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BLC DAY 1

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

I have been doing a lot of thinking ..lot of analysing...facing the numbers...difficult but thanx to BLC16 i had to take measurements..step on the scale..declare it!

I have been on spark people since june 2010.Its been over 10 months.

The journey has been slow with lots of ups and downs.

I have learnt a lot and i have tons to learn!

i have got very attached to my spark friends!!

just checked my weight tracker

started at 130 lbs
today i am 118.4 lbs

That means i have lost over 10 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also , i have lost more than 10 inches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


NOW

lets face it-

my Body fat percentage measured in the morning...........34%

I really would like it to go down to 28%

any advise to do so will truly be appreciated!!

Also i have joined BLC16!!!

super excited and super nervous!!!

I have 12 weeks to show some result ..out of which 2 weeks i am travelling to switzerland and spain !!!this trip includes a 7 day cruise journey with the whole lot of my husbands cousins!!I think we are 35 family members meeting in barcelona..

exciting!!!
lots of walking!!!
will have to be mindful with what i put in my mouth(as u all know ..my trouble area)

I WISH

to loose 7 lbs
to decrease my body fat percentage
to fit into smaller size clothing

The PLAN

as simple as

water
fruits
veg
nuts
vitamins
exercise( add exercise in the evening as well)

ABOUT TIME I PUSHED

  
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LISA0517 4/15/2011 6:32AM

    emoticon Congratulations on your loss! That is awesome!

BLC16 is going to be great! I'm on the Wisteria Wolves team. Which one are you on?

Your upcoming trip sounds like a lot of fun!

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ME_HERE_NOW 4/14/2011 4:23PM

    congrats on all the positive changes in your life!! :D

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BECOMINGDEB 4/13/2011 1:50PM

    Keep up the great work!

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LESLIES537 4/13/2011 11:37AM

    emoticon Good plan! Here's to your continued success! emoticon

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MAGPIE17 4/13/2011 11:22AM

    As I understand it, the only way to lose body fat and keep lean muscle mass is to strength train. That's how I got my body fat % from 34.9% to just over 25%.

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 4/13/2011 8:49AM

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POLK-A-DOTS 4/13/2011 8:31AM

    Good luck on your trip...and most important enjoy! And a big Congrats on your loss in inches and weight! BLC is very motivational...this is my second round...I learned a lot in the last season...I hope to show big results this time!

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ZURDTA- 4/13/2011 5:31AM

    What a great trip you have planned! And you have done amazing - losing 10lbs and 10 inches! Excellent work.

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LIBBYFITZ 4/13/2011 4:38AM

    emoticonplan for the trip!

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What do I want to do for MYSELF today

Saturday, April 02, 2011

Have been observing myself.... Always have my son and my husband on my mind ... Their needs , their joys, their feelings, their requirements....
And what do they have on their mind: their own requirements , their needs, their own joys...

Today is a new day and I am gonna try to do things for my own sanity differently

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emoticonPaint my nails

emoticonEat dinner what I have in my mind

emoticonDo the strength training exercises for the BLC 16 weekend challenge

emoticonRead the newspaper before my husband

emoticonGo to the beach for a walk

Will not bother to remind my nine year old about homework, bath, brush ...
Will not discuss about the drinking and food and anything that bothers me with my husband
Will be happy
Will have fun in the things that I think is fun
Will smile

  
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UHYEAHABOUTTHAT 4/8/2011 10:19PM

    I had a day like this, too. It was all about ME and it was pretty awesome. (except I think I'll miss my money in my bank account... emoticon) I think it is important you put yourself. You deserve it! Sweet, sweet meseaturtle!! :)

hugs!!

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ALIBROM 4/7/2011 11:48PM

    YES! Sometimes as mothers/wives, we get all caught up in how we have to please and serve others, yet we ignore our own needs. The trick is to have a healthy balance. I hope you had a great day, and can continue to love yourself and to treat yourself well.

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KAYATLANTA2010 4/5/2011 6:55AM

    I LOVE it!!! Reading this blog made me happy and inspired to think (and do) nice things for myself. Thank you!

Yay for you, sweetheart!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ME_HERE_NOW 4/4/2011 6:09PM

    sometimes the best thing we can do for others is concentrate on making ourselves happy for a minute, love this~! xoxo!

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LESLIES537 4/4/2011 12:09PM

    Good for you! Like the flight attendants instruct us before taking off...You 1st put the oxygen on yourself and THEN your children. If you don't put yourself first and care for yourself first, how are you supposed to take care of others?

Keep on doin' you! YOU deserve it! emoticon emoticon

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BECOMINGDEB 4/3/2011 5:51PM

    I especially love the last 3.

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POLK-A-DOTS 4/3/2011 9:23AM

    Celebrate you! Have fun! emoticon

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MAMADELIGHT 4/3/2011 8:54AM

    Me time. SOOOO important.

