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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

I came home exhausted and just about talked myself out of working out. I mean I did do my shift & lift last night....

But then I remembered that vampires don't need sleep! JK... I got on spark and read some blogs and got myself motivated to not miss all the fun.

I mean how could you read this blog and not want to get up and do something...http://www.sparkpeople.com/myp
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So I got my tunes and headed out on my bike to troll around the pond and see what could be seen in the sunny evening.

There were baby ducks on the water, and dozens of dogs to look at. It was windy and sunny and felt great.

So yeah...35 mins riding. I'll do my situps while watching American Idol. My streak is still alive....35 weeks in a row with at least 90 minutes of exercising. Who wants to break that slouching around?

What streak do you have that you are proud of? What keeps you going when you are really tired and just don't want to do it? Share some secrets that the rest of us can use. My best one....reading on spark. It does it for me everytime. All I have to do is log in!

  

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EYEONGOAL 4/30/2010 8:40AM

35 weeks of 90 minute workouts - Awesome! I haven't even been on Sparks that long. I loved reading the blog that you mentioned (50). I enjoy your random musings. Thank you for the inspiration. Report Inappropriate Comment

CMBELISLE 4/29/2010 2:18PM

35 weeks! Wow! I'm on day 117 of a minimum of 10 minutes a day. I average more like 35 minutes a day now, but some days are more than others. Report Inappropriate Comment

TRIPLE_EMME 4/29/2010 12:35PM

Good for you on getting those fitness minutes! 35 weeks is a very impressive streak. You ROCK!!! How did you do it in the beginning? I'm at the very beginning portion of my "fitness" journey. How did you build your momentum? (Ie., what activities did you start with?) I love your blogs! Report Inappropriate Comment

CLEARLYCOMPOSED 4/29/2010 12:19PM

bravo on that streak and for getting out there and just doing it!! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

ROLLER-GIRL 4/28/2010 9:54PM

Great job getting out and exercising even when you found yourself talking yourself out of it. Ducklings are the cutest thing ever! I actually don't do streaks because it feeds the obsessive perfectionist in me. I have to allow myself to roll with the punches now and then or else I get into black and white thinking. Report Inappropriate Comment

Random thoughts from a fatigued mind...

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

I like Edward Cullen.

I checked something off my Fitness Bucket List and did three cartwheels in my backyard this weekend....or as my daughter likes to say...I TRIED to do cartwheels. Somehow she thinks because my back leg wasn't straight it doesn't count.

I kicked butt in my shift & lift class tonight. 40 minutes of spinning and 20 mins of weights and abs. I think if you need to try this class or any class. I never work myself as hard as my instructor or my trainer on my own. Do you?

I went to a party this weekend and saw people who haven't seen me since 35 lbs ago. I texted my trainer and told him it was almost enough for me to like him...but not quite. He'll probably make my next workout harder for that one and add yet another variation of a squat.

I gained 160 lbs this month.... meaning that I took in one of my son's best friends and now have four teenagers in high school. It's been stressful and I'm tired but I personally am doing okay with it all I think.

I went out to lunch with someone from work today and totallly did not eat healthy for the first time in a long time. My body didn't like it and has been unhappy the rest of the day. Maybe now I'll remember why I don't eat that way and what it makes me feel like, and won't do it again for an even longer time.

I heart all my spark friends who put up with my random blogs and weird updates and support me through all the stress I've been under this month.

Hope you all have peace and well being for the rest of the week. Jazz it up, take a class and don't eat the bad stuff! Take it from me after today...it wasn't worth it.

  

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GETRESULTSMDMEE 5/2/2010 8:25AM

I agree about eating the bad food. my birthday was yesterday I went and ate a chick fila waffle fries and had a shake I couldnt finish the shake the calories were not worth it and I felt yuck. Keep up the good work. I have a 14, 12 and 11 year old. I will take any advise offered. lol Report Inappropriate Comment

CAROLYN1213 4/28/2010 8:12PM

Good job on the cartwheels! Report Inappropriate Comment

VIAFREE 4/28/2010 5:25PM

Whoa! did you say 4 highschoolers, puberty infused attitudes? I have to give you a boat load of Kudo's for that one, I have One of them at home and couldnt imagine 3 more.. Thanks for the advice about the eating and classes. I did start water aerobics this month, and getting back on track with the eating. Isnt it strange how your body can adjust to healthy food, therefor protesting when you go the other way. Bless you for helping the young man. Cartwheels do count even with bent legs and all..Whoo-Hoo!! Report Inappropriate Comment

