Thursday, February 14, 2013
It may be the face of someone dear to me. It may be the face of a friend or relative. It may be a waitress or clerk who doesn't know I am on a diet. It may even by my grand babies who want to share thier ice cream with me and wouldn't understand. But, I really don't believe it is one of them. I think my saboteur is ME!
Why, me you ask? Well for different reasons.
One reason may be because I wasn't completely honest with myself or my nutrition planner. I sure many have been like this. I may go to enter my food intake and forgot to mention that hershey kiss, or that wine cooler, or even recording one tablespoon of peanut butter when it was really two! Or entering that I measured every thing, everything that is except that extra pad of butter on our baked potato. Maybe it was an opposite in that I entered I had 5 vegetables when I only ate 2. Or I planned on eating a 1/2 cup of cottage cheese and I only ate a couple bites. In any of these cases I have been my own saboteur. It may be a matter of too many or too few calories and but the effect on my weight loss may be significant.
Another reason could be that I want everyone to think I am stronger or more fit than I am or were on that particular day. I went to the gym and instead of doing the full circuit I just did five or six machines. But I din't want to look lazy so I say I did it all. Or maybe I did do it all but only on 1/2 the weight I had been doing it to makes it super easy for myself for what ever reason. But I enter the usual weights any way. Or maybe I tried the elliptical but my thighs ached so bad I stopped at only 15 minutes. But I wrote 30 minutes anyway because I have obligated myself to track 30 minutes per day.
Yet another reason could be how my scale read today. Say I set a goal weight of 160, Ireally want to get to that weight because my reward would be something I wanted so, so bad. But when I weighed, I weighed 163! Oh, so close! Maybe I would wonder if any one would find out if I put down 160 anyway? Would they?
These might seem like little bitty things to you, but to me it could mean the success of my weight loss plan or more importantly the failure of my weight loss plan. And maybe no one else will find out, but I would know within myself and it would eat a whole in the pit of my stomach. I need to be able to look my self in the eye every morning. To know that even if I make a mistake it will work out in the end so dishonesty isn't necessary. And guess what, I will feel lighter in spirit and can be more assured in my success.
I may find someone who pushes food on me. But if I am true to myself, than it will be easier to say "No thank you anyway!" And if I feel it will truly burden the other person more by my not eating it than if I did eat it, well, I can eat a smaller portion, or even eat it all. It doesn't take much to get back on tract. And I know that I can, and will get back on tract!
So My plan for my saboteur is this. Be good to myself. Be honest to myself. Love myself no matter what. I think that is my by advise to myself. After all..........
"No one can give you better advice than yourself."