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Song in my Soul

Friday, May 21, 2010

I have a special place in my heart for Fridays. Even on the occasional time when I have to work on a weekend, I still feel more light-hearted. This morning was no different. I did not want to wrench myself from my bed, but when I did, I was gleeful and silly. I am consciously embracing this mood.

My 25 mile commute (one-way) can be a little rough some days. A car tried to cut into my lane to cut behind me to cut around the guy to my left (and eventually swoop in front of me) just before my exit, and I didn't let it happen. I sped up a bit so the tiny amount of space between us disappeared and then just took my exit. That's when I caught onto her plan to dodge in front of me, 20 seconds before "our" exit. I didn't go all Jersey on her. I didn't wave or gesture, I just kept driving, and smiling. Content in my little world, where I get to work in one piece, but stand up for myself and try not to get run over. Sheesh!

There was a mystery unraveling to me yesterday. One of my work friends is leaving. She has no choice in the matter. From my outsider point of view, it all looks very abrupt and makes you wonder how that could happen. Then it's easier to start second guessing yourself when you start to examine things. Both of us have been on the receiving end of very positive notes at work (in the same note), so my head started spinning. It wasn't until yesterday that I found out, for as many good letters in her case, there were twice as many bad. I'm still sad for my friend, and I have tried to help her focus on getting a job elsewhere, but she is in a bit of denial.

That episode kicked off a series of "Deep thoughts by Jack Handy" in my head. I thought about the many times I put myself down in the past because I thought that I did not measure up. This was in the shower this a.m. I completely reversed some of the assumptions I have long believed, and flipped those what ifs from "what about if I wasn't good enough" to "what if they loved me so much" and what about if they felt they weren't good enough. It blows my mind that after 20-30 years, I am re-thinking everything I thought about myself and coming out of it on the winning end. Whoa.

I am feeling really good about myself right now, and I intend to keep riding the wave. Happy Friday! Woo hoo!

  
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PLAYBLUES22 5/21/2010 9:19AM

    Now that's what I call a "ME" time. good for you emoticon

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DJS-DEBBIE 5/21/2010 9:08AM

    Wonderful! Have a great Friday.

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MUGGLE_MOM 5/21/2010 8:42AM

    Keep up the awesome work and the wonderful perspective. You totally rock!

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SUNSHINE65 5/21/2010 8:14AM

    You go, Girl!!! Oh, the blessings of turning thoughts positive!

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SERENITYKC 5/21/2010 7:58AM

    Uplifting. Thanks...I needed to read this.

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Mistaken Identity

Thursday, May 20, 2010

I opened my lunch bag for a mid morning snack. (Yes, to me it is mid morning.)
I saw a round brown thing that looked remarkably like a cookie. The thought passed through my head, "Is that a cookie?" (I'd like to add that I packed my own lunch bag) --- and then I realized that no, it was the other half of my sandwich thin, that I did not eat with breakfast.

HA HA HA

It was like of those little hallucinatory mirages from the desert.
It's always good to start the day off with a laugh, even if you are just laughing at yourself. emoticon

  
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YESITSDEB 5/20/2010 10:19AM

    too funny! make me think - take a 1/2 a sandwich thin, spread on a little peanut butter and add a few chocolate chips. Now it's a cookie!

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_KATHY 5/20/2010 10:10AM

    emoticonLife is fun. I forget that sometimes, thanks.

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LOOZINITNOW 5/20/2010 9:28AM

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MARISOLCAINE 5/20/2010 8:57AM

    funny story keep on laughing

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JOKNOWS 5/20/2010 8:56AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonthanks for the early morning laugh emoticon

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USMAWIFE 5/20/2010 8:53AM

    Hope the laughter continues throughout your day.

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DOO DAH!!! DOO DAH!!! OH DOO DAH DAY!!!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I have stuck to my eating plan for 3 days. I am patting myself on the back because it has not been easy. I am doing it, though. I would often eat good foods, just way too much of it. So now, I am doing BFC. I have lost 5 lbs from my last weigh in. WHOA! I am stoked right now. Downward movement on the scale? SWEETNESS!!!! My next goal is the next zero down.

I came home from work and DH had made a pasta dish. I had one small serving, and I was satisfied. I checked all of the food labels to know exactly what to count, and eating it was within my guidelines. I ENJOYED EVERY BITE! I did not race through it. I savored the spiciness.

I just feeling like singing, "Doo Dah, Doo Dah...Oh Doo Dah Day..." It's been so long since I had a loss (read it's been so long since i put forth an effort)...it just feels good to be on the losing end, especially after a stressful week at work.

SUPER COOL. It gives me huge momentum to keep going now that I know it is all working. WOO HOO!!!!!! GO ME!

  
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KOBER9999 5/20/2010 7:43AM

    Wish I could reach through my computer and give you a BIG HUG!! I bet you're still smiling - As you should be! Job Well Done!
Keep It Going!
Spark On!
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RIPPEDPAUL1 5/20/2010 7:27AM

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AIMEEM77 5/20/2010 12:19AM

    Congrats! I'm so happy for you! I know what you mean about portions...I tend to have more than I need as well-I weigh and measure everything because I don't trust myself not to! Keep up the good work!

