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Let's Get it Started!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

New road work today made me scramble in a bit earlier to work. On my way in, I heard a song that makes me want to groove: "Let's Get it Started" by the Black Eyed Peas! Now, there's a prophetic moment if I ever had one. It is time to start doing, and never mind the how should I do it, just start doing!

I came into my office, settled down, and then shut the lights off (one side is visible from the hallway) and then I put this song on (love youtube) and got up and danced around. Yup. My movement has got to start somewhere and this is it. Drawing the line in the sand. Must move every day. I can do this, and this is my jumping off point!!!

Let's have a fantastic day!!! It is doable for all of us. One step (or song) at a time!!!! See you on the dance floor!

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NATIVECOURAGE 5/18/2010 8:30PM

    Thanks for the add, thought I would write you a comment to inspire you to check in on your blog!

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RUNNING4MYLYF 5/13/2010 9:45PM

    Awesome. Good for you. I love to dance and it burns mega calories!!

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LOZUKE 5/12/2010 11:23AM

    Love that! Dancing is great! emoticon emoticon emoticon
Can I Join In? Debbie

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DONNAEDA 5/12/2010 10:09AM

    what joy to bring to the office. Congratulations on your movement but also on your attitude.

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DJS-DEBBIE 5/12/2010 9:28AM

    Now I have to go find it....

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BLESSED2BEME 5/12/2010 9:16AM

    I sang very loudly in the car on the way to work today to a Toby Mac song! Really helped put a smile on my face and a skip in my walk...plan on staying that way all day now!

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PLAYBLUES22 5/12/2010 9:03AM

    What a beautiful way to start the day emoticon

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JOKNOWS 5/12/2010 8:04AM

    emoticonI love that song too -- it will definitely get you moving. Let's get it started in here....and running, running
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NOVEMBERGIRL01 5/12/2010 8:01AM

    You go girl! Dance, dance, dance!

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KOBER9999 5/12/2010 7:52AM

    Dance Fever!!
I Gotta Join In!
Spark On!
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Hand-Clapper

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

If you're happy and you know it, and you really want to show it...if you're happy and you know it, clap your hands! (Ok, I know a few may be cursing me today if this song lingers in your head for a while.) Mine too. I am happy!

I am feeling very comfortable in my own skin. Not because I lost a ton of weight. (I haven't...yet) Just because. I am looking around and seeing the many, many blessings before me and appreciating all the richness my life has. I am surrounded by wonderful students, many of whom I have had the pleasure of helping (and employing) the last 3-4 years, and now, they are getting ready to graduate and move on to the next phase of their lives --- some will find work, many more will go on to even more education - law school, med school, etc...and I know that I had a tiny little hand in helping to shape who they are, and I am very proud of the little part I shared. Very proud!

I see myself becoming more organized, and completing projects I started, not just leaving them incomplete. I am writing again, making jewelry, reading (love that David Sedaris!) and loving life.

I have woken up from my self induced depression and I am on the road to living whole again. It feels good to be me. I am back. :)





  
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GROOVYCHICK9 5/18/2010 12:45PM

    Good for you!!!! Counting your blessings and being grateful makes all the difference. It makes you focus on what you have instead of what you don't. Creating things and working with your creative process is healing also. You are on the right track.

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SLIGHTLYBRAINY 5/11/2010 12:02PM

    That is wonderful!!! It is so sad that so many of us were in a self induced funk for no other reason but for our poor habits. Congratulations of feeling good and doing the healthy things that you enjoy.

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DONNAEDA 5/11/2010 10:43AM

    congratulations on your wonderful attitude on life. I am so glad that I read your blog. It puts me in a happy place too. So I am clapping my hands like the song says. I wish you continued happy days.

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DJS-DEBBIE 5/11/2010 10:14AM

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PLAYBLUES22 5/11/2010 9:54AM

    fantastic !!!!!

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JEN_BACK2BASICS 5/11/2010 9:20AM

    emoticon Glad you kicked the depression! Nothing's gonna stop you now.
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BLESSED2BEME 5/11/2010 9:15AM

    Awesome blog! Welcome back from depression! emoticon emoticon Looking forward to sharing in your success!

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JOKNOWS 5/11/2010 8:51AM

    It is the best feeling when you feel like you can conquer anything. Congrats on getting there. I like this quote from Dr. Seuss and your enthusiasm today reminded me of it:

"So be sure when you step, Step with care and great tact. And remember that life's A Great Balancing Act. And will you succeed? Yes! You will, indeed! (98 and percent guaranteed) Kid, you'll move mountains."

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MUGGLE_MOM 5/11/2010 8:41AM

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What an amazing lady you are!
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I just love reading your work!

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Dear Cookies,

Thursday, May 06, 2010

Your services are no longer needed. I've removed your belongings and ask that you leave quietly for the sake of all concerned. I know you (and the supermarket)were hopeful that our previous probationary arrangement would be amenable. However, your recent attempted attack left me with no choice, as you have violated the terms of our agreement.

Please know that I harbor no ill feelings towards you or other members of your family - cake, ice cream, fudge, however you are no longer welcome in my home.

