Thursday, September 23, 2010
Yes, actually it was all in one night. And oddly enough, I was sitting on the couch.
Along with better eating habits and motivational tips, I have received an even bigger gift from sparking and fellow sparkies. Last night I did something that even completely amazed me. I FORGAVE MYSELF.
I forgave myself for all the times I let myself down because I was full of self doubt and was afraid to try. I forgave myself for all of my transgressions, for the things I should have done, but didn't, for getting kicked out of school (well, the girls academy) but I was never really much of a Holy Angel anyhow. I just let it all go and I stopped blaming myself and pointing out the what ifs.
Here's what happened. I just about floated off the couch. I felt lighter. I felt happier. I felt, wait for it, wait for it.....NORMAL. That right there has not happened for a long time, and I even acknowledged that along with everyone else I am human.
I went to bed feeling relaxed and happy.....and FREE. I have not feel like this before. Just free. unburdened. I concurred with myself that I liked myself. Heck, I love myself. :)
I went to bed around 11:30pm and woke up somewhere around 3:45am. Decided that since I was up and awake that I "might as well" go to the gym and find my wheeeeeeee (from a blog or two ago). I left the house about 4am, drove a quarter of a mile and realized my wallet was sitting at home. Oops. Drove home and got it. Left again, and arrived to gym happy and awake and rode the bike for 35 mins. It was awesome. I felt euphoric.
My crazy week has all but evaporated. It is not any less busy. I am just not living on the edge as I was all week because I've had no physical workout. I can't go on without those. Working out keeps me sane. It keeps me from calling a co-worker a moron (to his face). :) I had a very lively day. It's close to the time for me to run out of here, but I had to share my delightful with all of you.
Hope life is treating you well, Sparkies. Remember to cut yourself some slack!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Working many hours this week and finding myself short on sleep, I decided that instead of going to the gym this morning, as I wanted to, weird though that may be, I would instead do some stretching, from the comfort of my own bed.
On practically my first move, I decide I should do my legs. With one big stretch, I get a giant charlie horse. ha ha ha. Normally, this would not make me laugh and in fact, yeah it hurt. But there was also something so funny about the whole thing to me, I burst out laughing. Thanks, universe, I needed that. :)
Been taking myself way too seriously lately. I need to lighten my load (literally) and things will be better. I don't believe in the magic of getting thinner makes you happier, but I do believe in magic and getting thinner. :)
Maybe I should stop writing blogs before coffee. ha ha ha.
The good news is that all of the special event tickets have been distributed, so we should quieter days ahead. yay! This is great, because I have a lot of work to do and need to take a walk. NOt just because I missed my gym time, and ahem, my stretching this morning, but because my library book is overdue. I don't want Public Safety showing up to claim the book. :)
Hope all is well in Spark-land. Have a super day! Hope you get to laugh it up.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
I am missing my happy buzz. I have not gone to the gym this week. Yes, I have been buried under piles of work and I have squeezed in walking time, but truth be told, walking around does not give me that same feeling of wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Yes, as a matter of fact, wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee is a technical term. My doctor accepted it as gospel when I shared it. So should you. :)
I am delightfully happy to have not just a job, but a job that I love, working with many people who I love. On top of all of that, I get to work with amazing, self-motivated college students who scored more on their SAT's then I knew points existed. In today's office discussion, we were chatting about the nervous system of the fruit fly. I laugh that the kids talk to me as if I know what they are talking about. I enjoy our camaraderie and truth be told, I am a great manager and a very hard worker. I love my job (mostly) and even though this week was a bear, it was filled with many super moments. In case you wanted to know, the nervous system of the fruit fly is located on the belly.
I need to go to the gym to get my mojo back. Going to the gym will help me keep myself in check when I want to yell at a co-worker (for being stupid). I did not yell today but I came pretty close. I'm much less easy going than my I must go to the gym for my happy buzz counterpart.
So that's what on tap for me, Sparkies --- what's going on for you?
Monday, September 20, 2010
We turned away lots of people, but they have another chance to get in tomorrow, and will still be a possibility on the day of the event. Anyway, evertyhing went fine and I kept my cool.
Ha! We are still crazy busy, but everything went fine!
Monday, September 20, 2010
I'm feeling cranky. Not enough sleep. Working with an event that is going to bring a crowd, possibly two - won't be enough seats to go around. People will be snippy. I'm choosing not to be cranky, though it will take a little work. :)
Happy Monday all!
I have a renewed sense of "You can do this, Mar" - and I intend to!
I need to re-focus on getting my veggies in --- in a healthy --- not hiding in fried goop.
THis day is going to be okay. That's the spirit. :)
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