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Case of the sickies

Thursday, July 08, 2010

Feeling much better now --- but no gym and little movement for me today. I hope to be back to "normal" tomorrow. I was totally punked out this a.m. and even stayed home from work and a meeting. This too shall pass. Hope everyone is staying cool!

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JOKNOWS 7/9/2010 9:43AM

    So emoticon you weren't feeling well. Hope all is better now. emoticonLooking forward to another one of your spunky, witty, thought-provoking blogs! emoticon

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RAINBOWFALLS 7/9/2010 8:28AM

    I'm hoping for a cool down today with a storm a brewing. I hope you feel better.

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MUGGLE_MOM 7/9/2010 6:38AM

    I hope that you feel better soon!!!
Take care of yourself!

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DJS-DEBBIE 7/9/2010 5:58AM

    Hope you are feeling better today!

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1STARVINGARTIST 7/9/2010 12:03AM

    Sorry you're sick. You are right, it will pass, but in the meantime its no fun! Get well soon!

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SHAKENMA 7/8/2010 10:36PM

    Hope you feel better soon. No fun being sick. emoticon

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118 Days and 17 Minutes

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

Alarm went off at 4:50am. I squished my head into the pillow. I really wanted that sleep, but there was a good possibility I would lay there and not be able to sleep anyway. I rolled half way over and prayed, "Jesus, let me get up and go, but I can't do it without your strength. "

I pushed myself out of bed and got rolling. I had most things gathered which made it easier to go this a.m. When I got to the gym, the lady behind the desk predictably said, "118 days" - I am not sure if she thinks it's funny or encouraging or perhaps both (or neither). She added, "well it's better than 200 days..." yeah I know. I had not been there in 118 days. I have not been completely off track in 118 days. I have walked some days, and had some great success. One of the keys for me, though, is working on making this a consistent routine. This will be one of my next big goals.

I felt good on the bike. Like my friend, K, the other day, I was taking a peek in the mirror and thinking, "Was is that? Why it's my leg. I was not disgusted as I might have been in the past, but happy to see it going around and around and helping to pump the blood up through my veins and keeping things moving inside. I set the bike for 30 mins so I could do a countdown and before long, I was bebopping along. 13 mins to go, I realize started to feel the happy buzz. It took me 17 mins to reach the zone, but once I was there, I was smiling, inside and out.

When I was clearing off the table last night, (one of my earlier goals), I was thinking that I was not one of those people who found a partner, and then let herself go out of laziness. Actually, I stopped letting my opinion count, and decided to do whatever was easier for him without taking my own needs into the equation. Through SP, I can see it is so important for me to remember that I count just as much, and if I don't look after me, who the heck is going to do it? It's time for me to stand up and be counted.

I came home from the gym, made breakfast (eggs + oatmeal) and ate it. I gathered lunch and basically bolted out the door. I am still tired, but at the same time feeling energized. This morning's ride gave me hope. I have not really had that in a while. It's good to be back. :) Spark on, sparkies.

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GROOVYCHICK9 7/8/2010 5:34PM

    I am proud of you. It usually takes me about 10-15 minutes before I start to feel into my workout. I hate the first part of it but I know that if I keep going I will be ok. You go girl and start a new gym streak.


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BAYBELIEVER 7/7/2010 4:24PM

    Way to get up and at 'em! Keep heading in the right direction.

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MUGGLE_MOM 7/7/2010 12:55PM

    Wow. What a great blog!

I had no doubt that you were going to make it this morning. Huge huge kudos for getting up and out. Super job hitting that bike for 30 minutes. You were absolutely not completely off program during your gym hiatus. Sometimes, we have to work the pieces of the program before it can all fall in line. You were walking. Working on your food. Getting more movement in. I think the girl at the gym is trying to be encouraging. They know you there. They get excited to see you and want to make you come back. You're their early morning sunshine!

Are you going back tomorrow? Let me know and I'll check up on you!

And of course, yes, we need to learn that our needs are just as important as the next guy or in our cases, or significant others. Its tough to put our needs up there on the list, but, ultimately, I think you're right. That may be the ticket to freedom. Believing we deserve it and believing that we deserve the effort it takes to get there. We are important and our choices count, even when faced with opposing opinions from others.

You are totally rockin' it Girlfriend! I am mucho impressed!

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DONNAEDA 7/7/2010 12:53PM

    congratulations on getting back to the gym. You will feel better and in the long run the 118 days won't matter. Its what you do in the future that counts, not what do didn't do in the past. A New start and new beginning.

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POOKAQUEEN 7/7/2010 12:06PM

    emoticon Good job! You're on a roll now!

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MEL_UNRAU 7/7/2010 10:58AM

    WTG my friend!!! WAY TO GO!!! If it took 17 minutes for the buzz to hit, that means, you were buzzing for at least 13 minutes!!! You are rocking!!!

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VALERIEP58 7/7/2010 10:26AM

    118 days-and she really counted! Oh my, I wonder what my gym will say if I ever get back? Anyway-good for you and glad to hear you enjoyed your work-out!

