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Goodbye one more BAD habit!

Friday, February 08, 2013

I haven't blogged in a couple of days, so I thought I would do so today. This week has been good for me except for getting in all of my water. Gonna work on that this weekend. I've been trying to leave a bottle of water in every room of my house so that wherever I am ...its available.
For years I was a HUGE Pepsi-holic. I couldn't go a day without at least ONE. And if I did happen to run out, it didn't take me long to jump in the car and drive all the way into town for my fix. I've even been known to raid the kid's piggy banks for a Pepsi. How desparate is that? lol. In my previous attempts to lose weight, I have always either worked in my Pepsi habit or tried to get used to Diet Soft Drinks. WELL...... for me, I'd just rather have water lol. That's just my personal opinion. I could never get used to the "after taste." So, the other day out of the blue I thought.....WOW....I haven't even THOUGHT of a Pepsi. I truly never thought I would hear those words come out of my mouth. That's how strong my addiction was. I am thankful to God that he has helped me with this. I can't even remember the last time I had one. YES!!!
I have had other family members who kicked the habit. I think its been 7 years or so since my daughter had a soft drink, but for me I could never have imagined I could do that.
Time for the weekend, and the challenges that come with eating right. I do fine at home, but years of eating out on the weekend has become another habit I would like to change. Not so much eating out, as just making wiser decisions. This year is all about positive changes for me. I feel really good about the ones I have made so far.
Take care everyone and have a wonderful weekend!

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AVANELL 2/8/2013 6:06PM

    emoticon Mellie! That's awesome! I used to be just about that bad with Coca Cola! But now they taste really sugary! There's not much in the way of flavored drinks that don't taste too sweet to me now!

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EDITOR 2/8/2013 2:39PM

    Mellie, you are breaking the bad habits and replacing them with good habits. That is how real victory is wrought! emoticon

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BEEJAY49 2/8/2013 10:16AM

    Woohoo! You go girl! Congratulations! HUGS!

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CBLENS 2/8/2013 10:15AM

Way to go. Congrats on breaking the soda habit. Have a wonderful weekend.

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Why, oh why can't I?

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

This morning started for me at 4am. Not by choice, however. I have such horrible problems with trying to get quality sleep. No matter what time I go to bed, at best, I get 4-5 hours. This wouldn't be a problem if I didn't wake up almost as tired as I was when I went to bed. I am hopeful that this change in my eating habits will also lead to better sleep. By the time 2pm rolls around I am exhausted and almost in dire need of a nap. If I take a nap, then that effects my ability to sleep at night. Its a vicious cycle lol.
My week has been busy, and yet I feel as though I have accomplished very little. I am still looking for a job. Busy doesn't really bother me.... what bothers me most is that I am constantly having to wait on someone else in order for me to move forward. Why does it always feel like something/someone is holding me back?
I have stuck to my plan this week, but I did notice that I am feeling hunger more than I have in the last two weeks. I have no idea what that's all about. I did drop a point in my daily points values....but since I was having problems working in ALL of my daily points, I don't think that's a factor. Maybe just the stress of everything else going on in my life. Sometimes I swear I feel like I am running in circles. And if that seems funny to me, even funnier than that is that even after 52 years of living life, I still fool myself into thinking that somewhere in the near future, I will not have so much stress in my life lol. Maybe life is all about stress..... I'm not sure anymore. I just try my best not to dwell on that and keep humming.....
Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullabye.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish up on a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, away above the chimney tops..
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly, Birds fly over the rainbow..
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?


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DAJAMOGU1 2/11/2013 7:16AM

    I'm like you---5 hours of sleep is about the most I can get but then I am tired all day. I did find that the more I exercise, the better I sleep. I just get about 30 minutes a day and do it in 10-minute sessions. The more I do, the better I sleep. Just a thought.

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AVANELL 2/6/2013 1:23PM

    You may be struggling with sleep because of a hormone imbalance. That was my case and once I got on bio-identical hormone replacement therapy my ability to sleep through the night returned. Stress depletes your hormones and causes adrenal fatigue. You might consider seeing a hormone specialist for his/her advice.

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LIVELYGIRL2 2/6/2013 12:40PM

  valerian root is good for sleep. There is alot of studies on it. It is a herb and doesn' emoticon t make you feel hang over feeling, but refreshed. You need 8 percent of the active ingredient. I could look it up in my book, if you want.