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THEHONESTME 4/3/2011 8:35AM

    Good for you!! emoticon You deserve it!

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ZURDTA- 4/3/2011 8:31AM

    Especially that last one... smile

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LIBBYFITZ 4/3/2011 4:39AM

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WINDSONG~ 4/3/2011 3:51AM

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 4/3/2011 12:22AM

    And here, my friend, are some great big emoticon!

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getting to know myself: single word quiz!

Sunday, March 27, 2011


Where is your cell phone?
near

Spouse?
lovable

Your hair?
open

Your mother?
curious

Your father?
quite

Your favorite thing?
music

Your dream last night?
none

Favorite drink?
margarita

What room are you in?
bedroom

Your hobby?
lists

Your fear?
swimming

Where do you want to be in 6 years?
business

Where were you last night?
Home

Something that you aren't?
fit

Muffins?
Top :)

Wish list item?
carreer

Last thing you did?
iron

What are you wearing?
nightwear

Your pets?
none

Friends?
need

Your life?
rollercoaster

Your mood?
impatient


Missing someone?
granddad

Drinking?
Water

Your car?
fabia

Something you're not wearing?
bra

Your favorite store?
ikea

Your favorite color?
Green

When is the last time you cried?
Recent

Where do you go over and over?
in laws

Five people who email me regularly?
notifications

Favorite place to eat?
street

Favorite place I'd like to be right now?
greece

  
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TREASURINGLIFE 3/29/2011 11:07AM

    emoticon By the way - I had my first margarita this past weekend. A peach one. YUMMO!! :)

- Michelle

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 3/27/2011 10:54PM

    This was fun!

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ZEVCAIT 3/27/2011 12:09PM

    Very cool! Thanks for sharing!!

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Difficult confession......

Saturday, March 05, 2011

I don't know how to begin..... I will just type my heart out

1995 - I gratuated from college ... I had taken up home science with my main major as Food science and nutrition.

Extremely good student .. Got my scholarships ... Stood 2nd in my university and won my awards.

1997 - I got my masters degree in nutrition.

I got married in 1998 .

I opened up a private clinic at my residence.

Due to requirement of my husbands family business we moved to a small city away from home.

After a while I started practising as a nutritionist there .... Got extremely successful .

We had to pack up and leave to another city ... Plus I was pregnant .

Stopped working .

Focused obsessively only on my son.

I wanted my son to study in the city so I moved back to Bombay when he was 3 while my husband visited us on the weekends.

My schedule revolved only around my son.

I had extremely irregular periods .

I got severe back pain ... It was sooo unbearable that I could not sit ... Couldn't figure why...was advised x-rays.

Results showed nothing ..

Then I figured I was pregnant...excited ... Went to the doc... Pregnancy confirmed..then spoke about the back pain and xray.....

Doc got pensive and said I might have to abort considering the time of the conception and xray ....


Could not agree.... Saw a lot of specialist .... All advised the same .

Most difficult decision of our life .... Still difficult to digest ... My husband and me still get tears ....

Anyway... I went ahead...

Then I started eating ... Grew numb .... Even more obsessive with my son.....started gaining wt.... Did not realise.....

Medical tests done which stated I had hypothyroidism.

I knew people were making fun of me cause I am a nutritionist and I am fat....
Lost my confidence.... Lost the faith I had in my self and the knowledge that I had ....

God is always kind ...I always had 1 old client who needed my help in weight loss or health issues and I always helped them out .
I saw probably 1 client a month...

I never gave it a thought ..

On and off I do get a call from a dear friend who lectures me that I was good I what I did and I need to push myself and make a career ... I always laughed at her and said I am content ... I don't need anything ... I lack the fire.


yesterday my sister called me up ... She said one of our childhood friends called her and said that he is looking for a nutritionist and was just confirming if I was one. She said yes ... But she kind of knows how I feel so she did not give him my number but called me up and said ...

That someone is looking for a nutritionist for a website they are creating which is going to be sponsored by brittania ... She said I should apply and give it a shot.

I hesitated. ... Spent a few hours with thoughts ... Finally picked up the phone and called him( this was the most difficult thing to do as I get all stiff when I have to talk on the phone... Can't figure why)

He told me that a friend working in an advertising agency was looking for one and he went on about how much I should charge and what all I should talk to him etc etc .... I did not sound confident at all ... I know that... I could hear myself ... Apologetic ... No confidence... As if I don't know anything about nutrition... He asked my credentials ... I told him... I also taught at the university for 2 hrs... He said sounds good...

In the middle of conversation before he asked my credentials ... He made fun of me and said u seem to be one of those people who tried their hands at fashion designing , then interiors ... Then got bored and then tried their hands at nutrition..... I said that's not the case ... I have spent 7 years studying this.


