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Thank you everyone

Friday, April 12, 2013

I made it through yesterday without turning to food. I give that victory entirely to the Lord. Thank you so much everyone who prayed for me and those of you who posted on my blog. You are all so amazing!
These next few weeks are going to be very stressful for me. I know that the only way I will make it through them is to spend a lot of time on my knees. I listened to all of your advice and it really reminded me of why I am here.. why I am doing this, and I know I can do this with God's help and your prayers. Thank you again everyone for being so supportive... I love you all.

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BEEJAY49 4/13/2013 5:56AM

    I'm so happy you made it through without the food. :) One day at a time, one step at a time, 2 knees at a time. We're here for you. I'm lifting you up in prayer! God Bless and Hugs!

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MARIANNE9855 4/12/2013 11:31PM

    so glad you got through- its like that song by Kelly Clarkson-" what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" I love that song and believe when this is all over you will be a stronger person and have so much to be proud of about yourself. emoticon

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GAILANN48 4/12/2013 9:57PM

    He's got it all under control, and you know that. Just remember Whose you are, Mellie, and when choices arise, just keep trying to do the next right thing. We're here pulling for you, too.
emoticon Gail

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PEGGYO 4/12/2013 1:30PM

    We're here for you

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MKELLY72 4/12/2013 11:06AM

    You are so strong!! You can make it through another day!! One day at a time is all it takes. My prayers are with you as well.

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Hitting the Panic Button

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Ughh.. I am so nervous today..and all I can think about is FOOD. I want to eat everything in the house emoticon . I just can't get my mind off of everything that is going on right now in my life. This is the toughest battle I have had with the overwhelming temptation to relieve my stress with food since I started this journey. I know in my heart it will not help.. in fact, it will only add to my stress and heap feelings of guilt on top of that. I just don't know what to do with myself. The house is all cleaned, the laundry is done, I have crocheted until my eyes are crossed. I could tear into spring cleaning the kitchen, but honestly I have no heart to do that either. There's no one to turn to right now, everyone else is at work (uggh.. I still can't find a job either!! emoticon)
Will this nightmare ever end? Down deep in my soul, I feel like it hasn't even begun yet, and that I have years of this left. That's how it feels anyway. If I had a panic button right now, I'd ....nevermind pushing it..I'd be SITTING ON IT!
Someone please remind me why I need to do this... and please pray for me today. Thank you in advance. emoticon

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AVANELL 4/11/2013 8:06PM

    Mellie, I am praying for you and so are others on here. We are on your side. If you feel like venting you have come to the right place.

I know there are no words that can take away the pain of the place that you are in right now. The only one who can offer salvation in this situation is the Lord. Now is the time to run to Him for your deliverance from this oppression. Inner peace is the most important part of surviving through the storms of life. He offers that to you. Take Him up on it. Run to Jesus and let Him relieve you of your burdens!

God bless you! Don't give up now; the darkest time is just before the dawn!

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BEEJAY49 4/11/2013 4:21PM

    Ah Mellie, you are definitely in my prayers. Being strong all the time isn't easy, but like you said, eating everything will not accomplish a thing. Your feelings are normal, maybe find a good book you can get engrossed in, a little exercise, a lot of prayer. You can get through this! We are here for you so vent, yell, scream and cry if you need to. We may not be able to grab hold and hug you out of this but we can all offer a little advice and a lot of shoulders. You are NOT alone! Love you! HUGS!

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EDITOR 4/11/2013 2:22PM

    I am praying for you, Mellie. Thank you also for the goodie.

This is where God wants you to be until the storm passes over. And it will. You are safe in prayer. emoticon

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FEMISLIM 4/11/2013 12:09PM

    Remain strong. I empathize with you. When I feel the way you do, I tell myself that "Food has no power over me, I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me". Fight the warfare with the words of the Lord. He has given you the authority to trample over all things. You can overcome the power of the enemy!!!! It is well with you.

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MURRAYGOLD 4/11/2013 11:43AM

    We both know that food is not the answer to ease your heart right now. Put down your crochet project for a bit and get a pen and paper...time to write yourself a letter, reminding yourself why you deserve to be successful on this journey...why it is important to you. This is not the time to listen to that voice that leads you off the path...tell that voice that you don't need her now, thanks...but no thanks.

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SPATTEN2001 4/11/2013 10:43AM

    Don't give in .... hitting the panic button was the good step to take! This forum offers so much encouragement -- we have all been in the same boat at some point in our journey. Be strong, drink water, resist the temptation and think of all the great things that will come into being when you are successful in your journey. As for strife in the life, my best suggestion is to lay it at the feet of the One who knows all the plan ... let go and let God!

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My prayer...

Tuesday, April 09, 2013

I am really having a difficult time finding motivation to do anything today. The last two weeks have been filled to the brink with things I HAD to do, and now I just don't want to do anything.
I know that I should be busy finishing my spring cleaning, but even that desire has dwindled. I am at a point where it feels like I am living in an hour glass, and the sands are quickly sifting down over me. I can't exactly explain how I feel. There are so many emotions inside me...fear, dread, sadness, weariness. I am praying that once the divorce is all over, I can move on and trade in all of those negative emotions for good ones. I despise the ugliness of all of this. I long for the day when I wake up in anticipation of the day to come. Or excited to start a brand new day. My prayer is to get to that day when I no longer feel sadness for something that I can't change. Or not even give my past a second thought. I wonder how much of our personality can we change. Is that even possible at my age? I don't know where else to go except to my knees.

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LIVELYGIRL2 4/10/2013 12:42AM

  That's a very tough place to be.

