Monday, February 07, 2011
I did it.
I ate breakfast. I had a healthy lunch. I did not snack on candy. I drank my water. I went for a walk (in the sunshine).
When I was tempted, I prayed.
I am bouyed up by all of the inspirational tales I read on SP this morning.
It's a GREAT DAY so far! I am filled with encouragement!
Friday, February 04, 2011
I am doing it, but I am doing it kicking and screaming.
I have been struggling so much lately, and that is because I am surrounded by things out of control and I am powerless to stop life from spinning. This is nothing new. My reaction is a bit off kilter, and this is what I am working to change.
I can't fix my parents' health issues. I can only control my reaction to it.
I can't stop traffic irritations. I can only control when I leave to go somewhere and deal with conditions as they are.
I can't stop people from doing things I wish they wouldn't - I can only control whether I ignore it or obsess over it. I am working from changing these responses from these to just acknowledging them if need be and then trying to let them go.
I am getting in my own way lately. I have a lot on my plate (no pun intended) and most of it is there because I put it there (again, no pun intended - but it is very apropos.)
Just for today, I am not going to stew that a colleague is up for a significant promotion and I have to interview him for said position. Truth be told I am mad as hell about it - but I need to get over my bad attitude pronto so I don't say something stupid. Where is the girl that used to have such an open mind? I cannot remember what I did with her!
Just for today, I am going to find a way to walk for 30 minutes.
Just for today, I am going to cut myself some slack, and stop pretending that I can somehow be perfect.
Just for today, I am going to set up a plan and track my carbs.
Just for today, I will spark and remember how much I enjoy doing that.
Happy Friday, Sparkies!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
My commute this morning was sucky. Predicted snowfall began 12 hours early, surprising even the weather channel! Ha! Accidents all over the place, and one in particular which slowed down the first half of my drive to about 2.5 mph over the course of 5 miles. It was a long stretch of letting the brake pedal up slowly, inch ahead, and then repeat. My calf was burning, and it made me think of two things:
1) could I count this as strength training for my calf?
2) Though moving inch by inch, I was still moving, still headed in the right direction, and eventually, I was going to reach my destination.
Hmmmm. Food for thought. I was not racing, but I was still making progress. Even though I was barely moving at times, I was still a bit closer to my goal. I was well ahead of where I'd be if I left later in the morning, or where I'd be if I went off track. It made a lot of sense to me this morning, to take my time, just keep moving little bit by bit, and eventually I would get there. I stopped being concerned about the timing of when I would get there, just that I would do it safely.
That's how my journey for health is shaping up. I am moving SLOWLY towards my goals, but eventually I am going to get there. Sometimes when it seems I am spinning my wheels, or barely moving, I am doing okay, because eventually I will inch forward again. Until then, it is important that I keep my eyes focused straight ahead and just keep going.
It took me longer than I had hoped when I started out this morning, and I know I have similar feelings in my journey. Getting to my destination and meeting my goals will be all that more richly satisfying when I do keep moving ahead bit by bit. I'm not in a race. I'm just moving ahead bit by bit.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
The good thing about being stressed about work, is that you can't sleep. If you can't sleep, you get up. So, I am up earlier than normal, allowing me extra time to spark, and make and eat breakfast, without wolfing it down on the way out the door. I'm also planning to hit some balls, wii style for a few mins to get jazzed up before heading to work.
For breakfast, I made my new concoction - light vanilla soymilk, i/2 a frozen banana, sliced frozen peaches and give it a spin in the blender and it is frothy, and frozen-ish and seems more substantial then it is, and truth be told, not bad. It fits into my meal plan and along with a pb sandwich, I am good to go. I wanted to throw some nutmeg in there, this morning, but my DH has the spices in disarray, but I did find some pumpkin pie spice, which in truth, may have been better, woo hoo!
I'm not sure what I am taking for lunch, or if I am taking a lunch - or will perhaps locate food at work, but breakfast is off to a good start. I think I will bring my stand-by snacks, apple, string cheese, yogurt, and nuts and get lunch later. There is a cafeteria in my building, and I can generally find good choices there.
I should NOT have read my work email before bed. It made me fixate on this problem brewing that a big cheese will not like the answer to - the person addressed in the note with me is not as savvy as myself and I'm expecting that he may say something stupid. Not to be harsh, but he's new and doesn't often think through the ramifications of his words. I prefer to respond, offering choices in this case, and let the big cheese be part of the decision process, and if it goes awry, then the cheese does not necessarily stand alone. ha! not necessarily. :)
I took a minute to remind myself of the few challenges I have tackled with finesse in my work experience to take the edge off the morning. Those were true tests and I passed those with flying colors. All will be fine - even if I have to abandon the new guy at the curb. I am not in a reporting relationship with said new guy - even though he fancies himself "above" me because he has a higher pay grade and title.
I'd actually be fighting with myself to get up at this point, and my alarm is going off. I wouldn't call myself perky today, but I am doing much better than I'd normally be at this point. I met with my diabetes educator last night and she gave me some healthy tips about staying on track and adding variety to my menus. I have a tendency to hang onto one item and have it so much, I get sick of it and then fall off the bandwagon. My next goal is to work on meal planning. Now that I have some help from the educator/nutritionist, it should be a bit easier.
Well, off to the wii! I hope you all have a great day! Let's think happy thoughts!
Friday, January 21, 2011
I have just come inside from an hour of snow shoveling and cleaning off my car. 60 minutes of moving is MAMMOTH for me. I am stunned that I had not collapsed in a heap in the driveway. Maybe my version of shoveling, is the lazy man's version of shoveling, but I don't care. I moved, and darn it, I feel good. My nose is running, my lips are chapped, and I am a little frosty, but none the worse for wear. My car AND the driveway are clear. My mail"girl" will have no problems and my hubby will be surprised.
I had checked out of physical outdoor activity for some time. In fact, I am home from work yet again, because of a bit of snow and my fear of walkways. Luckily, I have a boatload of vacation time stored up and it has no effect on me for payroll. It's been rough on my hubby though to carry the burden of doing everything for us like this. Now, I can give the man a break. We do have a snowblower, but it wasn't really enough for that, just enough to be a nuisance. Reminds me when I used to of live in Boston. :)
I've been exercising bit by bit again. Fun exercise - even though - I normally would not put those words together. Something is wrong though with your approach if you can't make it all fun. I try to set up my life and goals to aim toward happiness. I think my dad partially set me on the path when I was young and had dropped out of yet another college. He told me, "Happiness was not one of my priorities." It always struck me as a kind of sad way to live. Au contraire, happiness is one of my priorities, and that's how I live my life.
I have been feeling overwhelmed and stuck these past few days. Try to balance my need to keep my blood sugar even, my emotional eating tendencies, my relationships, my job, and life has been feeling out of control. I stopped spinning,,. and here I go, putting forth just a little more effort than yesterday, and I am shoveling for the better part of an hour and end up physically feeling good.
That's just what it takes for me to pull myself out of that hole. Feeling good, getting it together, moving forward one step at a time. It just takes a little effort.
Happy Sparking, sparkies!
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