Monday, October 01, 2012
Okay, I have never gained weight here at Spark before! It has been a rough summer personally and I have faced a number of challenges, illness, and trouble with my husband's health and well being! This is what in my past would lead to stress eating, weight gain and anxiety and bad self esteem! I had not weighed since June!! Well, being October 1 st I thought I needed to face the truth on what was going on! I weighed in August and had totally maintained my weight and was amazed, as that is as big a deal as losing in my book! But I still did not record it, I wamted to record a loss! So, today I got on and gained 2.6 pounds! Although I was not thrilled, I see this as a victory, none the less! I actually knew in Early Sept. that I gained this...but could not bring myself to admit it! But if I can't face it here that means I am hiding, being ingenuous and that is not what I want to be! So, seeing the gain was the same after month and not more, I realized this, too, is a victory! I don't think I ever have managed this before! Four months is a long time and I had a minor manageable gain! I do not need to "get back on the wagon" or "start again", I just need to get back to tracking my food, and making sure water, fruits and veggies are back in my menu plans with a dominance! People do not beat yourself up! Learn, see victories, move on and stand proud!
Happy October to all of you! We can do this!
Friday, June 01, 2012
The month of May was highly stressful for my husband and I. Medical issues, job issues, and challenges to just keep it all together. In my past this would have been a real trigger to eat like crazy. I am proud to say, I did not do that. I did have more "special" selections of foods, however, it never triggered an eating episode and I often made sure I cut out other things to be sure not to lose control. This is the true "lifestyle change"! I did not have that famous dialog in my head of "I will start over tomorrow, I screwed up today", etc. That is change and freedom! I am amazed that if I choose to eat pizza and wings...I still counted the slices and number of wings to record, I paid attention to how full I felt, and stopped before I was stuffed! I also rarely eat the leftovers and the control I have learned means as much to me as the weight loss. This means I will not be gaining and losing and in that dreaded cycle that has been my life! I keep in mind to eat fruits and veggies...if I do indulge in something I try to add a salad...for the healthy aspect but also to fill me up, so I still have something special but do not just eat that! And water...although I still struggle with the 8 total, I am no longer drink soda. I actually do not like diet cola's at all...even question how I drank them in the past!? I no longer live with a salt shaker in my hand and this was what I thought was impossible! I could literally eat salt! I picked it off pretzels and threw the pretzels away!!! I love these changes and know they all lead to health. I am off my acid reflux prescription medication, I am on a very low dose of blood pressure meds now, and I have lowered my diabetes meds...this is awesome!!!
I have started weighing in monthly! It helps keep me focused on lifestyle change and body change. I weighed in today and I lost 3 pounds in May...not alot, but I am disabled...in a wheelchair if I leave the house and walk very little and with a cane in the house. I need double knee replacement and the weight loss will enable me to have successful, safe surgery and easier rehab after it. So, I am pleased with the number. That is a total of 44 pounds since Aug last year! My personal total it is 107 pounds since I was weighed in the hospital when I had pneumonia and breathing issues and had to be admitted to the hospital. I am hoping to lose another 40 pounds and then pursue the surgery. That is the weight I was married at 18 years ago this month! I remember how well I was able to move and, although I will still need more weight loss, is reasonable weight. And the fact I will be able to move around again...I will get a boost for weight loss. I can't imagine the joy of walking around the block or being able to go grocery shopping!!!
I would like to take this time to thank my SparkFriends for their support and encouragement! I have no words for how much it means and how important you are to me! I think of you daily and wish for you the very best.
I wish you all success on your journey and hope you are also making progress and keeping positive!
Love & Hugs,
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Okay, so I went to answer someone on a message board and realized I had to jump over here and do it as a blog, as I was onto something. This diet vs lifestyle thing. I got it...it is a game!!! The game is LIFE and you play it everyday...and you will "for all days". I am saying you play the numbers! You want to stay within certain ranges in certain categories (you know...tracking in calories, carbs, protein, sodium, fat). And in those categories you will try to include a certain number of fruits and vegetables! Check off the number of waters you give your body each day. You can win this game!!! You can earn "prizes"...fit into a new size, fit in a chair, have space between you and the steering wheel in the car, wear a size you have never worn, have your kids arms fit all the way around you, not be out of breath at the stop of the stairs, maintain your weight loss and not have to have two sets of clothes, and many more! You can do this...and you play it each day. Each day effects the next. If you mess up and eat something not planned (not bad, I said not planned), then you put it on the tracker and remember you need to go back on track right now...so you are not way off, so the next day you are not trying to make up for unplanned foods. It is a new start with each FOOD selection...you are always in play! Hey Friends, this is a game! You can do it! PLAY & WIN! There are prizes! Remember, it doesn't end...it is a LIFE GAME! If you mess up, it does matter...but just stay calm and carry on...don't go crazy and say, "well, I blew it, so I should just eat the whole bag of cookies, add ice cream, and what the hell, let's go out to dinner and order whatever I want"! No, no, no, that makes you go back way to many steps, or "tracks", so simply say No! Go to the tracker, put it in, and go from there...you may find the three cookies, that could have lead to an entire bag (and you know it is only the first few that really taste good), didn't even put you over the counts at the end of the day! As you move on you may realize if you trade your planned higher calorie snack for one of a few fresh veggies you are already back on track! Look around, think about it, PLAY THE GAME!!!! YOU WILL BE THE WINNER!!!
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