Friday, May 21, 2010
I have a special place in my heart for Fridays. Even on the occasional time when I have to work on a weekend, I still feel more light-hearted. This morning was no different. I did not want to wrench myself from my bed, but when I did, I was gleeful and silly. I am consciously embracing this mood.
My 25 mile commute (one-way) can be a little rough some days. A car tried to cut into my lane to cut behind me to cut around the guy to my left (and eventually swoop in front of me) just before my exit, and I didn't let it happen. I sped up a bit so the tiny amount of space between us disappeared and then just took my exit. That's when I caught onto her plan to dodge in front of me, 20 seconds before "our" exit. I didn't go all Jersey on her. I didn't wave or gesture, I just kept driving, and smiling. Content in my little world, where I get to work in one piece, but stand up for myself and try not to get run over. Sheesh!
There was a mystery unraveling to me yesterday. One of my work friends is leaving. She has no choice in the matter. From my outsider point of view, it all looks very abrupt and makes you wonder how that could happen. Then it's easier to start second guessing yourself when you start to examine things. Both of us have been on the receiving end of very positive notes at work (in the same note), so my head started spinning. It wasn't until yesterday that I found out, for as many good letters in her case, there were twice as many bad. I'm still sad for my friend, and I have tried to help her focus on getting a job elsewhere, but she is in a bit of denial.
That episode kicked off a series of "Deep thoughts by Jack Handy" in my head. I thought about the many times I put myself down in the past because I thought that I did not measure up. This was in the shower this a.m. I completely reversed some of the assumptions I have long believed, and flipped those what ifs from "what about if I wasn't good enough" to "what if they loved me so much" and what about if they felt they weren't good enough. It blows my mind that after 20-30 years, I am re-thinking everything I thought about myself and coming out of it on the winning end. Whoa.
I am feeling really good about myself right now, and I intend to keep riding the wave. Happy Friday! Woo hoo!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
I opened my lunch bag for a mid morning snack. (Yes, to me it is mid morning.)
I saw a round brown thing that looked remarkably like a cookie. The thought passed through my head, "Is that a cookie?" (I'd like to add that I packed my own lunch bag) --- and then I realized that no, it was the other half of my sandwich thin, that I did not eat with breakfast.
HA HA HA
It was like of those little hallucinatory mirages from the desert.
It's always good to start the day off with a laugh, even if you are just laughing at yourself.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
I have stuck to my eating plan for 3 days. I am patting myself on the back because it has not been easy. I am doing it, though. I would often eat good foods, just way too much of it. So now, I am doing BFC. I have lost 5 lbs from my last weigh in. WHOA! I am stoked right now. Downward movement on the scale? SWEETNESS!!!! My next goal is the next zero down.
I came home from work and DH had made a pasta dish. I had one small serving, and I was satisfied. I checked all of the food labels to know exactly what to count, and eating it was within my guidelines. I ENJOYED EVERY BITE! I did not race through it. I savored the spiciness.
I just feeling like singing, "Doo Dah, Doo Dah...Oh Doo Dah Day..." It's been so long since I had a loss (read it's been so long since i put forth an effort)...it just feels good to be on the losing end, especially after a stressful week at work.
SUPER COOL. It gives me huge momentum to keep going now that I know it is all working. WOO HOO!!!!!! GO ME!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
On a scale (no pun intended) of 1 to 10, how hungry am I? Right now, not hungry at all. I am on the low end. I ate breakfast 3 hours ago and the hungries have not yet kicked in. Yesterday, though, I was very hungry and it was a fight to keep myself from heading to cheater-town. Yup, I felt like chewing my right arm off.
I did go get some food in accordance with the "Belly Fat Cure" program I have started. So, I did stay within my guidelines. I was wicked proud of myself. I had a Lean Cuisine when I went home and I was ok. I was actually "HAPPY" to be able to "ENJOY" a Lean Cuisine.
For too long, I left myself pretty much eat whatever I wanted without being concerned with the consequences. Despite the times I have tried to eat "better," I would eat what I want and had limited success. The program I am doing now makes sense to me, but it has been a bit hard adjusting to it. It limits carbs and sugars. For the first time in a while, I am looking forward to weighing in and measuring my waist this wknd. Ha!
The day is going to ramp up to busy in a bit, and I'm hopeful that the day's distractions will keep me from dwelling on food.
Have a great day, everyone!!! WOO HOO!
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
New road work today made me scramble in a bit earlier to work. On my way in, I heard a song that makes me want to groove: "Let's Get it Started" by the Black Eyed Peas! Now, there's a prophetic moment if I ever had one. It is time to start doing, and never mind the how should I do it, just start doing!
I came into my office, settled down, and then shut the lights off (one side is visible from the hallway) and then I put this song on (love youtube) and got up and danced around. Yup. My movement has got to start somewhere and this is it. Drawing the line in the sand. Must move every day. I can do this, and this is my jumping off point!!!
Let's have a fantastic day!!! It is doable for all of us. One step (or song) at a time!!!! See you on the dance floor!
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