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Sluggish and thinking about time

Sunday, October 12, 2014

Oh my, this is a hard one. Soooo sluggish today. Sleep last night was horrible. I kept waking up coughing (allergy season) needing to pee (drank the last three cups of water just before bedtime like a dolt) and cramps in my legs (PMS).

I had to be up reasonably early this morning because the dog's trainer was coming at 10 and I had things I needed to do before then. It was a rough session for him - he's got fear-based aggression, and he's pretty much afraid of everything. He's a big boy (85 lbs). It is also only his second day wearing his muzzle outside. Even despite the extra treats he gets for wearing it, he still tries to get it off. And I have to stop him from trying, but it's tough - it is SO CUTE.

After training, I ate lunch and we took a nap. I am still sooo sluggish. I need to get out and do a good walk soon because the sky is turning gray. Also, I'm wasting my weekend. Yes, rest is good, but I've done zero social things this weekend and haven't done much of anything to create a happier life.

Meh. Well, yesterday I hit my walking goal, ate in range and achieved most of my nutrition goals. I weighed myself to find that I've lost a pound. Even with the end of the week going down the tubes, I still lost a pound. Awesome. Today, the calories are within range so far, but if I don't bust a move, the steps won't be.

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 10/19/2014 7:14PM

    Great job! And I'm in the same boat with the sluggish day!

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KNEEMAKER 10/18/2014 12:47PM

  We have an awesome total of 86,400 to spend each day. And we get that sum everyday that we awaken. I am going to make the best of my 86,400 daily seconds. I hope you do too. With that said, let's just keep on keeping on. Stay positive and keep on inspiring others. Thanks for sharing. emoticon

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NILLAPEPSI 10/12/2014 8:22PM

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Weekend Update

Saturday, October 11, 2014

Not a very good end to my week. Stress and PMS caught up with me on Thursday and Friday. I didn't track, and I didn't eat very well. Sweets. Not even ones that are worth the calories - not an indulgence, not even a treat. Just sugar. I'm putting a lot of energy today into not beating myself up about this. I'm learning about self-compassion and I'm going to stick with it.

It feels good to care about myself and to be forgiving.

I've been doing well with my steps, and today is slated to be one of those +10K days. It's beautiful out, the sun is shining, so it should be easy. Although, it is 11 a.m. and I'm already feeling the need for a nap. I've just taken the dog out for his morning sniff stroll of 1.5 miles, eaten a very good, high-fiber, high protein breakfast. The day is getting off to a good start.

This week was more or less "hell week" for me. An week of "employee appreciation" and a visit from the CEO. Unfortunately, I am not the focus of this appreciation. (Although I did get a rose and a lot of pats on the back.) It is my job to report on, and help make the appreciation happen. On Thursday, CEO day, I lost it.

I woke up feeling sluggish and unwell and was really anxious. That's when I gave in to the sugar. I decided it would be OK to let myself fall back on the sweet, sweet crystal crack serotonin booster just to get through the day. And then Friday... my brain went, "OK, back to the old unhealthy view of food!" and although I did better than Thursday, It wasn't a very healthy day.

It is Saturday and I have no other plans than to eat well and be active. And to clean the house a bit. I could really use an Alice right about now. The house is a mess, and I am ashamed to say, dirty.

I think I'm giving in to that nap though.

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NILLAPEPSI 10/11/2014 5:35PM

    Hang in there! Tomorrow is a new day to start fresh. Get some steps in this evening.

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Update to Reckless Morning

Tuesday, October 07, 2014

As I thought, I pretty much didn't get hungry again until around dinner time. Lucky me! I must have had enough protein to protect me from the sugar crash.

I knew that to get my protein for the day, I was going to have to eat a bunch of it for dinner. This gave me a 400 calorie dinner. And at the end of the day, I'm over calorie by 300. If I allowed Spark to add my fitness to my calorie count, I'd be fine.

So given my wild and reckless morning, I think I did OK. I got all the protein I needed for the day. While I'm not over in fat or salt, I was slightly over in carbs and woefully deficient in pretty much every other nutrient.

Thank goodness for vitamins! I'll be taking mine post-haste.

I feel like I should feel wildly guilty about this morning, but there's that new self-compassion again. I'm more focused on how I was able to hit the breaks, track my mess, and move on.

Or I'm in denial?

Was today a healthy day? No. But I've had mostly healthy days since I started tracking again. I guess I'm just happy to know that I know better, and that this morning's binge doesn't change the fact that I generally eat well.

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KELLIEBEAN 10/8/2014 2:51PM

    If you can make the majority of the days healthy, you're doing very well. That is what I strive for. I think it's a huge help to get in the protein!


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NILLAPEPSI 10/8/2014 4:00AM

    Keep on keeping on. You'll find your groove. emoticon emoticon

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Reckless morning

Tuesday, October 07, 2014

It is 10:38 a.m. and I have 19-365 calories left for the day. At least that includes 31 grams of protein... but...er, 200 carbs.

Not sure what snapped this morning, but I just wasn't present. I'm a bit stressed, trying to relax.. and not paying attention to myself.

Look, it's a distinct possibility that I'm going to go at least a bit over calorie today, (Alhough lunch probably won't happen. It won't NEED to happen. I think it will be a while before I'm hungry again.) And OK, so an "eating with reckless abandon without regard to my health" day it is.

What bothers me most is the not-being-present-while-scarfing-down-suga
ry-treats thing. I've been so present, calm and even happy for many days in a row. I wonder what's different about today?

The good news is that I snapped out of it, and I'm not beating myself up - but I did stop scarfing. And now I have something to think about. "What happened?" Am I short of seratonin? Onward.

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NILLAPEPSI 10/7/2014 8:12PM

    Tomorrow is a new day to start fresh. We all have those "face in the fridge" days.


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EMMACORY 10/7/2014 11:50AM

    You must have tracked your food and that woke you up. Give yourself a pat on the back for naming and recognizing what you were doing. It is about progress not perfection! emoticon

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Monday, October 06, 2014

Lately, I’ve noticed the ads on Spark are becoming intrusive and inappropriate. Ads for diet fasts, “metabolic boost” bars, Snickers, fast food… “You can lose weight with this one ridiculous trick…”

I know Spark needs to make money – but this is a site about getting healthy. None of the above items are of any interest to me. I can deal with the Zulilly ads and products that might I might actually use. But I don’t want to see fast food, junk and false diet claims on here – it makes no sense.

Imagine the algorithm that cause these ads to be viewed on our computers – they see we want to lose weight and live healthy, and that we’re interested in food and are prone to making bad choices, if only here and there.

Sometimes the ads pop up over content, and the only way to get rid of the ad is to click a tiny X. I never manage to click that x and always get taken to some website I don’t want to see.
Anyone else annoyed by this?

I AM in a bit of a snit today, which is probably why I’m finally writing about this now, instead of a few weeks ago.

My progress is still coming along nicely. Food all packed and eaten at work today. Got out for a short walk before the inevitable rains.

I hope I can lighten my mood somehow – I don’t like this feeling.

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BABY_GIRL69 10/6/2014 5:18PM

    I keep my eyes centered on the page.... I ain't time, money or energy to look at those little ads....

God bless & enjoy everyday!


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NILLAPEPSI 10/6/2014 3:21PM

    If you download Mozilla Firefox, they have an add-on you can run -- I think it's called Ad Block, or something like that. Works great.

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STEVEN_D 10/6/2014 1:56PM

    You need to send this on to Sparkpeople themselves. I'm looking at an add for Popeyes deep fried chicken and French fries and saw a lingerie add that looked kind of risqué.

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