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Tuesday, August 17, 2010

I've just felt so BLAH lately.

School has been over for almost two weeks and I should be happy and living it up. I mean I finally finished my Bachelors degree...I'm happy that its over just wasn't anticipating all this extra time I have on my hands.

School consumed me, for the longest time I was only my job, school and homework. Now that school is over I am my job and have way to much time on my hands. All I do is think about how lonely I am.

Earlier this year I had major life changes and I apparently buried my emotions in my homework. In February my mom, who is basically my best friend moved 14 hours away. Sure I cried and I miss her and have even seen her since then but doesn't fix that she's not here to hang out with if I need her to be. The next week I was told my job was being eliminated, I loved everything about that job. It continued till July and I did find another job but its not the same. This new job I feel like an outsider, the owners wont even look at me or say hi unless they need something.

So these are the things I now think about in my extra time instead of doing homework or logging on for class. Everyone says to get a hobby...I have a few I'm just not motivated to do them. I also have projects around the house, major painting projects that I want to start.

Some reason I'm dragging my feet. I think I need a swift kick in the butt to get motivated and end my pity party!

  

30 year reflection...

Monday, August 09, 2010

It's amazing to me that I have been alive for 30 years already. Time flies and the weight has piled on. I've been doing a lot of thinking this past weekend and turning 30 doesn't seem to bother me. I've always said age is only a number, and I truely believe that. My problem is that I don't like everything about the 30 year old I have become. I put my life on hold it seems and always had excuses to not take care of myself. I question now why I wasn't important enough to focus on my emotional and physical needs. The only thing left to do is focus on me, hold myself accountable and welcome the encouragement from my fellow sparkers. No more excuses its time to make me the woman I want to be and one that likes myself and choices!

  

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

DIANE7786 8/9/2010 11:44PM

Happy Birthday! Birthdays are always a good time for self-reflection. You can be the woman you want to be. I always say I’m a work in progress. Enjoy the process! Report Inappropriate Comment

RED_WRITINGHOOD 8/9/2010 10:33PM

It's good that you recognize the things in your life you want to change and your moving towards that goal! Report Inappropriate Comment

JEMPOWER 8/9/2010 9:56PM

You're right on track. Jem Report Inappropriate Comment

MERISSA1315 8/9/2010 9:11PM

So very proud of you! Make this the year all about you! Report Inappropriate Comment

10SLADY 8/9/2010 9:03PM

Better now than later. I could write the same blog and I'm nearly 64. Seems like only yesterday I was where you are and I'm still struggling with the same issues. Keep up the good work. Report Inappropriate Comment

One Word

Friday, August 06, 2010

Copy and paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. It's really hard to use only one word answers.

Where is your cell phone?
Here

Spouse?
Single

Your hair?
Ponytail

Your mother?
Away

Your father?
Work

Your favorite thing?
Sleeping

Your dream last night?
Nonexistant

Favorite drink?
Cold

What room are you in?
Office

Your hobby?
Scrapbooking

Your fear?
Loneliness

Where do you want to be in 6 years?
Happy

Where were you last night?
Home

Something that you aren't?
Weathy

Muffins?
Blueberry

Wish list item?
Many

Last thing you did?
Clean

What are you wearing?
Comfy

Your Pet's?
Two

Friends?
Awesome

Your life?
Developing

Your mood?
Excited

Missing someone?
Always

Drinking
Pop

Your car?
White

Something you are not wearing?
Socks

Your favorite store?
Online

Your favorite color?
Orange

When is the last time you cried?
Unknown

Where do you go over and over?
Work

Five people who e-mail me regularly?
Mom, Jami, Chris, Janelle, Lynette

Favorite place to eat?
Sushi

Favorite place I would like to be right now?
Camping

  

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Weigh Myself Monday

Monday, July 26, 2010

So last week was truly the beginning since the on again off again relationship with working out I've had and I was very proud of myself. I worked out four times last week, didn't eat out once and ate healthy. Today was Weigh Myself Monday and I was a little sad to see I was only down 1 lb. As I thought about it more I thought hey at least I'm down and pound and not up a pound. Yay I lost a pound!!

  

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ATHENA0302 8/12/2010 5:34PM

I really and truly admire your attitude! Its awesome that you can look at it that way, because it really is true that every 1 lb does add up. I have a really hard time when i dont see the numbers i want, so I think you're awesome for realizing that any loss is a step in the right direction. Report Inappropriate Comment

JEMPOWER 7/28/2010 10:28PM

Good for you dear one! Report Inappropriate Comment

HONORINGGOD 7/27/2010 2:11PM

Dent let the scale be in charge.always remember you are worth what you are going to do for your self. this is not a diet site but this site will change your life. a word to the wise its like a good relationship ,you get out what you put in . if you dont mind i would like pray for your success&you. write your self a letter of intent or a love letter or a apology will help &make it fun well enjoy the journey to a new you god bless john Report Inappropriate Comment

JEANNETTE59 7/27/2010 11:55AM

Those 0ne pound weeks add up Report Inappropriate Comment

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Low-key Weekend

Sunday, July 25, 2010

The weekend seemed to go by smoothly and had really no stress once I got over the fact I had no car and my lawnmower for some reason wouldn't start either. Maybe they both went on strike!

Seeing it was low-key I didn't do much, I cleaned a little and of course did homework. My eating I think was pretty good. As for exercise I think I forgot what that work meant this weekend.

I tried to get my workout buddy to go to the gym Saturday and go for a walk Sunday, but life happens. So I should have taken my dog for a walk I suppose or popped in one of those really really old work out DVD that are collecting dust in my living room.

I've come to understand that I need to be brave enough to go to the gym on my own and not use my workout buddy as a crutch. Just because she can't go exercise doesn't mean I shouldn't.

So I'm on a mission to find an activity that I can do by myself when I feel the need for another round of exercise, so I don't miss a work out. Also our workout routine is changing to evening work outs and I'm not to thrilled but will deal with it.


Have a healthy and happy day!

  

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