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The Body Talks Back

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Last week I was talking to my body - and now, my body is talking to me.

I wasn't up long yesterday when I started to feel something between a pinch and a side stitch, and nauseous. I finally broke down and made a doc's appt. I had last been at the doc's a year and a half ago. How's that for ignoring your health?

I think it was my Dad's recent heart attack that pushed me to think about returning to the doc's. Then the onset of the pain. I am glad I went. Apparently, I also have high blood pressure, and possibly a kidney stone. I have to go get an xray later today. Bloodwork done last night.

I cancelled our gym memberships last night. I have not been there in about a month, and the hubby in about 2 years. Since we moved, it is more of a hassle to get there, and it seemed to put more pressure on us, than not. We're joining in the exercise video route together. Us doing the work together will make a big difference to both of us, I think.

I am looking forward to the lifeline of the BL competition (Sapphires) to get re-motivated and kick started. I am tired of losing the same ol' 10 pounds, and then putting it back on...repeatedly.

Hoping everyone has a happy and HEALTHy day!!! Let's get healthy, sparkies!

  
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LOOKN_UP 12/1/2010 2:31PM

    Sent a prayer for you. Take care.
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SARAWALKS 11/30/2010 1:41PM

    Good decision about the gym! I haven't regretted dropping my membership at all. I love using Leslie Sansone DVDs and walking outdoors and doing some free weights which are so easy to find at Target or Walmart. LOTS you can do for yourself & it will be fun to do it together!
The DVDs really kicked off my cardio. I just hated having to drive to the gym and back, plus risking getting viruses from the sick people who went there and used the machines without wiping down properly. I'm not sure you CAN even wipe those machines down properly...
yes, seeing those same old pounds go by again is kind of discouraging!
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COUNTRYNINJA 11/30/2010 12:09PM

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HANG IN THERE!!!

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TERRIJ_1 11/30/2010 11:59AM

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RIGBY31 11/30/2010 11:54AM

    I think it's sooo brave to stop the gym membership. If that's not where you are, who needs the added pressure/reminder/taunting. You're trying another tactic and that's terrific too. Keep focussing on your health and all will fall into place.
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ADIPOSEROSE 11/30/2010 11:53AM

    Mick, your body is definitely talking to you--warning you that unless you really, really stick to your commitment, and do everything you can give it the *exercise* as well as the nutrition it needs, in the *amounts* it needs (not what your eyes or your emotions want) the report could be even scarier next time. Please, please, please take better care of yourself, and re-read the goals on your webpage. There was a report on the news a few minutes ago of a grandmother throwing her 2-year old granddaughter over the side of a parking garage--a 50-ft. drop to the ground. The child survived the fall, but died overnight. There are too many evil people in this world--we need the good ones to hang around as long as possible! emoticon

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SHELLEY147 11/30/2010 11:20AM

    hope all goes well with your tests. Sorry you're hurting! ~hugs~

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 11/30/2010 10:13AM

    I hope you're ok! Let us know, ok? emoticon

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DIFROMWYOMING 11/30/2010 9:45AM

    Good for you finally getting to the Dr! There is nothing like finding out where you are so you can truly move forward, and I know you will!

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BJWESTON70 11/30/2010 9:44AM

    Hope everything goes well for you at the doctors. Just take it one day at a time!



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DONNAEDA 11/30/2010 9:35AM

    Some days we take it day by day. Hope all goes well with your health.

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 11/30/2010 9:27AM

    Glad you went to the doc and are looking to get answers to something you've put off. It can be scary to go to the doc and hoping he doesn't tell you what you dread hearing. Are they putting you on meds for the high blood pressure?

Who needs a gym? Home workouts rock especially in the winter.

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MEL_UNRAU 11/30/2010 9:27AM

    Oh dear! I hope you are feeling better soon!
I would love a gym membership, but they just aren't feasible right now with having to find and pay for child care and pay for the membership. Exercise videos are terrific if you have the space to do them. Have you checked out the Walk Away the Pounds videos? I really liked them! As I am coordinationally challenged, the simple moves did not leave me flat on my nose as I tried to keep up and I saw real changes with them!

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TDLEE9674 11/30/2010 9:26AM

    Glad you made a doctor's appointment... Don't ignore your body... I hope that everything goes well at the doctor.