I have taken precautions to shore up my defenses should you try to return. You would see that mango, blueberries and nectarines have replaced you.

I would hope that you would respect my wishes and spend your time elsewhere.


  
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DJS-DEBBIE 5/8/2010 6:13AM

    I love it!

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JOKNOWS 5/7/2010 12:33AM

    emoticonWay to break that cookie contract girl!

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MOONSWEEPER 5/6/2010 7:36PM

    Lol that was cute! I have had the same conversation with cookies myself.

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SEATTLESIMS 5/6/2010 7:32PM

    love it, cookies are my weakness!

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KOBER9999 5/6/2010 6:13PM

    Love this!
I should write one of these for "my kryptonite"!
Thanks for sharing.
Spark On!
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DATARN 5/6/2010 1:27PM

    Awesome. The camel thing was pretty cute!! I'll try to imagine what that would be like. It sure is hot enough today!! Have a great weekend.
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CHERKYLE 5/6/2010 11:28AM

    This was cute! LOL have a great day!

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YESITSDEB 5/6/2010 10:40AM

    Well done! emoticon

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JEN_BACK2BASICS 5/6/2010 9:41AM

    Very funny! Great job evicting cookies from your life!! I bet we can all benefit from kicking some food to the curb. Love it!
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DONNAEDA 5/6/2010 9:32AM

    I love it. I think you are so creative. Congratulations on becoming aware of your enviornment.

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FOREVERBT 5/6/2010 9:10AM

    so cute, and funny. Way to go taking control of your relationships.


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MEL_UNRAU 5/6/2010 9:08AM

    HAHA!!! You are hilarious!!!
Stay away cookies!!!! You are no longer welcome here!

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SUMDUMBGI 5/6/2010 8:53AM

    This is awesome! I just hope the cookies to try to move in here :D

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STARRPARENT 5/6/2010 8:47AM

    Cute post! Ya know the best thing for us to do to stop the temptation is just not buy them and bring them home!!



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1LATINAJOURNEY 5/6/2010 8:42AM

    LOVE IT !! Good job getting rid of those guys...they're trouble !!

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AIMEEM77 5/6/2010 8:26AM

    LOL...this is great...kind of a Donald moment-"Cookies...you're fired!" LOVE it! I think we could all take a cue from you to evict certain food from our homes! Maybe you could become the sheriff of cookie town and start issuing some restraining orders..

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MYUTMOST4HIM 5/6/2010 8:17AM

    I love this - you go girl!!!

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PMAY0313 5/6/2010 8:16AM

    Excellent!
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Digging deeper

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

Been thinking about my values and trying to come up with the things I am most proud of in my life for having done. That thought led to another and another and then I really took a hard look inside to unlock what drives my fear. I know that I can crush my weight issues but I keep getting in my own way. For the first time in my 46 yrs, I've realized my most deep seated fear is being replaced. I can pinpoint 3 times in my life where this has been a major factor for me -- one being very recent.

I'm kind of speechless that I have hit on this point, but now that I can shine a light on it, I can stop hiding in fear because of it. I hide behind my fat. I don't do things or go places because of my fat. I am afraid to stand out or bring attention to myself because of my fat. Of course, it draws just as much attention, and not in a good way. I need to stop hiding, and start living. I am killing myself one pound at a time in a 400 lb body.

My small positive step for today is looking at myself through others' positive eyes and drop the negativity. I am so over not trying because of my fear of failure (and of being replaced).

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JOKNOWS 5/6/2010 6:40AM

    These revelations are great in helping rid us of extra 'baggage' and allowing us to move towards a more positive outlook and reach our goals. emoticon

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JEN_BACK2BASICS 5/5/2010 8:56AM

    Great job finding your inner demon! That takes guts to go looking for, and even more courage to post it out here for others to read. I'm proud of you, and I know you will conquer that fear!
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TINARENA2 5/5/2010 8:29AM

    Don't let anything hold you back from living each day to the fullest! You are amazing and deserve to live amazingly!!!
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DJS-DEBBIE 5/5/2010 7:11AM

    What a great insight!

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MUGGLE_MOM 5/5/2010 6:50AM

    What a great blog. Your insight is amazing. Its very rare that people actually figure out what is holding them back. Now that you know, the journey through it can be accomplished. I am so proud of you for all you've done, for all you've accomplished, for all you've toughed it out through and you're still standing, still fighting. You are so worth it. Never forget that. I wish that I could show you how I see you. You'd see yourself as the warrior princess with the heart of gold. Take this journey for all its worth my friend. You are strong. You are powerful. You are capable. You are loved just for being you.

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KOBER9999 5/5/2010 6:32AM

    ANY positive step forward is progress in the right direction. I can tell "You Are Gonna Do This!" You're doing a great job.
Keep Up The Positive Attitude!
Down with negativity!
Spark on!
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SLIGHTLYBRAINY 5/5/2010 12:04AM

    I am so happy for you, those are the moments in life that can begin to unlock the true self. Your doing such an amazing job!!!

