Friday, March 15, 2013
Iím just so phoning it in today. Iíve had a very busy week, stressful on all fronts, and I just canít bring myself to concentrate or do any work. Probably not something I should be writing on a work computer, eh? Brain fog has taken over.
I weighed myself this morning to find that Iíve gained 5 pounds since starting my job. This is not good news, but it gave me the extra kick in the butt to find out why I still havenít been granted access to the fitness room here in the building.
Turns out, the building doesnít have me listed as an employee. So I spent the morning dealing with the CompanyIWorkFor and getting the necessary paperwork filed. Tuesday, Iíve been told, Iíll be able to use that room. Just when Iím going to use it still puzzles me, but Iíll figure it out. Like, perhaps a couple of days a week Iíll shell out the $10 to have my dog brought home from daycare so I can work out when the working day is though.
See, I work until 4:30. I imagine I wouldnít get to the gym and change until 5:15. If I take 45 minutes, that has me leaving work at 6. (Assuming I donít shower?!) I have to pick up the puppy by 7. Thatís cutting it too close - with no traffic at all, I can make it in 45 minutes. There is rarely no traffic. But OK. I can justify the expense if I think of it as spending $20-30 a week to belong to a gym. Thatís a good price, isnít it? (Please donít contradict me. I couldnít handle it!)
But you know, since I donít have a workout schedule I havenít been working out at all. Ever. Except for the dog walks and a few 10-minute videos here and there, no exercise has touched this body. That and my incredibly lax eating is how that 5 pounds happened.
All or nothing thinking Ė Iím so very guilty of this. So Iím going to do two workouts this weekend. At least. Iím exhausted from the week and I donít know if I can get on that step tonight. It really has been a very, very busy week. Crazy busy. Not terrible busy, but ďno time to breatheĒ busy.
Yesterday started out as a great food day, that ended with a small bag of chocolate-covered pretzels and pizza. A combo that got me so sick that I ÖuhÖ got sick. It is no surprise today that Iíve been SO very regimented and have NO interest in the Friday treats littering the office today.
So much more to say, too lazy to type it. So Iíll leave my Punim the Wonder Puppy story for the weekend. Suffice it to say, heís almost two, and heís trying to assert his manliness.
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Thanks for the encouragement and ideas guys! I need them right now. I am just baffled about how I can fit in more fitness.
Yesterday was a STELLAR food day, and I've set myself up to have another one today. Steps were way too low at just under 7000.
I thought the steps would be higher because I went and did my grocery shopping for the week during lunch. I walked around the perimeter of the store and then up and down every aisle. I AM doing really well with the flights of steps. I work on the 4th floor - 28 steps between each floor. I do this at least twice a day, plus I take the stairs to and from meetings on other floors. And if I've really got time, I'll just walk down and then back up the whole 4 flights of stairs.
For whatever reason, I had a very rocky night's sleep. Light's out was 9:30, but then I was up at midnight, and couldn't fall back to sleep until just after 1. The alarm goes of at 10 to 5. As a result, I'm just not feeling "with it." The only reason I'm putting this out there is to remind myself that I need to be extra vigilant today. I tend to dive into high carbohydrate/high sugar foods when I'm underslept and cranky, or even just feeling slightly unwell, as I am today.
So no deviating from the food plan today. I've logged everything going in to my body for the day, and that's going to have to be it. It is etched in stone.
And now, I must work...
Have a great day y'all!
Monday, March 11, 2013
Hello long-lost Sparkers!
I guess I'm the one who is lost, or have been. I have to say it has been tough going. I still haven't gotten access to the health club here (WHY!?!) and haven't been able to figure out how and when to fit real fitness into my day. I'm not walking my full 10,000 steps a day several days of the week - mostly because of the weather.
The little 10-minute videos here and there help a bit, but I just can't count them as a "real" workout. They are just keeping the memory of fitness in my brain and body.
Food-wise I've been having good and bad days. Many, many bad days. Still, I'm bringing my breakfast and lunch to work and eating healthy snacks. Dinner is my problem. It seems to be how I relieve stress. I'm trying to break this though. As the weather warms up, or at least as the sidewalks thaw from all the ice, I'm taking the dog out for longer walks right after I pick him up from daycare. Maybe this is where I fit in a workout a few days a week.
It has been two months now, and I'm still trying to figure this new life of mine out. It's been really tough. Some days I think I've got it all down, and other days, like today, I really wonder what the hell I'm doing with my life.
