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What I learned from 8 mini cupcakes

Sunday, March 18, 2012


I will admit that eight mini cupcakes is almost bingelike, but the good news is I realized that if I took the time to make them myself out of real food ingredients, I would have been satisfied with far less. I literally felt nothing after eating them, like there was nothing to them. I have been making my own desserts lately and have been totally satisfied with normal portions. I think I will skip the quick fix next time and take the time to make them myself.

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WRITINGRUNNER 9/9/2013 12:53AM

    emoticon For me the problem is stopping once I've started! Well done you for getting control over it.

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MELISSABUFFORD 3/18/2012 11:11PM

    Nice! It's all a learning process and a journey!

Chalk this up to lesson learned!

Great job!

Keep Going!

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LONGKILEYA0515 3/18/2012 10:54PM

    sweets aren't bad...they aren't what gives us the weight...its eating them in HUGE portions that do that. i learned that. heck yes i break down every so often and eat a package of zingers out of a vending machine but i know if i do that later on i will work harder to burn off a little bit more calories...or i will do what you did and make the stuff from scratch so i know whats involved and how much i should and shouldn't eat.

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HOTPINKCAMARO49 3/18/2012 10:53PM

  emoticon You go, girl! emoticon

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Willpower: No longer required

Saturday, March 03, 2012

I feel happy today for no particular reason. It's been quite a while since I could say that and really mean it. I have had that feeling more and more lately and I really think it's because I'm eating so much better and cooking much more than eating out these days. I'm not focusing on counting calories or elminating fat, but more so on eating whole, minimally processed foods whenever possible. If I want something fried, or sweet, I make it myself, using healthy oils and organic ingredients if I can. I made brownies with black beans the other day and I think they are pretty darn good! I also had chocolate cake at the office when someone was celebrating an anniversary and that was ok too. I will never be one of those people who eliminates something completely. When I want it, I will have it, but I can honestly say that I haven't had a craving in months!

This is where the willpower comes in. I feel that I don't need it anymore. I used to pass my favorite fast food places and get that nervous feeling like I had to distract myself so I wouldn't cave into my cravings. Now I really don't feel anything when I pass by them. If I want a burger, I'll make one at home - using salsa instead of ketchup, and put as many interesting vegees on top as I want, with a side of baked tater tots or home made fries in coconut oil, and feel very satisfied.

I love the feeling of being in control and focused on putting good things into my body. Treating it like the gift that it is. I just wish I had come to this place much earlier in my life, but it sure feels good to be here now!


I am really amazed and excited!

Saturday, February 11, 2012

First off, I haven't lost any weight in a couple of weeks, but I feel really good. That in itself is amazing enough, but this week was my birthday and I had an opportunity to go out to eat (which I typically love to do), and I actually preferred to stayed home and try a recipe I saw online! That is unheard of!!! I think I am actually starting to prefer my own cooking, as long as it's easy and fairly healthy, to going out to my favorite restaurants. I would never think that was possible. I made a mediterranian type dish with chicken and olives that came out delish! I was so glad I stayed in.
Now tonight, I will go out to dinner with my family to celebrate my birthday, but the fantastic thing is that I'm not even that excited about the food. I know it will be good because this is one of my favorite places to eat, but I'm really only doing it for the company. I don't feel any anxiety about eating out, and I really feel like I will be in control. I feel really happy about it and that is not a word I have used for a very long time to describe myself.

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EFFIEANNIE 2/19/2012 8:11AM

    That is a great sign- YOU are in charge now - not the food!

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One Persons Fat Is Another Persons Thin - So Love Yourself Now!

Saturday, February 04, 2012

I have dieted off and on most of my adult life. I would always hear the latest buzz on whats the best diet or now we talk about "lifestyle change". I feel after all this time, I am just starting to make some real progress and one of the things I realized that had a tremendous impact was that you really have to change your focus from losing weight to look good on the outside, to loving yourself first so you feel good on the inside.

We've all seen people who've experienced weight loss at various sizes and they could be the most excited, happy, confident people, and I would look at them and say, wow, that person would probably look at me and wonder why I'm even on a diet. Yet, I would be miserable at a size 12, and they are ecstatic at a size 16 because they used to be a 22! Not to say that they are satisfied at 16, but I think they have a true appreciation and respect for their accomplishment and they are learning to love themselves and what they can do.

Of course, this is all speculation so far, but I think I'm on my way to feeling that sense that I can appreciate my body right now for what it can do. I go to a weekly spinning class and the instructor is so motivating. She makes us face the mirror and look at ourselves while she tells us to appreciate the bodies that God gave us. We have the ability to participate in that class which is very challenging, we are all beautiful, with beautiful curves, all shapes and sizes, and we should take care of our bodies, with good nutritious food while we work to make our bodies stronger and even more beautiful. When I leave that class, I feel like I could do anything! And she's right, we are all blessed to be there, at whatever stage we are in our journey to better health.

I find the more I focus on how my body is a gift, it's getting easier to make healthier choices to really give my body what it deserves so it can function the best it possibly can. I realized that even though I love to exercise and I've been an avid gym rat for many years, I never focused on feeding my body to replenish what all the exercise was depleting. I am really excited to see what my body can do now that I give it more of what it needs in terms of healthy, nutritious food and supplements. I feel like my lifelong journey is really just beginning!

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MOMMYINNEED1 2/7/2012 6:13PM

  Nice entry. I myself need to start loving me as is. I get so down when people see me, or "greet" me and the first thing they comment on is my weight. How big i've gotten or how different I look even when its on a day when I'm the "slimmest" I've felt in weeks; no fun. If and when I get to the point that I love myself in my own skin that would be nice. By they way is that a Poinciana plant on your page, it sure looks that way. That's my country's national plant!!

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EFFIEANNIE 2/4/2012 4:25PM

    Good blog. Your instructor sounds very wise. Sounds like she is a good motivator as well. Good luck on your journey.

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I think something finally clicked!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

I wish I could explain how this happened, but all I can say is that I think Im finally at a point in the process where things feel right. Ive lost 6# in the last two weeks, since following a program where the only difference with this is that they are more focused on organic, unprocessed foods, full fat,raw dairy if you must have dairy, good fats, etc. I have to say its the easiest six pounds Ive ever lost, and Ive only made slight changes, havent even been working out much. My mood is better, I have more energy and generally I feel pretty good.
Now why is this working for me now after years and years of trying equally sensible approaches? I really dont know. All I can say is it just feels right...

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BERRISWEET 1/22/2012 10:50PM

    glad everything clicked. Keep up the great job!

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HJFOGARTY 1/22/2012 10:41PM

    and that is the best way to feel! good for you! when you do find what works best for your body this is how it will react! stay strong and enjoy that great feeling!

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HEMIGIRL46 1/22/2012 10:27PM

    Your body knows what to do with "natural" foods - that's why its all falling into place!!

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NICOLEGRACE238 1/22/2012 10:25PM

    Love it when things click! I call it being in the zone! Keep up the hard work!

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    Good job on the weight loss. Love your positive attitude. Keep up the great work.
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