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Talking to my body

Saturday, November 20, 2010

A few years ago, I was in the hospital and they finally said I could leave,after they got the IV out of my arm. Weirdly, something had kind of seized up and they had a really hard time removing it.

I really wanted to go home.

At one point, the nurse looked at me, and asked me if I was talking to my body.

I was.

I was impressed she noticed. I was impressed that it was having an effect.

I wasn't talking about loud. I was quietly just focusing and releasing it mentally. I was visualizing the IV slipping out.

It did not happen immediately, but it did happen.

I am going to cultivate this same feeling and use it to my benefit again. I am reading a book, "Body Redesign" by Annette Colby. She is a Tx. based therapist who I talked to once long ago. She really helped me out of a funk. Got to dig those dial-in therapists. :)

So, thanks body for cushioning me all this time. You really saved my butt (or really my face) last week when I took a header near the pavement. I am going to work with you (instead of against you). I hope you're enjoying that you are being fed in a healthier way and moving around more. You've been a good friend to me. Thank you!

What has your body done for you, sparkies?

Have a great day!

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TINARENA2 11/24/2010 8:30AM

    A good way to look at it since most of this battle is mental. I'll have to try that too!
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PARKERB2 11/22/2010 2:17PM

    I imagine my body saying Thank you for each excess pound I lose. Have a good day. emoticon

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BAYBELIEVER 11/21/2010 3:41PM

    Funny, isn't it! I do the same thing. Every once in a while I ask my body, "Wasn't that a really good smoothie? All that protein and fruit? Yum!" It may be silly, but it makes me feel like my head and my body are on this journey together!

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MSHOPPER63 11/21/2010 7:12AM

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DUSTYGIRL25 11/20/2010 1:11PM

    Such a very nice story. You have such a positive attitude and despite any setbacks and I believe that is the best medicine. I'm trying to pay more attention to my body also, it's been pretty good all my life and deserves some very good treatment now.
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RIGBY31 11/20/2010 12:01PM

    I thank my body for being a patient, awesome miracle that wants to be friends, not matter what I do to it. We're just getting to know each other for reals.

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 11/20/2010 10:18AM

    I. JUST. LOVE. YOU! I am not kidding! You have a way of lightening up the most challenging of tasks!

I would say to my body, "Thank you for keeping on going even when your ankles gave out. Thank you for bringing me forward."

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CHANGE_4_ME 11/20/2010 10:16AM

    I talk to everything including my body. =] I even talk to the SP wheel when it's spinning. Have a great day!

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ADIPOSEROSE 11/20/2010 10:09AM

    What a great idea, Mickey! Listening to your body--really listening--is helpful, too. It will often tell you whether it's really hungry, or just thirsty--or it's your *mind* telling you that you have to eat that piece of cake, not your stomach. Glad you escaped the IV nightmare. I had the opposite problem--a nurse who had no skill inserting the bloody thing--and though they say you don't remember pain, man, do I remember that! (One second more and I'd have decked her!) Are you okay now? (I'll bet that arm is really sore.)

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 11/20/2010 9:50AM

    Interesting concept! I wonder if I guido myself I can threaten the lard into releasing from my @ss because it ain't happenin' otherwise!

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RACINGSLUG 11/20/2010 8:32AM

    Ha, I love this, I'm going to have to try it.

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ONEKIDSMOM 11/20/2010 7:45AM

    I'm awed by what my body does for me. Even at my heaviest, it kept functioning! It breathed in and out, carrying oxygen where it needed to... it kept the heart beating. It gave me pain signals that spurred me to take better care of it.

The body is an amazing thing, and since we're only issued one in life, it's such a great thing to work with it, thank it for its blessings.

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Finding my Stride

Thursday, November 18, 2010

There's something to be said for challenging moments. They can help you make the best of a situation, and then find the silver lining. Wearing that attitude of gratitude makes everyone around you feel a little better too.

There was an article in yesterday's paper about the high salaries of some of the admins. Some of them are pretty shocking. It made me re-focus on that I do not love my job because of the $. Sure, more $ would be nice, but it's never been my focus on why I do a good job. My heart is in the job for the kids, and the difference I can make on even this remote level. I see myself as making a difference every day. This is so much more fulfilling than the last 2 jobs I've had - even though I loved them both at the time.