This simple conversation has got me thinking.....

Where is the original me????
Who is the original me????
Did I study well and did so well as a student ???
Is the knowledge and the confidence just got wiped out because I got all emotional and I lost a child????
Being fat and made fun off because the combination of being a nutritionist and being fat is so easy for people to make fun of u on your face .... Has is killed that confident brilliant girl who was so passionate about what she was studying???
Was that girl someone else... I can't connect to her...

Today I saw a client who has visited me twice before in a period of 30 days ... Severe diabetes on the verge of starting insulin, high triglycerides, high cholesterol , high blood pressure....
He has lost 5 lbs . His medicine has been reduced to half. He is feeling better!

Maybe ... I can restart my career....???

My husband spoke to me last night about how my son is nearly 9 and he is independent and I need to start doing something for myself as he will fly away and I will be left with a very empty feeling ... He reminded me how I had clients waiting in a line outside and I had to send some back home as I didn't have enough time....

I am full of fears
I am afraid to be made fun of
I am afraid that I will start my practise and nobody will come
I am afraid that someone will watch me eat and comment on my eating habits just because I am a nutritionist by profession..

My trainer has a little studio ... My sis in law happened to tell him I am a nutritionist .... I glared at her ... I just am so embarresed ... I don't know why .... My trainer offered me to start my practise in his studio ... I said no ... I am fine....

Should I take up the offer???

I need to do something... I need to move on....I am so afraid.....

  
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ZURDTA- 3/28/2011 6:32AM

    You know the answer... you KNOW in your heart. Go for it.

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SEANDA 3/27/2011 2:39AM

    (((hugs)))) Maybe by now you have already made a decision.. but I think you already know that no one here can really give you advice... this is a decision you need to take to God. He loves ya.. and has walked with you each step of this journey... and will continue to do so. Do not make this decision based on what others think.. on what others may or may not say.. not based on a fear of failing or of trying. Pray. Follow. Trust.

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SUGIRL06 3/23/2011 7:37AM

    PS. It just occured to me that you are super duper tiny! So even though I know you have fears about being a "fat" (I hate that word) nutritionist, I don't see where that is a problem at all ;) Just get out there and get your business going!!!

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SUGIRL06 3/23/2011 7:32AM

    I am chiming in late too. Sorry to hear about your loss. I'm sure that confident girl is still in there, you and she are the same person! You just have more experiences now! I think you should definitely try and start up your own practice again. It sounds like you were pretty good at it before. I think with the confidence, you should just do the ol' "fake it til you make it" thing. Pretend like you are confident, act like you are confident, and after a while, you will be! I wish you luck in whatever you decide to do. Don't worry about what other people think who had no connection to you. If you have a potential client that says something about your weight, explain that many factors contribute to weight and that a personal health problem has made it more difficult for you despite your efforts to lose the weight. If they can't accept that, then that is their decision and shouldn't affect you! Good luck with everything!
~Ang

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FINEFETTLE 3/22/2011 9:15AM

  I'm reading this late, but wondering: What did you decide to do? I sincerely hope you went for it, that you let go of your fears and took the opportunity. If not, why? If so, how is it going?

I, too, struggle to do what I know deep down is best for me. I sometimes sit around thinking of all the things I could, and perhaps should, be doing...but just thinking, not acting. And then time passes and it becomes harder to act, I lose momentum so it takes more energy to get going again.

But, sometimes we have to take a "leap of faith", and act even when we are skeptical or scared.

"The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself." ~Friedrich Nietzsche

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ME_HERE_NOW 3/11/2011 8:29PM

    new opportunities are scary - but if u dont try you will sit around thinkin about the missed opportunity and regret it - so why not take the trainer up on his offer and see if it works for you, or think of another opportunity you would like to pursue. my life is slowly opening to new opportunities, my first instinct is to pass on them, but then i try it and am beyond satisfied that i have done something FOR MYSELF. spread your wings and fly when u are ready, follow your heart, instinct & intuition! xoxo!

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ALIBROM 3/11/2011 6:03PM

    I am very sorry for your loss. You sound like such a good Mom to your son. And yes, you should take up the offer. I can read from your post that many people believe in you, but you don't believe in yourself. I am the exact same way. It must be frustrating for people to see me not do things because of my lack of confidence. I know because it's frustrating for me to watch my children suffer from lack of confidence, too, and they are so smart and capable. I actually said the other day if I could bottle up confidence and sell it, I would. I can always pray, though, which I do. I pray that you have enough confidence in yourself to take a chance. It is obvious that you are a highly capable, intelligent, and talented woman. May God bless you and your family. emoticon emoticon

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MAGPIE17 3/7/2011 10:11AM

    Maybe this is the perfect opportunity to step outside your comfort zone? If you try and you fail, at least you tried. If you don't try, you have no chance of succeeding.