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BOOKLVER81 7/7/2010 10:14AM

    way to go!

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RAINBOWFALLS 7/7/2010 8:33AM

    Super job! Keep it up and make that 118 into days that you streak! Wouldn't that be nice.

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LAURA9021 7/7/2010 8:28AM

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JOKNOWS 7/7/2010 8:27AM

    emoticonCongrats on getting up, getting energized, getting some motivation and moving towards your desired goals. emoticon
emoticonto staying motivated and looking after you.

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NUTRON3 7/7/2010 8:20AM

    Hope you have a wonderful day!

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Cleared the table,now just need to clear my mind

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

Table cleared.. emoticon

Water bottles filled and put in fridge for morning. emoticon

Gym lock located. emoticon

Ipod charging emoticon

Now, just need to:

Pull gym clothes together
Find headphones
and GET MY BUTT TO THE GYM in the morning

I think I can, I think I can, I think I can....

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RAINBOWFALLS 7/7/2010 8:04AM

    Great job accomplishing your goal and adding a few more by the looks of it!

I know you can, I know you can, I know you can! emoticon

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POOKAQUEEN 7/7/2010 5:21AM

    Woohoo! Good job girl! You can do it!

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MUGGLE_MOM 7/6/2010 11:34PM

    I know you can.
I know you can.
I know you can!!!!!

I can't wait to read about your success tomorrow!!!!

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DIFROMWYOMING 7/6/2010 10:59PM

    You CAN! emoticon

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LOOZINITNOW 7/6/2010 10:45PM

    I know you can, I know you can. I know you can!!!!

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It All Starts Somewhere

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

I don't think I'll have any trouble sucking down water today. Geez, it is hot and steamy today. I decided that I am going to try to leave my office when I want to eat. I did bring my lunch as I most often do, but I always eat at my desk. I get into a habit of not leaving the office. I'm also working solo these days, so with my staff away for the summer, and my boss on vacay, I am looking at the same 4 walls without any change in scenery.

I think eating away from my desk will also make me less of a grazer and more of an eater with regimented times. I would like to stop being a closet eater. It will help me to become less lazy in my habits. It all starts somewhere, and this is my starting point. When I get home from work, I am going to clear off the table to make it a place where I can sit down and eat. I sit on the couch and watch tv now.
The table (and the couch) have become a catch all for all kinds of paper, (mail, newspapers, catalogs, magazines). It would be nice if they could fall back into their intended purposes.

I am not going to overburden myself with loads of stuff to do. Right now, I am simply going to focus on clearing off that table. I have a horrible tendency to load up a list of all the things I need to do (as if I need to do them this very minute) and then get so overwhelmed, I move myself into paralysis and do nothing, and feel very defeated. So today, it's is the table. Everything else can wait until another day.

OK, I am happy with my little plan of action. I'll report back tomorrow as far as the table goes, and eating out of the office.

I hope everyone had a super 4th of July weekend. My heart goes out to all those serving overseas and their families. Thank you for my freedom.

Have a blessed day,
Spark on, sparkies. :)

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RIPPEDPAUL1 7/8/2010 6:56AM

    I think you're on the right track. Eating away from your desk will allow you to become more aware of your eating and I found I work better with a break even a short one

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RAINBOWFALLS 7/6/2010 12:52PM

    Great plan with the table. It will be good for your eating to be at the table. All the articles I read say to not do other things well eating, just enjoy the food.

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DJS-DEBBIE 7/6/2010 11:43AM

    Getting away from the desk is a great idea. I am going to start doing that myself as soon as I get back to the office. Got to take a little time to 'smell the roses' every day.

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ADIPOSEROSE 7/6/2010 11:23AM

    You go, girl!

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POOKAQUEEN 7/6/2010 11:09AM

    Fantastic plan! Great job!
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    I'll see how your plan works! I was also an office eater (grazer) and have worked hard to overcome that. I just try different things and see how they work and then adjust. Good luck!

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MUGGLE_MOM 7/6/2010 8:37AM

    I love the eating out of the office idea. Great move!

Great luck on the table. I now keeping things neat and tidy is very tough for me too. I can't wait to hear about your next success!!!!!

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MEL_UNRAU 7/6/2010 8:12AM

    Oh yes! Good plan. I think getting out of your office to eat would be a welcome thing! Especially since you are all alone right now. I'd have a really hard time with that!

And eating at the table! I decided that we would just start eating at the table more... and it has totally changed our family. I did it because my tot is easily distracted and the TV was keeping him from eating... but am keeping with it because, among other things, it makes my life easier! Less dishes to haul around--

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PATTYKLAVER 7/6/2010 8:11AM

    You sound like you know what you need to do. That's great.

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Friday, July 02, 2010

Sometimes, I am all for censorship. Not the kind where you're burning books because you disagree with the doctrine, but the kind where the description is superfluous to the story. Last night I was working and a patron told one of my staff that "the big woman" sent me down here. (In this story, I am the "big woman.") If the shoe was on the other foot, and the patron had been talking to me about my colleague, and I was the one sharing the story, I would have NEVER said the "old woman, or the short and hairy woman...." Well, you get the picture.
p.s. to the story, "the big woman" did NOT send her down there, but again...it's not part of this tale.

