Friday, January 21, 2011
I have just come inside from an hour of snow shoveling and cleaning off my car. 60 minutes of moving is MAMMOTH for me. I am stunned that I had not collapsed in a heap in the driveway. Maybe my version of shoveling, is the lazy man's version of shoveling, but I don't care. I moved, and darn it, I feel good. My nose is running, my lips are chapped, and I am a little frosty, but none the worse for wear. My car AND the driveway are clear. My mail"girl" will have no problems and my hubby will be surprised.
I had checked out of physical outdoor activity for some time. In fact, I am home from work yet again, because of a bit of snow and my fear of walkways. Luckily, I have a boatload of vacation time stored up and it has no effect on me for payroll. It's been rough on my hubby though to carry the burden of doing everything for us like this. Now, I can give the man a break. We do have a snowblower, but it wasn't really enough for that, just enough to be a nuisance. Reminds me when I used to of live in Boston. :)
I've been exercising bit by bit again. Fun exercise - even though - I normally would not put those words together. Something is wrong though with your approach if you can't make it all fun. I try to set up my life and goals to aim toward happiness. I think my dad partially set me on the path when I was young and had dropped out of yet another college. He told me, "Happiness was not one of my priorities." It always struck me as a kind of sad way to live. Au contraire, happiness is one of my priorities, and that's how I live my life.
I have been feeling overwhelmed and stuck these past few days. Try to balance my need to keep my blood sugar even, my emotional eating tendencies, my relationships, my job, and life has been feeling out of control. I stopped spinning,,. and here I go, putting forth just a little more effort than yesterday, and I am shoveling for the better part of an hour and end up physically feeling good.
That's just what it takes for me to pull myself out of that hole. Feeling good, getting it together, moving forward one step at a time. It just takes a little effort.
Happy Sparking, sparkies!
Friday, January 07, 2011
Be ready for joy to appear in your life and it may surprise you.
Yesterday was one of the those cringing 12 hour days. You know the kind when people are constantly pressing your buttons all day. We had some really difficult customers yesterday. Very high maintenance. There were a couple of total meanies, but also a couple who were very nice which helped to balance out that rough crowd.
My last call of the day was from a woman who had a bit of a problem which I helped her to fix. She was quite lovely, and when I was saying goodbye, she told me the world would be a better place if there were more people like me. Here's the kicker: it's the first time that someone said that to me, that I believed them. Geez, I turned a BIG corner.
During the height of yesterday's festivities, I stopped to get a snack. I had two exceptional students in here helping me and I treated them to luscious looking cupcakes. I wanted to swim around on the frosting alone. Ok, sue me. I have a sweet tooth. tee hee. The girl behind the counter asked me if I wanted something else. At that point, I had only ordered the cupcakes. That's when I grabbed the banana. I think there is a part of me that likes to buy the treats, and I am perfectly ok with not eating them. Buying them satisfies some part of me. Weird. I know. It is weird, but I am okay with that too.
Despite yesterday's nuttiness, I am perfectly happy right where I am in my losses, and in my fitness gains. Having issues for almost all of December has set me back a bit, and truth be told, I do not yet have my eating down pat, but I am making great strides in getting myself together.
This week, I brought my lunch 4 out of 5 days - and each of those days was a salad with some accompaniment (not like a piano, ... chicken). I am devising outfits in advance so I am not scrambling in the a.m. to throw something together. I stopped wearing the "too short anyway" khakis to work. I am putting my salad together in the fridge the night before.
I still need to work on my sleep and iron out a few other details, but all in all, I am on a good journey, and when I keep at it, good results will come. I've done the New Year's resolutions to death and while I like the idea of a clean slate, I don't find much credence in setting myself up for too lofty goals that will pushed aside by Feb. Instead, I am concentrating on becoming a more alive version of myself - one who fully embraces all that I have to offer and then follows through. That's where I am going to focus my energies. One day at a time. Just keep following through.
Thursday, January 06, 2011
You don't need a reason to go for a walk. Just go.
