Tuesday, August 27, 2013
I'm not sure if this will get censored or not. It's not meant to be rude, or offensive, but I just need somewhere to get this off my chest, and Facebook is probably not the place, seeing as my partner, daughter and friends are on there too.
It's about peeing. Specifically, about the fact that men find it demeaning to sit to pee like women do. So what does that say about how they see us? It's demeaning Because it's the way that women do it. That's all. Even gay men pee standing up, so there's even some solidarity there between homophobes and gay men. But pee like a girl? Unthinkable, unless there's a medical reason I suppose, and even then, they'd probably feel shamed and humiliated the whole time they had to do it that way.
I realise that I'm getting all het up about something so trivial most people have never even thought about it. It comes about because of my job, because of having to clean up after men who piss on the floor because they can't always aim at a urinal, or even something as large as a toilet bowl, properly. They say that it is just how it is, and it's pretty much inevitable. As is, apparently, the inability to clear it up afterwards, as if it's inevitability means it's okay to just leave it for someone else to deal with. And I was talking about this with my partner this evening and when I said 'because it's demeaning to sit like we do' , he said 'damn right'. And so now, I just want to scream, I want to roar at him What Does That Make Us? Meaning women. So many men talk about equal rights for women, how Right On they are, with us Sisters, and yet this is what they think. (I won't go into the prostate exam issue here, but that's another one that gets me furious). I don't know what to do right now, I want to go out, start running to burn off the fury. Sorry if this has offended anyone, I don't really expect anyone to read it anyway. Just needed somewhere to vent.
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Weeell, I have been backsliding terribly, ever since Christmas really, and it's showing. I'm now 6 lbs heavier than I was before Christmas, and it's not even all about the Christmas chocs although my other half finally opened his tin of Roses, and that's been bad). I've been tempted by the Kitkat chunky limited editions, and chocolate brazils in the £1 shop. And, not exercising as much, apart from work, and fitting in a half hourish workout during the half term holiday. I might be full of good intentions in the morning, when I'm at work, but once I get home I just feel so pooped, I really don't feel like getting all hot and bothered, even though I know intellectually that I'll feel better if I do work out. It's like when I'm eating chocolate, I can hear the wiser part of my brain going, 'no, don't eat that, you know you'll regret it, you know it's 240 calories that you probably won't work off.' and yet my fingers keep on opening the packet and once that gorgeous sweetness hits my tongue, that's it. I know that resisting the first bite is a lot easier than resisting the second, not just because of the logical, 'if you don't have the first, you can't have the second' but because once the taste is there, the craving is waaay stronger than before I took the first bite. I know it geths harder to resist when I'm feeling a bit tired, or worse, depressed. Then, I just don't give a F*** anyway. And a bit of it is the cold grey weather. I have the feeling it will be easier once its' warmer and brighter, after all, I did start on SP at the end of April and my motivation seemed to be fairly strong then. Come on spring, hurry up!
Wednesday, January 09, 2013
Although most of the Christmas chocolate has gone now, there's still some around, and if it's there, I find it extremely hard to resist, even more so now after having eaten it again through Christmas. I knew that this would happen, it really is a bit like alcoholism, but how do you say to people don't give me chocolate unless you hate me? ( see, I need to learn proper assertiveness skills, I know that this is not a good way to phrase it!) Hopefully though, if Stu remains on his Fitbit kick, he won't give me chocolate at Easter, which is the next hurdle, although his mum undoubtedly will. She has indeed, already said, 'you don't need to lose any more weight though, do you'. A statement, not a question. Like she knows best. Do I sound bitter? I suppose I do, because I know that people give chocolate as a gift, it's supposed to be a good thing, and I do love it, but I don't want to, and they are not helping. Should I just throw it away? I took the tin of Roses his mum gave me, in to work and most of it was eaten by the IT guys, but I still had a few. Should I just do this with all chocolate I'm given and tell friends and family at Christmas and Easter, 'if you give me chocolate, I'm going to take it into work for other people to eat, so if that's what you want, go spend your money?'
I need to go and play some Skyrim
Wednesday, January 09, 2013
My partner Stu bought himself a Fitbit One just after Christmas. It was on his wish list, but I didn't fancy spending £80 for something he'd probably use for a week and then lose interest in. so hes started using it, and he's started asking me how many calories were in our dinner! I find it amusing that he's started into this world I started into 6 months ago. It's a good thing, and perhaps with us both doing it, some of it might rub off on our daughter. Of course, there is the envy in me, that he is waay better at not eating sweet things than I am.
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Weeell, I weighed myself this morning, for the first time since the 25th, and, surprisingly, hadn't put on anything since then, despite having eaten lots of things I shouldn't. I don't know how long it takes for food to be metabolised into pounds, maybe it will show up in a day or so. But today, I must start being strong again, resisting the choccies and biccies that are all around me if I possibly can, and also try to fit in a bit of exercise. I can't bring myself to do any keep fit videos whilst my partner and/or daughter are around, but I should be able to squeeze in a few balances, wall press ups, squats etc here and there. It's interesting that I do miss it, that I feel sluggish and stiff having missed a few days of it. The weather here has been atrocious all through Christmas, as any Brits know. Walks by the river were right out, as the river is now in the surrounding fields! I may brave the sales today, plus I have a cheque to put into the bank, and I want to get some new jeans etc as my old ones are too big, yaay! Except of course, size 14 is probably them most popular size so there won't be many to choose from, reduced. I got one pair from my mum for Christmas and they fit so nicely, I don't want to take them off.
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