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Went Somewhere

Thursday, September 02, 2010

I don't know where I went. When I got back, I just knew I went somewhere. I went to the gym yesterday and pedaled my butt off for 45 mins. That is a personal record for me. I have never gone that long on a bike. I had been away for a bit, and I just wanted things to get kickstarted.

Pretty well into the ride, I totally zoned. I floated away to the happy place. My mind went to "clear" and nothing bothered me. I don't know how long I was "gone" - but I felt very free. It was A W E S O M E.

I went back to the gym today and decided to tackle the treadmill. I sweated a lot. In fact, much more than yesterday. I really felt good going this morning as it took a bit of effort to get out the door before work and go to the gym and then back home to basically walk right back out the door for work.

No matter. It is all good. Along with my BL Sapphire team, I've pledged to work out 5 out of 7 days this week. It is a lot more than I have been doing, but I am showing myself that I am up for it.

Last night I cut up strawberries and trimmed string beans between commercial breaks. I tried to limit my tv watching. I even skipped the end of Top Chef to go to bed a few mins early.

Slowly but surely, I am taking the steps to make my life better for me. I am becoming more organized about having breakfast and lunch plans laid out and have veggies ready to include with dinner. I am determined to keep myself active and on top of things to improve myself every day!

  
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    Marvelous! You are an inspiration!
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PATRISNA 9/2/2010 3:26PM

    It is great to get into that zone and you don't even realize how long you have been going. I love it when that happens! I do that when I am on the treadmill. It doesn't happen every time, but when it does I feel so much better.

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POOKAQUEEN 9/2/2010 3:20PM

    Good job! You can do it!

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GAYLE-G-63 9/2/2010 2:34PM

    You can do it!!! We're all rooting for YOU!!!

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BRIGHT551 9/2/2010 9:50AM

    emoticon You are making the choices to establish healthy goals in your life!!! Keep up the great work and you will make those choices every day normal activities!!! You are worth the effort!!!!

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LOOZINITNOW 9/2/2010 9:23AM

    emoticonYou are full of awesomeness!

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    emoticon You are awesome!!!! emoticon

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Kim

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MUGGLE_MOM 9/2/2010 8:47AM

    Wow! What a fabulous blog! I am so thankful that you were able to get to your 'happy place'. You have so much drive and determination in you. This is a long winding journey, but I have no doubt that you are up for the challenge. Why not jot down what a great experience the gym was today, or how great you felt getting it all done before work, or how proud you were for taking care of those veggies and going to sleep before Top Chef was over. These feelings are what you need to look back on when things get tough. The numbers on the scale are nice, but the world doesn't start and end with them. Being proud of yourself, and your accomplishments and feeling good about you is what will help you keep going when the times are tough.

Keep up being the awesome work!

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QUIT_SP 9/2/2010 8:42AM

  Super-Excellent blog! Good for you!
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DIFROMWYOMING 9/2/2010 8:38AM

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It was a good one!
Congrats on your successes! I am seriously missing my treadmill which has been broken down for 4 weeks now at the gym! We live in the boondocks so no one eve can get a repair guy out. I am not tried the bikes as my knees are not great, so I'm feeling a little bored at the moment.
On to a new September!

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Treating Yourself Well

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

When I was a kid, my mother wouldn't let me have an ice cream soda, and I was mad and stomped out of the house. I pushed the door hard in anger, only my hand slipped off the metal and went right through the glass. Forty years later, I still remember the shape of the jagged edge of the glass that gouged out a little piece of my chest. Five stitches is a pretty big deal to a six year old. :)

So many times in the past I have equated treating myself well with allowing myself to do whatever I wanted, no matter what the consequences were. I have done that all of my life.

Here I am today, recognizing that treating yourself well is not about having an attitude that you can do or have anything. It is about having pride in yourself and being willing to do whatever it takes to get there.

I lost a bit on Spark when I arrived and then steadily gained. Now, FINALLY, I am on the losing trail again.

To keep that momentum going, I have to be SMART.

S (Spark)
M (Manage my food and exercise)
A (and)
R (Really)
T (Try)

I am not going to have an obstacle free road. I have been down this road before and remember what I have to do. Ok, I can do those things. I need to stay focused and on track.

I'm doing the BL challenge with Team Sapphire and it's helping me keep it together. Staying focused, staying strong!

  
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MUGGLE_MOM 9/2/2010 8:39AM

    You are one SMART lady!!! This is a incredibly insightful blog and full of the honestly and willingness that are in side of you. You can do it! Congrats!

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DJS-DEBBIE 9/2/2010 7:46AM

    I am doing the challenge with the White Tigers and it has really helped. I am not totally back on with everything, but fitness is going well and no junk food in over a week.
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LOOZINITNOW 9/1/2010 9:42PM

    emoticon You are fired up and ready to do this!!!!