With all the crazy family stress,(parents' health at the heart of it), while handling a very busy work time and job overload, I have had the opportunity to step out (literally) and away from my desk every day. That walk clears my head --- even if that walk is on the way to another meeting.

I am holding myself to a higher standard now. I realize I WANT MORE FROM MY LIFE. Not just looking better physically, or feeling connected, but the realization that I have so much more to offer the world and I have been sitting on the sidelines too long.

I was in a meeting yesterday with my boss, and someone who reports to me, and two other people. We would have normally been at odds to some degree. As the meeting went on, I was totally relaxed (perhaps too relaxed) but I just stopped being an adversarial, and moved to a very relaxed (read silly) state. We gave the person a lot of ideas and frankly, she was shocked about how friendly and helpful we were. For the woman who reports to me, it was a dream come true for her because she has been hoping with every fiber of her being to be involved with a project like this, and it was fun to see her come alive. Everyone needs a flame like that that really ignites your passion.

What ignites my passion? I don't know yet. I've been neglecting my inner self so long, I don't even know. I'll work on that. It only takes a spark!

My plan for today is simple:

1) Handle critical list, but anything that can wait, should wait

The walk is a given. I have a meeting across campus that is about a 15-20 min walk each way. My meeting is with a big cheese. It should be an interesting appt. I suspect that we will delve into other topics there, and that is where things could be interesting.

I bought resistance bands last night. I am going to work on incorporating them into a morning and evening routine. I want to help myself along and I think do a little bit more each day will help me get there. When I go all out, I usually end up fizzling in short order.

I hope everyone is doing great in Sparkland. Have you found any untapped passions that you have ignited? Or want to ignite?

I think we can all be so much more. Let's stop selling ourselves short!

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BLUERIDGENATIVE 11/18/2010 8:44PM

    Beautiful post! The way you're managing stress with a positive can-do attitude and working healthy choices into your everyday routine is a total recipe for success and really inspiring! Thank you for sharing and for the reminder. We do all need that spark. It's what makes life feel so alive!

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DEBBIE_J 11/18/2010 1:12PM

    I'm very impressed by your positive attitude. Good for you!

My personal motto is "If you love what you do, success will come". In my opinion, salary should not be the main motivator. I've been in a position where I was promoted higher on the corporate ladder and was making the big bucks. At first, I was excited about the extra $, but that high wore off quickly when I realized that I absolutely hated the job. I was miserable and hated going to work every single day.

I now work for myself and frequently joke that I work for food, which is not really true. But... the bottom line is that I'm loving it and it makes a HUGE difference in my attitude and enjoyment of life.

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DONNAEDA 11/18/2010 10:41AM

    Its all in the attitude. You handled that meeting with the leadership qualities that you now own. You know how to motivate someone, and you will get the most out of your employees with your positive reinforcement. Congratulations You are the kind of boss everyone should have.

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PATRISNA 11/18/2010 10:08AM

    Have a wonderful day today! I think we are all searching for positive energy in our lives.
I love all the support we have here in Sparkland. I loved reading your blog.

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POOKAQUEEN 11/18/2010 9:37AM

    What a wonderful blog. Good for you, always finding the good.
You have a great plan, I love that you are walking to your meetings and I love the plan for the resistance bands. You are always an inspiration, keep up the awesome work!

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SARAWALKS 11/18/2010 8:31AM

    Gosh, this echoes what I blogged last night - at least in part! That we all have so much to offer!
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BRAVENEWGRL 11/18/2010 8:25AM

    It's almost like when we decide only to welcome positive and healthy into our lives, a switch is flipped and things really change for the better.

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BAYBELIEVER 11/18/2010 8:12AM

    This is a great blog! I am with you on finding untapped passions. I am still looking but realizing that some things from my childhood that I squelched are coming back as things I really enjoy: the first, being outdoors! I love walking and now hiking! I am glad you had such a positive meeting, for you and others. I sense a strong desire in you to encourage others (employees and the kids, as you call them). What exactly do you do?
Have a great, wonderful walk today--and the day surrounding that walk!
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Whirlwind

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

I've just about been logging in and not much else these past few days on SP. I hope to be back to "normal" in that regard later this week.

