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Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Ok... I have been fighting my nerves all morning. Tomorrow I have the first meeting with my estranged husband since last December. Even that meeting was not a face to face, lets sit down across the table and talk about it, chat. I have prayed about it.... I have decided to leave it in God's hands. YET, I keep picking it back up and stewing about it. So.. I am calling on all prayer warriors to say a prayer for me. I want this to go smoothly... yet I have this horrible feeling its not going to. I know I need to be strong. I don't need to break down and cry in front of him. But, I have always been an emotional person and that part of me is so hard to control. I never wanted this divorce... it was his actions that brought it about. I truly wanted my marriage to work and I fought for years and years to hold it together. Letting go is so hard....even when you have been wronged. Now its like a snowball...and I have no control at all with how its going to end. I just have to put my faith in God that it will all work out for the best. Thank you for letting me vent... and again.. please hold me up in prayer that I will be strong.. and that I will be able to be a good listener, and not make any rash decisions that might not be best for me.

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63KEEPONGOING 2/20/2013 7:17PM


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EDITOR 2/20/2013 2:48PM

    Mellie, loving all the prayers said on your behalf here. I added mine and agree that you will be strong today, despite these sad circumstances.

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GAILANN48 2/20/2013 2:03PM

    Adding my prayers to those of all the others for strength, insight, a sense of peace, and discernment for you in your meeting tomorrow. Have been where you are, and it's no fun. But you can do this.

Crying really wouldn't be the worst thing in the world - we've been led to believe it indicates weakness, but that's just not the truth. If you do cry, only strive to not shut down in the process. You'll be fine. If God is for us, who can be against us?

Just imagine around the perimeter of the room what Elisha saw (2 Kings 6:16-17) and rest in His strength.

:) Gail

Comment edited on: 2/20/2013 2:05:28 PM

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LIVELYGIRL2 2/20/2013 12:59PM

  Will be praying....

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PLPSAVAGE 2/20/2013 11:43AM

    Praying! If you can, surrender yourself and the meeting to the Lord ahead of time; let His words be yours during the meeting. In our weakness He is stronger! emoticon

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BEEJAY49 2/20/2013 10:58AM

    Heavenly Father, Your daughter needs Your strength right now for a task she is facing. Please wrap Your loving arms around her and comfort her in her times of distress. Bless her with the strength and courage she needs to get through this troubled time in her life. Father, we know that Your will is perfect and we hold Your daughter up to You in prayer and ask that You allow Your perfect will to help her in this situation. In the Name of Your Most Precious Son, Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.

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AVANELL 2/20/2013 10:14AM

    Father, I bring Mellie Sue before You and ask that You would go before her into this meeting. Father, I pray that You will calm her emotions, give her peace in her heart and the right words to say at just the right time. I pray, Father, that You will soften the hearts of both of them and cause them to hold each other in high esteem and heal the hurts in their hearts. Father, I speak peace to the storm that rages in Mellie Sue's heart and ask that You would grant her favor in this situation. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

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GGCHET 2/20/2013 9:02AM

    Am praying for His perfect peace to come over you. Be the person you want to be. You can make are making it.
God is in control. Know that....know your path is straight and He will put your feet on the path you need to be on.
I have been where you are...met my hubby late in life when I least expected it.
Have faith in yourself sweet one You have strength you don't even know about!!!

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One of those days...

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Its been one of those days! I was off and running the minute my feet hit the floor (or so it seemed.) It seemed like everything on my list was a bust.
I hate days like this. I wanted to get everything on my list finished. But, I kept running into one dead end after another. Which means that everything left on my list for now on tomorrow's list. Along with that feeling comes the feeling that time is running out.
I did get my biopsy report back. It came back as an benign endometrial polyp. So, now I am scheduled for a D&C.
I didn't do great on my plan today. Honestly, I didn't eat enough if you can believe that lol.
I just didn't have time to work it all in.
All of this at once...... divorce, health issues, one disappointing job prospect after another, has reeked havoc on my mental state. I'm tired. I'm frustrated. I'm tired of being tired and frustrated lol. You get the picture.
I'm sure tomorrow I will be back to my state of "normal." Afterall Scarlett O'Hara's famous last words .... "Tomorrow is another day."

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MISHMOM 2/20/2013 8:30AM

    It's so rough when everything hits the fan at once -- I hope you have a better day today! Hang in there! emoticon

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BEEJAY49 2/20/2013 4:38AM

    I'm glad the test results were good. :) Today will be better. :) HUGS!

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EDITOR 2/20/2013 3:16AM

    I also had a benign polyp removed a few years ago. Not fun, but thank God it is not the word malignant that was heard. I was very fortunate that it was done as an inpatient and no d&c required.
Dear Mellie, may God continue to minister and get you this very difficult season in your life! So many prayers are said for you, sweet lady.

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 2/19/2013 10:15PM

    Wow it sounds like you have a lot on your plate. I am glad that your test came back good for you. I know you will do better tomorrow.

