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Funny how the journey goes.

Friday, January 25, 2013

When I started SparkPeople I was new to everything healthy. I didn't have any knowledge or anyone to go to for that information. Since March of 2011 I started out able to eat healthier and still hating exercise. I stuck with that pattern until last year when I was faltering with my eating and loving exercise thanks to Cardio Class and the teacher of that class Jasmyn. Now in 2013 I'm addicted to the "punishment" of exercise. I like it hard and fast (please keep a clean mind!) and have noticed myself on Saturdays pushing myself in the smaller class to finish first even though there isn't a competition! I make it a mental one.
I am still trying to go past the binge eating. Last night I confess to a lot of chocolate and oreos with a glass of milk. It was quite good though so I'm not feeling guilty except for the fact I'm ignoring the hunger signals and going straight to cravings. It just isn't healthy and I know it fully well. I'm trying to think of things to fall back on when a craving hits because my supremely stubborn nature isn't enough to fight cravings. I'm loving herbal teas so at home I'm going to deploy my little bagged soldiers if I can't get a craving to pass. I have Nestle hot chocolate (80 calories a packet) if I can't get chocolate cravings. This is only an emergency plan for that though. Lets see how long 6 packets can last with my chocoholic tendencies. And for at work I am going to leave my debit card either at home or in the car to avoid buying things and have gum and pre-packed snacks at the ready. I already almost always pack my lunch so that's not a problem.
At the moment I don't know of anything that would work for me other than staying accountable. I've said it before that I would post on here more for that and I'm again going to try to stick at it.
So now with my addiction to exercise, my teas, and my gum I'm going to do better. No trying just doing!

  


Funny how the journey goes.

Friday, January 25, 2013

When I started SparkPeople I was new to everything healthy. I didn't have any knowledge or anyone to go to for that information. Since March of 2011 I started out able to eat healthier and still hating exercise. I stuck with that pattern until last year when I was faltering with my eating and loving exercise thanks to Cardio Class and the teacher of that class Jasmyn. Now in 2013 I'm addicted to the "punishment" of exercise. I like it hard and fast (please keep a clean mind!) and have noticed myself on Saturdays pushing myself in the smaller class to finish first even though there isn't a competition! I make it a mental one.
I am still trying to go past the binge eating. Last night I confess to a lot of chocolate and oreos with a glass of milk. It was quite good though so I'm not feeling guilty except for the fact I'm ignoring the hunger signals and going straight to cravings. It just isn't healthy and I know it fully well. I'm trying to think of things to fall back on when a craving hits because my supremely stubborn nature isn't enough to fight cravings. I'm loving herbal teas so at home I'm going to deploy my little bagged soldiers if I can't get a craving to pass. I have Nestle hot chocolate (80 calories a packet) if I can't get chocolate cravings. This is only an emergency plan for that though. Lets see how long 6 packets can last with my chocoholic tendencies. And for at work I am going to leave my debit card either at home or in the car to avoid buying things and have gum and pre-packed snacks at the ready. I already almost always pack my lunch so that's not a problem.
At the moment I don't know of anything that would work for me other than staying accountable. I've said it before that I would post on here more for that and I'm again going to try to stick at it.
So now with my addiction to exercise, my teas, and my gum I'm going to do better. No trying just doing!

  


Probably the best day of the week thus far

Thursday, December 13, 2012

All week I've been doing quite well with my eating. Despite that I went to the doctor to find out why I have bouts of "swimming" in my head. I thought perhaps hypoglycemia but thankfully she said she didn't think that was it. However I am waiting for results from the labs they're running on my blood. So happy on one end and a bit nervous on the other.

The reason for this day being so nice is I've been productive, resisted temptation, and eating healthy ALL day. When grocery shopping earlier I wanted so badly something sweet. Just for the heck of it. Grabbing some bread I intended to swing by and look at the donuts or find a small pastry and didn't even remember to do it! I even swung back and looked anyway and decided to make oatmeal cookies when I got home instead! So far I've cleaned the kitchen and swept and mopped the floors in there and the living room/hallway. I've walked the dog (in shorts in 53 degree weather). I like cold as long as I'm moving. Otherwise it just becomes bitter cold and I'm not a fan at that point. Tonight I'll be going to cardio class and sweating out the day there. Over all a great, fabulous day!

  


It's paying off again!!

Saturday, December 08, 2012

When you take your life into your own hands and realize (in my case AGAIN) that taking care of yourself really makes sense, life allows you to reap the benefits. I weighed myself this morning after many self struggles and I am 130.6 lbs. It was my "true weight" in the morning before eating and drinking and after the first morning restroom visit. I purposely don't make a habit of checking my weight. This was the first time in about three weeks I think. Needless to point out I was excited enough to bug my half-asleep husband and shake him a little to tell him. I got a high-five! I must say I enjoy high-fives. They've been coming a lot recently.
I'm finally not torturing myself with mishaps and mess ups. I throw myself into my exercise and use it to its fullest extent. Meaning I allow stress to go away through sweat and release of energy. I have found my inner peace. I'm fine with the knowledge (and experiences) that I will struggle, but more often than not overcome any doubts, judging, criticism on my part and others, and really ANYTHING that stands in my way of taking care of myself and staying healthy. I am more appreciative of praise and no longer balk at receiving and criticizing internally the words. I am also going to brush off and ignore people who doubt that what I have both accomplished and established for myself something that's enjoyable, sustainable, and a lifestyle over being a fad, dieting, or just something I'm obsessing over.

In starting my want for self improvement I have done all this and more to myself. Both good and bad my husband has seen. He's been the biggest voice of reason when I've tried my hardest to make myself happy and not achieved it. It took some recent words of his when I hit a real low to wake me up. Since then I struggled (and still do) with telling myself "NO" when cravings or the want to binge eat occurs. But what's the difference now? I have ability to say that to myself. I see something I'm just "dying" to have, and I can give myself the reality check that I don't need that brownie, that sweet, that whatever it is. To have that power is thrilling.

With the help of my husband, Cardio Class, friends, my dog, family, and wanting to set an example I am more than on my way to a lifestyle I am happy with. I love exercising (the before and after, not always during!). I love experimenting with healthy recipes even when the outcome isn't so great. I love myself. I love my life. I love who I am and hope that who I will be throughout time reflects how far I have come and will continue to go.

Enough inner wisdom and rambling. I'm just flat excited that I am healthy!!!

  
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PJBONARRIGO 12/8/2012 10:39AM

    Woo hoo! Great for you! You are in a good place; enjoy the journey! emoticon

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Accountability

Tuesday, September 04, 2012

So I splurged tonight on cookies. On a high note I got TONS of water, loved my massage, tried Qi Gong for the first time (SP video), walked the dog and enjoyed a ride on Coaster despite the billions of horse flies. Overall a great day, but tomorrow needs to be stepped up.
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OFFICIALOLDY 9/4/2012 10:22PM

    Sounds like you had a great day! emoticon

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