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DIFROMWYOMING 9/1/2010 9:14PM

    Woohoo! I love that you are seeing some positive changes going on in your ATTITUDE, because that will be just as vital to your journey. I'm proud of you!
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BAYBELIEVER 9/1/2010 9:06PM

    What a great, raw blog! You are already doing this, so just keep on keepin' on! We are here with you!

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GIBBLES5 9/1/2010 6:41PM

    Awesome blog!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Go Sapphire Stars!!!!

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Kim

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GROOVYCHICK9 9/1/2010 3:05PM

    Good job!

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PARKERB2 9/1/2010 2:45PM

    SMART is one word I would use to describe you! Your blogs are great ones and I enjoy reading them. Hang in there. Never give up. emoticon

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POOKAQUEEN 9/1/2010 11:31AM

    Good job! Lesson learned, lesson shared!

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AFTERMYKIDS 9/1/2010 11:19AM

    That is great and you sound Really SMART to me. Lesson Learned! We are going to have bumps but recognizing them is the BEST start. YOU can totally do this! Keep it up! You are doing an amazing job! emoticon

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GAYLE-G-63 9/1/2010 11:15AM

    You're going to do great, my dear! I just know it!!!

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DONNAEDA 9/1/2010 10:15AM

    congratulations on a lesson well learned. Unfortunately sometimes its an unfortunate incident that teachs us.

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SLIGHTLYBRAINY 9/1/2010 10:08AM

    YES, you can do it!!! I liked your blog and the be SMART attitude. Good luck on your challenge, those can be wonderful ways to keep motivated. Congratulations on your two pound weight loss and keep up the great work! ... Terri =)

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MEL_UNRAU 9/1/2010 10:01AM

    You can do this! I am so proud of you, with your loss! And you can keep this going. Best of luck with the BL challenge! You are going to be a stunning sapphire!

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Acceptance vs. Giving Up

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Acceptance is my body is not perfect, and it is up to me to change it.
Giving up is feeling what is the use.

Acceptance is trying harder.
Giving up is an easy way out to think you don't matter.

Acceptance is knowing how things are now, and still being willing to change it.
Giving up is throwing in the towel and forgetting that you matter enough to make a difference.

Acceptance of where I am right now helps propel me forward.
Giving up is not an option.

I went on vacay and had good intentions that were not executed. I went to the land of Pennsylvania Dutch food. Those people love to eat. I could have made many better choices. I spent far too much time in the car. I had many opportunities where I could have used the car trips to get out and walked or did push ups when we stopped, but I didn't. I gave up before we got started.

The power is in my hands today. Simply put, it is up to me to change, and this is the acceptance that I know that counts the most. I will not give up.

  
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BLUERIDGENATIVE 8/31/2010 11:25PM

    Very insightful! With that kind of awareness you are sure to succeed!
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BAYBELIEVER 8/31/2010 10:41PM

    I really liked what you said here:

Giving up is throwing in the towel and forgetting that you matter enough to make a difference.

Remember what you said. Remember what I say: "You DO matter enough" so giving up is not allowed. And I know you won't. You are too important and you know that, or at least have started to see that!

Vacations are vacations, sometimes from everything. But they don't last forever and you are doing great!

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QUILTINGB52 8/31/2010 5:41PM

    Vacays are difficult for anyone....we just try our best & then jump back on that wagon when normality returns.

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PARKERB2 8/31/2010 2:39PM

    You are determined! That's good. Hang in there and keep Sparking. We're here for you. emoticon

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MUGGLE_MOM 8/31/2010 2:16PM

    I hope that your vacation was wonderful and that you aren't letting the 'coulda shoulda-s' get to you. We didn't become who we are in a day, a week or even a month. The deeds of a single week aren't going to ruin your plan. Its just a little blip on the radar. I love that you are accepting who you are right now, this very moment, and looking to move forward from there. That is the acceptance that we need on this journey. Not judgment, just and understanding of who we are and what our strengths and our limitations are. From there, we can go anywhere.

I know you are a fabulous lady. Congrats on your next step in your journey. I am with you every step of the way!

Hugs, Muggle Mom

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BLUEANGELLK 8/31/2010 10:57AM

    Great blog. I love the choices between giving up and acceptance. It is all a choice. It is not pre-determined. Thanks.

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DONNAEDA 8/31/2010 10:51AM

    life sometimes interferes with accomplishing what we set out to do. But isn't that life. So now that you are home, get back to the push ups, walking and watching your food selections. Don't feel guilty about it. Just start again.

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FRANCOPHILE619 8/31/2010 10:51AM

    THis isa timely blog for me. I'm trying to find the balance of acceptance but not letting go of my weight loss goals. I will be thinking about this blog today. thanks for posting.

