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Self Sabotage

Monday, December 05, 2011

I am going to maintain my remarkable weight loss. I am an extraordinary woman who lost over 150 pounds at the age of 63. I have allowed the reading I do to make me think regaining the weight is inevitable. I am done with that kind of thinking and that kind of reading.

This is what I know: I did something extraordinary to lose the weight, and I can do something to maintain my loss.

Because I am an extraordinary woman who will not allow faulty thinking to sabotage me.

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MERLINANDME 11/12/2012 2:20AM

    Thank you for your comments. Actually I am doing okay with remaining "extraordinary" in maintaining my "extraordinary" weight loss. Just returned from China where I ate a lot of fabulous food, and I am weighing what I weighed when I left. I guess the bump up in food intake was offset by the effort of climbing the Great Wall in Beijing, the steps to the Potala Palace in Tibet, and all that other toting and walking and climbing and moving.

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PHOENIX1949 11/12/2012 2:15AM

    Extraordinary = Phenomenal in Maya Angelou's poem. This brief blog gave me a much needed boost.

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ANNROSE126 7/26/2012 8:27PM

Just passing by , wondering how you are doing this summer.

Just to let you know that quite a few people do manage to not regain the weight.
There's one big group of people who have lost at least 60+ lbs and kept it all off for several years. they've signed up with the National Weight Control Registry at and they are role models for us all, evidently.

Good luck with everything!

regards, annrose126


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TSVL-VICKI 3/9/2012 10:55AM

    You have done an amazing job. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RAINBOWMF 12/17/2011 7:10PM

    emoticon looking over your page, I think you are a true winner.


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MERLINANDME 12/5/2011 11:57PM

    Thank you, my dear dear SparkFriends!

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HEALTHY.ONE 12/5/2011 11:34PM

    Yes, Merlin! Yes, yes, YES! So happy to hear you saying this - this is something WE know (and have always known) to be true about you, but your own knowledge of this fact is what makes the difference.



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ONENESSMOM 12/5/2011 11:13AM

    Great attitude!

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Re: Goal 3

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

3. Fight the urge to overeat late at night.


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KANAGAR00 8/31/2012 9:29AM

  You are amazing! I am rooting for you and your continued success!

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Three Goals

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

1. Eat within my calorie range.
2. Eat frequent small meals.
3. Fight the urge to overeat late at night.

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MERLINANDME 11/30/2011 9:08AM

    Thanks, Mirbah! Did it yesterday. Victory Number 1.

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MIRBAH 11/30/2011 7:46AM

    You can and have done this one.

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Breaking Through Erroneous Beliefs

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

At my lowest weight I had lost 158 pounds. At my last weigh in I had lost 142 pounds, which means I have gained 16 pounds. And I suspect my next weigh in will see a couple more pounds because I have been out of control with my eating.

I thought on Sunday I had it all back in line. I set a three part goal for my nutrition:

1. Eat within my calorie range.
2. Eat small meals at regular intervals.
3. Avoid late night eating.

I did well on Sunday and until late night on Monday. Then I ate a load of cookies.

I am dealing with a major belief error: I believe it is inevitable for me to re-gain the weight I have lost. I know that belief is erroneous, but I am having a hard time overcoming it. I can know and I can think, but this belief is deeply embedded, and my knowing and thinking is not working to beat it down.

I work with an exercise physiologist, Tim, who tells me always that re-gaining weight is not inevitable. Tim tells me he works to maintain his weight and fitness level. He has to hold the line and resist temptation and make corrections to his behaviors all the time. He eats carefully and works out daily. He tells me again and again and again that to maintain my weight loss I have to do what I did to lose in the first place. He tells me to return to my old logs on SparkPeople and observe the behaviors that led to my success.

I listen to him. I think, I KNOW, he is correct, but there is such a deeply embedded error in my belief system that I am going to have to struggle to overcome it.

The other night I used On Demand to watch The Biggest Loser Special. The show had many former winners return and talk about their journey. They are all maintaining their new weights and working hard to spread the word. On that show trainer Bob Harper said weight loss is hard, but maintenance is harder. Like Tim, he said he has to work everyday to maintain his trim weight and fitness level. He said it is hard but it is doable. He says formerly overweight people have to do what he does to avoid becoming fat.

Today one of my SparkTeam members praised me for my weight loss and told me she is sure I will keep it in control.

I am trying to take all these pieces and put them together so I can overcome this belief that regaining is inevitable. I know what to think, but thinking is different from believing. I think I do not have to regain the weight. I have been given many rational explanations of what I need to do, and I accept the explanations and think they are correct.

But I have to convert those thoughts into beliefs. I have to come to believe that Tim and Bob Harper and my SparkFriend reflect what is true for me.

Thanks for listening.

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PHOENIX1949 11/12/2012 2:22AM

    I found this inspiring because I have lost so much weight several times only to regain it and much more. I need to mentally convince myself that 'this is it' and 'I am worth it' and 'take it one bite at a time' -- this time I addressed emotional baggage before starting to watch & record my food intake. Tap back into that extraordinary person you are and continue to enjoy your successes.

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HIFIGODDESS 11/29/2011 12:59PM

    This is a beautiful blog post -- thank you for sharing your insight on the "maintenance" phase that I hope to experience some time. I hope you let go of this feeling of inevitability. I know what you mean about eating a "bunch" of cookies -- the first one is delicious, and then the ones after that I don't even taste... until the shame hits. So for me, doing what "feels good" is stopping myself at one. Thanks for the insight into the future!

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Down a Pound

Thursday, August 04, 2011

I thought I had stayed the same during my vacation, even though I had eaten liberally. But at yesterday's weigh in I learned I am down a pound. So whoo hoo.

In Amsterdam I waled everywhere. In London it was up and down the stairs with the Underground and more walking, from the Horse Guards to Buckingham Palace to Fortnum and Mason's. In Edinburgh it was walk walk walk those hills, from the Castle to Holyrood, Hunter Square to Leith, from Leith to Dean Village. And mustn't forget Playfair Stairway outside the National Gallery.

Playfair is where I determined to get in shape. Six years ago I was in Edinburgh, climbed up to the Playfair Stairway, and then climbed the stairs. I continued to climb up the Mound toward the Castle and thought I was going to drop dead.

Now 160 pounds lighter, I am leaving others behind.

So let's keep those pounds falling away.

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HEALTHY.ONE 8/5/2011 7:57PM

    Wow, Merlin! Way to go! You are a continual inspiration to me, as I'm sure you're aware after THE MILLION times I've said that. Thank you for sharing this with us! It still amazes me, what you've accomplished, I mean - ONE-HUNDRED-SIXTY POUNDS! Seriously, you are my #1 role model! I'm so proud of you and so glad to "know" you...

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MERLINANDME 8/4/2011 9:50AM

    Thank you

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HHASSAN 8/4/2011 9:15AM

    Great inspiring blog. Thanks.

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