Monday, May 04, 2009
I had a nice booty! Nice long legs... never had boobs but the bod made it work. Somewhere in my mind I thought if I could get my rockin bod I would buy myself the boobs. 'A' cups don't really work with a 38 bustline... and that is when I'm in shape! Parents give you the suckiest things sometimes. My dad gave me his ribs and shoulders... I NEVER left shoulder pads in my shirts back in the 80s and 90s. I had my own... but I digress.
I HAD.... Now I'm 40 and I have more than I ever could have imagined. What is it about a good life that sometimes causes us to make ourselves miserable? We're not rich, we are paying on a mortgage, we can barely afford to have my kids in Catholic school, my truck is getting old, but we both have good jobs and 2 AMAZING kids that do well at just about everything they try and if they don't... they have fun trying! They have great spirit. DH and I have each other, he's an amazing husband who just recently told me he loves being married to me (ooooooohhhh and yes, it brought tears to my eyes). You start yourself down a spiral of what you DON'T have and every once in a while, someone comes along and reminds you of what you DO have. I still have that great bod.... it's under there somewhere. And I have a great support group who will help me find it again... even if it means I have to put my big booty back in that saddle 100 times. They will be there for all of them. Thanks for being there SP because I have this and all of you too. It's kinda cool.
It's a new day, new attitude, new me.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
I'm reading a lot of other pages and the blogs that are listed on my teams and I've just got some things on my mind I'm going to jot down here. If you think any of this pertains to you or your blog; please don't! This all comes back to me and my malfunctions.
-Weekends aren't weekends without beer. Big problem for me. I went over 2,500 calories Sat and Sun because of beer. Is it possible to consider Fri an actual Friday without drinking a 12-pack? How about lasting until dinner and just enjoying a single glass of wine with my meal instead of grabbing a beer from the fridge by 2 PM.... just because it's a Sat, I'm staying home, and I can.
-Don't weekends mean it's okay to have french fries? ...or... baked potato smothered in butter or chips and salsa or 2 doughnuts after church, or Keno's wonderful breakfast with hash browns, bacon and pancakes instead of toast (notice I don't mention the 3 mimosas that usually go with it, but hey, I got to church!)? Again... does Fri have a license to eat whatever I want the next 2.5 days in it cuz that's my M.O. Every time! Lose 5 lbs Mon - Fri, by the following Mon, got em back. Man I love food (again, didn't mention the mimosas).
-It sucks being a woman and getting older. Yeah, I know you men here at SP will balk at this. Sorry, it's fact. It's not only the way we wrinkle and gray unflatteringly (you get sexier, we just get older, unless we spend countless amounts of time and money on ourselves and I just don't care that much), we also get all funky with Aunt Flo in ways that go beyond mere mood. I read somewhere someone didn't even know what a cramp was until she hit 30. I was the same way.... until kids. Now I can tell you when I'm stinkin ovulating! It's ridiculous! Then, if you're me.. you start a new way of life right when good old Aunt Flo comes to visit and you drop some serious poundage, only to put it right back on when the stupid wench leaves! Oh, and isn't that just completely backwards?
-Try, try again. Try... what a word. What does it mean? Merriam Webster's definitions are as follows:
1a: to examine or investigate judicially b (1): to conduct the trial of (2): to participate as counsel in the judicial examination of
2a: to put to test or trial —often used with out b: to subject to something (as undue strain or excessive hardship or provocation) that tests the powers of endurance c: demonstrate, prove
3a: obsolete : purify, refine b: to melt down and procure in a pure state : render
4: to fit or finish with accuracy
5: to make an attempt at
Bizarre.... the one we use on a regular basis comes at the very end - to make an attempt at.... Another blog I read inferred that when we read or see someone "trying" it's not quite as motivational as someone who is actually "doing". Am I the same way? It's weird, because I almost took offense, but now that I reflect on that as well as the actual definition, I find myself somewhat enlightened. My character will get me back up to (try) go for it again if I fall down, but to set out to "try" might be my out, giving myself the option to fail right off the bat. I commented somewhere Yoda's famous line (original Star Wars fiend.. not the first ones that came out later) “Do or do not... there is no try.” (boy did I mess it up but I searched for it this time). When I finally get around to making that motivation board... that quote will be on it.
