Monday, January 23, 2012
I have felt like this for 4 years..Have you?
I know there are those of you out there with amazing success, and I am so proud of you...I don't want to be this bear anymore...
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Okay I restarted Spark this week...In 4 days I lost 2.6 pounds..Considering I have been on steroids for 3 weeks, this is initself amazing, because Prednisone, is known for blowing you up with fluids...
SO Note to self:
Start measuring instead of eye balling everything
NO MORE LATE NIGHT EATING...sin sin sin Naughty Naughty!!!
Start this week on baby steps as in walking, I get short of breath easy, but hey I had a treadmill last yr, and I actually breathed better excersizing..SO get your butt up and move!
No more eating in bed...
Eat only in the dining room or down stairs...Lord knows eating brocoli in bed is a bit messy!
Daily morning stretches just to stir up some blood circulation
I don't need a reward, for improvement, the reward is the improvemnt.
The reward is feeling good
The reward is having self esteem
The reward is having control, not plundering every bit of food available in the house
The reward is loving yourself as much as you love those around you.
Give yourself the same support that others would give you.
Take charge, and no this is no overnight success...It is a journey of many days, many months or even a year or two..IN this day in age of instant gratification, self improvement is old fashioned, and it does take time...
Okay Miss Melody it is Sunday, time to take charge!
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
My beloved sister passed away Dec 13th, after a long struggle with recovery from a severe brain injury near her brain stem. She aspirated on vomit, was septic, and ventilator dependent after a 5 day emergecy ordeal in the hospital beginning Dec 8th. She wasn't really responding off of anesthesia, and it was agonizingly apparent her brain function had detoriated..In Aug, she confirmed to all cognitively that is she were to get sick she did not want to be on a ventilator or life support. We tried a 5 day aggresive approach to get her on the mend...But her wishes were to be honored.
I just got out of the hospital myself last weekend after a weeks stay from Exacerbation of my copd/asthma, and the steroid medications had my blood sugars in the 500's....
Yes I have put on more wt, but the battle I fought for my sister was harder more emotional and more brutal than any excersize program....So as my daughter reminded me last night, "mother", you fought for Angie with everything you had, your mental and spiritual strength is stronger than you had thought or ever thought"......so thinking theses things over, I must battle and love myself as I did for my sister. WHo god bless her heart had not had a bite if real food in 17 months, due to her inability to swallow...so I guess I did the swallowing for her...
For you that know me, god bless you all for still sticking around. As I tried to write AImee, I was seriously considering joining wt watchers, to get me out of the house....etc, and yet after doing some research on them, and their money end of things, I found more mentions of Spark People on some of these other websites, reminding me of the friends and motivation that lies right here. ANd it is free to boot! So hellow 2012...time to Sparkle again....
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Yep its true, my lung disease has me fully disabled by the VA and the Social Security ...
I had a pulmonary function test mid June, turns out I have a whopping 40% of lung volume....( hello not 100%)
Last friday morning i woke up light headed and feeling weird, I took my oxygen level it was 79...seems the doctors can't make up their mind if I do or don't need home oxygen. It does upset me, because anxiety kicks in, and I get scared of doing anything. When the oxygen in your blood level falls below 84% you start killing a few brain cells...
Well anyway, I blasted off some mileage last wk and the week before. I don't mean to be antisocial to my beloved friends, sometimes I just tend to unintentially isolate, I am used to being a loner. ( not lonesome)
I adore you my friends, I just realize my journey has additional obstacles, not to mention a few icecream bars lately...
Saturday, June 12, 2010
That dose of Prednisone last month, gave me an automatic gift of 9 pounds back on...Sad but true.
So I have been stressing over that immensenly. I am only 2 or so pounds from getting back to where I was. It has been a heartbreaking process, but life happens.
On the flip side of the coin, I had blood work done this week, and my A1C, which was borderline diabetic, is now down below that level, so I am out of the woods! Woo Hoo... I was insprired by my daughters visit, and carefree attitude. She's lost over 40 pounds since I seen her last, looking like a cute hottie (LOL)....I really watched her, (she doesnt' exercise, then again... working full time and chasing after a 3 yr old and a 5 yr old, is in my opinion working out) she has such a healthy attitude with her eating, she eats when shes hungry, and kind of picks at her food, always has something left even if its fast food...has this tra la la kind of relationship. I decided that I want to adopt that kind of attitude. I eat within my range, but I want to not stress over it...its just a meal, like putting gas in the car..no big deal...That's the new philosphy I am trying to adopt.
My last blog of burning up 200 miles this month, is sort of a flop, one day I am breathing like a fast train and the next day my asthma is full bore...but working in the yard, tilling, weeding and hauling wheelbarrows etc are a very good workout none the less...We finally have sun now, Oh natural Vitamin D take me away....
Tra la la la la...Everyone have a wonderful Fathers Day with your families this weekend!
Lots of love to mymost wonderful Sprak friends, you know who you are!
Balance is the key to all of this...I just need to remember that!
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