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MARIANNE9855 2/6/2013 12:28PM

    My sleep hasn't been that great but since I lost my job, I got really turned around because it didn't matter if I was up all night and I didn't have to get my son to college until late afternoon most days. Now we are back on an earlier schedule and I hope to have a job soon so I hope to sleep better. I think exercise helps you sleep better too. I have never liked getting up early since I was a kid but I do know I feel better when I do emotionally. Keep trying to see what works for you- I know naps are hard to resist- I used to say the couch was calling my name. emoticon

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EDITOR 2/6/2013 7:18AM

    Things change. God is timeless. I really do let Him be my emoticon . Not always thrilled about my get up in the morning though, but I always thank Him for patterns I do not see and understand.

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BEEJAY49 2/6/2013 6:45AM

    I have problems with the sleep too, but lately I've been doing much and on. Age can be a factor, stress, too much on your mind when going to bed. I was thinking of Oz the other day myself. Hehe! I wish we could all wish and go over the rainbow and be where we want of need to be. Sleep will come for you, hang in there! HUGS!

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    Hey kiddo....have ya tried all of the usual stuff? white noise...a little work out a bit before bed....a great pillow...? I go in cycles...but, thats tha bi-polar in me, hubby has sleep issues...sleep a few hours, wake up, etc....he wont try tha above, so, I wish him well, roll over n snore, hahaha..

I do hate waking up as if I hadnt slept at all, that really stinks...when I get in that rut, I move to me rocking reclyner with a project, and crochet till me eyes find the off button...I wake up feeling awsum!

I hope it gets better doll!

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JGRAY76 2/6/2013 6:06AM

    Hang in there and hope you get the sleep routine figured out. That must be adding to your stress.

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Snow days

Sunday, February 03, 2013

My weekend has been spent inside. We got enough snow to keep me housebound. I am really ok with that. I didn't have plans anyway. I really haven't been inspired to do much, sadly. Sooo... I mostly planned for the coming week and crocheted. I do love to watch old movies so I have been catching up on that while I crochet. I managed to make a hat and scarf set for a little girl and started a purse for my daughter.
As for my weight loss journey...... I have been so blessed to not even think about it. I just LIVE it day to day. Staying on track with my daily guidelines and drinking water. I do need some form of exercise. However, I do not live in a place where walking would be safe. Gotta think of something to do indoors that will not kill my back. I would love to start swimming again. Needless to say, I can't do that at home lol.
Tomorrow is weigh in day....and I am experiencing the same old feelings. Dread and anticipation. Have I lost? Have I gained? Tomorrow will tell the tale.
I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend and may God bless you in the coming week.

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MELLIESUE13 2/4/2013 6:08AM

    Thank you so much everyone for your comments.

Good advice MYDOGOWNSME... I am actually thinking about getting two dogs in the near future. OR, I may get a chimpanzee... I'm undecided at the moment emoticon

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BEEJAY49 2/4/2013 6:07AM

    Check out some walk at home videos. Walk Away the Pounds with Leslie Sansone has some great ones. :) Most of them are quite easy, gives you low impact cardio and takes up very little space to use. :) HUGS!

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MYDOGSOWNME 2/4/2013 1:17AM

    If it weren't for the dogs I don't think I'd leave my apartment on the weekends. Thankfully they make me get up and walk around. Maybe you should look into getting a dog... emoticon Sorry I couldn't resist!

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MARIANEL13 2/3/2013 9:07PM

    I hear ya ..with all the snow we got here I can't get out either..School is already on a 2 hr delay for tomorrow..I hope you have a good night ...Stay strong and Hope and pray your weigh in goes well tomorrow ...

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MILPAM3 2/3/2013 7:57PM

  I'm so glad I live in an area with 4 seasons. Snow is so many varieties. Last week it got so warm, we were able to be out without jackets. Not so this week...dipped way below freezing. Today was sunny; that was a plus.

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AVANELL 2/3/2013 6:40PM

    Mellie, before I got my treadmill I would walk all around the inside of my house from room to room just as if I were outside on a walk. We have an upstairs so I would walk all through the downstairs and then walk up the stairs and make a loop around the upper part of the house and back down. Anything that you can do that causes movement is beneficial to you. Just get up and move, even if it is walking in place. Leslie Sansone has some good DVD's called "Walk Away the Pounds". Something like that would be helpful as well. I used one of her programs for years and it gave me a good walking workout without going anywhere! emoticon emoticon

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THOMS1 2/3/2013 5:11PM

    Well join the club. We are on vacation in Texas for a month and we just got here on Friday. It was a week of traveling, staying in motels, not getting enough liquids and eating out. I am just dreading my weigh in tomorrow. Yes, I brought my scale from home and also my kitchen food scale to keep me on track. I start fitness tomorrow at a gym located about a mile from the condo that we are staying in so at least I can walk there and back. Wish me luck.