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BLESSED2BEME 5/4/2010 10:55PM

    Good for you! What a huge step to take. Thank you for sharing as I bet this helps a lot of us with our struggles too.

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Distractions Wanted

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

I'm in day two of eating well. Yesterday was a struggle! I did come in under my calorie goal, but it was not easy! I am trying to train myself to enjoy veggies and fruits again. I'm an emotional addicted eater, and breaking those cycles and habits is harder than I think it should be. :)

I was remembering back to when I lost a lot of weight, and it seemed easy-ish. I am trying to re-create that time for myself. I remember I was very comfortable in my own skin and it made it easier to do what I wanted to do -- and how I wanted to do it. I stopped people pleasing and just did it. It. Life. Whatever. I made my own opinion matter the most to me.

After eating dinner last night, I stopped eating. Hurrah! I distracted myself a bit on the computer although since I work with a computer most of the day, my eyes started to hurt. Enough of the computer! I need some new distractions. I am reading 2-3 books right now, and I will look for a 4th today. Walking to the library will give me a good excuse to get out. It's also adjacent to the weekly farmer's market that shows up on campus. I think this is the last week for it, sad face.

I planned my menu yesterday and left dinner flex on it. It was a good idea!

I making progress and I am glad that I am realizing that the change has to come from the inside.

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SHARMELBONELMP 5/4/2010 4:10PM

    I'm not sure what your general cravings are, but if I have to have a little something extra I eat a piece of sugar free toffee or something. I also chug water right after I've finished my meal, and sometimes drink tea after that. The tea seems to take the edge off of hunger for me. I try to remember always that it takes about 20 minutes for the stomach to send the signal to the brain that it's full. Really It's all about getting use to your body and your habits and being aware of your weaknesses and strengths. You can do it; you're on the right track. Take it one day at a time.

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~Mello~

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SLIGHTLYBRAINY 5/4/2010 3:44PM

    It does have to come from inside. For me, I eat 3 "light" meals, 3 snack and even fit in my SF Fudgesicle in for dessert every day and I stay very close to the 1200 calorie mark. I find when I stay in my nutritional ranges of fat, carbs, fiber and protein my body doesn't seem to crave anything.

For the binging, I will always be a food addict who wants to turn to my food friend/enemy and when that happens, some times I just have to close my eyes and dig deep inside to "find the will". The strength is there, the craving will pass and in the end, you will feel better for being so good to the most important person; you!!!

*hugs* .. enjoy the library trip later ... Terri =)

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DJS-DEBBIE 5/4/2010 2:25PM

    I find it hard not to eat at home, too. We emotional eaters all have the same problem I think. I chew gum and drink a lot of water. I think a good book would work, too!

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JEN_BACK2BASICS 5/4/2010 1:30PM

    Great job!! I also struggle with keeping within my food intake guidelines. If I had to be under 2000, I would eat 2100. If I had to be under 1800, I would eat 1900. So I trick myself by setting my range lower than it actually needs to be while I work to figure out how to stop balking at staying inside the lines. ;-)

Good luck on your continued journey! Let that inside change shine through.

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PEGGO45 5/4/2010 12:37PM

    I also love to read and sometimes my eyes hurt after being at work on the computer all day....
Maybe go to the library and get some books on Tape/CD....listen as you take a walk or just relax with your eyes shut and listen. Just keep busy... I have trouble just being home sometimes... too tired to do the chores in front of me... sometimes awakens the munchaholic in me...but I'm learning to be at home and do other things.... scrapbooking and I make recipe books for friends... Nah.. I'm not that good at it all the time... but sometimes..think I'm going to take the little one to the library tonight... thanks for the idea!!


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SUNNY2010 5/4/2010 11:41AM

    Good to learn your body and what triggers your habits! It seems you got a good plan of distracting yourself. I need to start planning my dinners ahead of time too.
Have a good week!
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BLESSED2BEME 5/4/2010 11:07AM

    Amen to learning that change has to come from within us! That took me a long time to figure out. I still fall back into old patterns of thinking but when I finally realized that nothing was going to change until I changed it, I started to really understand this journey! emoticon emoticon

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PARKERB2 5/4/2010 10:57AM

    emoticonfor staying within your calorie range. I did terrible yesterday too. Only went over about 200 calories but they were empty ones. Have a good day and good luck on your journey. You can overcome the addiction.

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TINARENA2 5/4/2010 10:46AM

    Most evenings I stop eating after dinner too. It helps with my reflux and I feel better not being full at bedtime.

Reading books is a great distraction as well as planning your food for the week. Lately I've kept busy with chores around he house, gardening and other outside stuff to keep me from snacking. It worked quite well. Once my mind was off the snack, I didn't think about it!

Veggies and fruits make us feel so much better - at least they do to me. I notice this when I've eaten something high in fat. The sluggishness is really gross and it makes me regret my poor choice.

Have a good week being back on track, I'm rooting for you!!

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CHICKY88 5/4/2010 10:39AM

    I too am addicted to food. I chew gum to fool my mouth from eating. It has been working as long as i remember to chew it.

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