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My week in review..

Saturday, March 16, 2013

This week I decided to work on finishing my goals for the month of March. I did spring clean all of my bathrooms, create a vision board, track my food and water every day (so far). I still have the kitchen and master bedroom to clean by the end of this month and, time is running out! Next week will cut into my time because of my surgery (Wednesday). Hopefully I will be back in form by Friday and plan on continue my cleaning next weekend. That just leaves my weight loss goal for the month of March.. two more weigh ins for that one. emoticon and then of course the exercise program. I confess I haven't started a program yet....but if spring cleaning counts, then I have moved more than I had been. I am hoping this surgical procedure will help me with reducing the pelvic pain and back pain that I suffer from. (praying it does).
My stress level has been higher the last week or so. I can certainly pinpoint why on that one... and the bad thing is, I don't see it getting any better for another month or so. Please say a prayer for me in that area!
I hung my vision board in my bedroom so that it is the first thing I see when I wake up each morning.
I also hung an inspirational piece from my closet about a month ago. I had bought this shirt over a year ago and didn't try it on first. Needless to say, it didn't fit when I got it home. But, I didn't return it. So I decided to make that my first goal. I tried the shirt on yesterday........and was shocked to see that I could wear it now, although I would like it to be just a little less fitting. I was so pleased! I think I should be able to wear it comfortably in another couple of weeks! emoticon

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MARIANNE9855 3/17/2013 3:32PM

    I hope your procedure goes well and congratulations on the shirt! That's one of my favorite non scale victories. emoticon

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GAILANN48 3/17/2013 10:24AM

    Yes, your spring cleaning counts!!! Good for you!

With all that's going on in your life, you're setting goals and moving forward. And you've managed to be positive through it all! I find you frankly amazing, Mellie, and you're in my prayers today. Your stress may be partly concern about the procedure, and that will be over soon. And then onward to the new shirt fitting the way you'd like it to fit!

The first day you wear it in public, I hope you post the victory! Meanwhile, there are a lot of us out here who will continue to cheer you on. Hope your Sunday is a beautiful day.

:) Gail

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GCHUNG 3/17/2013 7:40AM

    Woo hoo isn't it nice to have those surprises when something fits which previously didn't.

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BEEJAY49 3/17/2013 5:47AM

    Great on the shirt! :) You will be in my prayers! HUGS!

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EDITOR 3/17/2013 3:26AM

    Mellie, you know you have those that will be praying for your surgery, a speedy recovery, and the wholeness you desire. emoticon

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AVANELL 3/16/2013 10:24PM

    emoticon on being able to wear your new shirt, Mellie! I'm praying that everything goes well with your procedure on Wednesday and that you have a speedy recovery. May you sense the Lord's arms around you and feel His presence in your life as you continue to journey through life with Him. He's the friend who sticks closer than a brother and when the stress creates a heaviness for you He is there to carry the load.

Blessings and emoticon to you, my friend!

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DLBROWN93 3/16/2013 9:25PM

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Surviving the storm

Friday, March 15, 2013

Yesterday was a tough day for me. It all started with a phone call...and slid downhill from there. All of my hurt and anguish from the past two years came flooding back in on me. By nightfall all I could think of was food. Not just any food but something ooey and gooey and warm and comforting. I was almost to the point of caving in when thankfully I was able to realize that it wasn't the food I wanted, it was the comfort. I picked up the phone and called my sister and made her listen to me lol.
I am so thankful to God for helping me to stop and reason with myself before I ate the entire contents of my pantry. This would have been exactly how I would have handled this less than six months ago. In fact, its pretty much been a pattern for me most of my life.
I am still feeling a little down this morning but I have been seeking comfort in God's word. I am amazed at how HE finds me, and how He lets me know He is with me. I truly am thankful this morning that I serve a God who doesn't desert me in my hour of need. Instead, he fills me until my cup runs over. I am truly blessed in so many ways.

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BEEJAY49 3/16/2013 9:38AM

    I'm so proud of you and I know the Father is too. Hugs!

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EDITOR 3/15/2013 6:21PM

    Mellie, as proud as I am of this, God is even prouder as your Father!