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PATRISNA 8/31/2010 10:27AM

    Making choices is really tough, but we can this. You are improving your mind set because you are now determined not to give up or give in. You have accepted the fact you are human and stumbled. You are still moving forward. Great blog!!

You have probably read this quote before by Jim Rohn -"We must all suffer from one of two pains: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret. The difference is discipline weighs ounces while regret weighs tons."

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BRIGHT551 8/31/2010 9:43AM

    This will happen to the best of us from time to time. It is what we learn from it that will make us stronger. You are stronger for it, because you knew and made the choices and now you are ready to get back on track. Good for you for not giving up and to move forward!!!!!

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ALLIE_1969 8/31/2010 9:38AM

    Acceptance is knowing you are human and mistakes and bad days will happen, giving up would be not jumping back on program. Good for you for not giving up!

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POOKAQUEEN 8/31/2010 9:31AM

    I hope you had fun! It sounds like an awesome vacation!
Good job not giving up! You are worth it, and you can do it!

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GRANDMAAMIE 8/31/2010 9:29AM

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JEN_BACK2BASICS 8/31/2010 9:12AM

    Great blog! It's easy to jump right off the proverbial wagon when on vacation. What's important is that you got right back on when you were done. I hope you had a great time!

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DIFROMWYOMING 8/31/2010 9:12AM

    Good for you! I had a rough road trip weekend myself and was/am SO disappointed in the choices I made. I knew better. But I related to you saying you gave up before you began...because that is what I feel I did. I really didn't even try.
It IS a new day. No quitting, no quitting, no quitting.
We WILL get there if we don't quit!

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MEL_UNRAU 8/31/2010 9:11AM

    Great blog!!! Yeah-- I'm Mennonite by heritage and we know how to cook and eat. I can tell ya, it's a challenge!!! Vacay is always hard, but today is a new day and you can do do this!

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KIYOSHI04 8/31/2010 8:45AM

    love this blog. so many of us do that--give up before we get started. me included. i am sorry that it happened to you but i think every time we go through something like this, our resolve gets strengthened a little bit more.

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DPTHEIS 8/31/2010 8:40AM

    Great attitude! Keep up that kind of thinking, and you'll make it to your goals!

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Keepin' Score

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Watched a sitcom last night and the therapist said --- "Are you going to keep stuffing down your negative feelings with food?"

I have a lifetime of unresolved negative feelings.

I have been a champion at keeping score. In the thoughts of two wrongs don't make a right ---I have compared myself to others on many occasions. As much as I know in my heart, it is still even hard now to stop myself from doing it.

I know it is not just human nature, but my human nature, and in all the years that I did not count myself as worthy, or see myself as not measuring up to the next person, or holding my breath waiting for the next shoe to drop, it has been me...waiting.

Well, now is the time I CHOOSE to turn those feelings around.

In my family, this would have been called bragging, but again, that has to be a thought process that gets changed.

IT IS OK TO BE GREAT.

IT IS OK TO APPRECIATE YOURSELF.

IT IS OK TO ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE LOVED.

IT IS OK TO REALIZE YOU ARE A WONDERFUL PERSON.

IT IS OK TO BE HAPPY WITH WHO YOU ARE.

IT IS OK TO CELEBRATE YOUR LIFE AND GIFTS.

IT IS OK TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF.

IT IS OK TO THANK GOD FOR EXACTLY WHO YOU ARE.

IT IS OK TO HAVE FLAWS; NOBODY IS PERFECT.

IT IS OK TO WANT MORE AND MAKE MORE OF YOURSELF.

IT IS OK TO BRAG.

That being said, I will say this: I love myself, flaws and all.

I want more from my life because I don't want to be afraid of falling and injuring myself. I can appreciate someone else's success without it being a ding on me. I can move forward one or two steps at a time to make a big difference. I'm not going to wake up and be Christie Brinkley (or insert othersupermodel here). That's ok. I just want to wake up and be a better me.

Here's wishing you a happy sparkly day!

WE CAN DO IT!

  
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KIYOSHI04 8/31/2010 8:46AM

    you are so right. love what you say about other people's successes without it dinging on you.

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PARKERB2 8/20/2010 11:08AM

    I love these. Thanks for the encouragment with things to feel better about ourselves. Have a good weekend and see you back here on Monday as I don't have a computer at home and can't Spark on Sat. and Sun.

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DATARN 8/19/2010 3:10PM

    Awesome blog. You are so good at expressing yourself!! We CAN do it.
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PROMISE2DESIGN 8/19/2010 2:53PM

    Great blog. I past few years I've learned that the heaviest thing you can carry is a grudge and the healthiest thing I could do is forgive myself. You gotta love yourself! There is nothing wrong with being proud of who you are. Keep Rockin Sista!

