now? Yes, at times, like now - it has been me, myself and I that have been the driving force behind the belief.
There are so many others. Those of you who will comment on this page are certainly at the top of this order, and I appreciate it, more than you know. It's this little group that has pulled me along, even when I fought it kicking and screaming.
I exercised tonight, just like I said I would. That little act of sweating (and breaking personal records on wii batting practice) has an outstanding effect on my belief system. Yes, I can do it. Yes, I am doing it.
Right now, it is not about the 200lbs I am going to lose. It is about the 30 mins of exercise I promised myself I would do. It is about the blood sugar measurement that I said I would test and I am doing it. It is about making a promise to myself and keeping it. It is remembering who I want to become and who I am. I am that ballsy chick who does not back down, no matter how tough the challenge is or how long it is going to take.
It is about making a difference in my own life and then daring myself to prove it and follow through. Yup, those are the things I am doing. I believe in us.
Friday, March 04, 2011
I really should have been paying more attention. I backed into a car this morning. Luckily I was going very slowly and when I heard the crunch, I stopped and moved forward. I really thought I ran over something. It would have been nice to do a rewind, but I couldn't. So, I left a note of apology and my phone number. I took pictures. I felt like crying. I texted my hubby. He was so nice about it and told me to relax - we have insurance.
Oh well. Just got to keep on going. Hopefully, the owner won't be too rattled about it. It's scratched and scraped, not seriously damaged. I feel like a dope, but this too shall pass. It is not a crisis.
Hope everyone has a great day! I am determined to turn this day around!
Monday, February 28, 2011
Sometimes, it's nowhere to be found. I waited 29 years to drop the weight...the burden of the shame I carried for so long, and I would not forgive my tormentors who were just plain mean to me. I know it's 29 years because I did the math.
For those of you familiar with facebook, you might recognize the little pop-ups on the side of your page that say, "people you might know" and much to my horror a couple of weeks ago, a person popped up who I loathed in high school. l.o.a.t.h.e.d. It was one of those kids who was so good at pointing out every one of my obvious flaws. I had many. I was a weird kid for sure, but hey we all grow out of things.
Or so I told him. Yesterday.
I was in church (fittingly) at the time when it came to me and I though well, why can't I forgive him, and just be done with it? So I did. (no, I was not on fb in church)
And next time his name popped up on my fb page, I clicked it. and sent a message that said pretty much the same thing. and I wished him well. I left out the part where I loathed him, but I did tell him he was pretty harsh to me then, and while I grew out of my weirdness, I hoped he'd grown out of his behavior as well.
I have not heard if he did or not. There has been no response, but even if there is never a response, I know in my heart I forgave him, and what is done is done.
Life is too short to carry all that baggage around. It was just one more thing weighing me down. and Now, I am done with it.
What are some of the things you have dropped, sparkies - and how has it helped?
Thursday, February 24, 2011
The Ivy League Heptagonal Championships are in NY this weekend, and it got me to thinking. Why can't "I" be a track star? Well, truth of the matter is, I can't can't be. Dig those double negatives?
I can be a track star. I just have to get my butt out there and start tracking. Walking, running, skipping, whatever. If I want to do it, I just have to do it. And stop yapping about it.
The time for moving it is now. I have just received some very good health news and it is up to me to parlay that into even better news. So, enough yapping.
I'm going outside to work on my medals.
Much love, sparkies!
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