Thursday, May 15, 2014
I did my workout this morning, but I still didn't even complete week 1 day 1 of C25K. My shins started hurting so badly that I wasn't sure I could even walk home! I have to figure something out, maybe just walk for a few days and then try again.
I was able to listen to music while I ran today, so that was pretty awesome. It definitely helps! I don't like that the earbud keeps falling out, so I need to figure something out to keep the darn thing in, or buy one that wraps around my ear or something.
My favorite part of my workout was when a bicyclist yelled "good job". It was at a point when I was running and I thought I was going to cry. It meant a lot to me. No, I didn't know this person and she doesn't know my story or my struggle, but she was encouraging to me.
I hate that I cant even make it through the first day, but I am very proud of myself for trying. I gave it a good effort. My heart rate was elevated and I felt like I was going to vomit, so I am sure I had a great workout. I don't care how long it takes me to get through the program, I will do it. It isn't worth an injury to try to rush things.
Thursday, May 15, 2014
I have my workout clothes ready to put on when I wake up.
I shaved my legs.
I have music on my phone now!
I figured out how to play music during the C25K app...
There is absolutely no reason that I can back out of my "run" tomorrow morning.
No excuses allowed!
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
My legs were sore today. Not sore like I injured myself, but sore like I had a great workout! I guess what I thought was a failure yesterday wasn't so bad after all.
I am getting up tomorrow morning and starting on day 1 again. This time I will make it all the way through. I learned how to get the prompts (I think) and I learned how to use the phone holder on my arm. I am not sure that I will like it, but I told my co-worker that I was going to give it another shot. She made me realize it wasn't as horrible as I thought it was. It is also nice because I can put my identifying information in the pocket with the phone, just in case anything happens while I am out there :)
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
Okay, I am glad that I got outside and gave it a go...
I need to figure out how to make my phone actually give me the alerts. I was holding my phone and I got the alert to start the first run so I did. Then I was running and running, I thought it just seemed longer than a minute because I am not a great runner... nope, my phone just didn't say to walk. Apparently it gave me a written notice to start walking, but I obviously wasn't staring at my phone.
I didn't complete the circuit today, my shins started hurting and I was frustrated. On top of the c25k app being silly, my gps wasn't turned on so MapMyRun didn't even capture what I did do!
Okay, there are some good things here:
I actually went outside and did some exercise
I can learn from the mistakes
I get a day of rest now :)
I am going to start over on day 1 on Thursday. Hopefully it goes better next time.
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
I keep giving up and then starting again. So... here I am, weighing even more than when I started last time. I know that if I don't give up, I will be able to lose weight and be healthy.
Now I am getting ready to run... I bought a new sports bra and it does a wonderful job! Now when I bounce around my boobs stay put, but my stomach is all over the place. I know that it will get better, but I just hope that nobody stares at me or thinks bad things while I run.
I am embarrassed to run while I am this big, but how else am I going to lose any weight? Not by hiding out in the house! Also, it is also embarrassing to be too big for my uniform at work, so something has to change. I would rather look silly trying to better myself!
I also need to work on my self image. I want to put more effort into how I style my hair and I would like to start wearing makeup. I just don't know anything about makeup at all because I only wear it a few times a year on special occasions. I think if I just start with finding something I love about myself, once a week... I might improve the way I feel about myself. I think that if I feel good about myself, then I am more likely to want to take care of the body that I have and I will be less embarrassed to work out in front of people.
This is a tough journey. I love food and I swear I am addicted to food. I have dreams about food! I have a new mouth guard because I am destroying my teeth while I sleep and I will notice that I am just completely chewing on it while I dream about eating food. I have a serious problem and I am not sure how to fix it, but I am going to start the C25K program. I am not going all out and I am not working on the food part yet. Instead, I am just trying to get started and make it through the first few weeks of the program. I usually try to jump into everything completely, but then I get frustrated and overwhelmed... and then I give up completely. I think the key for me is to just not give up. If I went super slow for the last two years, then at least I would still be headed in the right direction! Instead I just give up and go tumbling backwards and end up in a worse position than when I started.
Tomorrow I am going to get up and do week 1 day 1 of the C25K program. Once I get the first day out of the way, then I can do the second day :)
Hey, everyone has to start somewhere!!!
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