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Ambivalence

Wednesday, March 06, 2013

I am ambivalent about my Spark People journey and my need for surgery. I have suffered a dreadful two days of turmoil trying to reconcile my head and heart to this change in plans. I believe I have come to a conclusion that is in my best interest. Despite my doctors sense of urgency, my medical background and research has determined that this procedure is purely for my convenience. This surgery only has minor possible health issues (if any) that it may or may not correct.

Hence my stress and grief regarding this surgery has been unfounded. I choose to post-pone the surgery until after April 21 so that I can (and will) complete my first 5k walk! This walk has become so important to me that it created such distress in my life at the thought of cancelling, well, I won't have it. (for those who may understand, the surgery was for stress incontinence) So I may get a little more wet then just from sweat during this 5k! So be it. It won't be any more different that the last 5 years!

SO, thank you all for your concern and advice! I feel my life is more blessed by having you in my life, even if it is virtual!

  
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2HAMSDIET 3/6/2013 8:58PM

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JANEMARIE77 3/6/2013 7:33AM

    oh thank you so much for this update I could tell by your March goal page that you had made a decision emoticon that was right for you way to go

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SAMI199 3/6/2013 6:25AM

    I will be cheering you on all the way! It is not easy to deal with the need for any surgery-talk about stress. You have a plan that allows you to fulfill your goals & that is important,too.

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PLUMERIA50 3/6/2013 12:36AM

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Surgery in the works.

Monday, March 04, 2013

Today I had a follow-up appointment for an ongoing problem. All told, i need to do some behavior changes, lose some weight, and have a simple surgery. But the surgery will keep me down for six weeks. No straining, no lifting and no exercise. I am freaking out. For several reasons. First, I am losing weight in a positive way that I don't think I have ever done before. I don't want to stop my journey.
Second I will have to put a stop on my first 5K. This might be the biggest issue. I had something I was looking forward to and excited about. I have never done a 5K before and I have never been healthy enough to want to do one. I am so disappointed. I just want to cry. I am crying!
I am freaking out about the changes it will make in my new healthy life style. Even if they are only 6 weeks, but look what I have done in my first 6 weeks! I can't stop this negative thought process. I can't think positive. I just want to eat every thing in sight. I am a rolling ball of emotions. AAAAAARRRRGGGGGGG!

  
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USMAWIFE 3/9/2013 11:20PM

    Sorry about this bump in the road to you getting healty. Did your doctor say no walking? Perhaps after a two weeks he will allow you to walk a bit to build your strength and help you recover

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JANEMARIE77 3/6/2013 7:28AM

    I'm so late in reading this but I just wanted to reach out with a hug and a you can do it

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SAMI199 3/6/2013 6:35AM

    I am reading this late, & know you have resolved things in a positive way. You have made a
difficult choice work for you-and that's what it's all about.

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2HAMSDIET 3/5/2013 9:10AM

    emoticon emoticon Keep your focus and you will be fine. Your six weeks will fly by as long as you fill them with positive things that stretch you in other ways. What other things have you dreamed of doing or liked to do as a child? Time to write, draw, paint, play with clay or write. Will you be able to do some basic stretching after surgery? Some thing to ask. Don't lose faith and keep eating to fuel your body for healing. emoticon

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DDOORN 3/5/2013 8:45AM

    I've had a recent deflation of similar sorts due to medical "detours"...I've already signed up for the Bridge Run 5K...this was to be my 3rd year. But you know I think I'm going to do it anyway and not worry about running and just walk it.

How about walking...? Any chance that might be allowed during your recovery? Or some low-keyed yoga / stretching?

The other option that I'm trying to re-group toward is to get WAY FOCUSED on my food choices. THAT doesn't require any physical exercise, but a whole lotta psychological, emotion weight-lifting! :-)

And while exercise shapes and tones us, it is really our food choices that has the greatest impact on losing the weight.

You can DO IT!