MCMPOOH43 4/28/2010 4:38PM

No, I don't work myself as hard as my instructors, that is why I love my classes!! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

JULESANA8818 4/28/2010 3:53PM

I think it is awesome that you took in your son's friend, you have such a big heart. You are doing so well with all the stress, really proud of you. Stay strong girl!!!! Love, ya jules:) Report Inappropriate Comment

CHERKYLE 4/28/2010 2:16PM

Loved the blog! It made me smile Report Inappropriate Comment

WALKINGINGRACE 4/28/2010 12:09PM

I like your random blog, it's neat to hear what's going on in your life and in your mind. Report Inappropriate Comment

LEAHADRIAN 4/28/2010 11:57AM

hey any blog that starts out with i like edward cullen is a good blog to me. lol. and i know what you mean about eating the crap... my body definitely rebels against me when i slip and go back to my old ways of eating. and by the way, be proud of yourself for keeping up the good work while being under stress. Report Inappropriate Comment

EYEONGOAL 4/28/2010 11:19AM

You definitely have a full plate. Keep up the exercising - it helps balance life out. I think that it's great that you did cartwheels. When kids are first learning they don't even get their legs into the air. A bent leg - who care's. You were upsidedown! Report Inappropriate Comment

TRIPLE_EMME 4/28/2010 10:51AM

I love your random blogs. Hope the rest of the week goes well for you! Sparkle on! Report Inappropriate Comment

THE_JULES1 4/28/2010 9:38AM

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MKPRINCESS007 4/28/2010 7:59AM

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PURPLECHAI 4/28/2010 12:01AM

Great Blog! Report Inappropriate Comment

CLEARLYCOMPOSED 4/27/2010 10:51PM

I LOVE the random and the wacky...and you do it with style, hot stuff!! Report Inappropriate Comment

WONDERJUL 4/27/2010 10:42PM

Loved your blog. You are funny. Thanks for reminding me to eat healthy. How awesome of you to take on another teenager! Report Inappropriate Comment

Worth the work :)

Sunday, April 25, 2010

I went to a birthday party last night for a friend and saw people I had not seen in ten months. I used to work with these people when I was asked to join the biggest loser. I lost 40 ish pounds there.

Since i've seen them I've lost enought that now I'm down 70 lbs and in better shape than I've been in a decade. Let me just tell you the cheers and praise made it worth all the work. One girl said she wanted to know what kind of crack I was using and if I'd give her some. I said yeah, it's called diet and exercise. There is no magic pill.

I made it through the party without eating anything bad. I took my own large bottle of water to avoid the beer, and brought my own salad and strawberries in case there wasn't anything healthy to eat. No one gave me grief but just celebrated in my huge success.

I needed all of that. This may be the first month in about ten where I don't lose weight. I'm trimming up but the scale isn't really showing a loss. I know it will get tougher since I'm not far from my goal. I Just have to celebrate the health, the victory, and not freak out about the slower pace now. It's a lifestyle and that will never go away.

I went to the gym today and did my workout from my trainer who I loving refer to as The Squat Police. I powered through my three sets of assisted pullups and got all 12 reps with no assistance (meaning no one had to help me up in the end). That was a first. I'm feeling stronger every month.

So if you're in a place where you think you can't.... you really can. It just takes planning, preparation, consistency, and determination. Keep on going because each day adds up to success in the end.

  

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330POUNDWOMAN 5/4/2010 2:40PM

I am so proud of you for being prepared! Way to put your health first! Report Inappropriate Comment

JULESANA8818 4/26/2010 8:24PM

So glad for you and great job planning ahead. Glad everyone celebrated your success- you deserve it. Report Inappropriate Comment

EYEONGOAL 4/26/2010 11:15AM

Your success inspires me. It is so nice that your friends at the party celebrated your success. Bringing the salad and strawberries was also great strategy. It is so easy to use a party as a reason to slip up, but you didn't. Keep up your persistence. You are soo close to your goal. Report Inappropriate Comment

TRIPLE_EMME 4/26/2010 11:06AM

I'm really happy for you that you had such a positive experience at the party! Also, I'm extremely proud of you (and inspired by you) because you have such a healthy and realistic outlook about your lifestyle change. Thank you for sharing your words! Have a great week! Report Inappropriate Comment

THE_JULES1 4/26/2010 9:41AM

I am glad you had a good time. It is nice to be around people who support you and celebrate your successes. Report Inappropriate Comment

ALYFITN 4/25/2010 7:25PM

Congratulations on your slow and steady to success! That's the way! You've got great attitude and commitment! Report Inappropriate Comment

JUNEAU2010 4/25/2010 6:08PM

Congrats! I KNEW the party would be a tremendous boost for you! I take your exercise comments as a personal peptalk, which I really needed! Report Inappropriate Comment

CAROLYN1213 4/25/2010 5:50PM

Way to go! That praise is addictive stuff!!! Much better than any crack! Feeling good makes the journey worth it, but it always helps to hear from others that you look marvelous! And, you do look marvelous! Report Inappropriate Comment

Different words...