The wrap-up:

My Dad had a mild heart attack on Sunday. He didn't know it. He had an angiogram done yesterday and is getting sprung today. The blockages he has can be cleared by medication. trick point: he is really BAD at taking medication! This will take some doing!


On Saturday, I tried selling my jewelry for the first time in person. I went to a local flea mkt and sold a couple of pairs of earrings. The place was dead. A recent construction project cut off the main access so you had to be really determined to find it, and frankly most people were not that determined! ha! I did walk home (about a mile from there - while carting my loot) and I tripped and fell FACE PLANT! in the grass. I had a head and shoulder ache form it for about a day, but I was none the worse for wear. When I got up off the ground, I thanked my fat for cushioning my blow and that I did not break anything, It felt like a hard hit. No bruises either. Woot!

Hubby is back on 3am start time shifts, so we have not been seeing each other much, if at all. This will eventually return to normal and as long as he can handle it, we will dig the overtime. It is not easy living paycheck to paycheck. I need to get it together! Back to budgets and coupons I go!

I am super busy at work. I would not have expected this and actually I should be on a floating part now, but so many shows are going on and everyone seems to want some help with tickets. What up with that? It's good to have job security I guess. :)

Last week rolling into this week has not been the most positive. I've kept my chin up, my body moving, and my food aok. I dropped one of the lbs. I had re-gained and I was happy to be going in the right direction.

I'll be doing the Great Winter Meltdown Challenge with my cool BL Sapphire crowd again. Weigh-in is in 2 wks. I would love to start it at 385. I can do this!

I hope everyone is doing great. HAPPY SPARKING, sparkies!
I've been missing all of my buddies!!!

  
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PATRISNA 11/18/2010 10:12AM

    Sorry to hear about your Dad's heart attack. I hope he follows through on taking the medication. Glad you didn't get hurt too badly form the fall.


Hugs Sapphire Sister!

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DUSTYGIRL25 11/17/2010 9:35PM

    Your doing great. Just keep up the good work. I think keeping focused on our goals are the most important part. But be careful, no more falling down (literally).
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BLUERIDGENATIVE 11/17/2010 9:23PM

    I'm so glad you're okay after that fall, and to learn that your Dad will not need surgery. Way to go on losing, too in the midst of so much stress! Your positive attitude rocks!

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AMYMOHIO 11/17/2010 7:14PM

    I'm sorry to hear about your dad. My family is going through some health issues, and that can be so hard. You seem to be handling it really well, but don't be afraid to reach out! emoticon

wtg on the lb loss too!

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POOKAQUEEN 11/17/2010 7:01PM

    Glad everything is OK! I love your positive attitude, don't let the negative drag you down, there is too much to be cheerful about!
I feel you on the budget, that's me with 3 kids, even though my hubby and I both work full time. It's hard to make ends meet! Hang in there, things will get easier!

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LOOKN_UP 11/17/2010 4:06PM

    Aww, glad you're ok. Hopefully your dad takes his med's and gets better too. You have a great attitude considering the stress and drawbacks.
PS. I'd love to see pics of your jewelry. Handmade jewelry rocks! (pardon the pun)
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TWO_SPARROWS 11/17/2010 1:34PM

    I give you cudos for the positive attitude, m'darlin'!

The faceplant, well, as long as you didn't hurt yourself. Please be careful, though, cuz there is only one YOU and YOU are precious cargo!

Congrats on the flea-market success, even if it was only a couple of pieces. I remember the first sale I attended. I didn't sell a thing...but I got lots of questions and encouragement, so don't get frustrated. There are people out there that will want your creations! They just gotta find ya!

I know what you mean about not seeing hubby. Mine is a chef at a busy popular restaurant, and Christmas is just about his busiest time of the year. I never see him!


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TERRIJ_1 11/17/2010 12:25PM

    Oooops, hope you're OK

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SARAWALKS 11/17/2010 11:50AM

    Glad you are OK, dealing with the challenges - emoticon and you've even lost a pound! emoticon emoticon
I have a pill box for the week that is the best - but I think you can get them in any combination and any size, depending how many pills you have to take.
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THEONEBLUEGECKO 11/17/2010 10:45AM

    It is great to see you back here. emoticon

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DONNAEDA 11/17/2010 10:40AM

    Sounds like things are looking up for you and hubby. Just take care that you don't let yourself take a back seat in all your holiday plans.

