Thursday, April 17, 2014
My forearms hurt tonight. I "climbed" a lot of rope tonight and lifted weights. I had a day that ran long at work, but I was in the right place at the right time to resolve a couple of issues.
Mid way through the day, I got a phone call that made me happy and made me simultaneously cringe. It was from a dear old friend of mine whom I have known the better part of twenty five plus years. It was no coincidence that he was calling me today. Every year, he sends me a bday card like clockwork - it always arrives precisely on my bday. Today though, he was calling because it would have been the 53rd birthday of a mutual friend, a person whose death still leaves a hole in my heart, and to each of us - he, Alfonse, was our BFF. I met him in my first year of college, while he was a senior. The caller was his partner for many years on the job.
Alfonse was a character like no other, and truly no one could make me laugh as much as him. He was a decorated police offer who died in the 9/11 attacks on the World Trade Center, leaving behind a wife, a son and a yet to be born daughter. I was also friendly with his wife, but he and I were very close friends since I was 18 yrs old. Even though I had my own older brothers, there was nary a soul I was closer to than Al who referred to himself as my big brother. He was not the only friend I lost that day, but he was certainly the closest.
Truthfully, even after my awesome start with the challenge so far, I did not want to go the gym tonight. As hard as I tried to remember only happy memories - of which there are thousands, it was hard not to focus on the untimely end, and what a loss it has been. We all took trips together, Vail, Mexico, Hamptons, Montauk, Jersey shore; we went to dozens of concerts (Who, Stones, Lou Reed...) and events - World Series, tons of ball games. He knew me inside and out, and there could never be another him. He died just 6 weeks before my wedding. I remember my dad telling me I still had to get married, which I did. Besides the happiness of the wedding, it was the absolute worst time of my life. It was a Dickens' moment - it was the best of times, it was the worst of times.
Where's the best place for me to go when I need me time? Duh, the gym. So I went, and happily worked out, keeping my wt sessions in rhythm so doing every other day, and working the rope. The rope challenge is a little bit different this time around, and I did not understand it at first. Using a variety of tall structures throughout the world, like Statue of Liberty and World Trade Center, I need to go the distance of the equivalent in rope feet up AND down. So Statue of Liberty is 305 feet tall, so on a given night I go 305 feet down (the easier way) and then yank the rope upwards for the same 305. In the course of the 30 days, I need to revisit the structure for a total of 3 times.
So, I had already done 960 feet up and down last night, so I took liberties and did the remaining 816 up and down to complete one rotation through the World Trade Center. It only seemed right if I was going to make it into the gym, then it was going to have to be that. It probably makes no sense to anyone but me, but I felt better doing it. It also brings me one step closer to my end goal for the beginning of May.
This afternoon I felt pretty crappy emotionally, but I dug in and went to the gym anyway. My eating was in check all day. I'm okay now; the day is done, and I get to do it all over again tomorrow, but then I will probably pick a smaller building. :)
Thursday, April 17, 2014
When I got up this morning, feeling sore all over, I thought of a saying of my grandmother's (Nanny) who is long since passed. She would say, "Happy is the man who digs ditches. He works hard all day and comes home and falls into bed. Then gets up in the morning to do it all over again." She meant that he would stay out of trouble because he was too tired to do anything else. ha ha.
I felt like that I guy when I crawled into the shower. I am feeling yesterday's workout all over, but I am no less giddy than I was going to bed last night. The good feelings I have earned while working out regularly (nearly daily) are sticking with me. I am tired, and yes, I could probably fall asleep again if I let myself lay down, but that will pass. I'll eat my bfast, maybe drink a protein smoothie and then head out to work.
Getting up about an hour earlier is great for me getting my morning under control before I hop out the door. Plus, this morning was an added bonus as I had about 10 mins of talk tie with hubby before he left for work. He made me laugh a lot - and coincidentally, most of the humor was aimed at me. It was funny!
Well, that's all I've got for this morning. Today should be another good catch up day, with just a couple of meetings. I'll have to walk to one of them but that is a good thing. I am getting stronger every day and my ability to get around more easily is improving. Hope we all have a fabulous day!