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MELLIESUE13 2/3/2013 5:06PM

    This weather has always been a killer for me when it comes to sweets. I LOVE to bake and especially in the winter. I could bake something "good for me", but I know me, and I would wind up eating the entire thing lol. SO, the best way to avoid that is to just NOT do it. I used to buy a product called "No Pudge" brownies. They were AWESOME. I particularly loved them because you could make an individual serving. It's a low cal-low fat brownie mix that you mix with non-fat vanilla yogurt and pop in the microwave. Excellent for a treat......however, I really have to exercise control when that mix was in the house LOL. I should see if they still sell that. I could only ever find it at Kroger. Its been a few years since I bought it. Next time I go to the grocery, I'll see if they still have it.

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EDITOR 2/3/2013 5:02PM

    Hey, you look familiar. Ha!
I am anticipating a lackluster weigh-in. I got into sweets yesterday and that caused me to go from there to no man's land. I know better. And I cannot say that the emoticon made me do it. This is not my first rodeo though and I will stay more alert in upcoming weeks. Hoping you do surprisingly super!

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The butterfly in me..

Saturday, February 02, 2013

Yesterday was a very busy day for me, the first of several for the next week actually. I went to see a good friend of mine who had a couple of job leads for me. I hadn't seen her in almost five years, so it was really nice to catch up too on our lives.
I left feeling so empowered. I realized after leaving how blessed I am to have such people in my life. Even during times when I have let my self-doubt get me down, I have people around me who love me and tell me continuously that I can do anything! With that said, you would think I have no excuse when it comes to anything I want to do in life. However, I know now and realize that my biggest obstacle is ME. I have to believe in ME. I married right after high-school and let my dream of continuing my education go in order to follow my ultimate dream, which was to be a wife and a mother. Even then I let me get in the way of following my dreams. I had all sorts of beliefs in my head.. things like: "You can't afford to go to school," or "You probably couldn't even pass the entrance exams!, and my favorite: "Good wives and mother's don't need an education." These were just SOME of the things I believed. Some of these were my own thoughts, some of these were from my childhood, some from my husband, but I certainly played a part in convincing myself that I couldn't do it. At the age of 46 I got the chance to go back to school as part of a severance package from my job that was outsourced. I remember sitting in my driveway after completing my first week of college and thinking....OMG, I can't do this! I was so overwhelmed, I cried. But, I knew this was the chance of a lifetime to finally prove to myself that I COULD do it. Afterall, I had just did something else I didn't think I could do. I lost 75 lbs leading up to the starting day of school! I had made major positive changes in my life and I was not going to let this opportunity go, not when I had it handed to me. So, for the next 2 years I worked diligently......and graduated with recognition. I had no idea that my decision to return to school would contribute the final blow to my marriage. For the next few years, I can't tell you how many things happened in my life. Personal illness, a doomed and crumbling marriage, the loss of my parent, the birth of a grandchild. All of that happened to bring me to where I am now... and I have to choose, do I let all of that wash over me until I just give up and drown? Or, do I pick up the pieces and start all over again? Well, the one thing I have never been in my life is a quitter. Something in me just will NOT allow it. Am I scared? You bet. Do I still hear the voices, oh yeah! But will I let all of that defeat me? No... I just can't. I have struggled with my weight most of my life. Up and down, yo yo dieting, fad diets, starvation, and none of that worked. I don't think I will ever defeat it. I think for me its much like any other addiction. I have to first admit I have a problem and face it head on. It has to be a major life change with me. I have made those first steps....and I am making progress with ME. I am learning every day that you have to love yourself FIRST. I am proud of my accomplishments in life. And I am thankful for the blessings I have. I have two beautiful children, a lovely grandchild, a wonderful, loving and supportive family. I thank God every day for where he has brought me and I know I can do anything through Him. I will keep fighting ME until I become the best ME I can be. emoticon

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MARIANEL13 2/3/2013 8:49PM

    Hope you know what a blessing you are..I loved your blog ..If only I could communicate as you do my friend..I want you to know I'm so proud of you..I love watching you grow and am so thankful that God has allowed me to know you emoticon

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CHZBABE 2/3/2013 2:06PM

    I used to tell Janie,

This road like any road will have its hills and vallys, its twists and turns, I do not know what Gods plan is, but I do know it is a perfect plan.

God watches over us and he sometimes nudges us in the direction we are to go.
And God wants us to be successful in our lives.
He is right there with you, and that my friend is all you need.

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CHZBABE 2/3/2013 12:11PM

    You are a fighter Mellie, an educated fighter.
You will absolutly do this.
The timeline is up to you.

God blesses us everyday. Like the day I met you. Total blessing.
Have a wonderful day full of self realization and determination.