I had a morning meeting across campus, so I had to go, and I was psyched that although I couldn't really wear sneakers on my walk - I could add it to my fitness minutes. The first meeting took all of 8 mins to finish. That was with Mr. Down to business. Places to go, people to meet. Fine with me. I did the handoff, and then though now what am I going to do with the extra time until my next meeting? (It was in the same building).
I had 20 mins to kill. I could have just stayed there, or gone to talk to some of the people I was meeting with. Truth is, I don't really "like" some of those people all that much. They frequently make my job tougher than they should by not sharing information and the like.
So... I decided to go for a walk. In the cold, for 10 mins. I did. I enjoyed it. I also happened upon a little outdoor performance going on (those diehard theater students) and watched it for a couple of mins. Later when I walked by some of the group again, it gave me a moment to give them a little positive feedback. :) Warm and fuzzy is always nice.
Five mins before the meeting, I walked back. It too, did not take long and it involved having to walk all the way around the building and up the spiral staircase - more walking. I returned to my office feeling lighter and refreshed.
Even though I had my reasons for my walk, I really didn't need one. I'll try to remember that tomorrow.
Have a happy Sparky day!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Did you ever have one of those moments where you thought, "Oh man, I hope that never happens..." and then it does,,,,and you wonder how you are going to live past it?
Once at my last job, I was reporting sales figures to my boss, and I accidentally sent it to the wrong person - our competitors! That was a bad day --- I sent "other figures" to them but I was distracted and sent them to the wrong spot. I confessed immediately, even though I felt like hurling. My boss was mad, but I didn't get fired.
My natural inclination was to go hide in my office all day - you know - keep a low profile - but we had a very high profile event going on later in the day, so I had to show my face. When I saw my boss, I told him about my hideout plan but that I just could not stay away. He laughed and told me not to do it again, but that everything was ok. (Yes, it really was hard to leave that job when I did; I loved those people.)
So this brings me to my point, (finally), that just because I did not have a stellar week, I am not going to go into hiding. If anything, this is the time I need to be more visible and transparent, especially to myself. I need to be honest with what works, and clearly, for me, chocolate isn't it. ha ha.
The good news is I have a lot of room for improvement. And I am on that road. :)
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
The handwriting is on the wall, as they say. If I don't start taking care of myself PRONTO, I can expect to live the life my father has lately. He is back in the hospital, having suffered another heart attack on Christmas eve.
I had a doc's appt on Monday with the gallbladder specialist. The "snow-nado" displaced that until tomorrow. I am grateful. I have been dreading going and having an extra day or two helped me to get "psyched up" for it.
Christmas was nice. DH gave me a kindle. That was exciting and surprising. All of the other things he gave me were geared towards being supportive too, He was happy with his loot too, and handled the change in plans on Christmas to go see my pop and family with ease, even though it included the dreaded Jersey Turnpike! Ha ha ha.
I am making big strides towards getting my eating and exercise plan together. I go back to work in a week. I need to do some decent housecleaning and get organized to make sure my time at home is not wasted on laying around, although I have been doing a lot of that. I have been so darn tired lately. Part condition, part medication, part laziness. :)
I have so much I want to do. I remind myself that it all starts with a single step. I make my own choices. I put my life in motion. I manage my own response to the life events around me.
I am a very strong (some would say exceptionally) strong woman. I have been through a lot in my life, and no doubt will be through a lot more. It's been tough at times, but it helps me to appreciate the wonderful, blissful moments of joy in my life and see a lot of good, that others might miss. I am keenly aware of my own gifts and how I fit into the picture. I didn't always have such an easy time with that.
Where do I go from here? I make an eating plan for today and stick to it. I'll make a run to the grocery store and get more frozen veggies. I'll pick up some apples and bananas. I know what to do - I just need to do it!!!!!
Then I need to start to exercise. I'll do some wii around the Christmas tree. and If I am a good girl, I'll hang out with my kindle later. :)
Hope you all have a very festive day and a beautiful new year! It's our time to renew and refresh ourselves.
What are you going to do for yourself today to refresh and renew?
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