Monday, January 28, 2013
Ok, so I've always thought that I wanted to lose weight so I'd look better, finally feel pretty and get clothes I actually liked, with improved health benefits falling after all of that on the list. Well, after a few months of bad back pain from a fall, and years of chronic back pain, I realize that being pain free is my new goal for motivation. I remember sleeping better when I was thinner, my back didn't hurt so bad, my feet thanked me. It was so much better. I imagine how much happier my back would be if those 80lbs were gone. So, I am armed with a new focus, a new body media armband (lovin' it!!) and I'm going to make this happen this year. Time to quit messing around and just do it.
Sunday, January 06, 2013
I've restarted my resolve to lose weight so many times I have lost track. I'm tired of it. I'm also tired of being tired, and I'm pretty sure if I dropped some pounds, I wouldn't be so tired any more. I'd also feel better about myself, be able to wear clothes I wanted instead of just because it's what fit and what I have. I think I'd be a happier person for myself and my family. I think I'd be more spontaneous, because I don't think I honestly own up to how much my weight holds me back. We get this one life to live, and I don't always feel like I'm living it because I am carrying extra weight. So, if those reasons weren't enough, we have a child to stay healthy for as well, so what is my problem. Why can't I put down that cookie and make a healthier choice so that after I eat it, I don't feel guilty, sad and disappointed in myself. I want to feel like a success and not a failure in the weight department. I want to feel proud of myself, so I don't know why I can't just listen to my good inner dialogue and override the portion of me that says I'm not going to do it anyway, so eat that cookie. I need to keep all of these reasons why in mind and I need to do it on a daily basis. I need to learn that everything is ok in moderation. I tend to live in an all or nothing mode when it comes to food. I need to adjust that. So, here's to restarting for the last time and making the adjustments that will make this year a success for me.
Saturday, December 08, 2012
I'm trying so hard to find you. I had you, and then you were gone. Did you leave when the scale didn't go down? Did you leave when the going got tough? I can't really pinpoint when you left me, but I need you now more than ever. Your absence makes everything harder for me physically and emotionally. I feel like a failure when you're gone. I promise to treat you better this time and not take you for granted. Together we are so good for each other. You stregthen me and make me feel good about myself and you get stronger and more inspiring everyday. Please come back to me. I'm ready for you again.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
So I feel like I'm finally in control again for the first time in a long time. Granted I've only been back in control for 2 days so far, it's 2 more days than I've had in a long time. I've really commited myself (and my hubby has joined me) in eating better for ourselves and our son. I see health problems that our family has and has had, and we don't want that for ourselves. I also want to feel better about the person that I am. I feel like I've wasted too much time being overweight and unhappy about it. I have so much to be happy for that I let it go all because I don't like what I see and feel about myself. So, 2 days in contol seems pretty awesome to me right now.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Well, I've been doing a lot better on my eating lately, but find myself wanting to slip into the comfort of a bowl of ice cream or a hot cookie. This is the time of year for me when I lost my dad 2 yrs ago, and I just find that I want some comfort with my food. I haven't really caved so far, and I am trying to keep it that way. I know my dad wouldn't want me to!! It's just amazing how even thru the progress of emotional eating, when the times get a little tougher how quickly we try to revert back. It's like a old shirt that you really shouldn't wear anymore, yet it's so comfy.
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