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MARIANNE9855 2/19/2013 10:05PM

    it sounds like you are handling things pretty well- all things considered- it will get better- glad your health news is not serious. emoticon emoticon

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GGCHET 2/19/2013 9:14PM

    Yes it certainly is.
You know you have lots of friends here.
Sorry you are coping with so much.
We need some good weather so the sun
can brighten things up for us!!! emoticon emoticon

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The week ahead

Monday, February 18, 2013

Busy busy week for me this week. SOoo much to do. But, I have my "To Do" list ready and am eager to start checking off the listed tasks.
I am happy to say that I am starting this week with a 2lb weight loss. Considering the time away I spent at my daughter's house, the stress of the doctor's visits, and the running around out of my comfort zone I think I did pretty well. In fact, I was really surprised to see a loss at all. It has been so cold here.......maybe I froze that 2lbs off LOL.
I am setting a couple of goals for myself this week (this is my way of easing into setting goals LOL). Simple as they may be, here they are:

1. To meet all of my healthy guidelines and use all of my daily points.

2. Get all of my water in.

3. Read something inspirational everyday.

4. Finish at least 3 of my "unfinished" crochet projects (I must have six or more lol)

5. To report on each day and the accomplishments made.

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BEEJAY49 2/19/2013 4:54AM

    Congratulations! :) HUGS!

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MICHELLEPHANT 2/18/2013 1:51PM

    Good Girl! hey, froze off or jogged off....OFF is tha major part a that! Hahaha..

Good goals set!

Any crochet left over, I claim fer meself!

Keep on truckin doll!

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AVANELL 2/18/2013 9:16AM

    Praying that you have a successful week with less stress and more peace of mind, Mellie!

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MARIANNE9855 2/18/2013 8:21AM

    good job, particularly with all the stress going on.
I'm interested in if you finish your 3 crochet projects- that's how I am with needlework projects. I buy them, start them and don't finish them Lately I haven't even finished little xmas ornament kits but I did make all my own Christmas cards. Maybe I will finish those xmas ornaments this week- you will be my inspiration! emoticon

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EDITOR 2/18/2013 6:50AM

    Shivering does burn calories. Ha! Wonderful loss and inspirational for us who may have struggled this week. God guide and bless you, friend in Christ!

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AZMOMXTWO 2/18/2013 6:50AM

  great goals you can do it

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Good day all in all..

Saturday, February 16, 2013

I spent a very busy day at home cleaning today. I really got a lot accomplished.. still got a few things to do this weekend, but overall finished with the house. I feel so much better just knowing at least that's done.
I also cut more plarn today. Getting ready to crochet yet another tote/purse. I never know which one it will turn out to be. It tends to have a mind of its own once I get started. lol.
I stayed on track with my program today and feel as though surely some of this frenzied cleaning spree had to count for some kind of physical activity. I know I need to work in more exercise, but because of my current health problems I haven't had much energy until today. Maybe that's a good sign.
The stress in my life is the only thing at the moment that I can really complain about. There's just not a lot I can do about it until all of this mess with the divorce is final. I am just trying my best to leave it all in God's hands. I know there's not one thing I can do about it. But still, I find myself stressing over it all. I just want peace in my life and some sense of normalcy back.

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CHRIMSONFYRE 2/17/2013 10:04AM

    Sounds like you are being very strong and keeping it together. Keep strong and smiling, we are all here for you if you need us.

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BEEJAY49 2/17/2013 6:22AM

    Cleaning does count as exercise, it's in the tracker. :) God knows your stress and it will be okay. He will take care of you and you also have us to talk to. One day at a time! HUGS!

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MELLIESUE13 2/16/2013 8:23PM

    Thank you all so much for your encouragement. I can't tell you how much it helps me to know I have people who listen and genuinely care. I really appreciate each word and gesture. God bless you all.. emoticon

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AVANELL 2/16/2013 7:28PM

    God knows what you are going through and He will see you through this valley to the other side. He has a good plan for your life even though things seem disjointed right now. This, too, shall pass! Keep your head up and keep putting one foot in front of the other. You will make it!

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TINADEE86 2/16/2013 7:20PM

    Keep it up! You are putting one foot in front of the other. It will come together. Just keep pushing. You can do this! Keep up the good job!

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EDITOR 2/16/2013 7:13PM

    That does count as exercise. And that you are holding it together is a marvelous sign of the way God works in you and for you!

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MARIANNE9855 2/16/2013 7:08PM

    you are doing the best you can under the circumstances which is just fine. its very hard to make changes under your situation so be proud of what you are doing, emoticon

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Home again

Friday, February 15, 2013

I'm back home again after spending a few days with my daughter. The house is really quiet tonight. Strange how it feels that way. My daughter works afternoon shift, so after 4pm, I was alone at her place as well. It didn't seem so lonely there though. Maybe its because of the memories in this house... I don't know.
So... I did really well on my plan today despite the travel time, the grocery store, and really not having a plan for tonight's supper (I wound up baking chicken).
I can't believe the cost of eating healthy vs eating junk!
I actually cut plarn this afternoon to finish a tote bag I am crocheting. Hopefully I will finish that project this weekend while its snowing outside (uggh).
All in all it was a good day.

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BEEJAY49 2/16/2013 5:59AM

    I'm glad you did well on your plan. :) It's not easy doing that while traveling. You are awesome! HUGS!

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EDITOR 2/16/2013 3:25AM

    I am so glad you were able to be with your DD. The quiet and alone times are necessary also. Stay on track foodwise this weekend and keep your hands busy with projects .

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MELLIESUE13 2/15/2013 8:22PM

    Oh I will ..... she's my baby lol. I'm sure sometimes she'd like to get rid of me for awhile but that just ain't gonna happen LOL. All joking aside, we're the best of friends. I am so proud of the strong, independent woman she has become. emoticon

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DARJR50 2/15/2013 8:21PM

  Sounds like a nice relaxing day. Take full advantage of it.

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JAMBABY0 2/15/2013 8:19PM

    Glad it was a good day, hope you visit your daughter again soon

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