Wednesday, February 26, 2014
There has not been very much movement on the scale and that is making me crazy! I feel defeated, I feel like a failure, I feel hopeless, but I am not any of those things. I am strong! I am winning! I am still fighting for my health and my life! It's something to be proud of and it's a path that I need to stay on. But, every time I step on the scale and don't see the number I am expecting, I can feel myself take a small step off the path. So, I have vowed myself to not step on the scale. Instead of measuring my success by a number, I will use how I feel. I put too much faith in the scale to validate my accomplishment and my failures. When I see the number go up, it doesn't push me to work harder, it calls on that little voice in my head that says "YOU WILL NEVER DO THIS!" front and center. And I won't have that sh-- anymore!