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BLESSED2BEME 8/19/2010 2:52PM

    I need to learn how to "brag" on myself too. I think you wrote this blog just to speak to me today. Thank you!

Way to go - you are an awesome person and God made you just the way you are for a reason!

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RAINBOWFALLS 8/19/2010 11:51AM

    Great list of "It Is OK" and yes it is.I struggle with many of these though I think because I don't want to come off arrogant. That is one trait I have never liked in people.

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GAYLE-G-63 8/19/2010 10:54AM

    emoticon You deserve them!

What a great, positive attitude!

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POOKAQUEEN 8/19/2010 10:26AM

    Fabulous insight! Isn't it funny how a little thing like a scene in a TV show can trigger some real internal insight?
You ARE a wonderful person, and I am glad you are my SparkFriend!

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MEL_UNRAU 8/19/2010 10:05AM

    Mickey- you have the best attitude! Can I carry you around in my pocket?

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MUGGLE_MOM 8/19/2010 9:25AM

    ABSOLUTELY!!!!! emoticon

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MUGGLE_MOM 8/19/2010 9:25AM

    ABSOLUTELY!!!!! emoticon

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DIFROMWYOMING 8/19/2010 8:55AM

    This is a great blog and YES, you are beautiful and worthwhile and fabulous and WORTH it!

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JENNYBETHIN 8/19/2010 8:06AM

    Indeed we can! Go, Mickey!

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BRIGHT551 8/19/2010 7:55AM

    WOOOOHOOOOO Yes You are Worth it!!!!!!! Way to go!!!!!

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It's All in My Head

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

The recent news item about building a mosque near Ground Zero has sparked a lot of debate among my friends. Those conversations have led to even deeper conversations about perspective, reactions and belief systems. It has actually been pretty wild.

I absolutely recognize that my feelings about the situation are based purely on emotions. My perspective from what I think isn't in my head, it's really my heart and gut reaction. This scenario is no different than anything else. My perspective is based on the essence of what I believe to be true. Perspective can be unraveled to discover something completely different when you dissect each belief one step at a time.

Belief: I've always been fat
Perspective: Why bother?
Change in action: You can choose to be healthy
Action plan: One meal, one step, one day at a time. Each healthy attempt brings me closer to a healthier body and lifestyle.

Belief: I'll never be a runner
Perspective: Those people are fit and faster
Change in action: Every journey begins with a single step
Action plan: C25k and start by walking. This is doable!

Belief: I don't have what it takes
Perspective: I'm a loser, baby
Change in Action: I'm ok, you're ok
Action plan: See the value in yourself - you are (and I am) wonderful

Shifting perspective is as simple as looking at an issue from someone else's point of view. I'm grateful for the ability to see an issue from many sides, and for the understanding that I can always change. I used to hold beliefs about myself that were keeping me from leading a successful and happy life. I think differently now. I know I am completely capable of leading the life I have always wanted. I am a whole lot closer to being that person than ever.

Wishing you all happy sparking!



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1STARVINGARTIST 8/18/2010 1:22AM

    Great way of putting it into perspective. Moving from a negative emotional belief into a reasonable and positive action plan. Thank you for a wonderful blog! What an encouragement!
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BLESSED2BEME 8/17/2010 2:32PM

    This is a great blog - thank you. Just what I needed to hear today - working on changing my perspective of me!

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KATIEGREINER09 8/17/2010 11:18AM

    I LOVE your perspective ( sp ) you have helped me along your journey Thank you SO MUCH

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DIFROMWYOMING 8/17/2010 10:10AM

    YOU are an amazing woman! And I can tell from this that I would like having you as a friend. Open minds are happy minds.
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SLFRISBEY 8/17/2010 10:00AM

    Once again you hit the nail on the head! Thanks for your words to help me change! :)

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MUGGLE_MOM 8/17/2010 9:20AM

    Fabulous Blog!

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    Thank you for a wonderful blog!! It really spoke to me this morning! emoticon emoticon

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NRLARA 8/17/2010 9:00AM

    Changing that personal point of vies sure is a tough job but looks like you got it under control :) Good for you!
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JENNYBETHIN 8/17/2010 8:43AM

    You can do it!

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BRIGHT551 8/17/2010 8:29AM

    Great perspectives!!! Change in ourselves is only something we can do and you are making great strides!!! Keep it up and YES WE CAN DO IT!!!!

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POOKAQUEEN 8/17/2010 8:01AM

    Love it. You are very inspiriational! Good job!

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BEFIT014 8/17/2010 7:33AM

    emoticon Blog!

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RMCNEAL122 8/17/2010 6:47AM

    I may have to still this and use it when I start to doubt myself. Great post!!

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