Enough rambling for the day. I'm supposed to be working!
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Ok, so I know it's only day 3 into getting myself back on the healthy lifestyle track but WOOHOO! My boss took me to lunch today at The Cheesecake Factory. Sounds ominous, doesn't it? NOT FOR SUPERSHARI! When asked what I would like to drink, did I say Coors Light, diet Pepsi, even regular pepsi? NO - iced tea please. Now you may be saying to yourself, she added sugar.... o contrare! No sugar or sweetener for this superstar! "Would you like me to bring you some bread with butter?" asked our server. Last week... this would have started my downfall - today "No Thank You," says SUPERSHARI! Now, I was a first-timer at The Cheesecake Factory. Let me interject here with some of my favorite indulgences; burgers, sandwiches on white rolls slathered in mayo, french fries, pasta and lots of it, pizza, steak; basically, half of the 300 items on this menu. So I choose the Weight Management Spicy Chicken Salad - WHAT???? Yes, really!!! Even the waitress asks me, "are you sure, your first time here and that's what you want to order?" This after I deduce that ordering pasta, no matter how light would be a bad idea, I would overindulge. Ordering a sandwich, no matter how healthy, I would overindulge... so, if I know I'm going to overindulge, why not pick something that will keep me in my calorie range? Also, we're sitting on the patio on a BEAUTIFUL spring California day with the sun on my back and doesn't a salad that I don't have to put together myself with chicken, black beans, peppers, and other AMAZING things in it sound absolutely delicious? So what do I do - I EAT THE WHOLE THING! But guess what, I got a ton of protein, stayed within my calorie range, can still afford a light dinner tonight if I so desire and I feel GREAT!
Good decisions really make you feel wonderful.
Had to write this down!!
Monday, March 23, 2009
I'm back. I wish I hadn't left. Yeah, I was a crazy lady for the SP, but I think that's okay. My kids miss spinning the wheel for me! I miss all my buddies. Hopefully everyone will remember me and continue to cheer me on like they did 5 months ago. I gained it all back and am feeling larger than ever. It's affecting my moods and my attitude once again. That deprived feeling comes over me more often than not and I give in to temptation with that "so what" response. I should be allowed to have that doughnut or that chili dog, right? No more.... unless I am rewarding myself. One of my friends has a great page that not only lists her goals, but her rewards for achieving each goal. There was a time when I got in great shape where I let myself have one junky bkfst, one junky lunch and one junky dinner per week, it just couldn't get out of hand... like instead of having 2 hamburgers, medium fry and a soda, have a happy meal with 1 hamburger super small fry and no soda. Just getting to have the hamburger and small fry was the treat/reward. I need to get back to that, not eating junk daily and double or triple servings. On top of that, I worked out 6 days a week and wouldn't allow myself libation until after workout on a Friday or Saturday since I was limiting spirits to those nights. I would like to cut beer out altogether for a little while so we'll see about that.
My first goal is to just get moving every day. Between kids' softball, baseball and karate, as well as homework and my karate training, I will fit in my running.... All it takes is getting up at 5:30 AM instead of 6:30 AM until it warms up a little then at least 3 days a week the kids and I can walk the 1.75 miles to school and I can run back. I was feeling good when we were doing that... it's just too cold in the AM right now, but that won't last long.
It feels better to have a plan. It's good to be back.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I want to take a minute to leave a message for all my SparkFriends and those who will be looking for me. I will be taking some time off from computerland to concentrate on me and my family. I have been jumping from one addiction to another and it's time for me to land my butt back into reality. I appreciate all the help and support offered here and if this doesn't work out, I will probably be back posting like a madwoman. I know what it takes and what I have to do to better myself. I used FitDay before this site ever came into existence so I am well aware of the types of foods I should eat and the amount of calories I consume and what I should and shouldn't be doing. One thing is for sure, I shouldn't be spending the amount of time here that I have been. I don't have that much time to give.
Thanks so much for your support this past month and hopefully I'll jump check back in to find everyone is succeeding, including myself!
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