Wednesday, March 21, 2012
I don't know why this weight has been coming off so slowly. I'm not going to let the scale get to me. I am going to stick it out anyway. I have been sugar and flour free for about 9 weeks ( I think). I just need to keep moving forward and not let the thing on my bathroom floor dictate how I feel or allow it to defeat me, which means giving up, giving in and binging. So for today, I got through a great day. I ate well, I exercised (Cardio and Weight Training) and I feel good. Now I need to step up the career a little more..ok a lot more!
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
I think things are getting much better.
I have been sugar and flour free for about 9 weeks. I have not lost near the weight I think I should have lost but I'm doing ok, even if it is slow.
I lost my job, thank god. That total bitch was an abominable beast that was abusive to me on a daily basis. No wonder I was miserable with stress.
Although I am now doing freelance work, it is not enough to be considered earning a living in my book. I need to make a commitment to work at least as hard for myself as I did for that BEAST.
I have a lot to look forward to this year. This year we will buy a house. My daughter will get braces and we will plan her Bat Mitzvah. I love my husband, he is the absolute bar none best thing that has ever happened to me. I am so thankful that he is in my life...and he smells so good!
So on we go, even if it's slower than I would like...taking one baby step at a time and hoping this time, this is it!
Monday, February 07, 2011
and I need to "say" it out loud.
I have been eating poorly and I feel every minute of it.
I wake up feeling anxious and sick to my stomach and then I do it again.
So, I believe today is day one.
I have to believe it and I have to make a new start.
I cannot have another morning like this.
Feeling 'hung over' from eating sugar and processed crap.
I spent a year eating well, exercising and feeling good.
I have to remember how good that feels. No guilt, no shame and no ticking up on the scale and watching my clothes 'shrink'.
I need during this horrible stress I feel not to make myself worse 'medicating' with food, but make myself better by well, medicating with the right foods.
I can't do another day like this, so for today I am willing to try and make it through this day eating clean.
Then when I put my head on the pillow tonight, I can feel good.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
I feel like I'm sliding back. Got in the exercise today. Missed yesterday due to Jewish Holidays and fasting. But I just can't seem to get in my three days a week. I also need to tighten up the food stuff. Just stressed out from school, work, kids...need to pull it together. At least school will be done in Dec...but then in come the bills!
On a good note, at least I am somewhat tracking my food again. I need to do this.
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