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One day at a time

Thursday, June 05, 2014

Sigh. It's been a tough week. Predator issues, well issues, and money issues overall. Sometimes it seems like life on a farm is just one thing after another! On a different note, I sold my first produce via the food co-op that started distribution recently, and may be getting some side work to help with the money issues, so we're hoping for better days soon. One day at a time, I guess.

  
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MYRMEN 6/6/2014 8:36AM

    emoticon There is always sun after a storm. Hang on. It will get better soon.

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How to make deer really nervous and confused

Friday, November 25, 2011

I live in an apartment complex owned by my university. It is situated right along a river (probably not the best choice), and has a large copse of trees nearby. Deer like to come by at different times, usually dusk or later, to nibble on various plants that I assume must be particularly tasty.

Tonight I did one of my run-walks, back and forth on each level of my building. I am not sure exactly how many circuits I did (a lot! I was trying to burn off anxiety. See comment on previous blog entry). Well, I have to say, my experience tonight amused me, because I wasn't entirely alone. I saw a deer munching away on something crunchy each time I walked or ran on one side of the building.

The first time it looked really nervous, like it was going to bolt. Then it saw I wasn't trying to chase it, so it chilled out and didn't pay much attention...until I got to the ground level. By this time, a couple other deer had joined it, and they were much more skittish. I had several moments when I was wondering if I would end up on some awful show, like, "When adorable wild forest animals that look like Bambi attack!"

Fortunately, that wasn't the case. However, it was rather funny to see them eying me cautiously when I walked past (or nonchalantly, with the more savvy "veteran" deer that had seen me do this several times already), or spring away in one direction when I ran past...only to have to run back when I returned in the other direction.

I'm certain if I didn't put them off their dinner due to nervousness, I at least confused them. I mean, after all, if I wasn't eating, wasn't stalking or chasing them, what WAS I doing (at least from the deer's perspective)?

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Have a good weekend!

  
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RUNNINGAL425 11/28/2011 11:06AM

    Too funny!!

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HOPEFULHIPPO 11/26/2011 11:52AM

    How cute!

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On running...sometimes.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

I was able to get myself up and running today - literally - which is something I don't always manage to do. It occurred to me a couple weeks back that the practice of being physically active first thing (or close to it) would help set the tone for my day.

My running is really more of a walk/jog thing that I do on the wrap-around cement balcony of my apartment building. I warm up by doing all 4 floors twice, and then I jog a length and walk back, on all 4 levels, a few times. At this point I'm doing more walking than jogging, and each burst of jogging lasts about 30 seconds.

Do I have a mileage or time goal? Not really, at least at this point. For right now it's all about process, rather than destination. The goal isn't to make a certain number of miles, or do it in a certain amount of time, but rather to be willing to try something that is a little difficult for me, and to challenge the habit of sitting most of my day.

I've been more "gung-ho" than this. I've been more physically active, logged more miles, lost more weight...and then gained it all back, and then some, when something came along to discourage me or distract me in some area of my life.

I don't want to ride that discouragement roller-coaster anymore. So I'm trying a different approach, taking things slowly, seeing how I feel. Refraining from the all-or-nothing perspective that requires me to achieve every single goal and objective I set for myself, at the time that I said I'd achieve it, or else I'm a "failure."

This journey has been exactly that. I've sometimes had to regroup, and even circle back, to figure out what it is that I want, and what works for me versus what doesn't. I think and plan, then if it doesn't happen the way I planned, I re-think and re-set my goals and then re-plan, until what I'm doing feels like it fits.

By doing this in my academics, I've managed to maintain what I believe is an A average this semester. I've done this with my finances and my personal organization, and have seen overall improvements (not perfection) that I wouldn't have seen if I'd stayed on the roller-coaster of striving for perfection, giving up because I can't attain it, and then beating myself up for giving up.

Allowing myself to make mistakes, not hit my goals right away and have to pick myself up has worked to help me be farther down the road toward overall wellness than the roller coaster ever did. My belief is that this same process will help me to slowly develop the character I need to eventually be living in a healthy body, with a healthy mind, and robust finances.

So, I guess I'll go on running...sometimes. And sometimes I'll walk. Eventually I'll get there.

  
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MICHELLELEE150 11/25/2011 10:14PM

    Thanks for your encouragement, everyone!!

I have to say, I can use it today. Ironically, NOT in the weight loss department, but in the academic department. Problems with ADD, anxiety & avoidance kicked in at just the wrong time, & I've been struggling to stay on task this past week plus. I have a lot of major events coming up, things due, etc., so I've been trying to get as much done as possible over break. However, my anxiety shot up so quickly, and without warning this evening. I literally could not sit still to do any studying or completing assignments.

