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Not beating myself up for gaining weight during my pregnancy

Friday, October 07, 2011

My entire life, even at my thinnest, I've managed to degrade and hate my body for how it looks. I've always been completely sensitive about things that people say about me, even with the best of intentions, to the point where I get defensive, start fights, sometimes cry or even trying to eat for comfort.

Now that I'm 31 weeks pregnant, I've come to view my body (on most days) as a temple like God meant for it to be. I am creating a life within this body. I feel beautiful, unique, powerful. Even through the weight gain (31.6 lbs so far), the constant achiness, the days where I just want to lay on the couch and eat, I'm trying not to beat myself up for how I look. I look this way for a purpose. My body is not punishing me; it has a specific reason that it is acting this way.

I just have to keep reminding myself that things will drastically change once the baby comes. I've already been trying to map out a plan for my new weight loss and fitness journey after baby Harper arrives, such as how I'll exercise, when, where, etc. My husband and I, who has also been overweight since we've known each other, have made a pact that we will get healthy for the baby. Our plan is to get within the healthy weight range, exercise daily, and eat healthier. I'm already planning on making the baby's food for the most part, that way I can make sure he isn't getting too much sugar or salt. We want to be able to enjoy life and enjoy our family photos from here on out and stop obsessing over being overweight. I'll let you know how our journey goes...

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DARKTHOR 10/8/2011 5:19AM

    Sounds like wonderful plans! All of you deserve good health and all of the good that can come from it.

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WELLNESSME09 10/7/2011 12:02PM

    emoticon on the baby. Its wonderful that both of you are thinking about your health and fitness after the baby arrives. emoticon emoticon

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MITECU 10/7/2011 11:45AM

    You have a few more weeks. Then you can really work on your fitness again. Congrats on the baby. Hang in there. You will soon forget about your discomfort when you finally meet your son or daughter.

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Snow day...trying to find little ways to get my heart pumping

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

It started snowing again last night and this morning we have almost 5 inches of snow. The roads look slick and the hubby has my Jeep so I can't get to the gym. All sidewalks are covered in snow. Days like this I'm kind of scratching my head as to how I can get some exercise in. I've already shoveled the sidewalks and ran around in the yard with the dog. Think I'll do a cleaning marathon and then maybe play Wii Fit, Kinect Dance Central or do a yoga dvd. I don't have much else here except for a jump rope, 5-lb dumbbells and a deflated exercise ball. Anyone else have any suggestions?

  
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SEDONACAT 1/26/2011 2:01PM

    Hey, try some of Coach Nicole's exercise videos on Spark. I've done a few of them just to counteract any boredom with my Wii.

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SLAMSLAM2 1/26/2011 11:50AM

  I think a start with a cleaning marathon would be your first best bet. If you are moving around the house then you are exercising and being productive. I'm sure your husband would appreciate coming home to a clean house. After that just search the videos on spark pages for exercises based on your goals. I don't know if you are going for cardio or for strength, but check them out. If nothing suits you, just think of what your gym teacher had you do to start off PE class. Jumping jacks, sit-ups, push-ups, stretches...Those are classics that get your heart going and develop strength. Good luck!

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I refuse to give up this time!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

My motivation got a bit of a makeover right after Christmas 2010. I have two family members, a size 4 and 6 (yeah, I sometimes think of them in reference to their sizes... :/) getting married. One is this fall and the other hasn't set a date yet. I'm pretty sure that I'll be asked to take up some sort of role in their weddings and I refuse to be fat when that happens!!! I keep picturing myself in a bridesmaid's dress or standing at the guest book in formal wear and it gets me pumped up and ready to be fit. We're also taking a 2-week trip in September for my 3rd anniversary and my friend's wedding in Maine and I refuse to let her see me this way.

So what have I been doing? I've started out small with my food journal. I had an extra day planner that I started writing down every thing I eat. I've been trying to stick with 1200-1500 calories per day. We got Dance Central for Kinect so I've been trying to get into that. I actually did 20 minutes today and I'm learning some new dance moves! I also bought a pair of roller blades as one of my goals this year is to finally learn how to skate. I've been taking it slow so I don't get burnt out in the beginning. I also don't eat after 7 p.m. every night like I had been. I don't go to bed or wake up feeling bloated and gross now.

If all goes well I will have reached my goal of 135 pounds by Father's Day in June. I weighed in at 183 this morning... :/ Pray for me! I'm sick of feeling all of these new aches and pains because I'm overweight.