I'll get it sorted out.
Hope you are all doing well. I miss our quality time together!
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Today was one of those days where I just couldn't get out of bed. I was sluggish, didn't feel like starting my day, but then I did, and was well paid for it.
No, not in cash, but in kind. It was a classic "turn that frown upside down" kind of day. For example, all I wanted to do was eat all day. I was actually hungry. I had eaten my breakfast, my mid-morning snack, part of my lunch, and an unplanned extra snack by 10:30. (The unplanned snack was coffee that I had with 2% milk and sugar. It hit the spot, but interesting fact: I generally don't like sugar in my coffee. Hmm.)
I was very tempted to go get something else but I didn't do it. Frown turned around.
Then, late this morning, I ended up doing a project for my boss. As snotty as this is going to sound, the poor soul just wasn't doing it right, and I helped him out. Gladly. I worked through lunch because I couldn't take myself away from that project. I really, really, REALLY enjoyed it. And he was so happy with what I'd done that he told his boss about it, and then she told HER boss... I mean, it wasn't THAT big of a deal, and neither women in upper management had actually SEEN the document I was working on yet. I hope they aren't let down.
Personal triumph, but at the cost of getting away from my desk, giving my eyes and legs a rest from sitting and staring. I had eaten my soup at my desk, but I was still hungry.
But hey - frown upside down! My boss was so pleased and so grateful that I'd worked through lunch that he sent me home at 3:30.
I made it home in pretty good time - only one traffic jam of sorts. And I had extra free time. Here's how my late afternoon went:
1. Got home at 4:45 and was HUNGRY. I ate two bowls of Total cereal, which put me very close to being done with food for the day (I've got my 350 calorie reserve left.) Frown upside down - it is 8 p.m., I'm not over calorie (over carb though) and I'm also not hungry.
2. I changed into clothes I could walk in and be warm and went and got a manicure. I love having manicures and I haven't had one in a long time. My hands were feeling dry and raggedy, so I went to the very cheap place at the end of my block and had one. I bring my own polish (red, natch) and am happy to say that the lady, in spite of her complete lack of English speaking skills, eventually understood what I wanted and gave me a very nice manicure.
3. After taking about 10 minutes to dry, I then went out, sans gloves, and walked the mile and a half to go get Punim from daycare and a mile and a half home. Sure, my hands were cold, but they look fabulous AND I got my steps in today.
And now I'm not hungry, I'm not cold, I'm not over calorie, I have had physical activity, I feel good about the work I did today, and I am sparking.
Sometimes life is just gooooood.
Monday, February 11, 2013
Actually, some of you really DO take the time to remember me, even when I'm not communicating on the site. Thank you for keeping me connected and for not giving up on me!
I've had the job for a month now, and it is really going well. The honeymoon period is coming to an end, I feel it, but that's OK. There is no such thing as a perfect situation, so I'm kind of glad the warts are starting to show. But these warts are no where near as ugly as the ones I'm used to. So I'm still happy.
For the first time since I started working, I actually feel like I don't have to fall into bed after dinner. And I cooked dinner tonight. (A simple stir fry, but still...) I didn't rely on the freezer or takeout or delivery, or cereal. Lord, I've eaten a lot of cereal. I've been off my plan on my plan, and really trying to get my life back on a brand new track.
This track is where I can have an awesome job, a healthy life style, a social life, and have a great relationship and time with my doggie. Ok, patience, patience, I can't have it all in the blink of an eye. I need to work at this.
And so I spent the weekend cooking (I've been cooking most weekends, but only a dish or two.) My freezer is full again.
I'm rambling, I know. But I guess the best part of this is that even when I have a crap day food wise, I see that there are some new behaviors that really ARE part of who I am now. I always measure my milk for my coffee and in my cereal. I measure condiments and even when eating pizza, I'm aware of what I'm eating. Being aware doesn't always keep me healthy, but it is so much better than the dark and gloomy days of not knowing or caring.
On Friday I get access to the fitness center at work. I finally feel like can DO a workout after getting up at 4:30, driving the big drive, learning the new work. So my goal for the rest of February (after Friday) is to do three real workouts a week. I can do the step at home now. (I haven't, but I can) on the weekends. And twice a week I can work out after work. I suppose I should SEE that fitness room before committing to it, but whatever. Even if it is just a bike and treadmill I can do it.
I'm not going to promise to check in every day, but rest assured I'm here, and I am starting to adapt and have the energy to use my free time to do more than veg!
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