Wednesday, December 15, 2010
I hit my 25 lb weight loss milestone today! Woo hoo!
I know if I had not been diagnosed with diabetes a couple of weeks ago, I would still be spinning my wheels. I was re-gaining and losing the same 10 pounds over and over. Now, I have just been at a happy deficit. True, I have OVERHAULED my eating habits and I have cut out most junk. I'm not prepared to cut it out for life, I just don't have it as frequently (read every day) and when I do have it, I just fit it into my carb count.
Truth be told, I am rocking it! I keep imagining myself in the lower quadrant and the next thing, I know, poof! I am there. I am sitting in the mid 370's. It feels so good to be on my way to the 360's. I am doing the happy dance! The 200's are in my sights! It's been years since I was down to where I am now and I am enjoying myself right where I am.
I will be at my MIL's on Saturday, helping my hubby to put up her tree. I have already started planning how I will pack some food to take with me. I had been trying to keep my diabetic news on the down low so I would not freak out my mother, but now that I have told her (go me!), I do not have to fret about keeping this "secret." I can be open about actively taking care of myself. It makes things easier about doing what I have to do for myself. There's no hurt feelings in "I am a diabetic, and I have to do certain things to keep myself healthy." I am really proud of myself! Woo hoo!
Here's to a healthy day for all.
What have you done to celebrate one of your milestones, sparkies?
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
My Sapphire sister and sparkbuddy - Larijoy - is well named -- she is JOYFUL!
This Wisconsin-born cutie pie is ready to let her inner athlete shine! This girl has a great can do spirit and impressed me with her ability to change her own oil! Whoa! She has a great spirit, can get her groove on, likes Usher, The Killers and the Foo Fighters. Like me, she has a soft spot for cartoons, and even though, I like more old school, like Scooby Doo, Larijoy digs Phineas and Ferb.
Larijoy and I are going to dance our way through this meltdown challenge. I'm happy to visit her most every day to help keep us both on track. We each have our own programs that we are working - and hoping to get the same good results!
I love my sparkbuddy, Larijoy!
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
I can't help but think a conversation with my mother is behind my recent weight loss. On a trip home during Thanksgiving weekend, my mom had a few mins alone with me. Initially she was pumping me for info about a rough time I had with my DH. I did not really want to tell her the specifics even though the episode was behind me. But I did give her the reader's digest condensed version. In that same convo, we talked about how being fat wasn't really about the food. (My mother is a rail). It was the first time in a long time, it seemed to me, that my mom understood...me.
Then she asked me if I was happy.
That's a biggie.
The she said she just wanted me to to be happy.
Whoa bigger one.
I've waited and wanted this acceptance from her my whole life. Who is this woman and what have you done with my mother?
And since then, I have been dropping the pounds.
I have a lot more on my plate (so to speak) since then. Chief among these, kidney issues and diabetes. I was also told yesterday that I have gall bladder disease. WTF! I did start crying when I hung up the phone from the doc's yesterday. It's been one thing after another these last few days. Honestly, it's been a lot to take in, but it is better than hearing you have cancer or something else. So I will just go to the specialist and hear what he has to say in a couple of weeks.
So for now, I am focusing on maintaining my blood sugar in an appropriate range and learning to make my body more receptive (instead of resistant) to insulin. I went to the diabetes nutrition specialist last night and she was helpful in learning to put all of the pieces together. Basically, it's just "good eating" - along with monitoring your sugar to make sure you are not ingesting too many carbs at one time. I can do this. My body is giving me a reason to do this.
I'm off work for the rest of the month. This rachets down my stress level enormously. I am taking advantage of this time by focusing on myself for a change. It's freezing cold here but I am going to go get my hair cut today. I am excited about that. :) I'm going to go to the supermarket and pick up a few items that will fit into my plan. I have the luxury of putting myself first these days.
What can you do for yourself that keeps you at the front of the line?
Happy sparking, sparkies!
Thursday, December 09, 2010
I'm still dealing with Cap'n Kidney Stone and will go today for ultrasounds (one for kidney, one for gallbladder) and tomorrow I will meet with a urologist.
I thought Mother Nature was being a little b*tchy when she sent me "shark week" this week as well. I have not had that sucker in MONTHS,...but when I am down and vulnerable, you send it? HA! I seem to be all kinds of bloated one minute and nearly drained the next. Fluid intake is your friend.
I feel like I am mobilizing to come to my defense with all my medical issues. A few days on the bp meds, my bp has dropped to normal/excellent. I am either not hungry or not as focused on food. I will say I am a whole lot less ANXIOUS. I was always fretting about work issues (many of them internally) and my people pleaser mode put me on edge, but I am much more chill these days. I am letting work take care of itself (actually one of my staff members and my boss are splitting my workload).
My portion control is happening naturally. I am taking smaller bites, eating when I am hungry and drinking tons of water. My body is undergoing a lot of changes on its own. I am just here as the caretaker, and I am finally getting a little better at my job.
I weighed in today at 379.4. I have not been at this weight since before 2008. Good things are happening, and more on the way.
What do you do to take good care of yourselves, Sparkies?
Friday, December 03, 2010
Pick up telephone.
Nurse calling from the Doctor's office.
We got your blood work back.
Do you have diabetes?
Response: Oh yeah,...you do.
I did a good job of not going "aaaaaah" into the phone. Apparently there were no notes on my chart that said, "break news to patient gently."
Am I kind of freaked out by it? Yes. But, it's the best thing that has happened to me recently. I could not kick my own booty into gear. I was spinning my wheels and not putting a great effort into my health. This bit of news and a few other tidbits has turned me into the poster child of wellness.
1. I have left work after 8 hours most days, instead of 12+ hrs,
2. I am eating fruit instead of juices, scones or other things.
3. I've lost 3 lbs this week.
4. I've taken all my meds.
5. I told my hubby I need some downtime this weekend. (he does, too.)
6. I made an appt with a nutritionist (Dec 13).
7. I have to work an event tonight, so I am not going to go into work until later.
8. I am setting parameters with clients at work. I'm working things out according to my schedule.
9. I am delegating like crazy. Us control freaks sometimes have a hard time w/ that.
10. I laughed at my own antics this morning. This tells me more than anything, I am going to be just fine. I'm back to normal.
What blessings in disguise have you had, sparkies? And have I told you how awesome you guys are? You ROCK!!!
Have a great and healthy Friday. Woot! Woot!
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