  
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MISSYGEEN 1/12/2011 7:34AM

    I read somewhere that picturing the end in mind is a great start. Someone recommended this site regarding organizing but you can use the same process for loosing weight. he talks about the pull vs. push motivation. I did not purchase anything I just watched this short video. Here is the link. http://wimp.com/cleandesk/



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~DIDI~ 1/11/2011 12:42AM

    "I refuse to give up this time!"

...Me too...I'm starting over... (and over and over) again myself...!

Keep up the great work....You'll look and feel fantastic for all your upcoming events...!

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JANTWO 1/11/2011 12:34AM

    Believe that you can do it!!!! You can!!!! emoticon

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THISYEARSMODEL 1/11/2011 12:30AM

    You can do it & you're on your way!

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MOONSTORMER 1/11/2011 12:29AM

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sounds like you are taking excellent steps towards reaching your goal! keep it up!

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THISYEARSMODEL 1/11/2011 12:29AM

    You can do it & you're on your way!

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MYASHA 1/11/2011 12:21AM

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Post-Holiday Slump

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

I woke up this morning and nearly cried when I read the numbers on the scale....186 pounds. Whereas some people are focused on spending time with family and opening presents and pondering the reason for the season, I found myself trying to maneuver away from the desserts and cameras, only to find myself 4 pounds heavier anyway.

My family doesn't help at all, either. In my stockings from my mother and mother-in-law, I found tons of chocolate truffles, Snickers bars, candy canes full of SweetTarts...all my favorite candies. We got even received cookies and peanut brittle as gifts. I put the bucket (and I mean that literally) of candy and sweets out of sight, but I still know it's there. My husband suggested we fix up bags of the candy to take to our friends' kids for the annual New Year's Party. I think that'd be a great idea to get those tempting treats out of the house, but I know the parents won't be thrilled at all.

I actually brought in the jump rope that has been hanging in the garage since I bought it last year. I did 5 minutes with it and thought I was going to have an asthma attack. I begged my husband to go for a walk with me, even though it's freezing outside, and we did an 18-minute mile with the dog.

I had actually gotten down to around 174 in October and even bought a pair of size 12 jeans, but now I'm back up and I noticed yesterday that my 14s are getting snug again. I'm feeling really down and lacking motivation. I've been trying for nearly 4 years now to lose this weight and I'm feeling pretty frustrated and doubting that I'll ever get the weight off.

  
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DARKTHOR 1/10/2011 10:11PM

    I had a setback as well and my formerly loose clothes are feeling tighter. But...WE are in control of our destiny. You made the choices that had you down to 174 in October, you can, can, can do it again. Set yourself small goals that you can achieve and feel good about achieving and build from there. Getting rid of the candy and walking are AWESOME starts.

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Cholesterol update...good news!

Monday, May 24, 2010

Two years ago when I had my cholesterol checked to get life insurance, my overall number was 272 and triglycerides were over 600. In January of this year I had it checked again and the overall number was 264 (never found out what the triglycerides were).

Just got the results of my latest check from last week and the overall number is down to 235 and triglycerides were 223. HDL ("good") was either 59 or 159 (can't remember) and LDL ("bad") was 132.

[To be normal, the overall number needs to be under 200, normal triglyceride levels should be under 150, HDL should be over 40 and LDL should be under 130.]
http://www.all-about-lowering-cholestero
l.com/normal-levels-of-cholesterol.html

To get my numbers down I've been eating basically a vegetarian diet. I still eat meat on occasion when we eat out, but I've cut way down on all dairy and meat consumption and started eating a lot more fruits and veggies. I started exercising more regularly and I've lost 3 pounds so far. I take one fish oil a day. The doctor said I should increase that to 4 a day and take Niacin, too.

My numbers still aren't where they need to be but I think this is a huge improvement. I'm quite proud of myself.

  
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MEG002004 5/25/2010 10:21PM

    Most days I have a lot more energy and I sleep better than I used to. Days like today I just feel like vegging out.

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DARKTHOR 5/25/2010 5:02PM

    Great news! You are choosing to eat such wonderful food, it isn't too surprising that you are seeing the results of it. How are you feeling? Does how you feel match the test results?

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ARDUBS 5/24/2010 4:32PM

    That is amazing progress! Congrats on your levels coming down and keep up the great work!

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WHOVIANPRINCESS 5/24/2010 3:24PM

    That is awesome, every step in the right direction matters. :)

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