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LLGALLAGHER 3/6/2011 8:22AM

    I have a post-it on my desk with these sentences:
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ream big.

Don't be afraid.

Go for it!
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I hope you will go for it! You are SO worth it!
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LIBBYFITZ 3/6/2011 7:43AM

    Go for it. You are telented, you are beautiful. emoticon

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EUPHRATES 3/6/2011 6:44AM

    The only person who's opinion of you matters is YOURS. I say go for it! I believe in you!
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BECOMINGDEB 3/5/2011 5:26PM

    I also love your honesty. I know that being honest with ourselves is often difficult because we are our harshest critics. You have great knowledge from all your studies that you can use to help others... if that's where your passion lies. EVERYONE does things they know are "wrong" and/or makes decisions that aren't the best for them, especially when emotions are involved. I can't think of one person who hasn't done something they regret or at least that they feel poorly about.

I like hearing that "fear is the opposite of faith." I am often afraid of trying things, knowing I may "fail." But you only fail if you give up. And if you don't try, you may just regret never having done so and start beating yourself up about that.

Whether you think you can or you can't, you're right. So ask yourself honestly if you WANT to take on these adventures. And know you have support here if you choose to! Best wishes!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 3/5/2011 11:08AM

    Oh, my goodness, what to SAY! What a heart-wrenching blog! Your heart is so open, soft and vulnerable right now, and I just want to come through the computer and give you a real HUG! emoticon

Who CARES if someone has the audacity to make fun of you for what YOUR situation is! You are there to help OTHERS, and yourself will benefit in the long run, too! If anyone decides to judge you, they can go ELSEwhere and not be part of your rich, rewarding, giving life! Oh, I say TAKE that space and start your business again! emoticon

And your husband? He sounds like the absolute emoticon!!!!

I'm praying for you, my friend! You are so valuable and gifted, and you just need to realize how much! emoticon

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YARAC211 3/5/2011 10:50AM

    I am so sorry for what you went through. That must have been the hardest, most heart-breaking decision of your life and it is clear you didn't make it lightly or without heavy consideration.

I can't believe people would make fun of you to your face. Whether your weight is under control or not doesn't mean you don't know what you are talking about. Heck, most people who struggle with their weight could write volumes on nutrition and healthy eating.

Could you possibly do online or telephone nutrition consulting? Then your appearance would be a non-issue.

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NANABABY5 3/5/2011 10:47AM

    I loved your honesty. All I can really say to you at this point,,,is picture a fence; throw your heart over that fence, then the rest will follow. Have faith in yourself. Believe you can do whatever you set your mind to, if you put that picture there, it will happen. But you must Believe .

Thank you for sharing this blog xo

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Today

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Woke up-6:00am
Made tea for dear husband, made dhokla and mixed pulses for his packed lunch , made pasta with yesterday's left over tomato sauce for my sons lunch box .

Gave my son dhokda and milk for breakfast.

Gave my husband coconut water, soya milk and nuts to eat.

Removed the clothes from the line and made a pile to give for ironing.

Dropped my son off to school.

Visited my in laws.

Went to the gym and attended a dance class.

Met my parents.

Dropped my dad to his moms home.

Drove home.

Made my pizza... Put it in the oven while I took a shower.

Ate.

Sparked.

Made some rice,cooked some beans, made a vegetable of cauliflower and peas.

Made some tomato cheeses grilled sandwiches for my son when he comes back from school.

Picked him up from school ... He changed and ate and went for his class

I went to the market to buy some groceries.

Picked him up from class and took him for his dental xray.

Came home...my sisters came home.


Made roti .. Heated up food ... Made taco for my son.... Ate

Did laundry.

Made the bed..

Exhausted.

  
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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 3/5/2011 10:31AM

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DEE0973 3/2/2011 3:16PM

    Wow!! I was breathless after reading this blog

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TEENY_BIKINI 3/2/2011 3:06PM

    Wow. What a day!

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LDY_ALI_79 3/2/2011 8:18AM

    Yup sounds like a typical American life! Last night my husband had me proofread his paper, I told him doesn't he realize I have to get up at 5:30am so I can be at work by 6:30. He chuckled & said proofreading is the easy part since compiling the paper was the hard part! I told him who told him, I'm not the student you are! emoticon

The joy of being a mom & wife~
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THEMRSH 3/1/2011 9:20PM

    I'm exhausted just reading that! Goodnight!

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LIBBYFITZ 3/1/2011 1:30PM

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ANNEMAC5 3/1/2011 12:58PM

    Was tired just reading this, I remember how busy it was just running a family when my children were small without fitting in me time. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DEESJOURNEY2FIT 3/1/2011 11:37AM

    What a busy day! You go girl!

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