Friday, April 23, 2010

do you ever have one of those moments where you catch yourself saying or doing something that is such a switch in behavior that it catches you off guard?

I've been on spark 235 days now. I've learned alot on my journey on here. I realized that this week when I was rolling around in one of those giant snowballs of stress. You know the kind that has started out small but rolled downhill and gained strength and consumed everything in it's path. You almost feel out of control by it all?

One of my friends texted me and said are you going to eat chocolate and feel better? I responded by ...no! I've lost 70 lbs and I'm not going to let stress steal that from me. It was at that moment that I realized how much spark people has had an impact on me. Seriously I used to drown my frustration with a bacon cheeseburger with grilled jalapenos and a large order of onion rings.

Now I'm I perfect? No! I've had several weekends with a margarita and mexican food but DH and I made a pact to keep each other from that today and we were successful. I came home and had a protein bar and am staying far away from the kitchen.

Tomorrow morning is Zumba class and I can't wait to go.

I'm realizing the quote I read last week in Oxygen magazine is really true....the pain of regret is worse than the pain of consistency. I'm working on the consistency part and this week I did better through the stress.

I hope you have a great weekend!

  

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EYEONGOAL 4/25/2010 2:30PM

This goes beyond the concept of "habit". Your mind has been altered by this process. Scary - No. Wonderful - Yes. Report Inappropriate Comment

FABANDFITAT40 4/24/2010 10:29PM

Way to go on not trying to overcome your stress with food. It just adds more stress. Sounds like you are changing how you respond which is great. That's what we all need in order to make a true lifestyle change. Pat yourself on the back you deserve it! Report Inappropriate Comment

JENNIFIER30 4/24/2010 6:12PM

You are inspiring. I know I do better hanging out on Spark than going through a drive through. Congrats on all your accomplishments my friend!! Report Inappropriate Comment

TRIPLE_EMME 4/24/2010 3:40PM

on passing up the mexican food!!! on working on consistency. Report Inappropriate Comment

CLEARLYCOMPOSED 4/24/2010 11:34AM

You are so getting it and putting it into action. bravo, bravo, bravo to YOU!! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

DRJJ2004 4/24/2010 8:42AM

Awesome job girlie!! Report Inappropriate Comment

RUMBLETIGER 4/24/2010 7:14AM

I'm so proud of you! Way to go!!! I still have to get myself to that point, but I will. Thanks for showing me that it can be done! Report Inappropriate Comment

PSUEFL 4/24/2010 6:04AM

It is so good to hear you are making such great progress, keep it up. And congratsulations on 70 pounds, WOW!! Report Inappropriate Comment

CATHEITE 4/23/2010 10:49PM

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CAROLYN1213 4/23/2010 10:35PM

I love that you are find healthier ways to deal with stress. You are building positive patterns that show in your health and inspire others to do the same. Report Inappropriate Comment

LEILANI1205 4/23/2010 10:17PM

oh man do I know what you mean yesterday was my sons birthday and on every birthday you get to pick what you want to eat or if we can where you want to eat!!!! My son picked a buffet place!! LOL so yea I know what you mean Report Inappropriate Comment

Perspective - look through someone else's eyes

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I went to my shift & lift class last night. I had purchased a new workout outfit over the weekend. Let me tell you, when I weighed 70 lbs more I was in the big tshirts and baggy shorts hoping no one was looking at me. Now I like to go out and look for cute outfits.

Anyway, wasn't feeling to positive about myself after not having eaten well over the weekend. Feeling kind of stupid for having three weekends in a row where I kind of undid what I had accomplished ove the week..yada yada. Old story plays in the head about how I have to do better.

Some woman I don't know walked up to me and said OMG how much weight have you lost? I've been in this class with you for a couple of months and I just have to stop and tell you how great you look. :) It's moments like those when you just have to take a deep breath and tell yourself to stop being so hard and negative with yourself.

So I enjoyed my class and my new outfit and tried to smile more when I left. I hope when you read this you will stop and smile and give yourself a break. Tomorrow is another day and another opportunity to do the right thing.

