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What's Happened to my Will Power?

Thursday, August 04, 2011

Some times this journey is really hard.

A couple of weeks ago my oldest niece got married. On my weigh in day (just a couple of days before the big day) I discovered that I had lost a total of 30 lbs since February 2011. I was so excited! I couldn't believe that I was three quarters of the way to my goal of 40 lbs. It felt so great! One of my nephews who usually doesn't comment on facebook postings saw my post about losing 30 lbs and he took the time to send me a personal message telling me how proud he was of me. Wow, how awesome that made me feel. I was flying high.

Two weeks after the wedding, I step on the scale for my weekly weigh in and it wasn't good. I had regained 3 lbs. I was devastated. I felt like a failure. Like I had let myself and everyone else down. Now, I'm in a funk. I keep trying to tell myself that this is a minor set back, to get back on track and keep moving forward on this journey. But this weight gain has effected me in ways I never could have imagined. It feels like a HUGE set back. Everyday I struggle now to make the right choices - and I'll be honest - I haven't been making very good ones. Late night snacking is back in my life - honestly, its like a monkey on my back that I can't shake. I try to fight it, drink water to see if it will pass, but it doesn't work. I have insomnia again - most nights being up until 1:00 or later.

I weighed in this morning and saw that some how I have lost 1.5 lbs of the weight that I gained back. I am hoping that this will be the incentive I need to get back on track. Today I posted photos of myself on my page in an attempt to see how far I have come. Today I am making a conscious effort to get back on track and keep moving forward. At the start of this journey I made a goal of 40 lbs for myself. Today I make a new goal - to achieve this before my next birthday which is coming up in October. I know I can do it - Now, I just need to do it.


Pictures tell the story

Thursday, July 07, 2011

I can't believe how great I feel. I didn't realize how down I was about my body until now. Having lost 28 lbs. I can finally see the difference. Its strange to me how other people can notice you are losing weight before you notice it yourself. Sure, my clothes are baggie and things that were too small before fit again, but last night I saw pictures of myself from November of last year, and it finally dawned on me how much weight I have lost. Looking in the mirror every day I didn't notice it, but looking at these pictures really made me realize how far I have come. I didn't think I would be emotional about this experience, but I have to admit, I actually cried last night when I realized just how far I have come and how proud I am of myself. I definitely feel like I have the strength and courage to get to my ultimate goal in this journey. I've said before that I don't care how long it takes, but now I mean it even more than before. I feel so much better about myself - body, mind and spirit. This is a journey that I want to continue for me. I love waking up feeling good about myself and having a sense of accomplishment every single day. All I can say is WOW!

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CHOCZILLA 7/7/2011 4:11PM

  Good for you! You should be proud - you've accomplished a lot. Like you said... "body, mind and spirit" - it's amazing the places this journey is taking us.

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BEENIE76 7/7/2011 3:52PM

  What a nice, uplifting post. Thanks! Thats great motivation for me also. Keep up the good work!

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KARIDIAN1 7/7/2011 3:46PM

    Isn't it nice to know you have done something good for yourself and can enjoy it.

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Busy Weekend

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Although I thought this weekend would be a tough one to stick with my new eating habits, I did great. I kept within my calories and didn't snack at night time. I did a 2 mile walk yesterday, and we went to the lake today and rented paddleboats, which I have never been on before. The fact that the entire weekend was spent with family, I watched what I eat, and I got some exercise makes me feel GREAT!

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JMIRROR 6/12/2011 11:40PM

  You should be proud. It's sometimes hard to be with family and not go overboard.

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