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AVANELL 3/15/2013 3:56PM

    Mellie Sue, how rewarding it must be to see where you used to be in your reaction to the storms in relation to where you are now. You recognized the real reason for thinking about eating was in the fact that you needed comfort and you acted on that in a positive manner. That's awesome!

Now I'm not in any way trying to minimize the difficult day that you had. But I do want you to recognize how far you've come and the progress that you are making. God is there for you to encourage you and love you through the storms! And others are there for you as well. With God and people who care you can make it through this!

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GAILANN48 3/15/2013 9:31AM

    You did great! Your situation is difficult, no doubt about it, and you know it's going to be a rough go for a while. That doesn't make the hard days any easier, but at least you know this isn't permanent. And you did great!

We do certainly get what we need, Mellie, and He is always FOR us. (2 Kings 6:14-18 is one of my favorite passages!) I'll be sending prayers for peace and security your way today, and standing with you, at least in spirit. You can walk through this, with grace and dignity. You can.

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Working on goals for the month

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

This week I have been concentrating on working on my goals. So far, I have managed to spring clean both upstairs bathrooms. I didn't work on cleaning today because I had my grandchild. But, tomorrow I will tear the master bedroom apart. Then I will tackle the kitchen. I hope to get those finished before next Wednesday (surgery date).
I finished my vision board (also a goal I set for March). I have hung it in my bedroom so that I see it first thing every morning. My sister gave me a work out video. I plan on starting that this week as well...(another goal to incorporate). It feels really good to accomplish something.
On another note, I have been informed that mediation has been set for the week after my surgery. I am going to try to look at this as something else scratched off my to-do list.
I hope everyone is off to the start of a good week. Keep the faith, and keep on working reaching for your dream!

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EDITOR 3/13/2013 3:37AM

    I wanted to thank you for a goodie and encouraging note. I want to let you know that you are being prayed for. I want you to feel God's love and mine. God bless! You will prevail.

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MARIANNE9855 3/12/2013 9:26PM

    Sounds like you have been very busy with your goals. Great job with the house cleaning emoticon

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My aha moment

Saturday, March 09, 2013

I didn't have a great day yesterday as far as my program goes. In fact, it was probably the worst day I have had so far. I really had a hard time tracking yesterday. I had my grandbaby with me all day... she keeps me so busy its tough to keep focused. I am so used to spending the majority of my time alone, and that makes it so much easier lol. I ate a few things that were NOT wise choices, I didn't meet my calorie intake, nor did I meet all my fruit and veggie requirements. All that being said, I was so afraid that YESTERDAY would effect my TODAY and the DAY AFTER. I went to bed bummed at the decisions I had made. I woke up this morning, however, and after my "healthy" breakfast, I realized I had totally forgotten about yesterday and its bad choices. WOW... did you see that? I had TOTALLY FORGOTTEN all about yesterday. This may not seem like a big thing to most people, but for me.. its amazing. I really had my "aha" moment. To realize that I could forget all about yesterday and the mistakes I made and to just get up and without a conscious effort make the right decisions about what I was going to eat for breakfast, lunch, and dinner... well what can I say? I am totally stoked that I didn't beat myself up, I didn't look back... instead I just picked right back up as though yesterday never happened. It really feels like a life-style change this time!

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CBLENS 3/10/2013 9:32AM

    You are moving forward! Keep pushing!

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AVANELL 3/9/2013 9:25PM

    Wonderful! emoticon emoticon breakthrough! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EDITOR 3/9/2013 4:41PM

    Yay! Wonderful and putting the past behind you, as we should!

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PEGGYO 3/9/2013 3:55PM

    way to go

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GAILANN48 3/9/2013 3:24PM

    emoticon That's GREAT to hear, Mellie! You're not alone. I do totally see how big a thing it is to forget "all about yesterday and the mistakes I made and to just get up and without a conscious effort make the right decisions about what I was going to eat for breakfast, lunch, and dinner."I think there's something about the way SP is set up that makes it more possible to do that. I'm no stranger to weight loss programs, even online ones, and SP is just different that way. Each day is a new day to do it right.
Thank you so much for sharing this - you're an inspiration!