I think you're great just because you are on spark and trying!

  

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GINGYCAT40 5/4/2010 2:52PM

Oh my I certainly had to read your BLOG today...Thanks so much for taking the time to write this... I have been kind of beating myself up today... did the scale thingy after week 1..and the numbers did not change :( but like a Spark Friend said to me.. "don't jump on the scales" celebrate the lifestyle changes you are making !!! My hat is off to the the person who said OMG how much weight did you lose... !! Sometimes people do not comment... but Heck KEEP SMILING ... Your blog has made my day better!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

CARPENSM 5/4/2010 2:47PM

So glad to hear you had that positive experience! You're right, we are too hard on ourselves sometimes! Keep up the great work! Report Inappropriate Comment

330POUNDWOMAN 5/4/2010 2:43PM

What an incredible blog and kuddos to the woman who took the time to tell you have incredible you look! Thanks for sharing, that is what SPARK is all about, sharing our journeys and encouraging one another. Thank you! Report Inappropriate Comment

FLYSOHIGH 4/25/2010 1:23PM

Thank you, I love this post. It almost felt like you told me personally that last thing - it's great that I'm on spark and trying! Tnanks again:-) Report Inappropriate Comment

JULESANA8818 4/23/2010 7:31AM

She's totally right, you are doing great. Sometimes we have to step back and realize all we have accomplished. oodles of proud of you!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

CAROLYN1213 4/22/2010 4:20PM

I love looking the part when I work out! It helps me keep my head in the game. I particularly like wearing a baseball cap when I run, I feel tough! Your blog is a reminder how the little things we say to others can be an encouragement and motivator to them on their journey! Keep it up and pass the Spark! Report Inappropriate Comment

EYEONGOAL 4/22/2010 11:10AM

Great feeling! You just reminded me that I should try on some of my "cuter" workout outfits instead of my ugly baggy yoga pants. Wearing clothes that fit and flatter us, shows off our efforts. Report Inappropriate Comment

THE_JULES1 4/22/2010 9:50AM

God bless her for going out of her way to give you a pat on the back for your success. You and I are where the rubber meets the road. We have had some success, but it just gets so hard. Good for you for looking like One Hot Mama and keeping up going to those classes! You and I are going to get thru this. You know you can and you will. You just have had a busy, emotionally draining couple months. It can take it's toll. But those exercise endorphins can chase away the blues. Concentrate on how awesome you are and what you have done, and just don't dwell on your perceived short comings. You are too hard on yourself. You would never talk to someone else the way you talk to yourself. Report Inappropriate Comment

SPARKARINA 4/22/2010 7:52AM

Good for you. I hope that you are buying lots of cute outfits to work out in. No more baggy stuff for you..... Keep up the good work Report Inappropriate Comment

MKPRINCESS007 4/21/2010 11:36PM

I truly would have just burst from excitement, happiness, embarrassment(hate being in the spotlight) and shear wonder with that fabulous compliment! So, if we subscribe to the notion that life brings us what we need, when we need it, then that was right on time for you! You rock!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

LINIS_THIN 4/21/2010 11:19PM

Thank you thank you I admit to kinda feeling a teeny weeny bit sorry for myself... This blog reminded me of how a coworker was gushing over how small I'd gotten... I was proudly talking about my 30 pound loss. Now here I sat on the brink of self depreciation for being sick and having TOM for the last 9 days with no gym! NO EXERCISE! I do not seem to have gained weight... Why am I fretting? Comment edited on: 4/21/2010 11:25:05 PM Report Inappropriate Comment

LABYRINTH 4/21/2010 11:12PM

now THAT is an awesome compliment! Report Inappropriate Comment

LEAHADRIAN 4/21/2010 10:59PM

that was nice to read your positive blog because i've been doing so good lately but today dave brought me a brownie batter blizzard from dairy queen... and i'm pms-ing... so needless to say that whole thing was gone in like two seconds and i ate like 2,700 calories today. so i'm feeling pretty down on myself but tomorrow is a new day, and i told him to not bring me any more wonderful goodies like that cuz i have no self-control. when i look at myself i don't think i've made that much progress but he thinks i'm doing great and he is so proud of me. so it is true that we should look at ourselves from the perspectives of other people that have been watching our successes! Report Inappropriate Comment

BEHMOM 4/21/2010 10:48PM

Hey, you got the positive reinforcement that makes it all worthwhile. Good for you for getting new outfits - it makes the class so much better, don't you think? Keep up the good work. Report Inappropriate Comment