Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Today I had the afternoon to myself, and all I wanted to do was eat. I started out well - making good choices with low calorie snacks. But it was as if they didn't satisfy me at all, and it all just sort of snowballed. I even stopped adding the items to my food log, because it made me feel so bad. I know that tomorrow I can start fresh, so I'm trying not to beat myself up about it. But I'm still disappointed with myself.
I don't understand how the mind has so much control over what we eat. What I ate today should have satisfied me. But it didn't, and I just had to keep eating until I was full, and guilty. Is this what an addiction feels like?