Sunday, December 11, 2011
So here I am. It took me 1 year, 10 months, and 10 days to get here. I'm not at my goal just yet, but this is definitely a huge milestone for me. At times, I thought I'd never get here. But now that I've made it this far, I'm so glad I've stuck it out, through all the plateaus, the gains on the scale, the times when chocolate chip cookies got the best of me...I could go on and on.
Normally, I don't DO regrets. After all, every mistake is an opportunity to learn, and prevent yourself from remaking the same mistake. However, I find I do have one. I never took a "before" pic. Why? I think it's because I have tried so many times to lose all this weight, and met failure time and time again. I suppose I just didn't believe in my heart, that this time would be different. So why take a "before" when "after", I'll just look the same. Then once I really started losing weight, but not my motivation, it was too late, because any photo I took wouldn't show the actual me before. But I did do one thing right...I saved my old jeans. They are keepers. Here's me, fitting in one leg:
And here's me in both:
It's funny, but I was told not to expect too much. Having hypothyroidism makes it harder to lose weight. "Focus on fitness and your health, not your size, or the number on the scale". I think the more I thought I couldn't really get where I wanted to be, it made me try harder. It made me experiment on things that work for me. For me, the weight stopped coming off until I decided to drop the carbs. Do I love potatoes? MY gosh, YES! I think my Polish heritage has potatoes coursing through my veins. But I like the new me more.
I also went to the doctor when I first moved down to Miami. I needed a new Rx for my thyroid meds. It was 10 years ago, but it feels like it was yesterday. I pick this general practitioner out of the yellow pages and he asks me "How do you feel"? I tell him, "Fine, but my feet are really swollen since I got here." He tells me "Well, of course they are. Look at how much you weigh. Get yourself good health insurance, and I'll see that you can get gastric bypass surgery. I've seen it all my life. People like yourself, no matter how hard you try, you'll never be the weight you're supposed to be." Every time I run on the treadmill, I see that idiot's face. It inspires me.
I have about 14 pounds to go on this journey. And then it will be a lifetime of maintenance. Bring it on!
Friday, October 14, 2011
I had my annual physical. I went for the blood work over a week ago, and the office called about 2 days later with good news. Everything checked out great. All my numbers are good, including my thyroid. My thyroid is what made me visit the doctor to begin with. Having hypothyroidism for 12 years now, I know when something's a little off. Naps become almost a necessity to make it through the entire day. I was surprised when they told me my TSH numbers were good. I have been busting my butt to drop pounds, but they just haven't been coming off, so I blamed the ol' plateau.
That was, until today, when I sat down with the doctor to go over the results. Turns out, my TSH was close to 5. I used to be a .5. Little number but it explains alot. My need for naps hasn't been in my head. So my doc upped my meds. Woohoo! More energy soon to come (if you consider 2 weeks soon). But it gives hope that I will reach my goal weight one day.
So the other numbers weren't as impressive as I thought they'd be. Here are some:
Blood pressure...awesome improvement, from needing meds, to no meds, and having a reading of 112/68 today.
Triglycerides...Originally about 4 years ago, they were 277. Today I am at 166. Still too high, but I am 17 points away from normal.
HDL...Good improvement. From 30 to 59.
LDL...Not good enough. Still at 110, and I should be under 100.
Total Cholesterol...from 202, to 202. No change. You would think almost 100 pounds off and routine exercise, that would be lower. But it's not bad enough for meds. Maybe I'll cut down on the red meat.
In general, I am a much healthier woman than I was 2 years ago, and hopefully, I'll continue on the same path I'm on. I like...no LOVE, the new me. Cheers to good health. If you don't have that, everything else is worthless.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
I usually join these Biggest Loser Challenges every season, and I'm always successful. I've lost between 7-14 pounds during that 10 week period. This summer I expected the same results. Needless to say, I've been disappointed. We're just days away from ending the challenge and I've lost about 2 pounds.
Two pounds in 10 weeks.
I really did try everything. I increased cardio, changed my routine, increased strength training, cut back on calories, tried eating a little more..you name it, I did it.
I did not realize my success until I went back to school shopping for my kids yesterday. I was at Kohl's and saw this Simply Vera jeans on the clearance rack. They were only $14 so I decided to try on a size smaller. (MY husband has been telling me the back of my old jeans makes my rear-end look really sad). I couldn't believe I fit into a 12. I haven't been a size 12 since I was 19. I was so excited I also bought myself this dress. If you know me ( and I realize most of you don't), I don't DO dresses. When I married my husband, I wore a pant suit. (It was very casual). But it was this butterfly-cut, loose, a little-above-the-knee, sexy dress and I looked totally cute in it. (Now this leads me to the excuse of needing a new pair of shoes to go with, but that's ok).
So for all those that get really hung up with that number they see on the scale, and let it determine their mood for the day, and everything else...stop.
If I let that dumb number frustrate me, I could have given up entirely. Instead, I am 1 size away from my goal. And nothing feels better than that. Well, maybe actually reaching that goal. But that gives me something to look forward to.
Wednesday, April 06, 2011
I had a long rant this morning that made me feel so much better.
One peave I had was gym etiquette, and how some people lack it. This isn't really etiquette, it just annoys me. Can someone please explain to me why there are some women that put the incline really steep, and then walk backwards really really slow? I ask because there must be a purpose. I just can't figure it out. I honestly can't rememebr the last time I came across a mountain, and said to myself, "hmm... I think I'm gonna walk up this baby backwards".
Wednesday, April 06, 2011
I'm in a negative trench. I'm hoping to claw myself out real soon. But the past week has made me irritated. Here's why-
1) The Biggest Loser. (Not our teams...the tv show) I'm not a huge fan, but if I'm home (which is most Tuesday evenings) I watch it. I have never..repeat, never, cried when someone has to go home. Until last night. Courtney worked her a** off, and she's lost over 200 pounds. Her having to leave was plain bull****. There are some skinnies that really need to go home already.
2) Tracking calores. I do it. I need to. But I loved the days I ate whatever I wanted and didn't obssess over "staying in a range". Of course, I was also morbidly obese, unhealthy, and miserable, but that's not the point. I ponder to eat a sandwich, because I had nuts and oatmeal already, and my calories may wind up too high for the day, so have vegetable soup...please, give me a break.
3) Water retention. I ordered Chinese take-out last night. I made a smart choice...moo shu chicken. I didn't eat fried rice (or steamed rice) I didn't eat an egg roll (love those things), didn't eat the LoMein. Just my Moo Shu with hoisin. I felt so good about myself for avoiding all the crappy stuff. Until I got on the scale this morning. I was up 3 pounds from the day before. 3 pounds of water which are all in my boobs, and ankles.
4) Gym ettiquette. I go to a 24 Hour Fitness. As you know, most treadmills go up to a 10% incline. But they have 5 that go up to 30%. It's awesome. I love them because you get the most intense workout in the shortest time. There is a 20 minute time limit if others are waiting. All 5 were taken by member of 1 family. Half the time, they stood straddled (so they weren't on the belt) having a conversation. I had the manager ask one lady ( I knew she was on for more than 4o minutes) to please finish. Her response was "I'll be done in 10". 20 minutes later she never got off. I said something to the woman at the front desk who shrugged her shoulders. Why have rules posted if they have no intention of enforcing them? And why be so selfish? I have a life too, you know?
Anyway, I'm overall ticked. I know the weight will come off. I'm just feeling a tad impatient. I'm not progressing the way I'd like too. And the world just isn't revolving around me...LOL.
I feel better. If anyone has actually read this entire thing, bless you.
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