Tuesday, September 07, 2010
Hoorah! I first woke up when hubby was getting ready for work. I rolled over and took another 20 mins. Not full on sleep, but just resting and rolling under the covers and doing a little praying.
I got up and left for the gym. Biked 30 mins. Surprised it was still dark when I left the gym.
Didn't have much time to get ready and be out the door for work, but enough so that I could do it without a very hairy commute. I like to leave early as to avoid much other traffic as possible. It does get me into my office much earlier than most, but that little extra time makes for a calmer drive, and for a more organized morning. I can also use my extra time to spark. :)
The BL Sapphire week 2 challenge --- of work out 5 out of 7 times this week -- has really lit a spark in me. I have worked out every day but yesterday, and even then, an argument could be made for my shopping trip. My bouts of movement are helping me to stay more organized. I always do better in planning and in executing when I have more to do. I think I am just wired that way.
My goal this week is to continue to work out by going to the gym most mornings. I'll alternate the bike with the treadmill and do weight training on shorter days. I am really proud of myself for getting it back together. I can see myself continuing on with the regimen as I used to do. It's what helped me the most to succeed. It is like one good decision begins a cascade of healthy decisions. I love where I am at right now.
I am telling myself: For best results, don't rush the process. It's taking time to develop into the cool, together person I am becoming. I'm happy that I recognize all of these things.
I'm just doing what I need to do. :) C'mon sparkies!
Saturday, September 04, 2010
Hubby and I took a day trip to Gettysburg, PA today. I think I stunned him a couple of times by wanting to walk more than I sat. Late in the afternoon, we did sit for a spell, but most of the day was very active - from outlet shopping for a couple of hours, mostly all walking and just breaks to try on clothes. :) I'll come back to that. We also did a round of mini golf, and stopped to help an elderly woman who took a header on the course just behind us. I did not even hear her walking until I heard the thud and a whimper. I have very good hearing, so it shocked me. After the mini golf, we drove around the battlefield for a bit, and then went and walked around town today. It was a good day!
At the Lane Bryant Outlet, I realized I am gaining a good eye for fashion. It might have something to do with watching the Rachel Zoe project and reading magazines, but I am happy not to look like a frump. The top LB size is 26-28 and i found a few possibilities, and one sweater I liked quite a lot --- but the sweater was not on sale and I was not spending $46.50 on it.
The cooler thing about that is that I actually ENJOYED trying on the clothes. It has been quite some time where I have not left a store without feeling like crawling into the fetal position for a good cry.
The clothes were snug, but they fit, or fit close enough for me to say they fit. It was a very empowering day in the dressing room. Shoes are harder --- I have big wide flat feet and the search continues for something somewhat attractive and comfortable. that is not so easy, but I will find something.
Right now I am enjoying my accomplishment of being very active today> I enjoyed my own Project Runway moments. All in all, it was a great day! I am so proud of myself. Moving and losing!
Spark on, sparkies!
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
When I was a kid, my mother wouldn't let me have an ice cream soda, and I was mad and stomped out of the house. I pushed the door hard in anger, only my hand slipped off the metal and went right through the glass. Forty years later, I still remember the shape of the jagged edge of the glass that gouged out a little piece of my chest. Five stitches is a pretty big deal to a six year old. :)
So many times in the past I have equated treating myself well with allowing myself to do whatever I wanted, no matter what the consequences were. I have done that all of my life.
Here I am today, recognizing that treating yourself well is not about having an attitude that you can do or have anything. It is about having pride in yourself and being willing to do whatever it takes to get there.
I lost a bit on Spark when I arrived and then steadily gained. Now, FINALLY, I am on the losing trail again.
To keep that momentum going, I have to be SMART.
M (Manage my food and exercise)
I am not going to have an obstacle free road. I have been down this road before and remember what I have to do. Ok, I can do those things. I need to stay focused and on track.
I'm doing the BL challenge with Team Sapphire and it's helping me keep it together. Staying focused, staying strong!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Acceptance is my body is not perfect, and it is up to me to change it.
Giving up is feeling what is the use.
Acceptance is trying harder.
Giving up is an easy way out to think you don't matter.
Acceptance is knowing how things are now, and still being willing to change it.
Giving up is throwing in the towel and forgetting that you matter enough to make a difference.
Acceptance of where I am right now helps propel me forward.
Giving up is not an option.
I went on vacay and had good intentions that were not executed. I went to the land of Pennsylvania Dutch food. Those people love to eat. I could have made many better choices. I spent far too much time in the car. I had many opportunities where I could have used the car trips to get out and walked or did push ups when we stopped, but I didn't. I gave up before we got started.
The power is in my hands today. Simply put, it is up to me to change, and this is the acceptance that I know that counts the most. I will not give up.
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