Tuesday, August 17, 2010
I've just felt so BLAH lately.
School has been over for almost two weeks and I should be happy and living it up. I mean I finally finished my Bachelors degree...I'm happy that its over just wasn't anticipating all this extra time I have on my hands.
School consumed me, for the longest time I was only my job, school and homework. Now that school is over I am my job and have way to much time on my hands. All I do is think about how lonely I am.
Earlier this year I had major life changes and I apparently buried my emotions in my homework. In February my mom, who is basically my best friend moved 14 hours away. Sure I cried and I miss her and have even seen her since then but doesn't fix that she's not here to hang out with if I need her to be. The next week I was told my job was being eliminated, I loved everything about that job. It continued till July and I did find another job but its not the same. This new job I feel like an outsider, the owners wont even look at me or say hi unless they need something.
So these are the things I now think about in my extra time instead of doing homework or logging on for class. Everyone says to get a hobby...I have a few I'm just not motivated to do them. I also have projects around the house, major painting projects that I want to start.
Some reason I'm dragging my feet. I think I need a swift kick in the butt to get motivated and end my pity party!