:) Gail

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BEEJAY49 3/9/2013 3:18PM

    That's wonderful! Always let it go, you can't go back and have a do-over, so we just move forward! Woohoo! HUGS!

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MARIANNE9855 3/9/2013 3:14PM

    that is so amazing- you are truly making life changes that you can live with. I had my favorite breakfast of toast with peanut butter and a banana and that started my day off great too. emoticon

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Facing my fears..

Thursday, March 07, 2013

Yep, here I am scared again. This time its because of two things. The first is the prospects of a job I just applied for. What if I am not good enough? What if I can't do it? Where am I going to live? What am I going to do? Is this the right job for me? Is this where God wants me to be?
The second fear is how fast my divorce date is coming. I am scared to death of being totally on my own. There, I said it. Why am I afraid? It's not really like I haven't lived on my own for years. He left me a long time ago. That's the truth of it. And I truly believe way back then he caught a glimpse of himself without me and the kids .. and what's worse is: HE LIKED IT. From that moment on, he left us. He left me. He left me to raise the kids, he left me to pay the bills, he left me to keep up the house, he left me to worry about it all. He didn't have "TIME".
I keep telling myself that all of this is his loss. But there is still this small negative voice in the back of my head says, "Yeah, well look what you did with all of that. Look at what it did to the kids. Both have emotional baggage and scars. Maybe its my fault? Maybe I could have saved more money? Maybe if I had handled the bills better, saved more money.. worked harder, longer, maybe if I had done this, or hadn't done that????
Now........why do I let myself think that? Was I entirely responsible for doing all of that? Or was it just dumped in my lap and left for me to do the best I could. Or.. here's another possibility, is this the stuff I heard over and over again until I finally started believing it?
As for work, why am I so afraid of the job? IT's a JOB for goodness sakes. You go, you put in your hours, you LEAVE. Billions of people do that every single day of their lives. I have done it too.. for years. I know IT WILL BE OK! Why do I always look at the negative? Why don't I look at the positives... it will give me money to build a life with. It will give me a sense of accomplishment and security. It will let me socialize and meet new people. It will give me independence. I will be secure in having my own health benefits. It will give me the means to prove to my children and MOST Of all to ME.. that I can rise above this wreck he has made of me and I CAN BE SUCCESSFUL!!!
I want to stop telling myself I CAN'T.. and instead start telling myself: "I WILL, I AM ABLE, I CAN DO IT!" Look at how far I have come. This job could be the very thing that FINALLY gives me what I have always wanted, A family that loves and respects me for my accomplishments, a home I can be proud of......and who knows, maybe I can even find love again. While writing this I am reminded of something my little grandbaby tells me all the time: "Grandma, you have to face your fears." What a wise little thing she is.

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MARIANNE9855 3/8/2013 11:19PM

    You have done so much on your own already its clear to me you will be fine and you don't have to prove anything to anybody emoticon

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BEEJAY49 3/8/2013 4:13AM

    Keep the Faith! :) You can do this, you are worth it and you can secure your future. Don't do it for anyone but YOU! Hugs!

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HDHAWK 3/7/2013 9:06PM

    I felt the same way during my divorce. It took a while, but I came to realize that I did everything I could to try and fix things but he wasn't interested. It wasn't about me and it's not about you. He made his choice and now you can move on and make any choice you want for yourself!

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COSMIC_ENERGY 3/7/2013 8:53PM

    Welcome to the DS team. Yes you can! You will get through this better stronger than ever before. I can identify with your story. Stop in when you are ready. Jude

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GAILANN48 3/7/2013 6:30PM

    In the depths of feelings much like what you're describing, a thought formed in my mind, "It'll be okay. I've got you." He's got YOU, Mellie, and it WILL be okay - all of it...whatever it turns out to be, it'll be okay.

All you have to see is the next step in front of you, and you have a Light to show you that one step, I know. In AA, I learned to focus on doing the "next thing that's right" when I was faced with something that seemed much too big for me. The next right thing - that's all. You can walk through this, one step at a time, and prove to yourself that you have what it takes. You CAN, because you DO.

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EDITOR 3/7/2013 6:28PM

    You asked yourself some good questions and you have already some good answers. You will get there, Mellie. Keep on trusting God's wisdom for your life.

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