Don

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MATSCHI 3/4/2013 11:52PM

    I am sorry to hear that. I can imagine how disappointed you must be. It almost seems "unfair" to have such a bump in the road. Hopefully you will continue to seek support from your Spark friends. We are here for you. emoticon

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LINOVER 3/4/2013 8:41PM

    Hang in there! emoticon It is frustrating when you have decided to take control of your life and start exercising and then, through no fault of your own, you have to change your plans. If the doctor really feels that you need the surgery, have it and then start again after you have finished recuperating.

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Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge Week 2

Sunday, March 03, 2013

So I have been thinking about my level(s) of sweet tooth cravings. And I feel I might be able to deal with them a bit better if I first identify the level of intensity...Like a pain scale 0-10. It would go like this....

0 - No cravings or literally brain dead
1 - Little to no cravings acknowledged
2 - Kind-of, Sort-of there but only a wishy-washy craving
3 - I acknowledge the craving but I can put it out of my mind
4 - Craving is becoming slightly annoying.
5 - I know I have a craving , but I can't really put a finger on what I want
6 - Craving is gaining intensity But I can begin to narrow down to what would fix that craving
7 - Craving is remaining foremost in my mind but I am able to resolve with fruit
8 - Craving growing more rapidly and is forcing me to think only about unhealthy sweets
9 - Craving is so strong that I start on an Home/office wide search for baked goods or chocolate to appease my craving(s)
10 - Craving has taken over my body and my head starts spinning like it is possessed and I reply to comments in an unearthly voice uttering only a single word "CHOCOLATE!"

I think that pretty accurately reflects my cravings. I have also noted that my cravings trend up or down according to my breakfast habits and the monthly womanly time clock. Only one of which I can clearly see a way to curb or diminish. And yes I can diminish most of my cravings by eating a healthy breakfast.

But that leaves me at a loss for the womanly clock. Being at the age I am, I cannot predict when I will reach the hormonal clock. So I cannot prepare for that!

I guess I may have to play it by ear. I will endeavor to search for evidence of the approaching cravings. Only then will I have the opportunity to find out how to best squash that craving once it hits.

Wish me the best!

  
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SAMI199 3/6/2013 6:42AM

    I struggle with the hormonal sweet cravings,too...It is a challenge,but we can do it. I like your craving scale-I found that the fewer "sweets" I eat,the easier it is to resist those cravings. Once I give in to them-all heck breaks out-and I just want more & more.So frustrating. Hang in there...

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JANEMARIE77 3/4/2013 8:24AM

    having a really workable plan is half the battle you got it now the little details need to be worked out you can do it as 2hamsdiet said a "crazy brain" game but with a plan and tough love for yourself you can win the game!

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2HAMSDIET 3/4/2013 7:45AM

    I had a couple of days of craving brownies . It was like a itch that would not stop. But then it was gone as quick as it came. You can do it. What i did was promise my self before I even thought about eat one that I would study the ingredients and nutrition of it. I also did cold and hot beverages. A couple of times I would take a sip of hot and then cold. LOL.. crazy brain game. emoticon

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Been real busy!

Sunday, March 03, 2013

I feel bad that I haven't spent as much time in the community forums as I would like. I don't want anybody to think I was bad! I tried to atleast huddle on most of my team walls everyday. But I don't feel that was as fullfilling. I miss all my friends. Please don't feel slighted. I certainly didn't intend it to be that way! God bless you all. Maybe next week will be better! One can only hope!

  
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2HAMSDIET 3/3/2013 8:29PM

    emoticon Spark friend are your best friends and friends always understand. Take care.

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SAMI199 3/3/2013 8:11PM

    emoticon No problem-take care of yourself...

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CAROLIAN 3/3/2013 2:24PM

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SUSANBEAMON 3/3/2013 2:00AM

  when time is short, and things pile up, do what you can and don't worry about the rest.

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Read this blog

Saturday, March 02, 2013

http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j
ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267578

If you haven't yet read Sharon's blog about "My body Pledge of allegiance, you should. Above is the link. Let's spark other's!

  
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