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MELLIESUE13 2/2/2013 7:53PM

    Thank you so much for your comments, Editor and Milpam3. emoticon

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63KEEPONGOING 2/2/2013 10:04AM

  God never promised life here would be easy, but he promised to give us his strength.

I am sooooo glad you were determined through your many obstacles to not throw in the towel and surrender to them.
Continue being on that God intended for you to be.

Enjoyed your blog, immensely.

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MILPAM3 2/2/2013 8:47AM

  Learning is a daily joy. No one should undermine that. emoticon
Congrats on graduating with distinction!

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EDITOR 2/2/2013 7:49AM

    Good morning! I love seeing the me replaced in our life by the God who gives us courage to keep on keeping on. There is no stopping the one on a roll with Him! God bless as He works these lifestyles out in our lives, Mellie. Although all our choices in youth and after may not have been perfect, He is the Prefect One guiding your every move!

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Just thoughts..

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Its been a really sluggish week for me. I didn't get half the things done I wanted to. I just had a general feeling of not feeling well. I seem to be a little more energetic this morning. With that in mind I have a big list of things I want to get done. I really don't enjoy spring cleaning when the weather is gloomy and cold, but I want to get a headstart on this year.
I am doing really well on my program, all things considered. My biggest obstacle so far has been eating all of my daily points. I usually start out in the morning feeling like I can't have a big breakfast because that will run me short on points later in the evening. I plan for the evening way ahead of time, so I am not sure why I feel like that lol. I don't like getting to the end of the day and thinking I have to eat something even if I don't feel like it ... just to get ALL of my points in. I know this will change as I lose weight and the daily points go down. So, for now I am just trying new things. Yesterday I made a list of all the foods I like that are healthy. My plan is to use that list to make my menus. The list also has a column for "healthy snacks". So, at a first glance I can add something to my meals if need to and also have the option for a healthy snack if I desire one.
Another obstacle for me is the fact that I suffer from IBS, which makes eating a LOT of raw food tricky for me. I have had a little bout of that as well this week. I am determined, however, that nothing is going to keep me from doing this. I just cut back on the amounts of raw fruits and veggies that I ate for a couple of days and that seems to have helped.
Another week almost gone.. along with another month. I have to say, I am so happy to see January go. I really dislike cold weather. This winter has been an enormous hardship for me in ways I won't go into, but I am ecstatic to get back to warmer weather! I love spring and the hope that it brings. It's like a brand new world. I love to see the color come back.
Enough daydreaming......its time to get busy!

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HOBBESIS49 2/1/2013 11:06PM

    So glad that you are getting busy and going to get on it.. living with IBS must be very hard.I can't imagine having to figure out how to deal with this. I love the determination I hear in your writers voice. I do the same as you do with breakfast and lunch I plan for these two meals rigorously leaving dinner to share with my family or friends with a bit more calories room for freedom. Tracking my food is my very best friend.

You're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting,
So... get on your way! Dr Seuss

emoticon Jane

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MARIANNE9855 1/31/2013 1:24PM

    keep trying- I am on WWs too and I can't figure out the points easily so I use the spark people calorie counter. But I am adding fruits and vegs as much as possible and starting to look at superfoods. I am losing slowly so I guess the combo is ok. I religiously track my food and exercise cause I am home- the only benefit for being unemployed. lol emoticon

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CHZBABE 1/31/2013 9:40AM

    Mellie, you will absolutly fnd your way with this.
I think while we are all on this journey it is very personal to each of us. What works for you may not work for me and vise versa. I think that is the reason there are so many different diet companys trying to sell quick fixes.

I think it takes expeimenting to find what is just your own path, even within the WW program.

The best part of this is that you are taking the time to learn you and how this works for you, and that should not be rushed.

Personally I always hit a plateau around 20 lbs that I can not break through. I have never put this kind of exercise into my plan to lose. I always think, well when I get 25lbs off and its easier to breathe I will start with exercise. I know this to be true because I have kept my weightloss journals and I went back to see if I could find just what the heck I was doing wrong and that is the one thing that was consistant. So this time I am exercising from the get go, will it work, I dont know...but I think it cant hurt.

So finding our own way can be difficult and time consuming but God made each of of unique and I think this part is too.
Have a very Blessed Day,
Take Care emoticon

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EDITOR 1/31/2013 7:04AM

    I love seeing January go! I am totally with you! My son-in law- suffers from IBS and gluten allergies. He found what works. You will too, because you are wonderfully and beautifully made, in His image. Keep on communicating. Our readers are so helpful! Bless this daughter's day dear Lord, and show her the path to wellness in Christ's Name. Amen

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SEESKO 1/31/2013 7:04AM

    There just doesn't seem to be enougth time in a day sometimes. Hope you get everything you need to do done and still have time to relax a bit.

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