Thursday, April 11, 2013
Ughh.. I am so nervous today..and all I can think about is FOOD. I want to eat everything in the house . I just can't get my mind off of everything that is going on right now in my life. This is the toughest battle I have had with the overwhelming temptation to relieve my stress with food since I started this journey. I know in my heart it will not help.. in fact, it will only add to my stress and heap feelings of guilt on top of that. I just don't know what to do with myself. The house is all cleaned, the laundry is done, I have crocheted until my eyes are crossed. I could tear into spring cleaning the kitchen, but honestly I have no heart to do that either. There's no one to turn to right now, everyone else is at work (uggh.. I still can't find a job either!! )
Will this nightmare ever end? Down deep in my soul, I feel like it hasn't even begun yet, and that I have years of this left. That's how it feels anyway. If I had a panic button right now, I'd ....nevermind pushing it..I'd be SITTING ON IT!
Someone please remind me why I need to do this... and please pray for me today. Thank you in advance.