Thursday, April 26, 2012
This photo was taken from the link: http://beforeandafterweightlosspics.tumblr
I love a good before and after pic...don't you?
I'm thinking I should post a before pic, and then one subsequently every month now...even if it is embarrassing! I'll just omit the face, lol.
Thursday, April 26, 2012
I think dedicating myself to posting atleast a couple times a week is more realistic to meet as a goal for myself. However, I think I'll still post "as needed" because I still need a place to dump my emotional baggage.
My most current issue is chocolate: hell's gate to fatty-land! It's not that my family is UNsupportive of my weight-loss attempts, but they are pretty UNresponsive to my needs from them as well. I'm in a predicament where temptation is at every stinking corner, and some days, it's harder to resist that piece of chocolate, or glass of milk, etc.
So, while I'm still under 1200 calories (barely), I am currently working to find how to break myself of talking myself INTO giving in to temptations.
My goal is to allow for endulging one time a week, as a small reward to behaving all week. I HAVE to learn I cannot eat whatever I want whenever I want and expect to be thin as well. ONE has to give in to the other.
As a side note, I have been eating nothing but fruits and vegetables, and it's not terrible, although cravings are setting in now that it's been about 3 days now.
Water+straw= full feeling, less craving.
I need a mantra to avoid self-talk to cave in to cravings..any ideas? =(
Oh and I still haven't lost any weight..but it's only been a week,so whatever.
End week 1: 225/225 lbs. Meh.
Three things you (now) know about me:
1. My daughter is named after a FFVII character
2. I'm a terrible procrastinator. (i.e. final project today...starting it..today.)
3. I'm an all-or-nothing dieter (trying to change this!)
Monday, April 23, 2012
Technically today is day 6, but it feels like Day ONE! Why, you ask? Because all weekend long I spent my time in KC, MO with my sister and bro-in-law. The days were merry with food, spirit, and baby-room painting. So my diet was non-existent.
I have at least come away from this "mistake" with a bit more knowledge.
One: Don't start the timer over every time you make a mistake. Today IS DAY SIX. NOT DAY ONE. This isn't a game of "Sorry!" so I think I can honestly say I'm still working toward my goal...even if two days went to hell in a hand basket.
Two: I have had an epiphany of sorts. I've scrapped everything I thought I felt about food. I don't need things that are bad for me. I don't need to make myself feel better with food or as a means to punish myself. Well "duh" you may think to yourself. Well duh indeed! I always have known this, but never really tried to do anything to fix it..just cover it (i.e. lean cuisines instead of "real food" or "starve until 7pm then eat everything diet"). I want to start fresh with everything. We start off with formula or breast milk as infants without the need for other foods...so why can't we as adults start over too (and NO I don't mean take up the bottle again...you crazies!)
Today is my "fresh start" I believe. Phase 2 of my diet endeavors, if you will. Today I told myself I will eat only fresh vegetables and fruit...as many as I like. Of course I will still log them, but I will NOT cave in to fast food. There's always convenient options that include fruit..even in gas stations (honestly...QT's around here are quite clean!)
So even though I screwed up in the way that would normally make me lament and pout and be a sauerkraut to everyone in my household, I am taken aback by the beauty of the message that prevails in my mistake.
To err is to be human! I feel I am supposed to turn to fresh foods now as my source of nutrition..not packaged processed foods or drinks or powders. I never really thought of this before because I thought the cost would be insane. Just today, however, I bought 5 bananas, 3 plums, two apples, and a bottle of water for just under 6 bucks. And so far that's around 900 calories. Not bad for a day. I haven't ate all that mind you, but I could, and it would be way more awesome than a bag of oily chips.
Okay, I'm rambling..but I don't care. That's what this "blog" stuff is for anyway, isn't it. Quite therapeutic I suppose =P.
Anyway, if you happen to read this, don't give up! I won't. I think we all make mistakes to remind of what we want and need in life. They make us stronger. I believe that as a person and as a teacher. Don't start the counter over ever again! =D
5 Random things you (now) know about me:
Favorite video game: Xenogears
Drinker: Tequilla+me= awesome party guest!
Favorite food: Cannolis!!! (not a fruit or vegetable..I know. I'm bummed.)
Currently working on: Giant tangram cat sculpture for baby room!
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