Sunday, January 20, 2013
Today is 1/20/13. My journey to human revolution has started exactly a year ago today. Yes, become healthy and fit. Today, I looked my weight history, and the recorded number astonished me. My weight was 30 + pounds heavier then today.
I've lost 30 pounds.
I could have lost much more weight, if I did not rebound in mid May. A year ago I was very depressed and miserable fat woman. I began to really hate myself and I could not stand myself anymore. If I don't do somethin about it. I would had to destroy or erase myself. I said to myself, " it will be much easier if I could erase myself just like turning TV remort off. " Yes, "click !!" Just like that. But since I couldn't do it, just like that.
I realized I need to stop hating myself. In order to stop hating myself, I need to do something.
I had to do something. so I made determination. Determination to become healthy, fit, thin enough to start liking myself.
Be come beautiful again.
I started exercise and eating healthy. In the beginning it was very hard. I wanted to give up. but I never gave up. More i do it, I started to believe in myself . I can do this !!
Day in and day out, I worked hard with my exercise and planed my meals and eat right.
Weight loss is very hard, it takes perseverance and determination and consistency and patience. But, Step by step, day by day, little by little I push myself to move forward.
I often regret my past and why I did this or didn't do it to be like this. But I have learned regret doesn't take me no where. I have to realize I have the power to change.
But I have to take responsibility for what I did or didn't do it. And be Strong and move forward.
More I work out, more I eat healthy day in and day out, I started feeling better and have more energy. I am so glad, the hard work I've been doing finally, started to pay off now. I am 30 + pound lighter today. Also I feel great and I am so proud of myself. I can finally said now, "I am glad who I am."
I have learned with in this one year of time. Since I started my human revolution health journey. It is all about choice. The choice you make will differentiates your life.
According to my BMI, I am still in the renege of over weight. And I have renewed my goal and made new determination to keep challenging myself, until I truly be come healthy and fit. Yes, I can do this. I did till now and I became so far.
**To my Spark friends, thank you for all your support. I did it and will continue to do this and you can do it too. We can continue help each other. "Yes, we can do this!!"
Saturday, January 05, 2013
This morning I have read our fellow Sparker, IndyGirl's blog about coping strategies for binge. And I Thank her for her blog about binge eating and how to control it. I liked her mantra and binge buster idea. I will recommend this blog to all of my Spark friends. Here is the link:
This morning, my hubby has offered to cook me a breakfast.( it is very rare.) So I took his offer. and had finished eating my blueberry pancake and Italian sausage for my breakfast. It was so delicious. But total calorie of my breakfast was whapping 805 calories. It took 2 third of my caloric intake. I am plan to eat small portion of lean meet and salads for the dinner tonight so my total calorie won't go over my calorie of today. Also to Compensate my big breakfast, I planed to pop up my new classic Richard Simmons work out DVD I got it for the Xmas in very good deal. I've got it 3 DVD set of them and it also came with toning cord and food mover planer. For all of this includes shipping was only $9- I'm very happy for this purchase. Nowadays, most of people likes newest fitness line of Zumba class and DVD . But for me, I am a very classic woman, so maybe Zumba is too fast pace for me. For now I'll stick with the classic. (^.^)
I confessed to myself,,, since I came back from my Xmas vacation to up north. My feeling inside of me is very heavy and similar to depress mode. Also my body feels heavy as big hinge stone or a hippo. Due to the fact I had to deals with "Other People's Food and I missed my healthy eating, and my morning veggie smoothie's. Also while I was there I could not do much exercise. ( I was snowed in half of the time.) And some human dramas with my family member that we have to deal with. I came back home on New Year's Day. I haven't get on the scale to check my weight since I left home on 19th of December last year. And was kinda of afraid to get on the scale to see what's my damage for all the Holiday eating and not able to do exercise as I liked. But something must to checked and assessed upon, so I can move on.... Here I go, this morning when I got up it was late, almost 10:30 in the morning. And after went to a bathroom. I took deep breath and exhaled, and I finally got on myself to the scale. In the first, I couldn't believe what I see in the scale and I had to try get on the scale couple of time to make sure, but the result of all the wrong doing in the holidays....actually was not bad like I thought I would be.
I only had gained little over a half pound. I was happy that I had not even gained a full pound. This result will definitely help ease my depression and give me a will power to move forwards to go back to my healthy eating, to regular exercise routine to achieve my ultimate goals. Yappie--!! *\(^o^)/*. I feel so relieved. And happy. I am so glad that Holidays are all over and gone !!
Well,,,this is all I would like to say in my blog today.
Have a wonderful weekend to all my spark friends.
Take care for now.
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