You must both rest and find things tat recharge your batteries.

Obviously ,this is a great loss. I hope you have friends who will n emoticon ourish you.

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AVANELL 4/9/2013 12:35PM

    There is that time when we feel that we are just kind of out there in limbo, knowing we can't go back and wondering if there's anything good waiting for us in the future. We sometimes wonder if things will ever change or if we're just locked into the present. But if we look at the future with eyes of faith we will see that God has a better day ahead of us; that we can put our trust in Him to see us through and that this, too, shall pass and once again life will be worth living. Yes, there are disappointments that we see and things that we have no control over, but God is always there to encourage us with His presence and give us hope for a better tomorrow. Isaiah speaks so many times of God being the one who makes a way where there seems to be no way; and He speaks of making crooked places straight and rough places smooth; He even says that we are not to look at the former things because He is declaring new things in our lives. He's always working even when we can see His movement. But we can trust His heart to do what is best for us. Hold on to your faith, Mellie, and know that God hasn't forgotten you. He's still working in your life and even though things look dark at times He's the light that drives out the darkness!

You are in my prayers! emoticon

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MARIANNE9855 4/9/2013 10:24AM

    you can always make changes- sometimes it is hard and you have to take a little break and then start up again.
Is there anything nice you can schedule to do- just for yourself? You need to have positive things to look forward to that have nothing to do with house cleaning or any of the things you "have" to do.
Build in at least one special thing a week or more often if possible.

You need to take good care of yourself and reward yourself during the journey- not wait for the end. emoticon emoticon

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EDITOR 4/9/2013 10:16AM

    I believe the separation, fear, anxiety, dread, sadness never completely dissolves or gets any better than the first day and great love we found in reconciliation with God through Christ. That was the courtship period. Hosea 2:18 I will betroth you to me forever; I will betroth you in righteousness and justice, in love and compassion. We cannot always see all the benefits presently, but we do know they exist forevermore!

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Friday, April 05, 2013

Beautiful day here. I got a really good start on spring cleaning my kitchen. I also ran the dust cloth and sweeper over the rest of the house.
Maybe its all the extra moving I am doing, but goodness I have struggled with "hunger pangs" over the last week. I think the small slice of cheesecake I allowed myself on Easter kicked me back into sugar cravings. Uggh... I know we aren't supposed to beat ourselves up over a little indulgence every now and then, but it always seems to set me back as far as food cravings go. Does anyone else have this problem? This is exactly why I am so afraid to allow myself a "cheat" every now and then. It seems to take me DAYS or sometimes even WEEKS to get back to where I was. Oh well...... I REFUSE to give in. I will keep pushing.... I have this image in my head that drives me forward. I CAN, I MUST, I WILL SUCCEED! emoticon

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AVANELL 4/6/2013 12:43PM

    Yes, I understand what you are saying about the cravings, Mellie. It's like the potato chip commercial that said, "bet you can't eat one"! I can't!! If I eat one I want the whole bag! Right now the diet for me has just flown out the window! Having a terrible setback and can't seem to get back in gear! I think I may try going back on the elimination diet my doctor put me on last year to try to identify food allergies. I felt better after being on it for about 2 weeks than I had in years. It's pretty strict but I think that may be what I need. It's either all or nothing for me!

Let's emoticon ! emoticon

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EDITOR 4/6/2013 2:19AM

    That image in your head, Mellie, will keep you pressing forward!

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MARIANNE9855 4/5/2013 10:55PM

    you can do it! I feel like that sometimes- one piece will start me off but I am trying to learn how to do that. If this is going to be my eating plan for life I have to learn how to have a healthy balance. emoticon emoticon

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All is well

Thursday, April 04, 2013

My report from the doctor was excellent. The biopsy showed no abnormalities.. just hormonal changes. Praise the Lord for that. Of course, that was the best news ever, but I have to tell ya, the icing on the cake was when he actually hugged me and told me congratulations on the weight loss. HE COULD ACTUALLY TELL.. I didn't have to tell him. He said he could see it. emoticon

Thank you everyone for your prayers .. I am so blessed!

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JEANUT 4/4/2013 6:17PM

    So glad to hear and emoticon on Dr noticing your wt. loss

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BEEJAY49 4/4/2013 4:13PM

    Oh Mellie, I'm so very happy for your results! Prayers are so powerful! :) And God bless your doc for noticing! Isn't it a wonderful feeling?!! Congratulations!!! HUGS!

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AVANELL 4/4/2013 3:59PM

    Praise the Lord, Mellie! I'm so happy for you....on both counts, the excellent report and the doctor noticing your weight loss! That's emoticon ! Our God is so good!

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NHES220 4/4/2013 3:19PM

    Congratulations on the good news on the biopsy and the acknowledgement from your doctor. What a feel good moment that must have been! You should be so proud of yourself. Keep up the great work!

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MSHEL7 4/4/2013 2:10PM

    Woo Hoo, it is wonderful when someone can see how hard we have been working. emoticon

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MARIANNE9855 4/4/2013 1:26PM

    Two great results- that's wonderful! emoticon

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GAILANN48 4/4/2013 1:25PM

    Wonderful news, Mellie! Thank you, Lord. Icing indeed - if the doc can see what you're doing, that's AWESOME!

:) Gail

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EDITOR 4/4/2013 1:15PM

    I am so glad for you! Praise the Lord! emoticon

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MOTTAMAMALOU 4/4/2013 12:03PM

    Congratulations to you! What blessings you have! The doc is wonderful to see what hard work you put into getting healthy.


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