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KIYOSHI04 5/19/2010 10:51PM

    great job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it feels good to be in control, doesnt it?
keep up the excellent work.

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Chewing my Right Arm off

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

On a scale (no pun intended) of 1 to 10, how hungry am I? Right now, not hungry at all. I am on the low end. I ate breakfast 3 hours ago and the hungries have not yet kicked in. Yesterday, though, I was very hungry and it was a fight to keep myself from heading to cheater-town. Yup, I felt like chewing my right arm off.

I did go get some food in accordance with the "Belly Fat Cure" program I have started. So, I did stay within my guidelines. I was wicked proud of myself. I had a Lean Cuisine when I went home and I was ok. I was actually "HAPPY" to be able to "ENJOY" a Lean Cuisine.

For too long, I left myself pretty much eat whatever I wanted without being concerned with the consequences. Despite the times I have tried to eat "better," I would eat what I want and had limited success. The program I am doing now makes sense to me, but it has been a bit hard adjusting to it. It limits carbs and sugars. For the first time in a while, I am looking forward to weighing in and measuring my waist this wknd. Ha!

The day is going to ramp up to busy in a bit, and I'm hopeful that the day's distractions will keep me from dwelling on food.

Have a great day, everyone!!! WOO HOO!

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SLIGHTLYBRAINY 5/19/2010 1:16PM

    I am happy that you have found something that works for you. A healthy life style is not a one size fits all. Good luck this week and remember that great feeling of accomplishment for staying away from cheating!!!

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ME_HERE_NOW 5/19/2010 12:55PM

    way to make small consistent changes in your life, that is how you SPARK! woohoo! keep going, you are in the middle of building crazy good momentum! :) thank you so much for dropping by with your support on my page! it's a little scary changing it up this week, but also know we can't go full tilt forever without risking burnout. everything in moderation, right? :D

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HVMBRU 5/19/2010 11:43AM

    I'm with you totally! Get off that carb and sugar bandwagon. Good for you!

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DONNAEDA 5/19/2010 11:34AM

    May I suggest that you plan a snack of filling foods when you feel the urge to eat. You don't have to make this weight-loss journey a struggle. You will only frustrate yourself and when at your weakest, quit or binge. So every two hours or when you feel the need to eat have a healthy snack. Don't confuse this urge to eat, stuffing your feelings. When you have an issue that you don't want to face, then I would suggest journalling. Congratulations on all you have accomplished up to now.

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_KATHY 5/19/2010 10:15AM

    I'm proud of you too! Yeah, Cheater Town is no place to be after dark. Or before dark either for that matter. I'm liking that mental image right now.
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MINIBIKKE 5/19/2010 9:02AM

    Woo-Hoo right back at you - great job!

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Let's Get it Started!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

New road work today made me scramble in a bit earlier to work. On my way in, I heard a song that makes me want to groove: "Let's Get it Started" by the Black Eyed Peas! Now, there's a prophetic moment if I ever had one. It is time to start doing, and never mind the how should I do it, just start doing!

I came into my office, settled down, and then shut the lights off (one side is visible from the hallway) and then I put this song on (love youtube) and got up and danced around. Yup. My movement has got to start somewhere and this is it. Drawing the line in the sand. Must move every day. I can do this, and this is my jumping off point!!!

Let's have a fantastic day!!! It is doable for all of us. One step (or song) at a time!!!! See you on the dance floor!

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NATIVECOURAGE 5/18/2010 8:30PM

    Thanks for the add, thought I would write you a comment to inspire you to check in on your blog!

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RUNNING4MYLYF 5/13/2010 9:45PM

    Awesome. Good for you. I love to dance and it burns mega calories!!

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LOZUKE 5/12/2010 11:23AM

    Love that! Dancing is great! emoticon emoticon emoticon
Can I Join In? Debbie

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DONNAEDA 5/12/2010 10:09AM

    what joy to bring to the office. Congratulations on your movement but also on your attitude.

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DJS-DEBBIE 5/12/2010 9:28AM

    Now I have to go find it....

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BLESSED2BEME 5/12/2010 9:16AM

    I sang very loudly in the car on the way to work today to a Toby Mac song! Really helped put a smile on my face and a skip in my walk...plan on staying that way all day now!

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PLAYBLUES22 5/12/2010 9:03AM

    What a beautiful way to start the day emoticon

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JOKNOWS 5/12/2010 8:04AM

    emoticonI love that song too -- it will definitely get you moving. Let's get it started in here....and running, running
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NOVEMBERGIRL01 5/12/2010 8:01AM

    You go girl! Dance, dance, dance!

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KOBER9999 5/12/2010 7:52AM

    Dance Fever!!
I Gotta Join In!
Spark On!
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