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SHELLEY147 11/17/2010 9:32AM

    sorry to hear about your dad and your fall....glad neither is too serious! Have you tried selling your jewelry in other avenues...like Craigslist or your own webpage? That might be better sales :) Good luck with your business! ~hug~

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 11/17/2010 9:22AM

    I am so sorry you fell! I seem to find every crack and root sticking up out of the ground! Yesterday (well, you'll see if you go to my blog from yesterday), my scooter wheel went flying and I ended up on the floor! I didn't fall very hard, though, so I'm not sore today, thank goodness.

I hope your Dad will take care of his meds. Have you thought about getting one of those daily pill box strips? I used to be terrible at taking mine, but when I got that, it's much easier to remember and keep up with.

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DIFROMWYOMING 11/17/2010 9:13AM

    I always look forward to the little breaks between challenges and then when they come...I miss everyone! So I'm anxious for the challenge to start too! I am also hoping to be back at finishing weight when I start so I'm working hard to behave myself. Thanksgiving doesn't give me worries food wise...I learned to manage that years back when I was on WW....but Christmas is tricky because of the darn fudge!
Sorry about your face plant but I'm glad you're okay!
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Today's goals 11/11/10

Thursday, November 11, 2010

I need to break things down for myself so I am headed in the right direction, step by step.

Today's goals are:

1) Practice staying calm or walking away from a situation as needed
(read: yesterday I almost blew a gasket at a co-worker, followed up by a needy MIL)

2) Eat a rational portion.
(stop waiting until you are hungry enough to chew own arm off).

3) Accept help - you can't do it alone.
(Hired a student worker who is starting this morning for office work. whew).

4) Take time for yourself where you can. Don't freak out if everything little thing is not completed immediately.

5) Take care of today and let tomorrow take care of itself. (I just need to do what is in front of me today, follow my plan for today and stop worrying how long everything will take me.)

Keeping in mind, I am:
1) primed for greatness
2) healthy
3) optimistic
4) friendly
5) customer service oriented
6) READY for the day!


WOOT!

Have a happy day, sparkies!

What goals have you set for yourselves today?



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DIFROMWYOMING 11/12/2010 5:58PM

    I am going to work on new goals this weekend. Again. Until I get it right.
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BAYBELIEVER 11/11/2010 10:10PM

    Love your goals! How did it go? You sound like you have a lot going on and it is stressing you out. Add to this list: "Take some deep breaths once in a while, take 2 minutes and get some clear, crisp air in your lungs! I am thinking of you and here if you need anything more!
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DEBBIE_J 11/11/2010 9:52PM

    I love your positive attitude.

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POOKAQUEEN 11/11/2010 5:45PM

    Great blog and great goals! Hope your days goes/went great!

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PARKERB2 11/11/2010 3:58PM

    All things I've read and heard say "eat breakfast". Don't skip meals. So if you can do these 2 things really well, your good to go. Love your comments about yourself at the end. emoticon

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DONNAEDA 11/11/2010 2:00PM

    wonderful goal. I love it that its just for today. Tomorrow will take care of itself when you get there. Yesterday is forgotten. woo hoo

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SARAWALKS 11/11/2010 1:30PM

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SUSANS111 11/11/2010 1:25PM

    You can't go wrong with those goals! Way to go!

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SLIGHTLYBRAINY 11/11/2010 11:35AM

    Those are great goals. I know in reading your blogs that you seems to have gotten your workouts in check but seem to be struggling a bit with your food.

The best advice I can give, so that you are not eating off your own arm due to hunger, is to plan your food. Know what your going to eat and when. I was a coffee only person for breakfast since well before high school and it was a hard 30 year habit to break but I have breakfast every day.

You have to do what works for you but planning and knowing ahead of time what you are going to have has really helped me.

Terri =)

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 11/11/2010 10:14AM

    Oh, good job! I like the way you broke that down! emoticon

My goal today is to ride my leg scooter around the university courtyard at least one time to get some fitness in. emoticon

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WILLIAMV3 11/11/2010 9:33AM

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MGAYLE 11/11/2010 9:11AM

    Great goals! Have a positive day!

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