Thursday, October 21, 2010
My "trouble" goal is to stop eating when I'm actually full....especially meals that I love.
I don't eat all that unhealthy and I usually have a pretty typical average calorie cosumption per meal but it seems like when there are meals with my favorite foods I can't just load my plate with one small serving of each food but heaping piles and then I eat until I'm miserable. I feel like there's not going to be enough of this food I love and I just try to get as much as I can while I can. Afterwards i feel embarrassed because I scarfed so much so fast, guilty because I ate soooo many calories in one sitting and angry because I wasn't thinking...just eating like a maniac!
I also think i eat more at my boyfriends. We eat with his mom, sister and neice a lot. Besides the 3 year old I'm the smallest. But they aren't concerned about their weight so I feel like it's something wrong that i'm trying to lose weight. They don't think i'm fat so they don't think i need to lose weight (don't get me wrong they've never actually outright discouraged me from losing weight but its not a topic i feel comfortable sharing with them, how do i make it seem like i'm not trying to be "better" than them) ...i'm not "fat" but i'm overweight and unhealthy. I get comfortable there because I am the smallest and it's easy to forget that I really am trying to make this change and while i'm comfortable there, i'm still self consious around the rest of the world!
I need strategies for stopping before I go overboard!