I physically winced when I heard "the big woman." Who wants to be the big woman? Maybe next year, I'll get to hear that medium-sized woman. :) In any case, I thought it was unnecessary for her to have said it, and it does surprise me given how well we get along. Oof. Well, I need to let it roll off my back. Sometimes this person does not think before they speak. I am a frequent violator of that myself, so I should be more understanding, I s'pose.

I had a very successful day yesterday. Stayed within my calories and did lots of walking. I was dead man walking on my feet when I got home. The concrete floors I spent the last 3 hrs of my day/night really put a hurting on my feet. I was so glad to get home and crawl into bed. I am really hoping to sleep in a bit tomorrow. Also won $100 on a lottery tix yesterday. That was super cool!

Happy Friday! Happy 4th Weekend! Spark on, Sparkies.... emoticon emoticon

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1STARVINGARTIST 7/3/2010 12:57AM

    Sorry that happened to you; it can be so painful when people are that insensitive. Kudos to you for letting it roll off your back. It shows that you have real strength of character. I don't think I could have been that forgiving. And congratulations for sticking with your plan and for winning the lottery! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JOKNOWS 7/2/2010 9:07PM

    I read a quote once that may apply to the staff member. It was from a story by Robert Heinlein and is commonly referred to as "Hanlon's Razor." It says, "Never attribute to malice that which can be adequately explained by stupidity." Some people just don't think -- and you're right, that phrase definitely did not have to be repeated.

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MICKEYMAX 7/2/2010 5:03PM

    It's funny to me in looking back how I wrote this, that I don't think I described it well. I was not at all upset at the patron who said the "big woman" --- I was only thinking about the staff member who repeated exactly what she said. I'm just saying that I would have repeated the story if it were me telling the story, but I would not have said "the big woman." That's why I winced. I think the staff member realized it after the fact as she's been writing more than usual today. I did let it roll. I just know that I would act differently in that situation.

Thanks for all of your comments. :)

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ADIPOSEROSE 7/2/2010 1:07PM

    Maybe she meant the "important woman" (as in the "big boss" or the "big shot"). I call my friend's husband "the Big Guy" because he's over 6 feet tall, and until very recently commanded a ship in the Coast Guard--there is absolutely nothing pejorative about it, and he knows it. It has nothing to do with his weight--he's one of the handsomest kids on the planet, and he knows I think that, too (he's younger than I). So don't define the words hurtfully, Mick, and they won't hurt you. Suppose she said the big-hearted woman: you wouldn't have been offended, right? Her words are her problem, not yours.

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RAINBOWFALLS 7/2/2010 11:47AM

    I have to agree that we should all be more sensitive to how we describe people. Congrats on the ticket, I'm hoping for a big win someday! It would be so nice to fix up the house and travel. How many of us have these same dreams...

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CHERKYLE 7/2/2010 10:50AM

    Lots of time people are cruel without meaning to be! emoticon

You are doing an amazing job!

Hey and congrates on $100!! emoticon

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SKATVEN 7/2/2010 10:30AM

    You are a shrinking woman. I can't wait to thinkwhat descriptors they'll have to use for you when big no longer applies

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DONNAEDA 7/2/2010 10:09AM

    congratulations on winning 100.00 bucks you should buy yourself a treat with that (not food) Maybe a new outfit? Or more comfortable shoes so your feet don't hurt. Anyway, If this is a regular patron and she is a good customer I wouldn't say anything but if you feel that it would be worth it to you, the next time I would call her on that, and just go up to her and tap her on the shoulder and tell her "Miss, I want you to know that calling me a big person really hurt my feelings" and then just walk away. She is mull this over all day and really watch her mouth the next time.

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GRANDMAAMIE 7/2/2010 9:47AM

    yes sometimes when people open their mouth dumb things come out .you can lose your weight but some people stay dumb forever.

lucky you on your lottery ticket emoticon

have anice day!


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MEL_UNRAU 7/2/2010 9:44AM

    Eh-- sometimes, people are insensitive! Glad you are determined to let it roll off your back, because letting the opinion of some random person effect you isn't going to get you anywhere! You are a rocking your plan and doing well and that is the important thing in all of this! And congrats on the lotto win!

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POOKAQUEEN 7/2/2010 9:43AM

    Congrats on the lottery win, good job keeping going yesterday!
It was incredibly inappropriate for that person to say such a thing! Whatever happened to "If you don't have anything nice to say, say nothing at all"? Maybe I have a different perspective than she does, but if I had been a kid and said that I would have gotten whacked upside the head! either she didn't have that lesson from her parents, or she didn't hold on to it. Every person is a person to be treated with respect no matter what they look like. I'm sorry you had to go through that, and good job not responding in a negative way to it. Just like you told me about K. in my blog a few days ago, I would've bopped her in the head!

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