So I took one of my runs to burn off enough nervous energy to be able to eat without puking (can we say, "anxiety disorder"?? I mean that literally.). I'm feeling a little better. The run took the edge off, so hopefully I'll be able to concentrate on getting SOMETHING done tonight, and maybe even sleep.

If this keeps up, and I have to run just to keep my sanity and be able to eat, someone will need to buy me suspenders to keep my pants up, because I'm NOT going to run while holding my pants. That's just unattractive.

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KELLEEH 11/21/2011 1:48PM

    This is awesome! You have such a great attitude! I think you will have great success with this approach.

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CM_GARDNER78 11/19/2011 10:51PM

    YAY!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE reading this blog post!!! You sound like you are doing fantastic! I love your attitude.....you really seem like you're in a great place right now! And an A average this semester?! HOLY CRAP!!!!! That is awesome!!! I'm so proud of you!!!!
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~ Christa

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HOPEFULHIPPO 11/19/2011 10:25PM

    Kudos to you! I don't know if you've heard of C25, but that's pretty much exactly how they do it "walk, jog, walk" intervals to build up your endurance.

so again, Kudos to you!!

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The chicken, or the egg...or neither?

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

This week has been tumultuous for me, both eating-wise and mood-wise. Grouchy. Snappy. Impatient. Downright ornery, as some would say. Keeping it under control...barely! and not quite 100%.

As for my eating, much of it was seriously because I was really hungry. Couldn't get enough. This isn't normal for me. I've had my moments with binge eating (see my earlier blogs about ramen noodles!) but this was truly hunger. I'd have a growling stomach, eat something, wait for about half an hour...and still be ravenous. This, after eating six times in one day.

Needless to say, this put me over the edge calorie-wise more than once this week. emoticon Other than the bizarro intense bouts of irritation, I haven't been overly emotional, so I don't believe it's that.

After talking to my friend, who's lost over 100 pounds himself, we came to the conclusion that it's actually a lack of sleep that's thrown me off kilter. He suggested that it might be my body's way of trying to get energy. Makes sense to me.

Today was somewhat better. Still at the high end of my calorie range, and my food choices were far from stellar. But now that I have a sense of what's going on, I'm going to try working the sleep issue out, and get my food prepped tomorrow morning.

And with that, off to bed!

  
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CM_GARDNER78 2/16/2011 9:52AM

    I was there a few days ago - I couldn't eat ENOUGH! It was horrible. But, I bet you're right....lack of sleep. I can say that particular day I didn't get enough! Good luck getting it sorted out - I hope today goes better!
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The Daily Grind?

Thursday, September 02, 2010

Routine, routine. I used to think of routine as "boring." Now I find myself, ironically, trying to set up a routine in my week, and struggling to use large stretches of time instead of wasting them.

This is a luxury not many people have, I admit. And I'm not complaining that I have this time. My question is, how do I use it, and build a routine, without becoming "boxed in" to a sort of "daily grind," where I start resenting people and commitments? I'm concerned about this because I've done it before, and I'd really rather not do it again.

There's nothing like a person who seems to have found the right balance. They appear energized, happy, calm, and free. They get a lot done, but when they give you their time, you never feel like an imposition. And they willingly give it where it seems to be needed most.

I'd like to be that kind of person, who can truly look at my life, see what's most important, then adjust my activities to fit that. I guess it's a work in progress?

Until I have achieved this marvelous miracle, I guess I'm just going to have to find a good place to sit with my cup of coffee, and work out a schedule or to-do list.

  
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NUGGAN 9/22/2010 11:24PM

    You mentioned routines and I see that you celebrated doing your dishes and laundry in the Whoo Hoo forum. If you haven't checked her out already, I suggest you look into Flylady. There is also a SparkTeam of us "Flybabies" to combine our two favorite self-help online gurus...Flylady and Sparkpeople!

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RUTGERSM0M 9/6/2010 9:57PM

    I find myself working in a routine sometimes, especially at work. Routines at work keep me organize and in order.

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CM_GARDNER78 9/3/2010 10:20AM

    Yeah......the thing is you have to try to realize that even though you have a 'schedule', that schedule can remain fairly flexible. Some days, we have to toss the routine out the window completely and do something totally different. And it's not like you then have to play catch-up, but you just 'jump in where you are'. (Did you check out the FlyLady link I gave you?) That website will help you for sure: www.flylady.net

I don't do everything on there, but I customize it to meet my needs and my family's needs! And TRY not to sweat the small stuff. (Easier said than done for a perfectionist!) HAHA!

I think that sitting down with a cup of coffee and giving it some thought is a great start. Think about all you need to get done in a week, and break it up into small, daily chunks. Then think about all you need to get done in a day. Divide it all up. You can do it!! emoticon

~ Christa

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