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
No good challenge comes without a pinky swear, but I forgot about it this time around, so he will have to owe me one. I wish I could truly express how delighted I am right now --- with myself, my ability to do what has been set before me, and how great I physically feel. Ok, my feet do hurt in every position I put them, but for now, they are just going to have to take one for the team. I, myself - ME - told a woman in the gym tonight in the locker room, that sure she is sore today - but how is she going to feel 30 days from now? HA HA! I cannot believe that came out of my mouth.
That is exactly how I feel though. When I basically stumbled out of the gym last night - feeling very sore - but emotionally and mentally buoyant - that is something I realized - yes, I am going to hurt now in the short term - but where am I going to be 30 days from now, when my limbs have grown stronger, and my pride in myself has built to an all time high? It is worth the bit of pain now. I am working so hard, but the payoff feels huge.
It is not just the workout now, it is the realization that working out has changed my life. Trust me, I am astounded by this as much as the next person, but last night when I was driving to the gym, I drove past the funeral home that made me take stock of my life and envision that I was headed down the same road. That heaviness in my heart that I had given up on myself (and I had!!!) is no longer there. I am reinventing myself. I am believing and achieving.
Tonight I went 1.5 miles on the elliptical (called octane in my circles). Holy Moly! That was fantastic!!! Kimmy, my ever so awesome trainer, & I were reminiscing about the 30 second days. That's right, 30 seconds used to be my max. Tonight, I set a personal best --- and I think I went .50 miles without stopping. Do you how tremendous that is? I went from a completely sedentary shell of a person to someone who not only cares about herself now, but is thriving. Days are becoming an adventure and I am getting it all together. It is quite thrilling, which explains the feeling I have of jumping out of my skin.
Two days down, 28 to go. I can't wait to see what is waiting for me at the end of this rainbow on May 4th. WOO HOO!
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Started the new challenge tonight, and let me say this --- boy, do I ever feel good! Not my body really - that is aching all over, from chipmunk arms, and tired feet, and maybe sore knees, but none of that matters to me right now --- as right now I am celebrating how darn GOOD it feels to be back, in the gym and working out.
I do not have an easy challenge in front of me, but that is fine - it is better this way - it gives me something to strive for, and I am going to do my very best to make it all happen. I won't drill down to all the specifics tonight, but I will soon - it is just that I am pretty tired tonight, but I have a GREAT DAY!
I am about to say something here that might surprise a couple of people. If you don't believe in yourself already, now is a really great time to start. I had a hard time wrapping my head around this for a while, but when I finally gave in and decided to give myself a chance to believe in myself, I found out something unexpected. When you believe in yourself, you stop questioning every little nice thing that someone says about you - whether to your face - or about you to another. You can lay down your suspicions, and just enjoy the moment. : )
My new mantra is "Believe and Achieve." I think it sums up things nicely.
This challenge includes 3 x weekly weight sessions, 4 x weekly elliptical (aka Octane), and my friend, the rope - lots of it. I took a chunk out of the rotation tonight. I feel it in my hands and my arms, but it is a happy pain. The challenge also includes a switch to standing more than sitting.
It is really good to be back, working with my beloved trainer, & equally beloved coach. I'd write more, but it is time for me to stand up! Cheers!
Monday, April 14, 2014
I went back to the gym today. Because the weather was so darn nice, I knew we would be walking outside. The "we" is the three of us, me, my trainer, and my coach. It was also the start of a new challenge being born. I don't have all the info yet, and it is still coming together, but it will revolve around a chosen vacation spot and how long it will take to get there, charted in miles of exercise.
The second part of the challenge will be substituting standing at my desk for sitting. I knew it was going to involve the office, but I thought it was going to include exercising within the office (squats, lunges, and the like.) I should shut my mouth before that gets added in as well. :)
It felt weird being back in the gym today after being absent for what felt like a long stretch. I've been missing for much longer periods before, so this was a short respite, but I still missed being there.
I stopped to weigh in before working out, and found I'd gained 5 lbs since last weigh in. I felt really bad about it, though I know I will take it off again soon, but I still couldn't tell him to his face. Coward. I texted him and he replied "whoop-de-do-no worries" with the attitude of I will take it off again. I will indeed, but I also know that is not going to happen with skipping workouts.
No weights are planned for my next 30 days at this time. All challenges are subject to change. ha ha. I am glad this one is getting underway. I suspect tonight may feature the return of the leg cramps. I have not had them in a week.
If that happens so be it. I am sore tonight, but that was expected. So I am chugging along getting back to my workouts, and happy to be back in the game. Cheerio.
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