Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Acceptance is my body is not perfect, and it is up to me to change it.
Giving up is feeling what is the use.
Acceptance is trying harder.
Giving up is an easy way out to think you don't matter.
Acceptance is knowing how things are now, and still being willing to change it.
Giving up is throwing in the towel and forgetting that you matter enough to make a difference.
Acceptance of where I am right now helps propel me forward.
Giving up is not an option.
I went on vacay and had good intentions that were not executed. I went to the land of Pennsylvania Dutch food. Those people love to eat. I could have made many better choices. I spent far too much time in the car. I had many opportunities where I could have used the car trips to get out and walked or did push ups when we stopped, but I didn't. I gave up before we got started.
The power is in my hands today. Simply put, it is up to me to change, and this is the acceptance that I know that counts the most. I will not give up.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Watched a sitcom last night and the therapist said --- "Are you going to keep stuffing down your negative feelings with food?"
I have a lifetime of unresolved negative feelings.
I have been a champion at keeping score. In the thoughts of two wrongs don't make a right ---I have compared myself to others on many occasions. As much as I know in my heart, it is still even hard now to stop myself from doing it.
I know it is not just human nature, but my human nature, and in all the years that I did not count myself as worthy, or see myself as not measuring up to the next person, or holding my breath waiting for the next shoe to drop, it has been me...waiting.
Well, now is the time I CHOOSE to turn those feelings around.
In my family, this would have been called bragging, but again, that has to be a thought process that gets changed.
IT IS OK TO BE GREAT.
IT IS OK TO APPRECIATE YOURSELF.
IT IS OK TO ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE LOVED.
IT IS OK TO REALIZE YOU ARE A WONDERFUL PERSON.
IT IS OK TO BE HAPPY WITH WHO YOU ARE.
IT IS OK TO CELEBRATE YOUR LIFE AND GIFTS.
IT IS OK TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF.
IT IS OK TO THANK GOD FOR EXACTLY WHO YOU ARE.
IT IS OK TO HAVE FLAWS; NOBODY IS PERFECT.
IT IS OK TO WANT MORE AND MAKE MORE OF YOURSELF.
IT IS OK TO BRAG.
That being said, I will say this: I love myself, flaws and all.
I want more from my life because I don't want to be afraid of falling and injuring myself. I can appreciate someone else's success without it being a ding on me. I can move forward one or two steps at a time to make a big difference. I'm not going to wake up and be Christie Brinkley (or insert othersupermodel here). That's ok. I just want to wake up and be a better me.
Here's wishing you a happy sparkly day!
WE CAN DO IT!
Friday, August 13, 2010
Thanks for taking the time to notice how well we've been working together lately.
For my part, I am not swelling so much and feeling less bloated. I have less pain in my joints. I am sleeping better. I am feeling full with less food.
I feel good when you take me out for a walk.
I feel good when you feed me fruits and veggies.
I feel good when you re-connect with old friends and family.
I feel good when we work together.
I've noticed that you are less anxious and way more confident. Let's keep this going, shall we?
Thursday, August 12, 2010
I never, repeat never go to bars anymore. I have not been in a bar, in geez, I really cannot remember.
I said I would go tonight to wish a colleague well in her next adventure. Truth be told, she's not really even "my" colleague. She works in a neighboring company and I do have some crossover with them from time to time. My dealings with her have been "the person on the other end of the phone."
When I heard she was looking for work in the biz, but out of the area, I extended my hand. I have worked extensively in this field and in the area she was looking. I also offered to clean up her resume (which I did) and she is now happily employed by a new place. My little role is that I encouraged her and I fixed her resume. It was probably a little surprising, if not shocking, for her to get that invite from me to help her. I really didn't know her well, but the little I did, I really liked. She always acted professional and friendly in her dealings. I appreciate good customer service and she has that gene.
So, off to stop at Starbucks for a little gift card, and then on to the bar. I am proud of myself for going, if only for a short bit. This is way outside of my comfort zone, particularly since I will know two or three people there, at most, including the "colleague."
Here's hoping for a festive evening, which includes a bit of walking, and yuck-o ---possibly in the rain.
Cheers! (seemed appropriate for the bar!)
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